Don't miss the time when I love you

Bin Hong sat resting on the bench in the hospital, staring at An Yan's thin figure with sharp eyes, helping his bony mother to walk in the corridor.

Ding ding ding.The phone screen lit up, and he picked up the phone with a crooked smile on his lips, "I said Yang Xu, you finally think of me, kid? Where have you been dead for the past two years!"

After graduating from university, Bin Hong stayed in City J to dawdle every day, while Yang Xu was admitted to City G as his civil servant. At the beginning, they kept in touch with each other for a long time and gradually lost contact, but they always kept each other's phone number.

"You pick on me, boy, I think you have a rich father, I have to make money to live!" Yang Xu's tone was very helpless.

"Don't civil servants just drink tea every day? Hard work!"

"I resigned, and now I am a hard-working porter, contributing to the construction of the motherland."

Bin Hong asked in surprise, "What? Porter? You are crazy and let your good work go, doesn't your mother know?"

"Can I let him know? My mother will kill me."

"Is it because of you, childhood sweetheart, why haven't you given up yet?" He remembered that when he was in college, he saw a high school graduation photo on Yang Xu's upper bunk bed, and Yang Xu pointed to a childish photo in the corner. The face said: We will definitely be together!

"Well, he's sick! I remember telling you about uremia. I don't want to see him worry about medical expenses every day. I heard that kidney replacement surgery can cure uremia, but it costs a lot of money, so I quit my job. Already!"

Bin Hong was surprised, his eyes fell on An Yan and said, "It's also uremia, does he know that you are so devoted to him?"

"I don't need him to know. With his character, if he knew that I resigned for him, I can't imagine how he would blame himself!"

"How much money do I need, I will give it to you, and you will go back to be a civil servant honestly!"

"I was so determined to go back then, it was impossible to go back, I took your heart."

The self-esteem of the poor is always stronger than that of the rich!

"You ran wild in the rain because of a man, and now you resign because of a man, you are so stupid and forced."But why not myself, I hate the smell of the hospital the most, but in order to get a better look at him, I'm cheap, so cheap I ran over here!

"I met him!" Yang Xu said after a long while, "He has long hair!"

"Who? Tell me, the person in the car I was chasing!" Bin Hong recalled, but he couldn't remember the name.

"His name is Xiang Chen, I met him, but,, but... I'm such a fucking bastard." Yang Xu blamed himself.

"what happened?"

"You know my drinking capacity. After drinking a few bottles of beer, I don't know who I am. I, yesterday, met Xiang Chen, and then raped him. I blamed myself for the past, but now, , you didn't see how indifferent he was, it made me feel so uncomfortable."

"What?" Bin Hong stood up from his chair and exclaimed, "I said you, hey, didn't he sue you?"

"No, we were the best when we were in school. You have a lot of ideas, give me some advice now! How can I make Xiang Chen forgive me."

"Oh, it's really difficult. Are you sure you don't mean anything to him? If you don't live your own life and have nothing to do with each other, why bother other people's lives? If so, then you will be in trouble!"

"He has a boyfriend, it's impossible for us, you also know that since he left, I have nightmares every day, he is crying in my dreams, I wonder if it is God's will, God let me meet him just to give me A chance for redemption!"

"If you rape him the first time you meet him, the interest rate for him to forgive you is very small."

"I'm such a jerk, I just drank a few cans of beer and thought I was dreaming, he was so beautiful, I couldn't help but want to get close to him."

Bin Hong sighed worriedly, she was too beautiful, could it be the reason why he wanted to get close to An Yan, "Yang Xu, I know you have always been a serious person, when you were in school, you rejected all the girls who wanted to date you, because Your childhood sweetheart, now you are shaken in your heart. As a brother, I don’t want to teach you anything, because no one can say anything about feelings. Love is a momentary thing. I just want to say that we are all adults and should be clear. What you want, and then make a decision! Since you want to get some relief in your heart, then do it."

. . .

Yang Xu hung up the phone, took out a can of beer from the refrigerator, and was about to open it but his hand was stiff.

"It's all because of the damn alcohol." Yang Xu held the beer can in his hand.

"Bang" the can was crushed by him, and the frothy beer flowed down his wrist.

In the villa, Xiang Chen took off his clothes and stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom looking at his bruised body. At this moment, his mood was no longer the same as the panic he used to have and the palpitation of Yang Xu in his heart and he pursed his lips and smiled.

Xiang Chen touched the purple hickey on his chest, smiled mockingly, turned around and sat in the round bathtub enjoying himself and closed his eyes, the warm water was like a warm hug, just like his.

"Stupid Once".

In the morning sky, the grayness enveloped the quiet sea, without wind or waves.

It was rare for Xiang Chen to wake up early, rubbing her fluffy hair, got up, took off her pajamas, naked, opened the closet, looked at the clothes that were almost all white, picked one at random, and closed the closet door.

The man suddenly appeared behind the door startled Xiang Chen, the man cast his eyes on his handsome figure, Xiang Chen took a deep breath, and then he covered his body with the clothes in his hands calmly, "Why are you here? "

Yang Xu was holding a tray with toast and milk on it, his mind was full of Xiangchen's figure just now, and he stammered, "I,, I heard the nanny said that you only eat toast and milk for breakfast, so,, ".

Yang Xu answered irrelevant questions, Xiang Chen frowned and turned around to put on his clothes. His white back, slender waist, and upturned buttocks were clearly exposed, and he swallowed a mouthful of foam.

"Answer my question, please?" Xiang Chen put on his clothes and turned around to look at him. The thin clothes were somewhat transparent, and the two grains on his chest were faintly visible. Yang Xu's lower abdomen was tense, and the tray in his hand shook slightly.

"I, come here, just want, want to make up for the hurt I did to you in the past, about the child and the hurtful things I said."

When Xiang Chen heard him mention the child, he clenched his fingers unconsciously, "If I say no need, will you leave here?"

"No" the tone is affirmative, and the eyes are firm.

Xiang Chen sighed, picked up the phone and looked at Yang Xu, "If you don't leave, I will call the police!"

"Okay, call the police. Even if you take me away, I'll still come until you forgive me!" The tone was so pertinent that Xiang Chen was in a daze, turning his head away from him.

"You," Xiang Chen bit his lips helplessly, his eyes full of disgust, "Okay, Yang Xu, listen to me, I forgive you, let's go now, is it okay?"

The words spoken with anger sounded extremely helpless.

Since fate has made us meet, there must be a reason. I don’t think it is for the continuation of love, so let us say goodbye to the past. Since we have our own lovers and our own lives, let us choose the latter and bid farewell to the past. Before we have to sort everything out, resentment, sadness, or more emotions.

He didn't want his face to appear in his dreams, he didn't want to be sad for no reason when the night fell, and he didn't want to recall him and his bits and pieces in the snowy season.

"I have no intention of stalking, don't worry, just let me do something that makes me feel at ease, okay?"

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