about i love you

On Wednesday morning, I rode my bicycle home. There were also aunts and uncles resting at the entrance of the village. When they saw me, they said as usual, "It's Sunday, isn't it?"

I didn't stop, and replied "Yeah" from a distance.

There was a voice coming from the wind, and I heard someone say, "Isn't this morning? Hey, no, my handsome guy is still sending him to class today."

I was a little embarrassed, and then I realized that I was also a very thin-skinned person.

When they came to my house, the door was closed. I guessed that they hadn't woken up yet. My sister usually likes to make troubles at night, which caused them to sleep very late every time, and it was only natural that they couldn't get up the next day.

I got out of the car and strapped my bike to the door.

With the schoolbag on his back, he pushed the door and it opened.

So I opened the door and pushed the bike in.

My mother's voice came from the bedroom, she yelled "Come back, see how it's going? Do you want to water now?"

After thinking about it for a while, I realized that she probably thought of me as my father.

That's right, it seems that it hasn't rained for a month. I didn't think about this problem before. Now it seems that the crops in the field are going to be dry. I coughed dryly and my throat was a little tight.

"Mom, it's me."

She didn't talk anymore, I went to my room, dropped my schoolbag, and didn't want to move.

My mother is probably still sleeping with my sister. I was in a bad mood last night and went to bed late, so I can take advantage of this time to catch up on sleep.

Not long after I lay down, I heard the sound of the door being opened, sat up in a daze, and saw my mother coming in.

She took a cup of tea in her hand, put it on the desk in front of me, and asked, "Why are you back all of a sudden?"

I was stunned, not knowing how to answer.

She said again, "Did you eat?"

I shook my head.

Just after the morning self-study, he was taken away by Liu Guangtou, and then he packed his things and went home without having breakfast in time.

"sick?"

I said, "I hit someone."

My mother didn't seem to hear clearly, and she probably couldn't believe it. She said, "Huh? What?"

I didn't speak anymore, I put on my shoes with my lips pursed, stroked my half-length hair, got up and wanted to go to the toilet, my mother also stood up, her voice lost the concern and warmth before, and she said, "Your dad came back to see what you do ? You don’t study hard, you’re about to pass the senior high school entrance examination, and you still do useless things. Don’t think he’s afraid to beat you.”

I nodded, turned around and left without answering her words.

Seeing her pick up the water glass from the corner of her eye, she sighed and put it down again.

Later, I fell asleep in bed again, and after I fell asleep, it was noon. When I got up, I realized that I was very hungry, and I habitually yelled, "Mom, I'm hungry."

No one spoke, I was startled, I sat up suddenly, my hair was messy, I didn't have time to take care of it, at this time, my dad should be back.

I was suddenly a little scared. I remembered that there was a book that said that a man who usually doesn't like to lose his temper is even scarier when he loses his temper. My dad can't be like that.

"Mom, Dad, is the meal ready?"

My mother was in the kitchen, and the smell of oily smoke was a bit choking. I heard her coughing non-stop. My sister was hugged by my father and was sitting on the sofa in the living room.

"A fight?"

It was the first time my dad treated me so coldly, I felt a little guilty, I nodded and didn't dare to sit down, and then said, "I'll help my mom light the fire."

At this time, my mother came in with the dishes.

The meal is ready.

I didn't think this was the way to go, so I said with a slap in the neck, "I just don't like him, whoever let him provoke me, I look down on people all day long, I hate this kind of person the most."

My sister was babbling in my dad's arms, and I didn't understand children's language, so I saw my dad ignore me, he lowered his head to play with my sister, and kissed her soft little face , without saying a word.

This kind of atmosphere is often the most uncomfortable. For example, I am very uncomfortable now. I suddenly hope that it is good for him to beat me up.

Damn, I still feel uncomfortable now, I am different from others, this has never happened in our small village, I have never seen it.

I dare not tell others that after reading books for so many years, if I no longer know that this is abnormal, then I might as well die.

Because they were all silent and I was hungry, so I simply sat down to eat. My mother cooked my favorite rice and fried my favorite potato.

I'm kind of touched that every time I get home they make and eat what I like.

This time is no exception.

My mother asked "How is it? Are the crops okay?"

My dad raised his hand to pick up a dish with chopsticks. It was a little far away. He spent a lot of effort, so I hurriedly moved the dish to his side.

He sighed, and I saw that there were already faint white marks on the top of his head. Although there were not many, but the stubbles stood upright and could be seen at a glance.

I watch my eyes, nose, nose and heart, and don't speak.

"I plan to go out to work with Wenbo, and now I can't earn much money from farming. When Yan Yan grows up, there will be a lot of places to spend money."

After he spoke, I also realized that I will be in high school soon.My younger sister will also have to go to school at that time, and the tuition fee alone will be a big expense. Although there have been rumors that the country will allow free schooling, it is just a rumor and it is not true, so the two of us joined the school. Come to think of it, this money is only a lot more.

Unexpectedly, my dad took another look at me and said, "If Susu doesn't pass the No. [-] Middle School, he will also go to work. Just listen to me."

I smirked and said, "Yeah."

As expected of my father, he even called me by my nickname, which has no deterrent effect at all.

"Pa", a slap slapped my face, and I was stunned.

My sister started to cry, my mother picked her up and coaxed her in her arms, she has a problem, she likes to move, the person holding her kept walking on the ground, she stopped crying, now my mother is dangling Sure enough, she stopped crying.

My dad's hand stretched out again, and I dodged it.

I was still thinking, didn't you want to go out to work with your second uncle? Why did you beat me before you left.

"You don't fucking study well. I earn money through hard work, so you go to school to fight and smoke. You have developed skills. You can do everything. If you don't want to get involved, come back as soon as possible!"

He became very irritable.

My mother watched from the sidelines and did not persuade.

Fuck, who told them I smoked? !

A few years ago, we just lost the thing of paying public grain here, and the number of people farming gradually decreased. Many people went out to work. My dad rented other people's land to plant. When I was young, I would go to the fields to help , I have never been there since I grew up, and I don’t even know what to plant now.

My face was burning with pain, I was a little angry, but I didn't know who I was angry with, so I just stood there and didn't speak.

"I'm leaving next week. Your teacher called today and asked you to go to school tomorrow. Think about it for me at home, smoking? I don't even fucking smoke. Where did you learn it from?"

My dad sat down, and the old sofa sank into a hole.

I dare not move.

My mother said, "Okay, let's eat."

I still didn't dare to move.

It was only later that my dad said, "Sit down and eat, go to school tomorrow, and let your teacher drive you back, and you will never go."

I picked up a chopstick of potato and stuffed it into my mouth, my face was burning with pain, I felt very aggrieved, but this aggrieved seemed not so important.

It must be that Mrs. Sun was reluctant to part with me as a good student, so she pleaded with the school.

Studying well is a dead condition, and sometimes it can bring a lot of benefits. I understand the meaning of Li Mengyuan's smile, and I feel a little tired.

After eating, I went to bed again, as if I couldn't get enough sleep.

When I was eating at night, I didn't see my dad, and I didn't know where he went.I just asked, my mother was hugging and coaxing my sister, and when I finished eating, let me hug her first.

Said to me, "I went to your Uncle Xu's house, come back later, it seems that we are going to go out to work together, we need to discuss it."

Speaking of Uncle Xu, I think of another person.

It's my hair Xiaoqianqian. He seems to be learning painting somewhere now. He is very promising and better than me. I haven't seen him for a long time, and I don't know if he is at home now.I used to go to his house to see him during the week, but now we don’t have any other quick way to contact him, so I have to go to his house to see if there is anyone.

My sister was staring at me in my arms, her eyes were so small, not as big as mine, I squeezed her face, she giggled, very interesting.

I looked up and asked my mother, "Mom, is Xu Xiangqian at home?"

I didn't have any hope when I asked, because today is Wednesday, and I didn't see him when I came back from the previous week. Maybe we have no fate. Which school doesn't have weekends?It shouldn't be possible right now.

My mother got up again and took a spoonful of soup, and said to me, "I'm back. I saw him yesterday and asked when he was going to school. He said next week, and he is at home now."

She could also see that I was happy to hear this, and she continued, "When I finish washing the dishes, I'll hold Yanyan in my arms, so you can go."

I nodded, the pain on my face was not so strong, and I pinched my sister's face again, and she burst into tears.

I was at a loss, stood up and swayed, she was still crying, my mother was eating, she must not be free, so I thought of a way, I was jumping, jumping and jumping, she stopped crying, hey, it’s weird up.

After my mother washed the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen, she picked up my sister. I smiled at her and got up to go outside.

When he reached the door, he was stopped by her.

"It's cold outside, go back and add some clothes."

"Ah."

I nodded, then turned back to my room and took a coat. My mother didn’t say that I hadn’t paid attention to it. It’s autumn, and the weather is really cold. It’s just that it’s hot when I’m eating. Forgot the weather, I was so confused.

The moonlight was just right outside, and some children had nothing to do after school, so they gathered together to play games.Seeing that I looked a little scared, they didn't talk to me.

I laughed a little, and suddenly remembered that when I was young, I seemed to be a bit of a big kid.

Some domestic dogs ran to my feet to sniff. I resisted the slight discomfort and did not hide. In summer, there are more people outside, because there is wind outside at that time, and it is cooler than indoors. Now it is less, but still. someone.

I regretted coming out a little bit. There are other people here besides me who teach in our school. If you meet their parents, you must ask me.

The author has something to say: ask for support