your taste [OAO]

"No," Fang Juan's answer to Lin Nan was a series of denials, "No, you are an Omega, and you are also excellent."

"I really want to be a waste," Lin Nan said sadly.

He also knew that the difference between Fang Juan's treatment of him and Fang Zhiyuan was not due to gender differences, or perhaps it was because he valued Lin Nan that he had higher demands on Lin Nan.

But there are many things that Lin Nan can't understand or explain.

There must be something that Lin Nan didn't figure out, not only because Fang Zhiyuan's parents didn't care about him, not only because Fang Zhiyuan was young or he had just arrived at their house not long ago.

There must be some reasons, such as the subtle influence of the social atmosphere on Fang Juan, which made her treat Fang Zhiyuan so loosely.

Not all because of gender, but there is always a gender factor in it.

No solution.

And Lin Nan really thought about being a waste like Fang Zhiyuan, reaping simple and low-level happiness every day.

Fang Juan was silent for a while after hearing Lin Nan's words, and her tone dropped when she spoke: "How can you say that... Are you doing me justice for saying that?"

Lin Nan has always been well-behaved and sensible, does not cause trouble, and has no excessive demands.

If there is a clear boundary in a person's life, then in Fang Juan's impression, Lin Nan never makes boundaries.

Fang Juan worked six days a week, worked several jobs, worked hard, made money, provided Lin Nan with better living and food conditions, and paid for him to go to college, but Lin Nan said that he wanted to be a waste.

As for Lin Nan: I'm sorry for Fang Juan's upbringing if I want to be a waste.Work hard, encourage yourself to be self-disciplined, and be sorry for yourself.

It's hard.

Lin Nan raised his hand and wiped away his tears nonchalantly, his hand was wet.

He said softly, "Then what can I say?"

The sky had already dimmed, the dark blue sky enveloped the earth, and a crescent moon hung on the treetops.

The room was quiet, and it was also a hazy darkness.

Lin Nan wiped the excessive tears with a tissue, and Fang Juan stood aside a little at a loss.

For a long time, Fang Juan didn't speak anymore, neither did Lin Nan, and the tears still fell for a while before they stopped.

While they were in a stalemate, Fang Zhiyuan came back.

Lin Nan didn't hide. After crying for a short while, the redness on his face quickly receded, and he returned to his usual appearance. There was only a little water in his eyes, hiding in the dark night.

He watched coldly: Fang Zhiyuan glanced at them when he passed the living room, then turned his gaze back, and walked into the room with his head down.

Fang Juan stood beside Lin Nan for a while, hesitating for a moment—Lin Nan didn't see Fang Juan's hesitation, but she did struggle in her mind. She walked outside Fang Zhiyuan's room and knocked on the door.

"Have you eaten yet?" Fang Juan knocked a few times and opened the door of the room.

Fang Zhiyuan came back quite late tonight, it was almost seven o'clock, and Lin Nan and Fang Juan also hadn't eaten yet.

"No." Fang Zhiyuan was in the room, turned on the light, and was lowering his head to start the game.

"You cook something to eat at night." Fang Juan said to him, "There are meat and vegetables in the refrigerator, and the mushroom chicken at noon can be eaten after heating."

Lin Nan has made it clear that he will not cook for Fang Zhiyuan, and Fang Juan is unlikely to touch Lin Nan's head at this time.

"Hmm." Fang Zhiyuan usually would not express dissatisfaction, so he responded.

"Stop playing games, cook and eat, this year is going to take the senior high school entrance examination, study hard." Fang Juan said again before closing the door.

"En." Fang Zhiyuan still only responded in a low voice, which was exactly the same as his previous behavior.

The living room was not turned on, and a ray of light leaked from Fang Zhiyuan's room, which was blocked by the inner wall.

Fang Juan came out, and she said to Lin Nan: "I have an appointment with a friend, and I will go out for a trip. There are vegetables in the refrigerator, and I can eat whatever I want."

Her tone was neither calm nor comforting, and it sounded to Lin Nan as if nothing had happened.

In fact, Fang Juan's tone was softer than usual, and Lin Nan didn't notice it either.

Lin Nan tilted his head to look at the thin moon in the night sky, but didn't respond.

Fang Juan didn't give any further explanations.

Soon, click, bang, click, bang, the wooden door and the anti-theft door opened and closed again, and the room returned to silence.

Lin Nan loosened his body and lay down on the sofa.

Wronged.

More aggrieved.

Lin Nan didn't really want to be a waste, nor did he really have no happiness.

Some people's life is smooth sailing, and smooth sailing people will also be sad, Lin Nan knows.

Lin Nan's life has experienced ups and downs and ups and downs, but those experiences did not make him sad at all, he knows how to be content.

He's just dissatisfied that Fang Zhiyuan can reap happiness without doing anything, and that he can get what Lin Nan has been working hard to get what he wants with a posture that doesn't require any effort at all.

Lin Nan looked at the moon outside the window for a long time, tears fell down again, itching, feeling a little bored.

After a while, Lin Nan changed into a set of clothes and went to the bathroom.

He looked at himself in the mirror, his eyes and nose were not red, and he couldn't tell that he had cried.

But maybe his eyes had been soaked with water, his eyes were soft and fragile like a piece of sad pure music.

Why did Fang Juan go out after the quarrel?

Don't you feel sorry for your son?

Lin Nan smiled at himself in the mirror, but tears fell down again.

Kind of annoying.

Only then did Lin Nan realize that he loves to cry so much.

However, if you are sad, cry, because you are afraid of crying.

After washing his face, Lin Nan also went out and put his mobile phone and a pack of tissues in his pocket.

Lin Nan went downstairs and walked in the community.

The area of ​​his community is not very large, and he can walk around in 5 minutes.

The dim light and shadow shone on the shadows of the trees, red, white, broken flowers, small flowers, hanging on the treetops and hanging on the grass.

There is a small square downstairs, where the light is slightly brighter. Parents play cards with their children, and the elderly are dancing square dances.

Lin Nan circled around, and circled around again, from a crowded place to a path with no one around.

After arguing and crying, his mood is the same as the sky after rain. Lin Nan's heart is empty now, with neither sorrow nor happiness.

But sometimes when I was walking, maybe I saw a bird, and tears flowed down for no reason.

Intermittently, as if he wanted to cry out all the grievances he had suffered in these years, he felt that he had shed more tears today than he could remember.

Looking up at the moon downstairs, it seemed to be further away from him.

Lin Nan walked out of the community. The road had a long slope. Except for a security guard who was playing with his mobile phone in the security booth, there was no one on the road. He walked down step by step.

Tired of walking, he sat on the platform bench on the bus.

There is a bus stop sign next to it.

The location of his house is a bit remote, and there are only three bus routes passing through this station.

Lin Nan looked at the sign with his head sideways, and calculated every route he took.

If you want to go to Du Yiting's house... Where is Du Yiting's house?

Lin Nan turned his head and touched the glass on the platform. Even though he couldn't see it in the dark, he could still feel the dust on his fingertips.

He sighed helplessly and sat up straight without leaning against the glass window.

The curved moon was still hanging in front of him, high above the building.

It is very pointed, only one or two cents round, pure white, and there is no dust on it.

Lin Nan took out his mobile phone, hesitated for a moment, and opened Du Yiting's dialogue box.

He cleared his throat and made a voice call after confirming that the voice was not much different from usual.

beep.

one sound.

beep.

Twice.

beep……

Just as the third beep sounded, Du Yiting answered the phone.

Lin Nan smiled, not forcedly.

But he tuned his voice into an upbeat channel, more or less fake: "Hi, good evening."

Lin Nan's pretending to be relaxed sounds very real. If Du Yiting hadn't heard him and his mother quarreling on the phone, Du Yiting probably wouldn't be suspicious of such Lin Nan.

But Du Yiting heard it, and a few months of getting along was enough to make him understand that Lin Nan was not so easy to let go.

In Du Yiting's heart, Lin Nan must be sad now, but he pretended not to be sad in front of him.

When Du Yiting heard Lin Nan's words, he replied calmly: "Good evening."

It was too calm, and seemed a little indifferent.

Lin Nan froze for a moment, suddenly didn't know what to say.

The two on the phone were silent for a while, and Du Yiting sighed in a low voice.

The sound is very soft, almost inaudible.

"Lin Nan." Du Yiting's voice was not very loud, a little tired.

But his lowered voice was like a ton of cotton pressing on Lin Nan.

Lin Nan could hear the disappointment inside, but he didn't know why Du Yiting was suddenly disappointed in him.

Lin Nan stared at the road and the moonlight in a daze, he didn't know what was going on, his mother broke his heart, now even Du Yiting wants to make him sad?

A bus passed by and opened the door. Seeing that Lin Nan didn't intend to get on the bus, and no one got off the bus, he closed the door after a short stay and drove away again.

The light of the bus reflected a thin stream of water on Lin Nan's face.

"Du Yiting." Lin Nan lowered his voice, making his tone alienated, so as not to let Du Yiting hear the strangeness on his side.

He didn't know why Du Yiting suddenly called him by his full name, and it didn't make sense for him to call Du Yiting's full name now.

It's like an invisible confrontation and contest. If you treat me badly, I won't treat you well either.

If you want to call me so strangely, then I will not be so close to you.

Du Yiting on the other end of the phone is usually a bit straightforward, but he is not stupid.

Lin Nan suddenly called him by his full name, and his tone was not very good. He couldn't figure out the reason and knew that Lin Nan was unhappy now.

Du Yiting also realized that his tone was not very good when he answered the phone.

But he was also angry with Lin Nan. He heard him and his family complaining and quarreling over the phone just now, and Du Yiting also felt a sense of grievance and sadness towards Lin Nan.

Hearing him cry, I felt like I was crying too.

Du Yiting really wanted to hug him and comfort him, but they were separated by an hour.

He hung up the unilateral call and waited for a long time before Lin Nan called him.

But as soon as Lin Nan said it, he pretended that nothing had happened. Du Yiting couldn't help feeling the anger of not being trusted. His heart was filled with all kinds of intense emotions, which made him unable to respond to Lin Nan's "" in a calm tone. Good evening".

not good.

Not a good night at all.

But Du Yiting didn't dare to scare him with a harsh voice anymore, who knew if Lin Nan was crying secretly in a place he didn't see.

Du Yiting clenched his phone tightly, looking at the dark shadows passing by the car, he rarely thought of the night when he met Lin Nan.

The silence lasted for a while, and Du Yiting said in a gentle tone: "There is one more stop on the bus, I'm almost at your house, do you want me to beat up my cousin for you?"