God is Daozu

Qiang Tangerine Diary

On the day Daniel was taken away, I was taken away by Teacher Guan Cangming.

Someone was patrolling outside the house, Guan Cangming looked at the smoke in the distance and turned to me and sighed

"Daniel will be fine."

He put his eyes on the urn I was holding tightly, asked me a few words, then he was silent, I couldn't understand his eyes, and then I understood what it meant.

Everything outside was isolated from me. On the second night, I dreamed about the things before Lu Chan. In the dream, Zhao Du cried and ran to Lu Chan, saying "he didn't come out", and Lu Chan remained motionless. Looking at Zhao Du who was almost crazy, Lu Chan opened the door and saw Zhao Du's body.

I woke up at this moment, and suddenly realized that Lu Chan was not dead. I told Guan Cangming about it, and Guan Cangming nodded calmly upon hearing this.

"It was indeed not Lu Chan who died that day. Before the incident, all the experimental subjects in the entire base had been transferred, and the data had been completely deleted. The goal of Xiao Qun and the others was to capture Yu Qiping first, and to get Daniel involved was to force Shelly. Entering this dispute, the entangled political and business forces behind Yu Qiping cannot be shaken by light Xiaoqun, and Qiangju, you are a symbol to this dispute, and you have to represent the Ji family on the bright side of this dispute. Survivors, orphans of martyrs, and victims, you have to stand on the bright side that can be seen by the public."

At that moment, I vaguely realized that I would get the justice left over from the power struggle, and I couldn't show any expression when I looked at Guan Cangming.

A few days later I was sent to District One, and the old gentleman who was standing by his bedside the day Mr. Shelley died came to visit me.

"Ji Qiang, I am your grandfather's classmate and comrade-in-arms."

I stretched out my hand to hold his dry and rough hand, and looked up into his eyes. At that moment, I saw the boy's moving face in his calm and quiet eyes in his years.

I didn’t know that Daniel had been transferred to District [-] until after I arrived in District [-]. I always knew too late about any news about him. He is still in prison. I am afraid that this will become a stain on his future life. He has a brighter future. The road is going to be walked.

i miss him.

Ten days later, the trustee of the eldest son of the Ji family (that is, my uncle) met me accompanied by four people. There was a distance of 20 meters between us, and all the conversations were recorded one by one.

Three days before Ji's house was bombed, my uncle and Zhao Du had a plan to go out. At that time, my aunt committed suicide, and my parents took me to fake death. Following Zhao Du's miscarriage, Zhao Du hoped to go out with his uncle. Take a break for a while, they shouldn't travel during that time, and they shouldn't go out as if nothing happened when there are so many tragedies in the family, but the uncle agreed to Zhao Du.

On the way out, the uncle suddenly left Zhao Du behind, and returned to the second district to meet the trustee.

That night, my uncle dismissed all the servants and sat alone in the main house. The trustee saw the news that the Ji family was bombed in the early morning of the next day, but the news said that the eldest son and his wife of the Ji family died in the explosion.

I gradually remembered some vague things, my parents were arguing, I heard them arguing in bits and pieces about whether to go back, they were arguing so much that it scared me, I hugged my cat and stood on the stairs watching them, they He looked back at me and was silent.

In April, I suddenly saw the spring outside the window. I didn’t know what Daniel’s prison life was like under the struggle. I looked at that small piece of blue sky. I couldn’t even see the same piece of sky with him. We are in this world Struggling with nowhere to rest, the news came that day that Yu Qiping committed suicide in prison. I could only sneer at this intriguing suicide. My brother's ashes were coldly leaning against my pillow, his soul seemed to be trapped On that rainy night, neither rising nor falling, he wandered in this world without peace.

At the end of May, the person in charge of teaching me every day told me news from the outside world. Professor Li received the video left by Zhou Ming that year, and the criminal evidence collected by Yu Ran was published on the Internet by an anonymous person. The list below, disappeared immediately after the list was announced.

I had a premonition that the struggle was drawing to a close, and I knew it was my turn to play in the public opinion.

So at the end of this June, Qiang Ju took over all of Ji Qiang's life. I put on a black suit and held my brother's ashes, and walked to the court amidst the public opinion.

I looked at the unfamiliar faces of a group of people and the familiar face of Lu Chan, and I didn't feel any relief from revenge. I only saw the justice after the struggle.

The justice I want is long overdue in this world, and I am sadly staggering and incomplete in the gutter. I am holding Ji Sheng's ashes and I can hardly stand up. I took the dead Ji Sheng to watch a selection justice.

In July, Daniel was released, Lu Chan and others were executed by shooting, and I was surrounded by the media on this day.

I saw Gao Lan standing in the distance, and I put an end to this bright justice.

high view diary

I remember how Qiangju was surrounded that day, it didn't look like a justice, it was a carnival, Qiangju stood in the sun and opened his mouth, pale, articulate and well-spoken, he was there In an instant, he became the Ji Qiang expected by public opinion. I felt sad for him to accept this bloody justice, but I suddenly realized that he finally learned to protect himself in this world.

Qiang Tangerine Diary

I don't have any news from Daniel, the only thing I can do for him is protect myself.

On the afternoon when Lu Chan was shot, I received a call from Yu Langran. I only heard her cry. She seemed to have changed back to the most ordinary girl. She choked up and told me that she was afraid. What to say, but I understood what she was going to say.

I drove to her residence under guard, I opened the door and she knelt and sat by the door of the afterburning bedroom, she cried and laughed sharply at me, the blood-stained pleasure was in her cry, I followed her gaze and saw a transparent coffin, the lingering flame was sealed inside and remained motionless. It was only when I saw this scene that I realized so violently that there was no lingering flame in this world.

She told me how she calmly scrubbed, embalmed, and hooded her horrible head on the day of Ember's suicide, and now she doesn't have the courage to bury her, she sees After Lu Chan was shot and then looked at Yu Ran, it was all over, and she realized more than ever that what she was facing was a dead body.

We moved Yu Ran's coffin out, Yu Langran had already dug a grave in the camellia field, the guards were standing not far away, Yu Langran was talking to me about her past with Yu Ran.

"Yu Langran, have you ever thought that Yu Ran might not have been sober all the time?"

I looked at Yu Ran's body and said with my back to Yu Langran.

"I think maybe she had a sober moment, maybe she didn't know nothing about what happened to you...so she chose to commit suicide when she was sober, maybe she didn't choose to go with Lu Ye , but she wants you to be free."

The moment I turned my head, Yu Langran looked at me blankly, and there was a cherry tree blooming in the distance.

"Isn't this cherry tree a winter cherry?" I staggered the topic.

"No."

"It's great that the cherry blossoms bloom from winter to spring."

I don't know what I said wrong, Yu Langran suddenly threw himself into the grave, hugging the coffin of Yu Ran and burst into tears.

There seems to be no connection between me and Daniel. I went back to school, and Yu Langran didn't come back. I hardly cried during this period, even when I buried Ji Sheng in my home in District [-], I didn't shed tears.

When everyone started calling me Ji Qiang and I got used to my new name, Gao Lan suddenly called me Qiang Ju. I was stunned for a moment and then cried. I don’t understand why these two words made me break Defense, I cried all my depression and hatred during this time into these two words.

Yes, I am Ji Qiang now.

In August, the entire campus was in chaos, and the ocean war broke out.

People thought that just like the first ocean war and the second ocean war, the war that just ended would break out again after many years. The crowds in this world are chaotic. No response.

I thought of Liu Rong's sister, and I ran towards the lower district. At this moment, the upper district was as dirty as the lower district in the chaos, and turned into snow trampled by shoes. I took away the photo of Liu Rong's sister.

Strange neon lights surround the upper and lower districts. In the light and shadow of civilization, there is no difference between the upper and lower districts, and they are all whitewashed into identical funny clowns.

And I was holding a posthumous photo in the midst of the joke, I saw civilization collapsed, people went crazy, I frantically pressed my wristband while running towards the school, out-of-control streets, out-of-control roads, out-of-control technology, out-of-control humans , I stopped in place watching all this, I don't know where he is.

In mid-August, I got the news from Daniel that he would be transferred to the second district. I stood at the gate of his new school from six o'clock in the morning until midnight. I realized that I would not see him again. to school.

"Do you know what you're doing?"

Teacher Guan scolded me in a cold voice.

"Never again."

I replied.

I don't know why he doesn't want to see me, I'm getting tired of living without him, trying to do my thing and waiting for my parents to wait for him in every hope.

The construction of the Ji family residential area in the second district was completed. I walked in the main house with my grandfather’s comrades-in-arms, and hung the photos of the Ji family’s ancestors on the wall according to their memories. My uncle transferred their photos before the explosion.The last one is a photo of my grandpa. When I was young, my grandpa looked at me with serious eyes. Suddenly I gave up building other houses. The war continued in the distance. I converted the rest of the place into an orphanage. I know that I am trying to restore The Ji family is meaningless. There is no family here for me. After I place these photos, there is nothing to place. I hope that more important ones can be placed. I also hope that this placement can bring self-esteem and peace to war orphans. fair.

A child ran into my lap, she was wearing a blue and white dress.

September's deluge of frontline news

Gao Xu died in battle, I rushed out of the library after repeated confirmation, Gao Lan came back in the middle of the night, he hugged me and fell to the ground crying, he cried in my ear and asked me, why is it a sunny day today?

In mid-October, I was taken away by Professor Li.

I met the same group of victims in this conference room. After I calmly listened to Professor Li’s speech, I only had one thought in my mind. Before I left, my parents and Daniel, will we meet again? possible.

"I need a little time." I replied Professor Li like this.

late night in december

When I left the library at night, I heard someone crying. On the stairs, I saw Yin Deng who I hadn’t seen for a long time. She was thin and her back was facing me. I never thought that Yin Deng would cry so helplessly. She has always been They are all strong and lonely girls.

"My sister is dead."

I was shocked to hear that, because a week earlier her sister was still performing in the besieged city of Tan, boosting morale.

"Before the war, she recuperated in Tan City. During the siege, she chose to stay with the other citizens who could not leave. She died of illness. Before she died, she called the authorities hoping to block the news of her death... My father is proud of her It's too late!"

Yin Deng grabbed my shoulder and cried, "She finally proved to him that no matter what profession she is in, she is never a deserter in this world..."

I looked at Yin Deng who was crying bitterly and thought, I can't wait any longer.

high view diary

Gao Xu is the mountain and the sky. I never thought that the mountains would collapse and the sky would collapse. I never thought that he would die. He is the omnipotent and strong man in my eyes.

How could he disappear so lightly, a death list with one line of name, no clean body, just like he used to live in the news, he died in the news.

I cried for no reason for many days and nights after he left. The moment he died I realized that the war was coming. I sat up in bed and ran out in my pajamas. He stopped me, and he took me back to the dormitory. I sat on the bed blankly and watched him shave me. My parents came to pick me up that morning. I glanced at them blankly, turned around and ran away.

My parents are old and my sister is so young.

This is something I realized after Gao Xu left. I couldn't bear to look at my parents' old age and my sister's youth.

I am the child of my parents, the brother of my sister, and the friend of my friends.

The passionate vow to die for the country is too far away. After Gao Xu left, when I understood his words, I realized the meaning of dying for the country in his words.

In mid-October, I accepted the fact of Gao Xu's death. I stood on the rooftop and watched Qiangju come up.

"What does Professor Li want from you?"

"Nothing special, just a study problem."

I nodded when I heard the words. The autumn on the hillside in the distance is getting deeper, and the school is so peaceful in the autumn wind.

"Qiang Ju, I'm going to apply to go to the front line."

I had countless things I wanted to say to Qiangju, but finally I finished all of them so simply.

Qiang Ju didn't speak, he sat on the railing opposite me and looked at me, then reached out through my hair and patted my head. I used to like to pat Qiang Ju on the head when I was a child, but now Qiang Ju Ju looked at me like an elder who watched a child grow up. He didn’t say a word. I couldn’t tell whether his eyes were sad or pleased. I felt that he seemed to be flying to the sky with the wind on the roof. I Cried out in front of him.

Yu Langran's diary

There is no longer my sister in this world, so many years have been obliterated in guns and loess.

I looked in the mirror and cut my hair short, smiling at the dark suitcase standing next to me.

I entered Yu Ran's bedroom and found the letter she hadn't been willing to send back then. The light pink envelope was slightly faded. Standing in front of Yu Ran's grave, I burned the letter she hadn't sent back then.

"Goodbye, would you be brave enough to hand the letter to her in that world?"

The flame burns, an inch of embers

So many regrets disappear together

In the letter that I couldn't bear to send back then, there was only a short line of words

Alone We Elope

high view diary

When I saw the news about Yu Langran's plane crash, I was shocked and immediately showed it to Qiang Ju. In the video, Yu Langran cut her hair short and carried her luggage on the plane. Someone next to her seemed to want to take her suitcase, but she rejected it viciously.

"She's not dead."

Qiang Ju replied after watching the video.

"But the plane crashed!"

"A female doctor in Lu Chan's gang disappeared. Yu Langran told me that all the people she hated the most died the day she buried Yu Ran."

"But what does this have to do with Yu Langran's death?"

"I think she knew she was going to be killed before she got on the plane. When did you see Yu Langran speak so viciously? Don't you wonder what's in that suitcase?"

"What is it?"

"That female doctor has the same body shape as Yu Langran."

"You think it contains the doctor's body?"

"Ah."

I was only puzzled when I heard the words, but Qiangju was very sure.

"Don't worry, she is not someone who dies easily."

I am deeply convinced of this sentence.

daniel diary

My dad transferred me to Ward Two, where he thought I would be safer.

When I saw the blue sky again, the whole world was turned upside down under the familiar blue sky.

I was browsing the latest news on the warship, and Qiang Ju became the way Ji Qiang should be, calmly dealing with the media. Time seemed to return to the time when we just met, he was standing on a high platform with an olive branch reciting the speech, he He is no longer skinny, but I still feel that he is so skinny in the hypocrisy of justice.

He finally knows how he should protect himself, he finally understands how he should survive in this world, I hope he lives well, but I only feel sad when I look at him.

The broken order came to me overwhelmingly from the news, and the world of the three districts was far behind me. I thought of that hillside, the hillside where the Qiang oranges buried the flowers, are the flowers okay?Is Qiang Tangerine okay?I glanced at the calendar, we've all missed spring.

A reporter took a picture of Qiangju. In a world where the crowds were out of control, Qiangju rushed through the chaotic crowd with a photo in his arms.

He's lost weight, I thought.

As he ran, he pressed his wristband, and I finally realized what he was doing.

In that world where he ran here and there and couldn't get out, he ran in vain, he ran to find a way out, and he also searched for me.

How can he be placed in this world?

I remembered that on the day Liu Rong died, he told me with a miserable smile that in this world, he escaped by chance.

I clicked on the news on the warship. In the screen, the young volunteer soldier in the second district was saying goodbye to his parents. I saw the younger brother of the young volunteer soldier standing in front of him and crying all the time. The volunteer soldier smiled and almost cried but didn’t really Weeping, I can't tell whether it's crying or laughing.

The volunteers left, and their concerns stood under the sun.

Qiang Tangerine, my little Mr.

I am not perfect, I am weak in this world.

The moment the warship landed, I changed my mind and decided to do it without any hesitation.

I think of you standing on the hillside in summer, I think of you standing in the flower field looking at me in autumn, I also think of Li Simian and I walking through the woods in winter, you threw snowballs at Liu Rong, I As soon as I turned around, I saw that you had turned into children, you and Gao Lan were laughing so happily in the snow.

Whether it is spring or winter, I hope you can stand under the sun of this world.

I am not an omnipotent person. There are too many things in this world that I cannot shake. I remember the look in your eyes standing in court. I remember the way you ran in a hurry in this world. I snatched it out of your hands, I once so hoped that this world would be the way you like it.

I once so sincerely hoped that I could bring you the future you wanted, but I was helpless in the contest with the world.

Let me prove to you that this world is not all like this, there will be people who are sincere, and there will be people who are light.

Mr. Little, I hope you will still be standing in the sunlight next spring

Under the war, I come to be myself

be your light

be your world