God is Daozu

The sky is gloomy and unknown.

The rainy season in District [-] is about to begin.

Qiang Ju went back to school alone on the pretext of being busy with elective exams. This was the first time since he and Daniel had confirmed their relationship that they slept in separate rooms at home. Qiang Ju anxiously watched the darkening sky outside the car window. There were more people than usual, and he passed by the door of Liu Rong's dormitory with a suitcase, and it happened that Liu Rong's roommate was just about to come out.

"Hello……"

"Hello."

The two greeted each other with a little embarrassment, Liu Rong's roommate hesitated to speak, Qiang Ju looked at each other suspiciously, and finally the other party just smiled kindly and waved away.

Qiang Ju walked a few steps forward with his back to the other party, and a voice came from behind, "That, Qiang Ju?"

"What's wrong?"

Liu Rong's roommate came over, looked around and lowered his voice

"Is something wrong with Liu Rong recently? He often asks for leave late at night to go out."

"I don't know."

"That's it, excuse me, I'm leaving first."

Liu Rong's charming smile before getting into the car entered Qiangju's mind. Qiangju stood at the door of the dormitory and looked at Liu Rong's dormitory. Gradually, the demeanor and face of each of them became very clear in Qiang Ju's mind. Liu Rong's charming smile was like a slender-legged spider crawling up Qiang Ju's memory. He suddenly hated his own memory for being so clear. Record the explicitness of the other person's smile.

When he walked into the dormitory, the bracelet suddenly vibrated

Gao Lan: I will return to school at twelve o'clock tonight, what time will you return to school tomorrow morning?

Qiang Ju: I'm already in school.

Gao Lan: Did you argue with Daniel?

Qiang Ju: No, I went to the library to review first.

Gao Lan: Good.

Qiang Ju packed up the books he needed to bring, but he had no motivation to go to the library. He pulled up his chair and started studying in the dormitory. It was only at the end of the term that he discovered that Guan Cangming had left so much theoretical knowledge, because Guan Cangming disliked students taking lessons, and Qiang Ju’s Paper notebooks are already filled to four.

His fingers brushed over the brown leather notebook, which was exactly the same as Liu Rong's. It was because of exchanging notes that Qiang Ju bought the same notebook as Liu Rong. Liu Rong loved paper notes.

There are many topographic maps mixed in this notebook, all of which he discussed with Liu Rong. Liu Rong is not only a friend to him, but also a teacher. He has never studied conducting systematically. Banyan added a lot of knowledge to him.

Qiang Ju clearly remembers in Qiang Ju's mind that when Liu Rong first entered school, Liu Rong was always in a hurry and had no distractions. He thought that Liu Rong was very happy at that time, but now Liu Rong is always depressed. Now Liu Rong makes Qiang Ju Feeling strange, the person he met at night self-study seems to have gone far away.

Is it that people always change, or I never knew him.

He knew that Liu Rong hated the people in the upper district very much. This kind of hatred was almost extreme. Liu Rong must have wanted to get some benefits from contacting the upper district, but Liu Rong had never smiled at Andrew like that.

He was always so lofty, and even when he was forced to bow his head, he had a little conceit.

What does he want?

The late night of that day flashed through Qiang Ju's mind, and Liu Rong's words could still clearly echo in his mind.

The only thing he envied in his life...

Why does he envy me and cry?

Is it something enviable that I cry because of a documentary?

Qiang Ju put down the pen with a snap, and supported his head. After a few minutes, Qiang Ju felt calmer and devoted himself to his notes. When it was approaching eleven o'clock, Qiang Ju felt a little sleepy. It was strange, he had never been so sleepy. Good morning, it seems that yesterday's quarrel was too exhausting.

Qiang Ju shook his head and stood up to wash. After leaving a lamp for Gao Lan, he got into the quilt and closed his eyes. His consciousness was dragged and rushed in like a vortex. Qiang Ju suddenly opened his eyes, and his vision was ambiguous. In the warm light, he suddenly realized that he was being dragged into Lu Chan's consciousness.

Turning his gaze, Lu Chan was lying sideways on the bed, Qiang Ju saw that the dark purple bed had a clean back sunken, the man was naked with his back to Qiang Ju, Lu Chan's hand was stroking the other's short hair and spine like teasing a pet.

Qiang Ju wanted to close his eyes in embarrassment but couldn't, he was forced to look at what Lu Chan saw in embarrassment.

Lu Chan suddenly tightened the leather ring around the opponent's neck, arching his back because of suffocation. At the same time, Lu Chan held the back of the opponent's head and punched violently. of.

"Are you going to suffocate?" Lu Chan laughed.

Qiang Ju was so disgusting, Lu Chan let go of the opponent's hand, the boy was relieved and breathed heavily with his face sideways, Qiang Ju looked at the opponent's chin and suddenly felt creepy, Lu Chan pushed the opponent's hair——

"Qiang orange!"

As soon as Gao Lan came back, he saw Qiang Ju being trapped by a nightmare, and then he jumped up from the bed and rushed into the bathroom. Gao Lan turned on the light and saw Qiang Ju kneeling on the ground and vomiting into the toilet.

"What dirty thing did you eat?"

Gao Lan patted Qiang Ju on the back, and Qiang Ju’s vomiting seemed unstoppable. He vomited until there was nothing left and was still spitting out sour water. The bathroom was filled with a strange sour smell. Gao Lan saw Qiang Ju body twitched.

"Restraint...restraint! You're vomiting too badly, we're going to the school hospital now..."

The side face with half-closed eyes clearly looked at the direction of Qiangju, cold and thin, he didn't want to break free and seemed powerless, he was rushed by the foul language until his face was covered with disobedience His sinking was clearly engraved in Qiangju's consciousness frame by frame, his stomach vomited and convulsed, and that thin face was tinged with suffocating red.

"You can't throw up like this again!"

Liu Rong grabbed Qiang Ju by the collar, Qiang Ju covered her eyes with her hand, went to the sink and began to wash her face and mouth like crazy.

too clear

is fake

too clear

The pictures in his mind were circulating at a high speed. He couldn't stop the pictures in his mind. He wished he could smash his head open. Blessing appeared uncontrollably. Blessing's attack intention was so obvious that even Gao Lan couldn't control his own. In the spiritual body, Rose stared at Gao Lan's shoulder and made a warning voice to Blessing.

Qiang Ju swiped the paper and wiped his face indiscriminately. The water on his face couldn't be wiped clean. It's strange, why can't it be wiped clean?He realized that he was crying. In his mind, he had the image of himself using a gun, and the image of himself using a knife. The sound of the gunshots in the past training fell into his mind, and he turned on the faucet as if to cover up. Aiming at his head, the paper fell to the ground in a mess, and the sound of the gunshot was as clear as the face of the man on the dark purple bed sheet, forcing him to understand that this was a living fact.

Liu Rong.

This is the first time that Qiang Ju has had such a strong attacking intention outside the simulated training

No, that probably doesn't count as intent to attack anymore.

The sound of water in his ears and the gunshots in his head were chaotically impacting his reason

It was the first time that he wanted to kill a person so much. It was the first time outside of training that he wanted to kill a person so much. He hated so much that he wanted to shoot at the other person's body to vent his anger, and even wanted to cut off the other person's head alive.

Lu Chan's laughter made him retch uncontrollably again, and he could hardly control the violence.

i want to kill him

i want to kill him

I want to kill Lu Chan

I want to kill him!kill him!

Just before Rose was about to attack Blessing, Blessing disappeared in place. In the shattered glass, Gao Lan saw Qiang Ju wiped his face and turned around. Other than that, Qiang Ju didn't seem to have any abnormalities, but Gao Lan felt a kind of terror in his calmness.

"……What’s wrong with you?"

"No."

Gao Lan was about to say something, but Qiang Ju spoke first, "Go to sleep, there will be physical training tomorrow morning."

The next morning's physical training was noisier than usual. The guides and sentries lowered their voices to discuss. Liu Rong didn't arrive early today. Qiang Ju watched the people whispering in the distance, "What are they talking about?"

"Liu Rong's sponsor gave up funding."

"why?"

"Liu Rong seems to have conflicts with his sponsor's sister, but it's a pity, Liu Rong is definitely the most worthy of funding, and it would be a pity to give up funding now..."

Liu Rong suddenly appeared, all conversations stopped, Liu Rong looked in the direction of Qiang Ju, Qiang Ju staggered his eyes, took off his coat, passed the crowd and went directly into the storage room, Qiang Ju's face was surprisingly cold.

Liu Rong's gaze followed Qiang Ju for a few seconds and then moved away.

Qiang Ju was sitting in the library late at night, when everyone around him had left, a light was on where he was, and Liu Rong was sitting thirteen tables away from him. Qiang Ju and Liu Rong, two lights were on in the dark night.

"You rarely appear in this area, you hate crowded places." Liu Rong wrote a note and said.

"People will always change." Qiang Ju said.

Liu Rong smiled and scribbled notes, Qiang Ju looked at Liu Rong without moving, and after a long time Qiang Ju asked

"I've always had a question, would you like to answer it for me?"

"Come on, what's the question?"

"How do you think people can be themselves with dignity?"

Liu Rong smiled meanly.

"Is it funny?"

"Your question is too childish."

"Is this a ridiculous question?" Qiang Ju said calmly.

Liu Rong didn't speak.

"What do you think?" Qiang Ju asked.

Liu Rong put down her pen and looked up at Qiangju. There was a dark space between the two of them, as if they were far away.

"If you want to know, then I'll tell you."

Liu Rong's expression became very serious, Qiang Ju clearly heard Liu Rong speak

"money."

"money?"

"Yes, this is the reality of the world, your dignity and self depend on your money."

"No money is the beginning of loss, no money is the beginning of collapse."

"Is this your answer?" Qiang Ju looked at Liu Rong and said expressionlessly.

"Yes."

"Can't people perfect themselves, and can't they perfect their self-esteem?"

"Only money can save self-esteem."

Liu Rong smiled at the expressionless Qiang Ju, packed up her things and went outside.

"Do you have a sister?"

"Yes, do you have any questions?"

"Nothing."

Liu Rong's figure disappeared before Qiang Ju's eyes, and the sound of footsteps in the open space gradually weakened. Qiang Ju looked out the window, and the winter night plum blossoms on the path were in bud.

Yin Deng was surprised when she saw Qiang Ju in the competition registration list. She found Qiang Ju in the meeting room.

"Qiang orange?"

"Sister."

"Didn't you have a big confrontation in the first grade sequence? Why do you still have time to participate in the competition?"

Qiang Ju just smiled when she heard the words, "Where is Senior Sister?"

"My hostile commander at the end of the term is Daniel Shelly again." Yin Deng smiled as he looked at the competition materials, "I am like this, the more nervous I am, the more I hope I will be busy. I remember your first-year theory class exam A lot, why, the exam is over?"

"not yet."

"That seems pretty sure."

Qiang Ju turned her head with a smile, then fell silent for a moment, "Sister, do you consider being a conductor in the competition?"

"Too tired, I just want to accumulate practical experience, how about you?"

Qiang Ju fell silent again, "...I want the bonus for the top three." He said frankly to Yin Deng.

Yin Deng turned to Qiang Ju seriously, "Are you short of money?"

"……no."

"Then why do you want to participate in the competition at this time? The theory class in the first grade is very heavy. When I saw your name on the registration list, I felt very strange. Tell me, what's wrong?"

"Feel sorry."

Qiang Ju looked at Yin Deng calmly, and Yin Deng and Qiang Ju looked at each other in silence.

"Do you really need money?"

"Correct."

"I can lend you as much as you want, but you have to tell me what happened. Do you know the consequences of failing the theory course? Even if you fail the course, your comprehensive score will affect whether you can successfully apply for the graduate school and Command the military academy."

"Sorry, I can't borrow money from you, and I can't tell you, I'm sorry senior."

"Do you think you have a better chance of winning if I lead you?"

Qiangju nodded.

Yin Deng said suddenly, "Qiangju, do you want to be the conductor? I mean the commander-in-chief."

Qiang Ju was taken aback when he heard the words, "I haven't studied command courses systematically, but only learned basic tactics and strategies."

"So what? Conducting requires talent and practical training, and dogma cannot cultivate good conductors."

"But people will not trust such a commander-in-chief, a commander-in-chief who has not studied systematically."

"If you want to learn, I can teach you theoretical knowledge, do you want to give it a try?"

Qiang Ju looked at Yin Deng and said nothing, Yin Deng smiled and stretched out his hand to pat Qiang Ju on the shoulder

"If you want to compete for the commander-in-chief, I am willing to be the second-in-command."

"There's nothing wrong with it. You're not suitable for being overwhelmed by others. Let's be a conductor."