faint star

As the final exam and summer vacation approached, more and more students came to the hospital for psychiatric care.This morning, Xu Zhiwei watched four groups of cases in which parents brought their children.The youngest of them is only in the fifth grade of elementary school.

Some have insomnia at a young age, some are depressed because of academics, some are bullied at school, and some have psychological disorders for unknown reasons.Xu Zhiwei was secretly startled by the children he saw these days.

When the fourth little patient who was seen today left and the next patient came in, Xu Zhiwei couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief when he saw that it was an adult man who came alone.

A young man about twenty-five or six years old sat down with his hands on the edge of the table. Xu Zhiwei noticed that he was wearing a Rolex watch.But that doesn't mean much—there are plenty of people who are financially well off and depressed.

Xu Zhiwei began to ask him a doctor, and after only a few questions, he felt that this person looked familiar, but he just couldn't remember where he had seen him.He glanced at the patient's name again—"Ruan Ziang", it was a strange name, and he had no memory of it.

"When did you start having insomnia?" Xu Zhiwei put aside the doubts in his heart.Maybe the person just looks like someone he knows.

"It just started this week," the patient said, "and a lot of things haven't been going well lately."

The young man speaks at a slightly faster rate and speaks clearly and coherently.He said that he likes his boss, who treats him very well, and he also devotes all his thoughts to his work and his boss.In getting along with his boss, he got great satisfaction.

"Although he has done a great job in his career, he has no airs at all. No matter how busy he is, he will take care of the people around him..." He pointed to the watch on his wrist, "This is the year-end gift he gave me."

Xu Zhiwei doesn't know much about watch styles, but this Rolex with a green dial looks very beautiful, so it must be worth a lot.If an ordinary person gives such an expensive gift, it is enough to show feelings, but to a rich man who spends a lot of money, this is just a negligible gift.

Xu Zhiwei continued to ask: "And then? Did he treat you..."

Young people who are not deeply involved in the world will cause huge psychological trauma if they are played by the rich.

The young man was silent for a moment before he said: "No. The problem is, he didn't do anything. Did he immediately alienate me after I made it clear to him, and kicked me out of town. It's all my wishful thinking, all I have The feelings are all my illusions, and he is not willing to accept me at all."

Sounds like a common unrequited love story.

Xu Zhiwei couldn't tell the truth of this statement—sometimes patients would pretend to be the truth.People who are obviously hurt may even develop a sense of self-blame and guilt, and attribute the fault to themselves.He wasn't sure if that was the case with the young man.

He carefully observed the patient's posture and expression, determined that the patient's mood was relatively stable, and gave the patient a scale.

After careful questioning, Xu Zhiwei diagnosed that the young man had no symptoms of depression, and in the end he only prescribed some sleeping pills.He said some comforting words while prescribing medicine.

"Doctor Xu, I specifically called your number." The patient said.

Xu Zhiwei didn't pay much attention.He and Senior Sister Scarlett have an official account, and now they are somewhat famous, and some patients will indeed come to hang up his account because of this.

"Really? Have we met somewhere?" Xu Zhiwei said, "I think you look familiar, I'm sorry, I can't remember it." This kind of feeling of not being able to remember a thing is too uncomfortable It made him wonder if his memory was not as good as before.

The young man's voice was higher than before: "I have been paying attention to you. Although you don't know me, Dr. Xu, I know you, and I know you very well."

Xu Zhiwei paused when he was typing.This sounds a bit weird.He looked at the patient again and straightened his back involuntarily. He was considering whether he should reassess the mental state of this person.

Ruan Ziang's eyes were burning: "The person I like, my boss, is Gu Heng. You should remember him, right?"

There was a buzz in Xu Zhiwei's mind, he never thought he would encounter such a dramatic scene—his ex-boyfriend's...anyone, even regarded him as a rival in love, and even came here during his working hours, I don't know it was a demonstration Still trying.

He was speechless, and seriously pondered whether he should call security if the other party had a more violent performance next time.

"I don't have any malicious intentions," Ruan Ziang said, "I've just heard about you all the time, but I've never had direct contact with you, so I'm very unwilling. I just want to see with my own eyes who is the person that Mr. Gu can never forget kind of."

Xu Zhiwei was stunned, followed by annoyance.It was a waste of his time, and it was a waste of the time of other real patients waiting to be seen.He frowned, remained silent, just handed the prescription to Ruan Ziang, and called the next patient directly.

Ruan Ziang didn't expect Xu Zhiwei's reaction to be so dull, that he didn't even say a word to him.He originally thought that a person like Gu Heng could be remembered in his heart, should be like an unquenchable fire, bursting out when he heard Gu Heng's name, instead of being so calm and indifferent at this moment, even avoiding his attention. Eyes, unwilling to make eye contact with him, like a wooden man.

The next patient had already walked to the door of the consulting room, Ruan Ziang could only get up, and whispered before leaving: "I really feel unworthy for myself and Gu Heng. You may never understand, I am willing to give him everything."

Xu Zhiwei didn't give Ruan Ziang another look, and concentrated on looking at the next patient.It wasn't until lunch time that he finally had the time to digest this matter, but the more he thought about it, the more unpleasant it became.If it wasn't in the hospital, he would definitely have scolded Ruan Ziang—"The emotional entanglement between the two of you is none of my business!

Xiang has the disease of pretending to be a lover.You can't handle Gu Heng, don't rely on me.I have long since given up! "

However, the best time to quarrel has already been missed, and it is impossible for Xu Zhiwei to go to Ruan Ziang to quarrel again, and the slanderous words are held in his heart, making him lose his appetite.After poking two mouthfuls of rice randomly at the dinner plate, I couldn't eat any more.The little doctor sitting opposite him asked: "Mr. Xu, have you stopped eating?"

Xu Zhiwei gave his untouched bowl of steamed eggs to the little doctor: "I can't eat any more."

After quitting smoking for so long, it was rare for him to want to smoke again today.

He told Gu Heng before that the two should not meet again and not be friends, he just didn't want to encounter this kind of situation - what's the matter with being friends with the ex-boyfriend who has been entangled for more than ten years, it will definitely hinder the newcomer's eyes, it is looking for scolding behavior.Unexpectedly, if he escaped, others could find the hospital.

Xu Zhiwei calmed down in the lounge for a while, and the fire subsided.Summer is here, he looked out the window, there was a rich green downstairs, and a layer of inexplicable melancholy gradually appeared in his heart.

How young do you have to be to be so foolish?How much do you have to like someone to do this kind of thing for love?Xu Zhiwei felt that it was impossible for him to do such a thing again.He can feel the changes in himself. Recently, when he thinks of some embarrassing things in the past, he will not be as embarrassed and uncomfortable as before. It seems that his skin has thickened and his heart has become rough.In a sense, this is a good thing. He is alone, without parents, without a partner, and can have a good job and live a peaceful life without worrying about food and clothing. What else can he ask for?

Xu Zhiwei thought of Ruan Ziang's appearance again—good skin, bright eyes, probably the one Gu Heng likes, glaring at him and saying "You won't understand, I'm willing to give him everything", very passionate.Gu Heng likes people with personality.

Gu Heng does not accept him now, but if Ruan Ziang persists, one day Gu Heng will accept him...

Xu Zhiwei suddenly came to his senses, whether Ruan Ziang can be with Gu Heng or not has nothing to do with him.He shouldn't be thinking about it too much.

He occasionally thought of it the next day, and found it even more ridiculous.There is something wrong with things being linked to Gu Heng. Ruan Ziang's words, "He didn't do anything, it's all because I'm self-indulgent," seemed to be deliberately conveying some message to him.

Xu Zhiwei began to wonder if Gu Heng hired an actor to play it for him.With the strength of a great director, it is completely possible to do it, but after so many years, he thinks that Gu Heng will not be so childish.

Fortunately, nothing else happened after that, and Gu Heng didn't show up either.Xu Zhiwei chose to believe that this was just an accident, and Gu Heng didn't know about it, only in this way did he regain his composure.

Ever since Gu Heng was sure that Xu Zhiwei had a new boyfriend, he fell into a state of numbness.This summer became depressed and irritable. For the first time, he didn't want to take so many jobs, and he started to push and push.A friend asked him to make a movie based on Su Pei’s novel

Producer, he turned down after going to a meeting.

It's not that he doesn't like the novel, nor is he dissatisfied with Su Pei.He has his own considerations.According to the common thinking, he should take over this job, get in touch with Su Pei more, and make Su Pei his friend, or even have a stake in him.But he knew that most of Xu Zhiwei's friends were classmates and colleagues, and he didn't have many friends other than doctors. It was rare to have a friend like Su Pei. By trying to win Su Pei over, he was actually squeezing Xu Zhiwei's room for making friends.

The last time he had a private chat with Su Pei, he could feel that Su Pei was not very happy.

What's more, now Xu Zhiwei already has a new boyfriend.

He still quietly inquired about Xu Zhiwei's new boyfriend Qin Yawen. He has many sources of news, but no matter who gave him feedback, "Old Qin is really good", with excellent work ability and straightforward work, he is well-known .In terms of appearance, except for his long face, there are no shortcomings. He is a handsome guy with a horse face.

"Xu Zhiwei has a new boyfriend." This idea circled in his mind like a virus.Maybe Zhiwei is cooking with Lao Qin, and soon they will live together... They will live a peaceful and peaceful life.And this kind of life should have him by Zhiwei's side...

Back then when he removed Xu Zhiwei and Jiang Hongyu, he didn't think about the consequences, he just did what he wanted, and he was determined to win.At that time, he had an intuition that Xu Zhiwei couldn't really love Jiang Hongyu, so he broke up the couple confidently, as if he was doing justice for the heavens.

Now he understands that it's just his arrogance, he can't bear Xu Zhiwei not loving him anymore.

The karma loops, so he has to endure it now, endure that Xu Zhiwei has gone out, leaving him alone in the memory.

One morning in mid-July, he woke up with a pain in his leg.During this time, his legs ached from time to time.After several checks in the hospital, nothing was wrong. The previous surgery was successful, and the old injury should not have caused such severe pain.He can only rely on acupuncture and physical therapy to relieve pain.

He rested at home for the day and called his new assistant the next day, telling her to change his schedule for the next week.

"But Mr. Gu, there are two interviews tomorrow..." the assistant reminded him.

He said simply: "Reject. There is also the invitation to the film festival, and also reject."

He had long since grown weary of the publicity campaign.The media's excessive attention to his love life has also made him feel tired, and he doesn't know how many scandals have been fabricated for him.Almost every movie/project promotion, he will have an extra girlfriend or boyfriend.

"Are you scheduled to take a break this week?" the assistant asked him.

Gu Heng said: "No, I want to go back to my hometown and go to the new district to see the progress of the project over there. I will leave this afternoon."

The new assistant said bluntly, "Okay, I understand."

The year before last, Gu Heng had built a piece of land in the new area of ​​his hometown, and had a big plan.this thing has been done

It's low-key and hasn't been hyped yet, but he'll check it out whenever he has time.Recently, the main body of the building is about to be completed, and more important work should start.

At first this project was his selfishness, but later as Xu Zhiwei refused to get back together again and again, it became his sustenance and extravagant hope.

At the beginning of August, Aunt Xu Zhiwei celebrated her [-]th birthday, so she chose to hold a banquet on the weekend.Xu Zhiwei caught the high-speed train at noon on Saturday, and the timing was just right.He prepared a big red envelope for his aunt, and the cakes and flowers ordered online would be delivered directly to the hotel, saving a lot of trouble.

The train was speeding all the way, and the scenery outside the window was almost blurred.He can only play with his mobile phone to pass the time.After casually scrolling through, I saw a piece of news about Gu Heng, with a sensational headline - "Gu Heng is about to bid farewell to his film career!".

Xu Zhiwei didn't control his hand, and clicked in at once.The content in it roughly said that Gu Heng has recently pushed down a lot of promotional activities, and he didn't even participate in the film festival. The outside world has speculated whether Gu Heng will completely shift the focus of his career to the Gu family's business, quit the film business, and concentrate on making films. The leader of the Gu family.

"In the face of speculation from the outside world, Gu Heng has not made any statement yet. The editor is as curious as everyone else, let's wait and see." Wait for some specious words.

Xu Zhiwei suddenly realized that Gu Heng had been farther and farther away from him when he was with him.When he and Gu Heng broke up, Gu Heng was still writing the script of the second movie.Now the media began to speculate that Gu Heng should concentrate on doing business.

He refreshed it again, and Gu Heng's gossip immediately appeared again—"They all had scandals with Gu Heng, but only two of them were admitted!"

Xu Zhiwei sighed in his heart, he knew it was pushed by the algorithm.He has clicked on the content about Gu Heng twice, and the algorithm will keep pushing it to him.Maybe he did read a lot of gossip about Gu Heng recently...

Xu Zhiwei put down his phone and silently looked out the car window.

When Xu Zhiwei arrived near the hotel, it was almost five o'clock in the afternoon, which was still a bit early.Just near the hotel is the Artificial Lake Fountain Park, which is the busiest place. As long as it is a rest day, no matter what time it is, it will be full of people.

Xu Zhiwei didn't like crowded spots before, but today is a bit different. He hasn't been back to his hometown for a long time, and now he is walking alone among the crowd, listening to the local dialect, and he feels a little comfortable.The fountain started on the hour, Xu Zhiwei walked towards the big steps opposite the fountain, there were already many people sitting there in twos and threes.

When he was climbing up the steps, someone came face to face with him.The sun is still very bright at five o'clock in the afternoon in summer, coating them with a layer of gold.

When the distance was still ten meters away, they were staring at each other, thinking they were wrong.They were still looking at each other until they got closer and stood on the same step.

"Zhiwei?"

"Gu Heng..."

Gu Heng frowned, he was surprised and wanted to laugh, he didn't know what to say, he just looked at Xu Zhi

Wei——Xu Zhiwei was wearing a light blue shirt, his hair seemed to have been cut just now, revealing a smooth forehead, and his eyebrows and eyes were even more clear.He was so dazzled for a moment that he could hardly hear the sounds around him.

"Why did you come back?" He squeezed out this sentence for a long time.

Only then did Xu Zhiwei say, "There is something wrong at home."

"what's up?"

"It's my aunt, over 60 years old."

They fell silent again, Xu Zhiwei looked at Gu Heng in front of him—the Gu Heng today was different from the Gu Heng who gave the speech that day.Under the real light, he could clearly see the tiredness on Gu Heng's face and the fine lines at the corners of his eyes. This person's face became more serious than before, and the once wanton expression disappeared.

Xu Zhiwei once again realized that they had been separated for too long.

"How are you recently?" Gu Heng asked.

Xu Zhiwei said, "Very good. How about you?"

Gu Heng looked at him: "I'm still the same..."

Another few seconds of silence.There are couples laughing around, children screaming while pulling balloons, and the fountain just happens to bloom.Their voices were drowned out.In this noise, Xu Zhiwei's heart gradually calmed down. They seemed to have nothing to say, only general greetings.

Xu Zhiwei looked down at the time.Gu Heng immediately asked: "Going?"

In fact, there was still some time, but as if he was in a hurry, Xu Zhiwei followed him and said, "Yeah, I should go to the hotel."

"So……"

They said goodbye hurriedly, as if the encounter had been very inopportune.

Gu Heng hurriedly turned and left.Xu Zhiwei looked at the back, and a string in his heart snapped.

"Gu Heng!"

Gu Heng turned around.

Xu Zhiwei said, "Do you remember Maimai? It got sick and passed away."

Gu Heng was startled: "When did it happen?"

Xu Zhiwei said: "It was about this time last year. I didn't take many photos of it. I wonder if you still have photos and videos of it. Can you give me a copy?"

Gu Heng lowered his eyes with a calm expression: "No problem."

Then he turned and left.

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