faint star

At the beginning of April, Xu Zhiwei passed the pre-defense, and he got a short respite for a while, and the next step is to wait for the blind review of the thesis to pass.

On the day of passing the pre-defense, several students who were defending at the same time held a dinner party, and everyone went to eat hot pot together.Xu Zhiwei didn't drink much at the dinner party.The other brother got himself drunk, perhaps thinking of the hardships of holding back the thesis, the brother cried all the way back when he went back.

After getting off the taxi, Xu Zhiwei waited for a while and the burly old man was out of breath, so he could only call Meng Tianqi for help and tell him to come and take him back to the dormitory.

Xiao Meng immediately ran downstairs to meet Xu Zhiwei, and immediately put the weight of his drunken brother on his body.

He frowned from the smell of alcohol, but he still held him tightly, and just asked Xu Zhiwei: "Senior brother, you haven't drunk too much, have you?"

Xu Zhiwei was relieved when he saw Xiao Meng Ben coming over: "No, I only drank a small glass of beer."

Although Meng Tianqi was holding someone up, his eyes were beyond the person holding him, just staring at Xu Zhiwei: "It's good that you are not drunk. You said you don't have the energy to put someone up, I thought you were too drunk."

Xu Zhi smiled and said, "Are you laughing at my physical strength?"

Meng Tianqi chuckled: "I'm very happy to be able to help senior brother."

The two carried him back to the dormitory together, settled him down, and then went back to his own dormitory.

After posting with a drunk person for such a long time, Xu Zhiwei also smelled of alcohol, and immediately returned to the dormitory to take a shower.

Coming out of the bathroom, Xu Zhiwei saw that Meng Tianqi was not sitting at the desk reading a book or resting on the bed as usual - he was just standing there, as if waiting for him to come out.

Xu Zhiwei asked, "Do you want to use the bathroom?"

Meng Tianqi shook his head, but his face was tense, as if he had eaten something very sour, his nervousness was clear at a glance: "It's time for me to take a bath too. Senior brother, please don't sleep, I have something to tell you."

Before Xu Zhiwei could ask what was the matter, he got into the bathroom.

Xu Zhiwei thought that he also wanted to talk to Meng Tianqi.

In the past few months, he has been busy with his thesis, but it is not that he has not thought about it.In his tired spare time, when he couldn't fall asleep late at night, he would always involuntarily think about that matter——

Does he want to be with Meng Tianqi?

The answer to this question was tug-of-war in his mind.From "impossible, absolutely impossible" at the beginning, it gradually became "maybe there is a little possibility?"

Recently he finally made a decision, but he couldn't find a good time to speak up.

I don't know what Xiaomeng is going to say to him tonight, or if it's about this matter.

Meng Tianqi hurried out of the bathroom after taking a shower.Before he had time to dry off the water on his hair, the water dripped down the ends of his hair, but he didn't seem to notice it, his eyes were only on Xu Zhiwei.

Xu Zhiwei was also infected by his nervousness.

Before, he was so dazed and full of papers, but now he relaxed and noticed how hot Meng Tianqi's eyes were, which made his heart feel hot.

Oops.There was only one thought in his mind.

Meng Tianqi had already walked in front of Xu Zhiwei, he didn't speak, but just moved closer to Xu Zhiwei.

He was much taller than Xu Zhiwei, so close, Xu Zhiwei had to raise his eyes to look at him.This angle reminded him of another person, but Meng Tianqi's face did not experience setbacks, it was full of anger.

Xu Zhiwei couldn't help leaning back, but behind him was the desk.

Meng Tianqi lowered his head and stretched out his hand to gently caress Xu Zhiwei's cheek, his hand was trembling slightly: "Zhiwei, let's be together, really be together."

Xu Zhiwei held his apprentice's hand, and held it with both hands. He looked directly at the voice and said softly, "No."

He could clearly feel his hand trembling.

Meng Tianqi didn't lose his fighting spirit, he asked stubbornly, "Don't you like me?"

Xu Zhiwei must be honest at this time: "I like you very much. But..."

Meng Tianqi just looked at Xu Zhiwei, that look made Xu Zhiwei pause.

Just a "but" is enough to break the heart. The "but" was never followed by a dream come true.

Xu Zhiwei continued on: "If everything goes well, I will graduate soon. In school, maybe a ten-year age difference doesn't feel obvious. Leaving school is different. I hope you continue to walk your own path."

"I'm not an underage student, it's not that I haven't thought about my future," Meng Tianqi tried to calm his voice, "Are you worried that I won't be able to share the future with you?"

Xu Zhiwei shook his head, it was much easier to say something first.He knew he had done nothing wrong.

He said: "Have you really thought about it? I had dinner with your parents during the Chinese New Year. Your parents also said that you wanted to go abroad as a postdoctoral fellow after graduation. Our pace is different."

Meng Tianqi blurted out: "I've already thought about it! If you want to go abroad, we can stay abroad together. We can go to countries where same-sex marriages are possible!"

Xu Zhiwei stopped breathing for a second——Xiao Meng seemed to have casually said something that he had never dared to think about before.

"This is not a formal proposal, but it's all in my plan. If you don't want to go abroad, I won't go." Meng Tianqi blushed.

Xu Zhiwei let go of Meng Tianqi's hand, and he couldn't help rubbing his face.He believed in Xiaomeng's sincerity at the moment, which made him more firm in his thinking.

He asked quietly: "What if I am going to leave Beijing and go to another city to find a job?"

Meng Tianqi said very firmly: "I have thought about it. Whichever city you go to in the future, I will go to that city. You don't have to wait long, just wait for me for more than a year. I will enter the same hospital with you, even if I am not here same

A hospital, at least locally, will also find work.More than a year is fast! "

Xu Zhiwei fell into silence.There seemed to be two roads unfolding in front of him, two parallel worlds opened up for him.It was obvious to him which one he should choose.

"Don't you believe me?" Meng Tianqi asked.Like a wronged puppy, he finally couldn't help stretching out his arms to hug Xu Zhiwei.

"Trust me! I will chase you, go to the city you want to go, and live with you. I will not regret it." Meng Tianqi said softly.

Xu Zhiwei patted him on the back and signaled him to let go of himself: "You are only 23 years old, you should go further. Instead of disrupting the plan casually for the sake of feelings."

Meng Tianqi was dazzled by him: "Then let's go abroad together and get married abroad."

Xu Zhiwei said, "What about your parents?"

"We are abroad, and they don't care. Even if they are unhappy, they can't help it. When we get married for a long time, they can only admit the reality." Meng Tianqi is very decisive.

Xu Zhiwei thanked Xiao Meng for making up a beautiful dream for him, which could make such a person like him and confess his love, which in itself gave him some confidence.

"Xiao Meng, you are so kind," Xu Zhiwei also told him frankly, "It's my problem, I don't have the courage anymore. After finishing my Ph.D., I just want to work and live stably. But you are suitable for scientific research Lu, keep working hard."

He doesn't want to pay too much for anyone, so he also refuses others to pay for him.

Especially since Xiaomeng is so good, there will definitely be someone more suitable for him in the future.

That night he and Meng Tianqi chatted until midnight.On the way, Xiaomeng got angry and wrapped himself in the quilt without saying a word. After a while, he took the initiative to ask Xu Zhiwei: "Brother, I don't think you should think about the future so much. If you think you will be happy with me, then we should be together Together."

Xu Zhiwei felt that these words were familiar, and Gu Heng had also told him that they would be happy together.

But now he is calm about this, he said: "It's a pity I didn't meet you when I was 22."

"Meet me at the age of 22, will you like me?" Xiaomeng asked.

Xu Zhiwei comforted him: "Yes."

The night finally quieted down.

Afterwards, Xiaomeng still rushed to clean the dormitory as before.They were embarrassed for a week, and then gradually recovered, but it was impossible to be the same as before. If they accidentally met their eyes, Xiao Meng would immediately avoid it.Especially when eating, he will deliberately separate a seat, and the way of getting angry is like a primary school student.

When Xu Zhiwei sees Xiaomeng like this, he suddenly feels like a bad guy who has let down such a lovely junior.

He didn't expect to owe such a sum in the last few months of school.

Fortunately, graduation is just around the corner.

Xu Zhiwei left school the next day after attending the graduation ceremony.He has already signed a job and rent.His job is to be discussed between April and May

OK, still stay in Beijing.Originally, there was a job opportunity in my hometown, and the salary was relatively good. My aunt also asked him if he wanted to go back to work in his hometown after graduation.

After thinking for a while, Xu Zhiwei gave up visiting the hospital in his hometown.His school is in Beijing, and most of his interpersonal relationships with classmates, colleagues and friends are here, which is more helpful to his work.Compared with the fragmented and ungraspable family affection in his hometown, he chose a real job.

After the job was signed, he quickly rented the house again.When he returned the key card and electric card on the day he left school, he couldn't help feeling a little panicked.Meng Tianqi sent him to the side of the road and waited for the online car-hailing car with him.

"Brother, let me move with you." Meng Tianqi felt that his expression was not very good.

Xu Zhiwei refused: "There are not many things, I can tidy them up in a while."

At this time, the online car-hailing service arrived, Xu Zhiwei first put the cat bag in the back seat, then opened the suitcase and stuffed it in, with Xiaomeng helping.The two bid farewell in a hurry.

After the car started, Xu Zhiwei looked back, and Meng Tianqi was still standing on the side of the road, facing his direction.After a while, the car turned around the intersection, and Xiao Meng's figure disappeared.

Xu Zhiwei thought, he made a correct decision.

He was in the middle of chatting with the driver, when the phone rang suddenly, it was an old friend calling, Xu Zhiwei suddenly felt lighthearted, and he picked up the phone.

"Mr. Su?"

On the other end of the phone, Su Pei asked him with a smile, "Are you moving today? Is there any help? I just finished writing a script, and I've been free recently. I just don't know if it's inconvenient for you."

Xu Zhiwei was not polite to him, and immediately replied: "I'll go clean up first, how about you come over for dinner?"

Su Pei agreed.

He kept in touch with Xu Zhiwei and sometimes went to play near Xu Zhiwei's school.

After hanging up the phone, Xu Zhiwei became more emotional.He has lived in the dormitory safely and securely for three years, and this is the second time he has moved in three years.During the period before his Ph.D., he moved frequently.Especially the last time, moving became a shadow.

Today he really needs a friend to accompany him to overcome this shadow.

The house I rented this time is fully furnished and the landlord has cleaned it up.Xu Zhiwei took a break first and settled the cat down.Then I brought my two suitcases and some odds and ends and started tidying up. I was thinking about what needs to be added, and I will go to the nearby supermarket tomorrow.

Su Pei came earlier than the agreed time, and he brought Xu Zhiwei a beautiful bedside lamp as a gift for the new home.

"I just moved here thinking of you, and I need something to embellish."

Xu Zhiwei fell in love with that lamp immediately, it was exquisitely made and the light was soft.He immediately put it on the bedside to try it out, and it immediately made the bedroom much warmer.

The cat was also watching curiously. Xu Zhiwei was afraid that the cat would stretch out its claws, so he held it in his arms and went to the living room to chat with Su Pei.

they chatted for a while

Well, Xu Zhiwei suddenly remembered something: "By the way, there is something we agreed on before." He found a box, which contained a box of cigars.

Su Pei laughed: "Yes, we made an appointment before, and we will smoke one when you graduate."

Xu Zhiwei brewed tea, and Su Pei lit a cigar.

He couldn't help feeling: "Time is too fast..."

"I remember we met Gu Heng that time, is he still pestering you?" Su Pei asked.

Xu Zhiwei said: "No. I made it clear to him, he should give up."

Su Pei said: "Should he give up, or do you want him to give up?"

Xu Zhiwei took the cigar: "Mr. Su, don't be too picky about words."

Su Pei nodded to indicate that he would not pursue Gu Heng's matter anymore, and he asked instead: "You also rejected that little boy?"

Xu Zhiwei was not very upset about this matter: "Didn't you reject a boy who was much younger than you before? What was his name? I remember that guy was very handsome."

Su Pei said: "The situation is different from yours. The boy I met was just a fan of my book, and he obviously just had the mentality of being drunk today. I didn't want to make it too complicated, so I rejected him."

They chatted casually like this, and some things could be said easily.

Xu Zhiwei laughed at himself: "I also thought, why don't I be with him? He is young and capable, the only flaw is that he is too young, lacks social experience, and is a little impulsive, but isn't this kind of flaw more cute? He really OK……"

Su Pei smiled and asked, "So do you regret it? It's too late to regret it now."

Xu Zhiwei shook his head: "I'm just talking."

Su Pei played his analysis as a screenwriter: "You think a person is so good, but you still give up on him, there is only one reason - you don't like him that much, or you don't like him enough to choose him."

Xu Zhiwei lazily acquiesced.There is something missing between him and Xiaomeng, and he must hold it in front of Xiaomeng, he will always be that good brother.

"It doesn't need to be so precise in analysis...I just want to work now, and it's good to hang out with friends when I'm free," he said.

In the evening, senior sister Scarlett also came over and brought him a small green plant.A few people went to dinner together. During the meal, Xu Zhiwei had a few days of vacation before joining the company. Su Pei asked him if he wanted to go on a trip together.Xu Zhiwei hesitated for a moment, and said, "Next time, time is a little tight. And I just moved, so I don't worry about Mai Mai being home with a cat."

Scarlett counted her vacation, she said that there was a chance for everyone to form a larger group to go out and play together, and go to farther places.

After dinner, Xu Zhiwei broke up with his friends and went to the supermarket again. He bought a lot of odds and ends and went home to replenish his daily necessities.He just took a shower and rested, sat on the bed and turned on the computer. Although the room was still a little strange, he opened the

There is a bedside lamp, and there are small green plants under the window sill, but his heart is much more relaxed.

Mai Mai wandered into the room and meowed a few times under the bed.Now the bed in this room is relatively high, and it cannot jump on it.Xu Zhiwei didn't want him to go to bed at first - he needed high-quality sleep to keep his energy.But when Mai Mai meowed, Xu Zhiwei softened his heart, and he stretched out his arms to Mai Mai: "You can only go to bed for these two days, and you can't go to bed when I go to work."

He was stroking the Maimai, and it snorted comfortably after being squeezed into the other half of the quilt.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-03-2902:21:20~2021-04-0523:15:32期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the shallow water bomb: Master Situ 1;

Thanks to the little angel who cast the rocket launcher: yukino, 1 for seven meters;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 2 for Shen Zhou who couldn’t get it; 1 for Seven Nights and Ah Jin;

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