faint star

Because of Gu Heng's leg pain, he often needed physical therapy and massage, but each time it only had a temporary effect and could not really relieve the pain.

Seeing his haggard look, Ruan Ziang knew that he must be unwell, and suggested that he rest here and call the doctor.

Gu Heng refused: "Not here. I will go to the hospital."

He didn't want to call the doctor to the apartment.The less outsiders come here, the better, because this place belongs exclusively to his and Xu Zhiwei's memories, and he doesn't want unimportant people to step into it.

Seeing his insistence, Ruan Ziang said, "Okay, then I'll make an appointment for you?"

Gu Heng nodded: "Let's make an appointment tomorrow."

He got up and went to the bathroom, washed his face, tidied up, and was about to leave.When he came out of the bathroom, he saw Ruan Ziang staring at "Scent".

Sensing Gu Heng's gaze, Ruan Ziang quickly said: "Ah, I've heard people mention this work before, but I didn't expect to see it here... It's really good, it's a pity not to exhibit it."

Gu Heng was in a bad mood, expressionless: "This has nothing to do with you."

Ruan Zi'ang's expression froze and he stopped talking.

After going downstairs and getting into the car, Gu Heng saw Ruan Ziang's cautious expression, afraid of saying the wrong thing again.

He realized that his attitude just now was too indifferent and domineering.He instantly remembered how his parents treated employees, which was exactly the kind of attitude he hated the most.

He didn't mean that just now, he just didn't want to reveal his emotional experience to his subordinates.

He explained to Ruan Ziang: "This apartment is completely my private space, so I was a little emotional just now. I hope you don't mind. You have to work overtime at this time, it's hard work."

Ruan Ziang's expression became much lighter immediately, but he just smiled and nodded at Gu Heng: "I understand."

On the way back, the driver drove, and Ruan Ziang sat in the passenger seat and reported to Gu Heng the work of the past few days.

Gu Heng sat alone in the back seat, and he fell asleep while listening.He has never lost interest in work like he does now.Not only the Gu family's business, but also the photography and film careers that he has always loved, especially the promotional work, made him feel tired.

He knew that something was wrong with him, not only his legs, but also his physical body, and even his mental state.

If this is a chess game, he was checkmate by himself.

He was stuck in this endless emotional hell, and every step he took was wrong.

The next day he went to the hospital for physical therapy. After the end, he pressed his leg and listened to the doctor's advice.

"Have you considered seeing a psychiatrist?" suggested the doctor who helped him recover.

Gu Heng was very familiar with this doctor, he said with a wry smile, "I can't find the psychiatrist I want to find."

"Who is so famous?"

Gu Heng smiled, but did not answer.

When I'm with Xu Zhiwei, the comfortable feeling is addictive.But the longer the breakup, the more uncertain he was that those caring and comfortable things were all because of Xu Zhi.

Wei Wei's natural instinct, or because he really loves him.When Xu Zhiwei was with him, how much did he expect? Did he digest a lot of grievances?He can't think about these problems, as long as he thinks about it, he will be dragged into regret.

He still wanted to meet Xu Zhiwei and have a good talk with him.

That night, he suffered from insomnia again. Even though he drank a lot of wine, he still couldn't fall asleep.

He looked at the time, it was just after midnight.Xu Zhiwei may have fallen asleep at this time, or he may still be writing a thesis.

Some words are hard to say, maybe it's better to send a message.

"The question you asked me a few days ago, I want to tell you that no matter what happens in the future, as long as you need me, I will be there."

After saying this, he held his phone and waited for a while, but there was no reply from Xu Zhiwei.

He was a little frustrated and couldn't help being anxious, and added - "Whether it's a friend or any other status, it's up to you to decide."

"Zhiwei, did you see it?"

After thinking about it, I still have to pretend to be pitiful, so I add another sentence.

"If you see it, please reply me, don't ignore me."

Xu Zhiwei came out of the bathroom after taking a shower. He wiped the water off his hair, and when he heard the voice of the message on the phone, he picked it up to take a look.

The string of information about his ex-boyfriend who seemed to have drunk too much came into view.

His tiredness from staying up all night flew away in a flash, and he came back inexplicably.He didn't understand Gu Heng more and more. He didn't realize that this person would pretend to be crazy before.

What's more, it's not cute for a man in his thirties to pretend to be stupid.

He replied: "I see."

"I was quite excited that day, and I was a little out of words."

"What I'm really saying is that we should all start anew and not be tied down by the past. There's no point in that."

"It's good for each other."

He let out these words with a long sigh of relief.

Gu Heng was holding the phone, his hands trembled when he heard the notification tone, but when he saw Xu Zhiwei's reply, his heart felt cold again.Those few words did not respond to his statement of "willing to be a spare tire", and the distance was clearly drawn.

His struggles for the past few days have been completely useless.

But since he has already made up his mind, it is impossible to give up like this.Taking a closer look, I feel that Xu Zhiwei's reply is not completely hopeless.

It seems that Xu Zhiwei is not with Meng Tianqi yet, and it won't be so soon.

He still has hope.

"You're right, but I speak from the heart."

"Maybe you won't trust me as easily as before, but I still want to tell you that I'm waiting for you. Waiting for you to trust me."

He simply went all out: "Zhiwei, can we chat like this often? It would be better if we could talk face to face."

Xu Zhiwei quickly replied: "How much did you drink?"

Gu Heng didn't know whether his sentence was a condemnation or a mockery, so he cheekily sent a voice message.

"I didn't drink much, do you hear my voice, do you sound drunk?"

Xu Zhiwei replied: "

You should see a psychiatrist. "

He didn't want to continue arguing with Gu Heng like this.

It stands to reason that like him, in his thirties, without a house, still trying to graduate with a Ph.D., single, without father and mother, without family support as a backing, he is still living well.Even if I found out that the person I love doesn't love me, I still came here.

Gu Heng can get whatever he wants, why can't he accept that some things in life just don't go his way?Or is it because you have what you want, so you don't refuse to accept reality?

Xu Zhiwei felt that if he hadn't been too familiar with Gu Heng and was a fan of the authorities, he might be able to use Gu Heng as a good example.

He fell asleep thinking about this question.

The next morning, Gu Heng sent another message to Xu Zhiwei, saying that he did drink last night, but what he said was from the bottom of his heart, please Xu Zhiwei not to take those drunken words.

Xu Zhiwei didn't reply to him again.

Not long after the official start of school, Gu Heng's documentary began to be filmed in the school.The film crew will be filming in the school. In spring, there are several beautiful places in the school, which are worth shooting.

This caused a little commotion among the student body.At noon that day, almost every group was spreading the word "Gu Heng is filming near our school cafeteria!"

Although I don't know the exact source of the news, and I don't know which cafeteria it is, but everyone wants to see this handsome director who is worth billions, and he always has to eat at noon anyway, so several cafeterias are full of people at noon.

Xu Zhiwei received Meng Tianqi's news in advance, so he didn't go to the cafeteria.

They stayed in the laboratory building and ate something.

Meng Tianqi bought bread, sandwiches and fruit at the supermarket.

The two of them had a simple lunch while basking in the sun on the big steps below the laboratory building.

"I don't know what's so good about Gu Heng, isn't it just two eyes and one mouth." Meng Tianqi didn't like Gu Heng, and he criticized Gu Heng mercilessly.

Xu Zhiwei was very tolerant of this, and just smiled: "Everyone is just curious, after all, they are celebrities."

Meng Tianqi: "If you look around, you can't see anything."

He glanced at his mobile phone: "Today's cafeteria is probably the best day for business since the beginning of school."

Xu Zhi smiled: "Maybe it's the news from the cafeteria."

Meng Tianqi looked at him, and suddenly asked, "What kind of person is Gu Heng?"

Xu Zhiwei took a bite of the sandwich and didn't know how to answer for a moment.

"I want to know," Meng Tianqi said frankly, "I think you must be different from others, seeing his background and fame. What did you like about him?"

His eyes are shining, in the midday sun, like the leading actor in an idol drama.

Xu Zhiwei's memories were instantly brought back, and of course he remembered everything between him and Gu Heng.But suddenly he was asked to summarize why he was captured by Gu Heng.

A little bit of attraction, he was actually stuck on this question.

As he recalled, he said: "I liked him at first, maybe because I thought he was special. He was different from others in school, and he was more mature than others. At that time, everyone was busy preparing for the college entrance examination, and it seemed that they seldom thought about the future. how."

Meng Tianqi took a big sip of his drink: "That's it?"

Xu Zhi smiled and nodded: "It's enough for ordinary students."

Meng Tianqi looked at his profile: "You are not ordinary at all.

Xu Zhiwei said: "At that time, I also felt that I was not ordinary, but after I went to university, I knew that there were people out there, and there were too many amazing people in school. I am now studying for a Ph. D., and I also consider my work experience."

Meng Tianqi fell into deep thought, the two of them were silent for a few seconds, Meng Tianqi asked again: "So, you liked Gu Heng back then, is it that simple?"

Xu Zhiwei said, "Probably."

There is one thing he didn't say - he also looks at the face, Gu Heng's face is impeccable.

But in order to maintain his image in front of Xiao Meng, he didn't say anything.

Looking back now, in the boring review of the third year of high school, there were more complicated pressures hidden. At that time, it seemed that anything could happen. In that environment, it was not surprising to have love for anyone.

Meng Tianqi was still unconvinced after thinking about it: "After listening to it this way, I feel that Gu Heng is just lucky. I knew that I should take the scientific research route when I was 15 years old. How come no one praised me for being mature."

Xu Zhiwei didn't comment on this sentence, he just smiled, just in time to change the subject and talk about Meng Tianqi's mentor.

The relationship between him and Xiaomeng is in a kind of chaos now, they are definitely not lovers, but they are closer than ordinary brothers in private.But they haven't had any further "interaction" yet.Xiaomeng would be very nervous when he wanted to shake his hand sometimes.

Only first love can be so green.

He knew that he should have a good talk with Xiao Meng, but recently he was busy with his thesis and didn't know where to start.Perhaps it was because he himself was also wavering in his heart.

The atmosphere is good at the moment, they chat and eat casually.Not far away, there are still silly juniors rushing to the cafeteria, making noise all the way, as energetic as the small animals awakened in spring.

"I can really run..." Xu Zhiwei unconsciously sighed.

Meng Tianqi glanced at the news in the group again: "Everyone didn't see what they said, they were tricked."

Gu Heng didn't show up on campus that day, but everyone later found out that Gu Heng's new movie was shown in the school auditorium on Saturday night, and somehow it was spread that Gu Heng came to school.

On Saturday night, although there were many people going to the movies, the order was good.

Xu Zhiwei didn't go to the movies, he didn't want to join in the excitement, and had other arrangements.

Before the holiday, his mentor told him that Gu Heng wanted to film some content about his mentor's mentor, and asked Xu Zhiwei to be in charge of contacting him.

This Saturday afternoon, he arranged with Gu Heng's crew to take them to the faculty dormitory building and the old professor's house to shoot.The production crew was low-key and quiet. In order not to disturb the elderly as much as possible, Gu Heng took the camera himself and only brought the least number of people into the dormitory.

In the narrow elevator, several people plus equipment filled the elevator to the brim.

Gu Heng and Xu Zhiwei stood together, their shadows were reflected in the elevator wall, their shoulders almost touched each other.

In just a few dozen seconds, Gu Heng seemed to go back to the past. Whenever Xu Zhiwei was free, he would go to his studio and lie on his back to watch him edit the film.He couldn't help turning his face to the side, looking at Xu Zhiwei.

Xu Zhiwei had a calm expression on his face, and didn't return his gaze.

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