overdue love

The oil paintings at the corner of the ladder are all related to me.

It's just that I had nothing to do with this family.

I put it away and felt upset. If I took all the things I bought away, I might not know when I would pack them up, so I just didn’t want them. I put two sets of suits in, and put in the usual daily necessities. The box is only half filled, but I think it is enough.

That's it, Qi Xiaoyun doesn't want to throw away other things, or give them away, it's up to him, he can do whatever he wants.

I was open-minded when I suddenly heard the sound of the door opening. The bedroom door was not closed. I turned around and came out and saw Qi Xiaoyun's tall figure. He was changing shoes at the entrance, and he called me without raising his head, "Xinxin, I'm hungry." .”

I held the door frame of the bedroom with my hands, and wanted to say to Qi Xiaoyun that we should break up, but my lips opened and closed, but I couldn't make a sound. I only felt that there was a flood of sadness hitting me, and tears rolled down in an instant.

I really want to ask Qi Xiaoyun, in the past so many days and nights, even if it was because the food I cooked was delicious, because I stayed up late waiting for you to come home, because I lay in bed obediently and let you fiddle with it, because everything is good, you have Didn't you really like me at all?

But I can't ask. If I ask, I have to talk about everything. It's too ugly. I don't want to be so ugly.

I raised my hand to wipe away my tears, and told him that I would serve him a bowl of noodles.

Treat it as the last bowl of Jianxing noodles. After eating this meal, we return to the bridge and return to the road.

The noodles are boiled in chicken soup, I also beat him an egg, and added two slices of green vegetables and a handful of chopped green onions.

Qi Xiaoyun ate deliciously, and the warm wall lamp shone on his face, making him homely and friendly, as if he could reach it with one hand, but the moon that can be reached is the moon in the water, and the moon in the water is empty, that is fake .

A bowl of noodles was about to bottom out, Qi Xiaoyun picked up the bowl and took a sip of chicken soup.

"Qi Xiaoyun," I said softly, afraid of waking up my dream, "Let's break up."

With a "click", the chopsticks in Qi Xiaoyun's hand fell down. He seemed to have not heard clearly or did not understand. He looked at me with a confused face and asked me what I said.

There are many things that are difficult to say even after saying them again and again. For example, I love you, but some words are not afraid of being said again. I raised my hand to wipe off the drop of soup splashed on Qi Xiaoyun's face, and said to him, "Qi Xiaoyun, let's break up."

The living room was very quiet, and it started to rain tick-tock outside, as if it fit the occasion, every drop echoed in my heart.

Qi Xiaoyun was silent for a while and asked me why.

Why, because you lied to me, because you don't love me, because you obviously don't love me but still say you love me, because I love you.

I said, "We're not a good fit."

Qi Xiaoyun asked relentlessly, "Where is it inappropriate?"

Where is it inappropriate?It doesn't fit anywhere.

Qi Xiaoyun is the sun in the sky and the moon in the night sky, you can tell at a glance that he is unique and dazzling, but I am different, I can only be regarded as the most inconspicuous star at best, there are thousands of people like me, I'm not the one that can't be copied.

I lowered my eyes and looked at the table, and I said, Qi Xiaoyun, don't do this.

After hearing this, Qi Xiaoyun looked at me expressionlessly for a while, then suddenly laughed, reached out and grabbed my chin, and asked me what was wrong, Xinxin?

I faintly felt that there was some danger, but it was too late to retreat.

He raised my chin to kiss me, and his other hand got in from the hem of my clothes, first it walked up on my body, and then slowly lowered it.

I struggled and fell backwards, Qi Xiaoyun hugged me, and asked what was wrong, Xinxin?

I didn't expect Qi Xiaoyun's reaction when he heard me say we broke up. I thought he would nod his head in agreement, or he would refuse, but no matter what it is, it shouldn't be like the watery eyes in front of me. Little by little, he leaned towards me and asked me, what's not suitable, Xinxin?

As if, as if he really liked me.

But it’s also true, he said that a cat and a dog will have feelings after a long time, let alone me as a person?

Qi Xiaoyun may have some affection for me, for example, he poured into me the love and care that the owner has for pets.

Qi Xiaoyun carried me to the bedroom. I fell into the soft mattress and kissed him, feeling him peeling off my clothes and kissing my skin. The strength in his hands was not heavy, but he didn't allow me to escape.

I opened my eyes and looked at the dim ceiling, feeling that I would not be unacceptable if it ended like this, so I took the initiative to put a sticker on him, Qi Xiaoyun was stunned by my response, and persistently said to me, Xinxin, we are suitable.

Where is it suitable?Is it suitable to be a pet, a lover, or a gun?

I didn't respond, I just stood up and kissed his eyes.

……

Qi Xiaoyun was a bit ruthless at night. When I woke up the next day, I felt like my whole body was going to fall apart. The sun was shining on my face through the half-closed curtains, and I knew it was getting late.

I touched my phone and saw that it was already noon, and Qi Xiaoyun sent me a WeChat message, saying that he had asked for leave for me, and asked me to rest at home, and we can talk about any issues, and we can talk about it when he comes back.

There's nothing to talk about, it's really ugly to talk about whether you like it or not when you're already such an adult, not to mention that our beginning itself is ugly.

As for other things, I don't think we have anything to talk about.

I didn't reply to his WeChat, changed my mobile phone password, got up and took a shower, dragged the suitcase I packed yesterday from behind the bedroom door, put the car keys on the coffee table, and then left.

4. Expired Love (Qi Xiaoyun)

Our family is a typical combination of a loving mother and a strict father. My dad has been very strict with me since I was a child. Although I didn’t get to the point where he would beat me up if I didn’t do well in exams, I was never allowed to be ambiguous in serious matters.

I have no say in choosing liberal arts and sciences in high school, majors in college, and working in a company after graduation. Although my life is my own, my dad always makes the choice for me.

So when I found out that I like men, my first reaction was: it's over, my dad is going to be mad at me.

But Chen Sheng said, my dad probably wouldn't be mad at me, at best he would hang me up and beat me up, and it would be fine when I figured out how to repent.

How can something like sexual orientation be changed just by changing it?Not to mention that my dad hanged me up and beat me up, even if he kicked me out of the company and made me live on the street, I can only pick up junk for money to live on. of.

I was a little worried and didn't know whether to tell my family and what to say.

"Why is it so troublesome, just go with the flow, haven't you met the right one yet? Let's talk when we do."

Chen Sheng asked me to come to the bar to accompany him to drink, but because I was allergic to alcohol, the specific process became that he drank, I drank, and when he was drunk, I sent him home.

Seeing my sad face, unable to drink anymore, Chen Sheng couldn't help but say, "Your father is not easy to talk to, but you are the only one in your family, what else can he do to you?"

"I can't do anything about it." The worst result is to beat me up and let me go out to support myself. I have been strictly controlled for more than 20 years. This kind of life is what I wish for, but, "If I have a partner, my dad can treat me The object starts, do you understand what I mean?"

Chen Sheng thought for a while and agreed with me, "I think your father is indeed this kind of person."

I sighed, feeling that my love journey was bumpy, and I could see the end before it even started.

"Then why don't you just find one first?" Chen Sheng took a sip of his wine, "Then drag him to your dad's place to get out of the closet. If you split up, you'll split up. You don't like it anyway. Wait until you find something you like. Take it back, when your father knows he can't persuade you, he won't care about you."

I drank my saliva and didn't say anything. Chen Sheng's idea was barely considered, but it was a bad idea. It's okay if he didn't know in the end. If he knew, he might hate me for half his life.

But it seems not bad to be hated by such a person for half a lifetime.

This was the first thought that crossed my mind when I saw Cheng Shuxin when I went to the company to see them discuss cooperation the next day.

His eyes are very beautiful, like crystal-clear amber, or stars shining in the dark night, one glance makes people unconsciously shaken, and they want to straighten it up and make a good impression on him.

I have never liked anyone before this, and I never believe in love at first sight, so the only thing I can think of for a while is the most recent thing——

If Chen Sheng's bad idea must be put into practice, then the only person who can put it into practice is Cheng Shuxin.

In this way, with inexplicable joy and anticipation that I don't know why, I approached him little by little.

On the day when the business ended, people in both companies were very happy, but I couldn't quite laugh. Cheng Shu and I broke up when the business ended here, and there was no reason for us to meet in the future.

So I was impulsive once in a while, taking advantage of the darkness of night, I confessed to Cheng Shuxin.

He couldn't see it himself, maybe he didn't know it, because of my unprepared sudden attack, his face and ears were completely red, but he still tried to pretend to be calm, so cute.

I felt better all of a sudden, and I said that I don't need to give me an answer immediately, let him go back to rest early, and have a good dream. Of course, it would be even better if I could appear in his dream.

I have been chasing Cheng Shuxin for more than a month, and apart from work, I can talk to him a few words, and make an appointment to have a meal with him, but there is no substantial progress.

The turning point was an accident, I did not expect that our two companies