Zihan and Yijing

After sending good night, I waited for a while and didn't get a reply. I turned on my phone repeatedly, and the light from the screen hurt my eyes.

On the day of the light show, I saw Wang Yijing with a girl. They seemed to be quite close. I understand that it is normal for her to have her own friends, but it still makes me feel sad that she hangs out with other people and doesn’t ask me out. .

I didn't know about the light show, but I happened to pass by it when I was out for a walk, and I went in to have a look out of curiosity. I knew she wasn't just my friend, she hated the usual things when she asked others to hang out, but she just couldn't be reconciled The feeling flooded in my heart.

This feeling is very familiar, it is the feeling when your friends are taken away by others when you are a child, and the friendship of girls is also full of possessiveness. People want each other to be the only special in each other's eyes.But when I got older, I didn't have this kind of feeling anymore. The familiar feeling came back again, and I was no longer a child. Why would I still be like this?Do I want to be her best friend?

She is indeed my best friend with me, friendship cannot be forced, she is the best with me, but I may not be in this position with her.After much deliberation, I felt that my stomach was starting to hurt, and I quickly turned around and left. The joy of being with her during the holidays suddenly disappeared.

So I stopped looking for her recently. I felt that my world was extremely lonely, but she slowly came in and made me feel the happiness of being understood and cherished. This feeling was like magic. To have been wasting time in a dull life, and now to have a happy time in company, is like having a box filled with light that illuminates a gray house in all its splendor, and suddenly snapping the box shut On, and the dream woke up, there are no fairy tales, no ugly duckling turns into a swan, and the ugly duckling will always be an ugly duckling, no adventure stories, no unicorns, no new world, people just work hard in their own three-acre land ,endless.As futile as the man who keeps moving the stone.

I feel like my story is over.

No one helped me escape from the prison-like campus life, and I had to go back to the past, to the days of passing time with fantasies, to the depressing schoolwork, to the stinky faces of teachers and the indifference of classmates.

Physical education class came, I sat in my usual seat, saw the scene coming towards me, I haven’t seen it for several days, I found my blood rushed to my face, I don’t know if it was red, and then I I got up quickly and wanted to escape. I really couldn't explain my actions, which were not under the control of my brain, and then she grabbed my sleeve decisively.

"Where are you going in a hurry? Take me with you." She still didn't notice my mood, and she still treated me with the same attitude as before, and it was hard for me to express my inner thoughts, saying "No, I'm not going anywhere."

She began to tell me little things about Sui Sui Nian.

"When I saw your message that day, I wanted to say good night, but I was too sleepy and unable to send it. Thank you for your homework, which allowed me to escape the disaster. Also, after the day we played together, I saw There will be a lot of delicious snacks at the lights, if the stall has not been dismantled, we can go shopping together."

My mind was numb, and I muttered vaguely to perfunctory the past. I usually babble with her about many inconspicuous things, but today I didn’t speak. As if you did something sorry for me, you used silence to express my unwillingness.

"I'm so tired recently, and I can't escape the evening self-study. I was scolded by the head teacher last time. If I skip class again, I will invite my parents."

"It's really slow." I sighed, "Go talk to someone else, I will be a little tired."

"No, you seem a little unhappy today? You haven't come to see me recently? Did I offend you?" She finally realized what was wrong and asked me.

"I saw you at the light show with others."

"Well, wait, what's this?"

"It's nothing."

I stood up again, but she didn't get up, and I strode forward. I remember running away from home when I was a child. When I was emotional, I would break away from the constraints of my parents and walk far away on the street. I don't go back either, but I will look back soon after I leave, to see

See if the parents have caught up. If not, suddenly meeting the crowd of strangers with a small body, and losing the protection of adults, you will suddenly feel panic and uncomfortable. Has she caught up?If she catches up, I'll tell her how I feel.As I thought about it, I turned around a little bit and found that she was still looking at me where she was. She looked at me for a while, and she waved to me.After hesitating for a while, I went back again.

"Are you angry? Angry that I'm with someone else?" She interpreted, this is indeed true, but it's embarrassing to say it, I can't admit it, so I turned cold and told her, "No."

"Then what is it that makes you unhappy?"

"I might not be your best friend."

I blurted out, my voice was a bit hoarse, I was surprised even myself, my eyes were so sore, tears filled, I raised my head and covered my eyes with the palm of my hand to wipe the tears before they fell out, not wanting her to see me crying.

"the best……"

"You want to be my best friend, don't you?"

She emphasized every word.

I nodded.

She looked like she was thinking about something, and said solemnly, "The best friends are all for a period of time. I can only say that I have never made any best friends."

Then he smiled at me, touched the corners of my eyes lightly, and said: "Don't think too much, we are already good friends, I was invited by others to the Lantern Festival, if I knew the existence of the Lantern Festival, I should be the first Will think of you."

Then he sighed and said, "Why do you always look like a silly child. Tell me if you are unhappy, why do you think about it alone."

"I……"

"You must discuss anything with me in the future. I will carefully consider your mood and your thoughts."

I suddenly felt more at ease, as if my doubts and uncertainties were temporarily confirmed, but then I thought of a sad story, a girl always survived on a turbulent ship, she was not sure that she was It was safe. Later, she got together with a boy and boarded the boy's boat. The boat was stable and steady, but she didn't believe it. She always doubted it. She used various methods to test the strength of the boat, and almost capsized the boat. The boy broke up with her and asked her to disembark.

In fact, she did not make any mistakes this time, it was just me losing my temper for no reason.What is the difference between me and the girl who tried repeatedly.

"Sorry, I'm a little impulsive."

I apologize.

"There's nothing to apologize for, you're right."

"No, I still have to apologize, and I will calm down in the future."

"Well, let's shake hands and make peace."

She reached out, shook mine, and pulled me up. "Smile at me to prove that you are not angry anymore."

How can I laugh when I just cried?It's too difficult.

I forced a grin.

This is the first time we are unhappy. I understand that it is impossible for people to interact without conflict, but I don't want this kind of conflict to happen between us.I lost my temper but got comfort. This kind of special treatment made me feel warm and touched.Everyone longs to be favored and taken care of, to be forgiven for making troubles without reason, and to be tolerant.Yijing's tenderness to me made me feel like a spring breeze, and I was more convinced of my feelings not long after I first met her. I didn't expect that this vortex had swallowed me up and plunged into my heart.It seems that when fate wrote each chapter, it also laid the foreshadowing early.