typhoon transit

Someone asked: When was human being born?Someone answered: When the first ape had wisdom.Someone asked again: What is the sign of wisdom?Everyone has different opinions and various hypotheses emerge in endlessly.I agree with Mr. Arthur Clark that the sign of the birth of wisdom is the birth of lies.

And I was thinking, what makes human beings become advanced animals is that the great deception invented by human beings can even deceive themselves.

And now we can talk about the foundation of love, which I think has something to do with lies.

So in the anger, confusion and disappointment at that moment, I took Chang Qiao's feelings for me that I could understand as a lie, otherwise I would not be able to find the courage to stand on tiptoe at the moment when I was about to say goodbye to her. tiptoe to kiss her.

At that time, my mind was empty, and a desire hit my whole body. I desperately wanted to prove something, but I knew that the end would end in failure.But at that time I couldn't feel my own existence, a kind of primitive consciousness tended to draw me close to her lips.I feel her tightly closed lips, and what is interesting is that the kiss in reality is no different from the touch in my dream, just a brief touch between skins, like a child kissing its mother.

Looking back on it later, I still don’t want to admit that this was my first kiss. There was no trembling, no shuddering, no wandering like a virgin after losing her virginity, and it was business as usual.I even checked my watch after letting go of her, to count the time to get home.

No, night is falling, dinner time is half past, and I have to run and run home.So I left Chang Qiao, who was in a daze, and ran outside without looking back.

I heard her calling me, but she didn't call me by my name or my nickname, she just said "Hi", as if reminding the stranger to pick up his wallet.And I did stop and turn around to look at her, her face was blurred in the dim light of the courtyard, I wasn't quite sure what I saw on her face, and once again I felt The flow of time, from that moment on, when I was with her, my time was no longer in a static state, and I could clearly hear the sound of them flying past my ears.

She just stopped me and said nothing more, so I left.

Later, when Ah Jiang and I went out to eat ice cream, I mentioned this incident, and she squirted back the watermelon smoothie she had just eaten.

"Congratulations, Xu Jinghe."

I held up my hands in a gesture of surrender.

"She's not angry with you, which means she has feelings for you." A Jiang gestured with her fingers in a range, and I think she was describing to me the size of Chang Qiao's "feeling" for me.

"I don't think she's angry," I pulled out a tissue to wipe the smoothie off the table, "it's just that she forgave me."

"Master of pessimism, please show a little confidence." A Jiang put on a thief's expression, "You are not bad, not bad at all."

"Well, I know." I looked out the window, not paying much attention to what A Jiang said.

"If you want to make a breakthrough," Ah Jiang pointed to my nose with a finger, "you have to take further actions."

"Why," I glanced at her, "Can't the Overlord force his bow?"

"Why not?"

"Thank you, ancestor, please shut up."

"Xu Jinghe, let me tell you, "Okay, start telling me the philosophy of life, "You were too obedient in the first half of your life, so that you missed too many beautiful things. In this world, you can't just listen to what other people say. Have a good time, you have to think about what you want."

"Okay, I understand." I saw a blue bird fly by, I've never seen this kind of bird here, and all I could think about was where it came from.

"So you know what you're going to do?"

"You said."

Ah Jiang came up to me and snapped his fingers at me. "Again."

"Why," I came back to my senses, "Did Xiao Sang chase you like that back then?"

"Not at all."

"Then what do you have to say?"

Well, I admit my bad attitude, and immediately apologized to Ah Jiang in the next second, but she didn't care.

"Little girl, really awesome people never apologize."

I clasped my hands together and made a gesture of worship. This feeling became stronger and stronger. A Jiang and Chang Qiao were really sisters in the previous life.She has always been a cool person, as if she knows everything, as if the world is in her hands, everyone is her friend, and everyone is willing to tell her all the secrets.I'm so glad she took time out of her busy summer vacation to sit with me on this dry afternoon just out of plums in this roadside ice shop and listen to my uninteresting love story, she's my best friend , and maybe my only friend, for whom I am grateful.

"Do you think love is respect?" Ah Jiang suddenly dropped her joking tone, and I think she seemed to be saying something seriously, "Does love mean respect? Just kidding."

"Love is earned, like an exam, you know? Your self-righteous respect for the happiness of others is just making excuses for your cowardice."

"Xiao Sang and I, when we were together, he told me about our future." She smiled, "It's strange, after that, we will reach the age to think about the future."

"I thought about many possibilities with him at the time, but later I felt that most of them were not good, so I stopped discussing them. Hahaha."

I looked at her with my chin up, and felt from the bottom of my heart that she was an amazing person, things that I didn't want to see, I closed my eyes, as if they could disappear.People despise this kind of person, but I am in awe of her.

"So you don't have the right to discuss things that you haven't experienced. You do it first, they really happen, and the consequences really appear. Then you think about whether it's worth it."

Ah Jiang went to pay, I looked at the calendar on the wall of the ice shop, and after thinking about it, the grades will come out immediately, and the next step is the admission letter, and then I will leave here and go to another completely unfamiliar city , I will bid farewell to everyone in the past, and we may never meet again for the rest of my life.Time flies so fast, I think back to that kiss again, and suddenly realize that many things end in a blink of an eye.

In the next second, I almost ran to the same Changqiao’s house, and Ah Jiang yelled behind me, asking where I was going, and I replied to her, looking for someone.I think she can understand me.

When I rushed into Chang Qiao's house, her mother was tidying up the table on the first floor. I stopped abruptly, said hello to her, and then quickly ran upstairs to Chang Qiao's room.The moment I opened the door, she turned and looked at me. I can't describe the expression on her face. It was a bit similar to the embarrassment and anxiety on the day we first met. At that moment, I suddenly forgot what I should say , I think I must be funny at that moment, with trembling hands, erratic eyes, and dizziness.

"Do you have anything to say?" Chang Qiao sighed, but spoke first.

"Are you reading Shakespeare?"

I have no idea why I said that at the time, I just caught a glimpse of "Simberlin" in her hand, and suddenly Shakespeare popped into my mind.

She shrugged and waved the book in her hand to me, expressing her acquiescence.

"Do you remember that Luo Zhuli said, if you love me, please tell me sincerely."

Chang Qiao was obviously dizzy by me, she nodded first, then shook her head vigorously. "So what are you going to say?"

"If what Mr. Shakespeare said is right, then I first apologize to you." Well, I found that the most important work of my life is to apologize for what I have done, whether it is wrong or right, "I have no sincerity tell you."

I didn't say I love you, and I won't, and I'm not worthy enough to tell her that.But I think she'll know what I mean.

If I'm not mistaken, Chang Qiao did indeed smile a bit.

"I accept your apology," she said.

Well, as the author of the question, I am now being turned against the generals, and I am still stuck in this reading comprehension question. I can't figure it out. I think it is the vacation of more than half a month that has made my brain rigid. , has been unable to think about the logic and intention of what she said.

So I began to think about Luo Zhu. Hundreds of years later, people re-examined this love and began to criticize it as a fanatical impulse in their youth, rather than love itself.I have doubts about this, maybe we think we know too much, so we think that all concepts in this world must be extremely complicated, so that it is more in line with our arrogant self-esteem.

If I will become full of remorse and regret because of this kiss in the days to come, then I think Xia Tian is the sinner.

This scene was actually very funny. Looking back later, I ran towards her like a hungry tiger, and pushed her down on the bed with inertia. I grabbed her face and kissed her, and her hands fluttered like drowning. But it doesn't seem to push me away.

I was thinking about the judo stance in judo, using my leg to pin down her leg, preventing her from sitting up straight.I kissed and gnawed, I admit, this kiss was the same as the first time, not very good, as if I would fail in everything I did, I let go of her with my frustration and instinctive awareness of breathing lips, lying on her side to the left.

The annoying flies hit the screen window for a while, and hovered in my ears for a while, so that most of my impressions of this summer afternoon were disturbed.I was panting, like a boxer who has been knocked down in the ring, lying sprawled on my back, waiting for someone to show me mercy.Chang Qiao was very kind. She leaned over when I was about to be judged by the referee to lose the game, and sat sideways on my body.

Her cheek was very close to mine, and I half-closed my eyes to look at her. "First of all, my crotch hurts right now."

"sorry."

"Second, my lips too."

"Feel sorry."

"Third, kissing is something that needs to be learned, and you obviously haven't gotten started yet."

"is it?"

"Yes, but you are lucky, I am willing to teach you."

"Then come."

"But before that, Xu Jinghe, I have to tell you one thing."

"You say it."

I know what she's going to say, and it's okay, it doesn't matter what she says.

"You are a very good person, Jing He, you are so kind." She held my shoulders, "You know, after that incident, no one wants to talk to me, only you treat me as always."

"Ah."

"You are my very good friend, really, there is no one else who would treat me like this except you."

"thanks for saying that."

"But you and her, you are different people."

"I know, you told me."

"So I can't treat you like, treat..." Chang Qiao paused, "treat you the same way I treat her."

"Oh well."

In fact, before Chang Qiao clarified her attitude to me, I also thought without hope, since we all understand each other, can she lie to me in order to make me a little happier.Tell me some words about liking and love, tell me, actually, I love you as much as you love me, the world is beautiful because of you.How appropriate and wonderful those fancy and nasty one-liners are.

But she didn't say that, on the contrary, she didn't give in so easily, she kept her honesty and pride.Judging from what Chang Qiao said to me just now, in fact, she really rejected me completely, didn't give me any chance, and I was completely defeated.But the foundation of great love is just a little lie. Since she is not willing to lie to me, I can lie to myself that at least for a second in the long past, she had courage and faith, I also had the urge to love me a little bit.For this moment, I am willing to use all the rest of me to repay the debt of gratitude.

"So you're okay?"

"I'm fine."

So I felt the touch of Changqiao's tongue for the first time, and this time, it seemed that an electric current passed through my entire cranial cavity. Her tongue traced my lips, and I was so stiff that I couldn't move. .

She frowned at me and pinched my jaw with one hand. "Give me the tongue," she said.

I stick out the tip of my tongue obediently, and she rolls it into her mouth.My body seems to be on fire now, and I desperately hope that there will be rain, otherwise I will be burned to ashes by this flame sooner or later.

The wind blowing the leaves outside the window made a rustling noise, and I mistakenly thought it was really raining.Leaning in Chang Qiao's arms, I raised my head to see the bright sun shining outside, and suddenly felt a little disappointed.At this moment, an unspeakable pain swept over my whole body, and I was very worried that it would be over soon.

It is still difficult for me to be sure whether I own Changqiao, because I used to think that Changqiao would never belong to anyone, not even Chen Yi.But at this time, she was so cute and quiet. I stroked her bare arm, and she hugged my waist in response. If this is the feeling of being in love, it is so unreal that I can hardly believe it.

I suddenly felt that she might want to be a mentor more than a lover, like teaching me how to ride a bicycle, teach me how to kiss, teach me how to grow up, teach me how to please her as much as possible in this boring and long summer .And I don't care, I don't care about it anymore, I just want her, I want her to stay here forever and ever, I want her to be unable to sleep, even if I wake up, there will only be us two left in the world people.

Some people go to great lengths to harvest something that may be eternal. In the past, I dismissed this, but now I am full of empathy for them.

So I asked her this question over and over again: "Are you still going?"

Everything in summer is as sleepy and crumbling as wild dogs and mosquitoes.Her answer is blurred in my memory.

"I don't know, let it be."

Looking back many years later, Chang Qiao never gave me answers to many questions.