typhoon transit

It would have been a little better if the accident four years ago had had a more happy ending.

When mentioning Changqiao, there is no one who would not mention another name——Chen Yi.

Changqiao is like a summer whirlwind and a tropical ocean current, while Chen Yi is like a lake in late spring and a foggy morning.They are classmates in high school, and Chen Yi is the class monitor. He is a very good student and takes first place in all subjects.I saw her when I went to see my brother, with round glasses, her hair was combed meticulously, and her school uniform was as clean as if it had just been taken out of the warehouse.I think I know why Chang Qiao likes her, because she is so quiet, Chang Qiao's fanaticism needs a quiet place to live.

It was a nasty anecdote that set off a storm in this boring town.

As far as I know, they have been in love for two years, and they were exposed when the college entrance examination was approaching.The exposure of this incident shocked the whole town.Chang Qiao's mother didn't go out all day, while Chen Yi's parents knocked on the iron door of Chang Qiao's house all day to find a quarrel.After my brother found out about this incident, he was silent for a few days, and he nestled in the room and secretly scolded Chang Qiao for being such a person.

Under tremendous pressure, Chang Qiao suspended classes a month before the college entrance examination, and she failed the college entrance examination.And Chen Yi didn't do well in the exam, and he could barely fill in schools outside the province.I have heard many people mention that during the few days when July was about to end, Chang Qiao bought two boat tickets and asked Chen Yi to go with her.Chen Yi agreed, and even packed his luggage.

But we all know the ending, Chen Yi chose to give up at the last moment.Now she has returned to her hometown after finishing college, and works as a small manager in the health center here.And Chang Qiao didn't go to university, but went to Shaanxi for four years.

The road to Shaanxi is so long, Changqiao must be very lonely.What's so good about Chen Yi?If I were her, how could I be willing to let Chang Qiao be alone?

It may be difficult for a person's life to be destroyed, it may be hurt, and it may be severely frustrated, but it will not reach the point of no return.The only thing that comforts me now is that Chang Qiao is still the same, she has returned to the town where she was exiled, and her smile makes me feel that nothing has happened.The same is true for Chen Yi, indeed, I was angry at her escape and ruthlessness, and envied her "normal" life for Chang Qiao, but later I no longer regard these as betrayal, I think it may be a This kind of growth, we each look for our own life, even if the process will be painful, even if it may really hurt some people.

But that was me as a kid, and I wanted to grow up, but I still hadn't grown up.I don't understand the weight of the cost, the resentment towards the family and the town that I've never been able to forgive a lot of people.That day Chang Qiao sincerely looked into my eyes and asked me to go to the movies with her. I was thinking, Chang Qiao, if there is no Chen Yi, if there is no my brother, you will never be so kind to me.

But I am a contented being, and I still cheer her plea, regardless of what her goals are.I reported to my dad that day, but I couldn't tell him that I was going out with Chang Qiao, so I had to move out of Ajiang.

Ah Jiang is my classmate, she is my best friend, and her father is the director of the Health Bureau, so she is one of the few friends my father would like me to associate with.I called Ah Jiang and asked her to help me lie, saying that we went to the movies together.

"Oh, little sister," who called my birthday girl, and even my classmates called me little sister, "You have a date?"

"No, it's my sister."

"When did you have a sister?" I heard her voice dialing the phone line from the opposite side.

"Chang Qiao." I didn't shy away from telling her.

"Chang Qiao?" She seemed a little surprised, "She's back?"

"Well, I just came back not long ago."

"How long will she stay?"

"I don't know, she won't tell me."

"Xu Jinghe, let me tell you," A Jiang would call me by my name whenever he wanted to talk about something serious, "You must seize the opportunity."

I laughed, and I looked out the window, and someone was pulling watermelons out of the well. "I see. Can you help me with this?"

"Help, definitely." She smiled, "In this way, I can go out with Xiao Sang at night." They will not be allowed to associate.

I think that's why Ah Jiang and I can become good friends, we are willing to share each other's secrets, and we are never ashamed of it.She knew my feelings for Chang Qiao, and she encouraged me to go to her, but I didn't dare.I actually admire Ajiang very much. She clearly knows that her relationship will not bear fruit, but she still enjoys it.She once said to me: "Xu Jinghe, you can't think too much about many things. If you think about it, you will miss it."

I think Chang Qiao will definitely agree with this sentence, because they are all the kind of people I want to be, that kind of chic and decisive.But I don’t know, do I have the talent to become her? I don’t seem to be qualified now. I don’t even have the right to be an adult now. My past life is blank. How can I imitate those heroes and abandon everything in the past?

But I still try my best to believe A Jiang's words, I try to put all worries and hesitation behind me, and only think about the movie that day.Chang Qiao came to pick me up. She was wearing jeans and white short sleeves, and she had a charming smile.She waved to me in the sun, and the whole yard was filled with golden light.In the few seconds I ran down the stairs, I remembered the first time I saw her, as a little girl hiding behind my brother, fascinated by the glowing girl in front of me; and I remembered what she said to me With the same smile as today, I said, "How are you, little sister"; I also remembered how I fell in love with her in the sunlight that day.

I never doubted that I loved her.I have read a lot of love or death theories in books, and after that happened four years ago, I feel that love does have destructive power.I don't know if it will happen to me.The love for Chang Qiao made me extremely painful, but I never questioned for a moment whether I should give up loving her because of these pains.

She is so good, so beautiful, with a strength that I have never had before, how can I be willing not to love her?

She was walking in front of me, I looked at her back, and suddenly felt that maybe my brother would be very jealous of me.Xu Jiming, I didn't expect that the dream of watching a movie with Chang Qiao, which you dreamed about day and night, turned out to be realized by me first.

Chang Qiao turned to look at me and said, what are you laughing at?

I won't tell her, I won't tell her that inside of me, I always want to believe that I'm the only one.I just said, sister, I think you are so beautiful today.

She stopped talking and didn't look at me anymore.Is she happy?She should understand that everything I say is true.

I proposed to hold hands with her that day, as in the past.But she turned me down gently, saying it was not good to be seen by people on the street.It's nothing for two girls to hold hands, but Chang Qiao's bad reputation is outside, so it's inevitable that people will gossip about it.I put my hands in my pockets all the way. It was too hot in summer, and I sweated a lot, but I still didn't take them out.

We met Chen Yi and the others at the entrance of the theater.I asked my dad. The man's surname is Liang and he is from Jilin.He and Chen Yi are college classmates, and they get along pretty well.Chen Yi's mother thought that they would get married not long after graduation.This time, the surname Liang came here to meet his parents and deal with marriage matters.

And today he was wearing shorts and a T-shirt and greeted us warmly when he saw us.In fact, I don't hate him very much, but his identity is really embarrassing.He reminds me of the supporting actor in a book I read before. He is silly and silly, and he treats people very well. He should be very lovable, but he is always unlikable.And Chen Yi next to him was still the same, with a shallow smile, even from a distance, he was beautiful.

I don't know if Chang Qiao knows about Chen Yi's upcoming marriage, and I don't want her to know.Time flies, four years will change a lot, we will not just stay where we are.But I still want to ask Chen Yi if he feels indebted to what happened four years ago.

Now that I think about it, this is really naive.But I was wondering if Chang Qiao had to pull me here because he was secretly angry with Chen Yi.Thinking about it this way, Chang Qiao is actually still a child, but it is true, she is only four years older than me, and she is far from being old enough to recognize the whole world.But I am really too young, I think she is so mature, I feel like she can carry the whole world on her shoulders.It wasn't until I got to her age that I realized that sometimes we've traveled a lot, we've met a lot of people, and still find that some things are meant to be difficult.

I just thought she might be feeling lonely and I wouldn't leave her alone.

The atmosphere was weird, Chen Yi and Chang Qiao sat together, and Liang and I sat on either side of them.The distance between the positions is so narrow, but there seems to be an entire river between them.Chang Qiao kept leaning towards me, and I removed the popcorn between us so that she could put her hand on my arm.I don't know if they were watching the movie seriously, but the one surnamed Liang was serious, and didn't eat much popcorn until the end.

There was a movie by Brad Pitt in the theater, I can't remember the name now, after all, he has acted in too many movies.In the movie, swords, guns and swords collide with each other, God of War is killing all directions, and I guess he is going to die soon.

I leaned back in my chair and stopped looking at the screen.I looked at the dark seats in the front row and thought about everything that could happen in the movie theater that I had seen on TV in books.I leaned my head back and saw Liang resting his head on Chen Yi's shoulder, I laughed.

Chang Qiao turned her head and said softly, "What are you laughing at?" The God of War is saying goodbye to his lover, and there are strings playing in the background. I think this is really a suitable moment for tears.But I have a stomach full of things I want to say to Chang Qiao, if possible, I will explain to her, I don't know why I laughed, I just think, this is really a strange world.Some behaviors are justified and deserved, and everyone should stand and cheer and raise a glass, and can I do that to you?Can I hold your hand in the street and sleep on your shoulder in the theater without paying any price?

Chen Yi and Mr. Liang are getting married, and maybe I will also participate in the end.I had to wear the school skirt I didn't like, and I had to toast with my father and brother after them.On that day, everyone will be very happy, the atmosphere of love will spread throughout the town, firecrackers will be everywhere, and the night will be lit up. All strangers will become friends on this night. We hug each other, forget our sorrows, and eliminate our grievances.On that day, perhaps even Chang Qiao would forgive her.

At the end of the movie, the God of War is finally dead, and it is.I thought of the fatalism my brother often brought up, and now that I think about it, it really makes sense.We are all accepting our own destiny.Perhaps this can all be guessed, just like a movie, those seemingly random endings are actually well-prepared and premeditated.

Many years later, I saw the re-screening of this film in a theater in Paris, and it felt like a world away.Pete is still young on the poster, as if time has stopped in all these years.I looked at the French translations, but I couldn't translate them into Chinese.I have always felt that movies and time are inextricably linked, but in the theater that day, I turned my head to look at Chang Qiao, her side face was illuminated by the light and shadow in the movie, and I saw everything in my memory. She is like those flashback shots, each frame represents a time and space, and the story of me and her exists in another form.