typhoon transit

For the measurement of some emotions, we can use a way as simple as possible to determine their weight in our hearts, that is, the scale of missing.

My brother used to pester Chang Qiao, but she ignored him, probably out of politeness, she never refused me.So my brother wanted me to establish a good relationship with her so that he could sneak in.I was so small at that time, I grew up late, and I was the shortest student in our class at that time.I was led through countless streets by her like a child.She also asked me to lie on her back, and she carried me through the muddy ground after the rain.

She is so much older than me, but she still likes to make trouble.She is angry, speaks heavily, never bows her head when she walks, and does whatever she wants.I can count how many scars there are on the knuckles of her hands, and I also know that the scar on her forehead was left by knocking on the steps during a previous fight.My brother is fascinated by her like this.But I know that she is not a bad person. In my memory, she always smiled. When I caressed her injured wrist, she would say to me: "Little sister, girls don't fight, face It won’t look good if it’s painted over.”

She often said to me, "Don't be like me."

At that time, I didn't understand what she was referring to, and I was very young, so I still regarded her as my idol in life despite her advice.I was born in a family with strict upbringing, many things were already decided when I was born, I can't say what I want to say, do what I want to do, so I envy Chang Qiao, I think she is The kind of person I want to be, her rebellion is a kind of bravery, and her domineering has a pride that I don't have.

Those countless summer days, they travel through my mind like migrating monarch butterflies.I know that she sees me as a younger sister, and I also regard her as an older sister. I hope she is my older sister. I don't like my older brother. He is the same person as my dad.I wondered, if Chang Qiao, if you were my sister, would you not leave.At least think about me, will you stay here because you don't want me to be alone?

Thinking about it like this makes me laugh at myself.That's right, I'm not Chang Qiao's, I'm not particularly important, I can't participate in any important decisions of hers, and I have no meaning in her life.

So Changqiao, do you care about what I miss?

I think she really fell asleep. I don’t know if she chose to sleep to forget the heat or to avoid answering. In short, my hand gently touched her belly, and I felt her breathing. She was indeed asleep. That's right.

She didn't wake up until evening, and she was so sorry that she must send me home.

"I'm almost there, sister, I can go back by myself." I was stubborn there.

"No," she put on her shirt over the vest. "You're almost eighteen, isn't it still here? You're still a child, little sister."

I don't like anyone calling me little sister. I am the youngest one in the class, and my generation is also the youngest. When I was young, I was obedient and obedient. Everyone treated me like a child.But Chang Qiao called me little sister, which made me even more sad, because even she seemed to look down on me.

The bus would stop after closing time, so we had to walk back slowly along the street.She didn't come to hold my hand. In the past, she insisted that I hold her hand tightly, and I couldn't let go for a moment.At this time, I felt that she might really know that I had grown up, but I hadn't fully adapted yet.

"Xinjiang," even though I've grown a lot, I'm still a little short of her. I walked with my head down and didn't look at her, "How's it like there?"

"Xinjiang?" She turned her head to look at me and smiled, "How do I know what's going on in Xinjiang?"

"Didn't you go to Xinjiang?"

"No, I went to Shaanxi." She laughed loudly and patted me on the shoulder.

What, in the past few years, I have marked the outline of Xinjiang on the map of China in my room, thinking that Changqiao is there, and that is where I want to go in the future.It turned out that she went to Shaanxi.Many years have passed, and many things can no longer be explained clearly, and those rumors have become things that cannot be verified.

I was feeling a little sad, but also wanted to laugh at myself, because so many things you hold dear, they are often as unreliable as a dream.

"The wind in Shaanxi is full of sand, which is yellow." She stopped and saw the sun gradually disappearing behind the building. "I don't like the taste of steamed mutton very much."

Her voice drifted in the wind that rushed past in summer, and I felt that under the halo of the setting sun, her back became very blurred, just like all my memories of her.

"But Xinjiang is not bad, isn't it?" She took out a cigarette from her pocket and lit it, turned her back to puff, "One day we can go together."

"The road is too long." How much I wanted to agree to her, but in fact, as long as she asked, I would never refuse her.But my little shameful self-esteem still makes me struggle with certain aspects.

"It's not long, it's not long at all." She looked at the broken street lamp, and there were still many flies gathering in the semi-dark light, "It will be here in a few days. A few days is nothing, little sister?"

Finally I saw her smile, and the smoke dissipated into the air, covering her face.This is the first time I have heard of the concept of transforming time and space. From this point of view, compared to the infinitely extended time, the whole world is not too big.

Then I heard her say, "We still have time."

When passing by the People's Hospital, she saw a newly opened movie theater across the street, turned her head and said to me: "Little sister, is this your father's investment to open it?"

Indeed, my dad took a fancy to this project two years ago, and it has just been established and opened for business not long ago.

"How do you know?" Chang Qiao just came back, I don't know where she got the news.

"I heard." She put her hands in her pockets and kicked away the stones beside the road with her feet. "This is big news."

The movie theater used to be opened near the kindergarten. There was no single building. It was on the first floor of a very old small building. The chairs smelled musty, and the ceiling often leaked.My dad built a new movie theater for free, which is considered to be a good deed for this place, but in fact it will always make money in the end.That was a trick my dad used to play.

"Have you visited it? How's it going?" She stared at the brand new vertical signboard, and it stood there for a long time.We are a small place, and there are not many movies to watch, and the tickets are expensive. Usually, if you can watch people from the city come here to show free movies in the open-air park, you will be very happy.

"I haven't been there yet, I'm busy with exams."

"That's right." She turned her head and lightly embraced my shoulders and pushed forward, signaling for me to go forward. "The college entrance examination is the most important thing."

She said it so easily.I once thought that if she had gone to Hangzhou for the exam with Chen Yi that year, would it be completely different when I see her now.

Perhaps Chang Qiao has understood and accepted her fate, even if it is cruel.But what can be done?My brother did not set me a good example, but he once taught me a truth, we are nothing great in the end, and we can't make a lot of things about it.Now she is very calm, I think the past may not be worth mentioning to her.And here I am, anxiously awaiting my impending fate.I don't know if I'll ever find courage like hers.

Chang Qiao was smiling, she smiled at me very gently, but I always felt that her figure was very lonely.In my line of sight, she seemed to have never been in the same frame as anyone else, and Chen Yi was just a blurry silhouette.I once held her hand, it was warm, but I could hear a long sigh from every corner of her skin, every ending sound, every silent moment.It's been like that since I first saw her. She said to me, little girl, can I get in the car?Take you for a ride.I still remember the touch of the wind blowing over my cheeks that day, like needle pricks, and there was a salty smell in the wind.

When passing the corner of the road, Chang Qiao stopped suddenly.I looked in her direction and saw two people coming from the other side of the road.

At that moment, it was like a zoomed-in camera. I saw Chang Qiao's footsteps slowed down, and then slowly stopped in place. The whole person was like a marionette who was not very skilled in manipulation.

Chen Yi, she is still so beautiful, her fair face is spotless, and the hair that was tied up in the past has been loosened and hangs quietly on her shoulders.

I don't know why, I think Chen Yi has changed a bit.She changed her glasses, from round ones to square ones, so I didn't recognize her for a split second.But there is something else.At this time, I suddenly thought of my mother. At 06:30 in the morning, I saw her walking home to the yard with a vegetable basket in the half-bright sunlight. For some reason, I saw my mother on Chen Yi. back.Four years have passed, and she has just passed the age of college graduation, but I feel that she is full of exhaustion.

The man next to Chen Yi is tall and broad-shouldered. I have never seen him here before. I guess he is a stranger.

Chang Qiao obviously didn't want to say hello, maybe it was because of that man.But what I didn't expect was that as soon as Chen Yi saw us, he walked over quickly, stretched out a hand and beckoned at us.

"When did you come back?" She walked to Chang Qiao, and the man behind her followed closely.

Chang Qiao lowered his head to look at the uppers of his shoes, and put his hands in his pockets, refusing to take them out. "Just a few days ago."

This is the man who said "Oh" and said that this is your good friend from the past, Chen Yi quickly said yes.The man smiled honestly and said, "I often hear Xiaoyi mention you. I haven't seen you for so many years. It's really fate to meet again. We must get together together."The man was talking endlessly, while Chen Yi was smiling beside him.

The accent is northern, I think.Sure enough, he was not a local, and there was no one in this county who didn't know what happened to Chang Qiao and Chen Yi.I think Chen Yi must have told a precise lie on his side. The former lover has now become a good friend in the past who might occasionally get out of school together.

What's so good about Chen Yi?After leaving Chang Qiao, no, the boyfriend has already been brought back.

I think this may be a very ruthless thing, but Chen Yi doesn't seem to care much.I didn't expect their reunion to be like this. It was a short summer evening, nothing important, nothing worth remembering.It's just that time suddenly slowed down, and Chang Qiao moved her feet restlessly, as if she wanted to leave quickly.

"Are you okay?" Chen Yi asked.Her voice was so clear and sweet, the moment she spoke, I began to worry whether Chang Qiao would fall in love with her again.

"That's it." Chang Qiao squeezed out a smile, and said that he wanted to turn around and leave.

"Well, we haven't seen each other for so many years, good friends must reunite." The man and Chen Yi were close together, "How about we watch a movie together? Isn't there a new cinema over there?"

Chang Qiao rubbed his eyes, looked at the man, then at me.Chen Yi hugged her chest next to her, as if everything had nothing to do with her.

"Okay," I didn't expect Chang Qiao to agree, "Then take the younger sister with you. Chen Yi, do you remember? The younger sister of the Xu family, Xu Jinghe, is so old."

She pointed at me, and then motioned for me to come over. I was hugged in her arms. She rubbed my hair and said, "She just graduated, she is a big girl."

After that, she never let go of her hand on my shoulder.I watched Chen Yi stare at me for a long time, then smiled and said, "Yeah, it's very different, I can't even recognize it."

The man looked very happy, and said yes, yes, the little sister is also coming, and there are so many people.

I don't know if Chang Qiao is trying to pull someone's back or something, I just remember that I smelled the fragrance that I haven't smelled for a long time in her arms.I hooked her arm, not wanting her to let me go.

But I didn't want to go to the movies. After they left, I said to Chang Qiao: "Sister, why did you drag me there?"

"Why, not happy?" She hooked my neck and leaned closer to my ear, "Aren't you happy to see a movie?"

I remained motionless, at her mercy. "I don't want to go with her."

She knew that I was referring to Chen Yi, and she also knew that I had always held a grudge against Chen Yi because of what happened four years ago.She smiled and stroked my face lightly. "You are not going with her, you are going with me."

"Little sister, are you okay?" She asked me with a smile, as if she was acting like a baby.

Of course I want to agree to her. She is like this now, and I will agree to whatever she asks.But I don't want to just follow her so easily, I always want to make some more requests. "Then don't call me little sister."

I pretended to be angry and broke away from her arm, and walked forward quickly, and she followed me closely.

"Then what do you want me to call you?"

"Call me by name."

"No way," she chased and grabbed my shoulder, "You are younger than me, wouldn't it be nice to call you little sister?"

"But everyone calls me that, even you?"

I thought I was a little unreasonable, but Chang Qiao was not angry. She lightly rubbed her fingers on my shoulder, and joked with me: "Am I different from others?" She squinted her eyes and looked at me.

I shook my head, not daring to look her in the eye.

"Where is it different?" She said this sentence with a smile, and she held my chin with her hand to let me look into her eyes.

"My brother and dad are not good to me, but you are the only one who treats me well. You are closer than my family." I took her hand away.

I saw her nod, then turned and walked forward.

"Then I'll call you Jing He, okay?" She stretched her hand back towards me, and I knew she wanted me to hold her, which was a tacit understanding between us.I ran over quickly, grabbed her sweaty hand, and forced my fingers into her fingers.She listened to me almost everything, but this time she led me through a corner where no one was around, and let go immediately.

"Then, Jing He, can you go to the movies with me?" She turned her head to look at me, and I suddenly felt that I could do for her what Chen Yi failed to do.

It was getting dark now, she walked me to my door, the dog was still barking, I saw my brother smoking a cigarette on the balcony, I think he must have seen us too.Whenever it is summer, the sun will always fall steadily in the gap at the entrance of the alley, and now it is behind me.I suddenly felt that I had a powerful force, and I could hold up many things from it.I believe that Chang Qiao can see it, because in her eyes looking at me, I can see something glowing.

Looking back on that evening many years later, I will think that it was just a reasonable and ordinary illusion under the brilliant sunset.Because I have seen such things in so many people's eyes since then, and they disappeared so quickly, it is really difficult for me to remember how, in some moments, those hallucinations silently affected my whole life. lifetime.