living sacrifice

I didn’t want to lose God’s presence, so I prayed desperately for the Lord’s help, but my spirit was so dry that I couldn’t pray for anything other than “ask the Lord for help.”This kind of prayer that is forced out when there is no one is really no different from the time when I first believed in the Lord.

Thank you and praise the Lord, He is still very merciful to me.

After I prayed to the Lord, although I didn’t feel anything in my spirit, and I didn’t feel that God was answering my prayers, it seemed to be different from the feeling of being answered as soon as I prayed when I was just saved, but actually I don’t judge by my feelings whether the Lord has heard me or not.

My uncle died, and my aunt tidied up things at home.

My aunt called me, and she said, "When I was sorting out your uncle's things, I happened to find some "Bibles" left by my grandfather in N City. Do you want them?"

"Yes!" I vaguely felt at the time that these books were given to me by the Lord.But what exactly to do is not clear.

When the book was sent to me, I discovered that it was not only the Bible, but also a copy of Oasis in the Desert besides the Bible.On the back of this book, there is content written by my grandfather himself:

"Morning—open eyes: Lord, open the eyes of my heart.

Clothes: May I be clothed with the righteousness of Christ.

Wash your face: May the Lord rekindle the fire of love in me.

Sweeping the floor: May the Lord remove all the filth in my heart.

Meal: Ask the Lord to give me hidden manna and pure spiritual milk.

Take care of children: just look to God the Father to make them your obedient children.

I pray like this all day long, and everything I do gives me a thought to pray about.

Jesus said: When you pray, say: Your kingdom come. "

After reading these words, tears welled up in my eyes. In the past, I looked down on my grandfather because of his low education, but now at the end of the day, I found that the Lord really loves him.

He was unknown, not valued by others, and was often misunderstood and insulted. When my grandfather was alive, no one in our family treated him favorably because he was the Son of God, but after his death, the Lord used these words to serve him. He pleaded, let me see with my own eyes that those whom I despise are valued by God, while I am naked, blind, and naked.

I feel very ashamed. I saw these words when I was a child, and I was very impressed. At that time, I still laughed at my grandfather’s nagging, especially the sentence "May I put on the robe of righteousness of Christ", which I often laughed at when I was a child.

But looking at those words now, I realize that he is a godly man and I am a self righteous and proud idiot.That sentence "may I be clothed with the righteousness of Christ" is indeed what I most desire right now.

This book "Oasis in the Desert" has helped me a lot. It is one of the most important books that helped me stand up. When my spiritual life was at its dryest, those daily spiritual food helped me a lot.

They are all precious inheritance left by the predecessors, and they are really the inheritance left by my grandfather, or the inheritance left by my uncle. This triple inheritance was left to me through the hands of my aunt under the guidance of God. They helped me endlessly when I needed them most.

Thank and praise the Lord, didn’t He already foresee that I would have today, and reserved it for me long ago?I dare not say that I love the Lord very much, but He really mobilized all things to bless me.I really don't love him enough.

Of course, just a book is not enough, the Lord also gave me other good things.

People are really desperate when their spiritual ebb is low. They know very well that they can’t stand up at all, and they can’t save themselves. They can only seek God’s help. Thank the Lord for being merciful to me.

I was in the library again, and that day I was going to borrow some Christian books to read, but I was disappointed to browse through the books on the shelf, because there are not many authors here who are spiritual.Most of the authors themselves admit that they are not believers in the Lord. They are just scholars. I am not happy to read such lifeless books.

Just as I was about to leave, the corner of my right eye suddenly fixed on a small head portrait.

It was a weird moment, like when I saw that proofreading book in the library for the first time, my eyes seemed to be determined to focus on a specific book, rather than myself wanting to look at it .

I was about to leave the library just because of that one swipe, but stopped.

I turned around to look, and I seemed to have seen this avatar that attracted me before. When I picked up the book, I found it was Song Shangjie.I have heard his name, but I also don’t remember where I heard it, probably in Pastor Tang Chongrong’s sermon.I had the impression that this was a very good brother, and I trusted him so much that I borrowed this book home.

Of the eight books I borrowed that day, only this one proved to be the best, and the others were useless.

Song Shangjie is a well-known brother in the church. God healed hundreds of people through his hands. Although he passed away in his 40s, God performed countless miracles through his hands. A legendary figure in the modern church.

I glanced out of the corner of my eye, and at that time my gaze seemed to be firmly grasped.I didn't know Song Shangjie very well at that time, and I didn't remember where I saw his head portrait, but I could recognize him just by looking at him.

At that time, my condition was very bad. I was afraid that false brothers would give me false teachings, so I only read those theology books that were more rational and analytical. I also knew that my spiritual life would be exhausted easily.In fact, I only look for a few people such as Tang Chongrong and Wang Mingdao, and I dare not read or listen to the sermons and writings of others.

This situation is very wrong, but my life is the way it is, and I can't change it if I want to.Just like the succulents I planted in my house, it is almost dying, but I water what I should water, fertilize what I should fertilize, what should I do, it still doesn’t grow, what can I do?

I was even afraid of people mentioning the word "Holy Spirit". I was annoyed by these two words, but I knew in my heart that such an attitude was totally wrong.

I was choking spiritually and I didn't know how to correct myself.

Then the Lord gave me this book.This is to correct my wrong views on the gift of the Holy Spirit, and at the same time, it does not make me lean towards the Charismatics. Song Shangjie is very clear about the true and false charismatics.I think that a person like him who has personally experienced the power of the Holy Spirit has a greater right to speak than charismatic theorists.

In the book, Song Shangjie recorded his experience of preaching everywhere. He mentioned in the book: Some people pursued the Holy Spirit but did not confess their sins. Because their hearts were still hard and dirty, they begged for evil spirits.

On the surface, the miracles that God performed through His hands were very similar to the abilities that Sister Zhao and the others were pursuing, but Song Shangjie firmly grasped the core: people must confess their sins and repent before the Lord, and be cleansed by the precious blood of the Lord. Only then can sins be forgiven.

He said that many people wrote to him after being cured, and he divided the letters into two piles, one pile was good, and the other pile was average.When a person confesses and repents before God, not only is his illness healed but also his soul is saved. This is good. Those who are only healed of their illness but not saved their soul are mediocre.

His words caused a response in my heart and corrected my deviation. After reading this book, my spirit was influenced and I returned to a slightly correct attitude.Moreover, I also have a deeper understanding of how to properly seek the Holy Spirit. I know that there are two ways of seeking, one is perishing and the other is progress.What I need to go is the second way.It's just that I didn't know how to go at that time.

I fell down and tried to get up, but it was not so easy.

In addition to my own sexual needs to be dealt with, the devil also placed many obstacles around me. If it wasn't for the Lord Jesus to protect me, I would have failed long ago.

After experiencing what happened to Sister Zhao, what I saw was the depth of human sin.I understand that Sister Zhao is out of good intentions, but I don't understand why she can't see her own faults; what's more exaggerated is Qian Junru and Brother Sun. I can't understand how Qian Junru can say "I don't feel good Let's say amen from our mouths", let alone understand Brother Sun's views on power.

As for You Yan, I always looked down on her before, but I didn't expect that she would see the problem of the church earlier than I did.

I used to believe in my own judgment, but now, I find that these judgments from myself are completely invalid. The facts show that my previous judgments on people were wrong.In fact, this can be seen from the case of Wang Xuanhuan.

From this incident, I also understood why God did not allow Adam and Eve to eat the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil in the Garden of Eden.I ate, and I began to distinguish between good and evil by myself, and it turned out that the people I discerned were completely wrong, so it would be better to rely entirely on my God to teach me, why should I rely on myself to take risks and make many wrong judgments?

Who can know the depth of the human heart except God?

On the surface, You Yan is not as good as them; but below the surface, only God knows.I didn’t know who to trust, I didn’t even trust myself, I only believed in God, but the people around me, I didn’t know which one I should trust was my real brother or sister.

Sister Cao, who has been criticizing hypocrisy, has many views that are close to mine, but I have already seen that her spiritual condition is very bad.I'm afraid I'm as bad as she is in the eyes of God, after all, we agree in many ways.

Sister Cao said: "I have been away from Zhu Zhishan Church for two or three years, and I have not been to other places to gather in these years."

I've learned my lesson from the previous church, and I don't want to keep telling the truth because I'm afraid people won't like me.I told her directly what I thought: "Sister, I think you're going to church."

"I don't think the Holy Spirit leads me that way. Maybe He leads you to church because I see you always want to go to church, but He doesn't lead me that way."

"Impossible. The Bible says that we should 'not stop gathering'. How can the leading of the Holy Spirit contradict the Bible?"

"It's not like you don't know how bad the situation of the church is now. Let me tell the truth, don't be angry. There are no real churches in the physical church now."

"No." I insisted very strongly, "Even if the church is in a bad situation, there are always truths, but we don't know where to find them."

"Maybe my views are too extreme, but I really won't go to physical churches anymore. I just went to one a while ago, and when I went in, I heard the songs of the Bread of Life Church. I blamed them face to face, and I told them those things. But later, People in them don't like to talk to me. Including the couple from City B who have been helping me, they have been helping me clean up the filth in my spirit. Sister, I am really filthy, and I don't want to be too filthy. close to you, so as not to affect you."

"We are all sinners. We need to pray for one another."

"Yes, I will pray for you and You Yan. But please forgive me, I don't do this thing often. Sometimes I don't pray for a day or two, and I feel that my life is no different from that of a godless person. What a difference."

"So you're going to church!"

"I won't go. I'm listening to sermons on the Internet now, listening to Chen Ge's sermons. His sermons are quite upright. I recommend you to listen to them."

I said, "I think I've heard that name before."

"Really? His way is quite upright. Including Wang Mingdao and Tang Chongrong you mentioned, their way is quite upright. But Jiang Xiuqin, I advise you not to listen to a word, including those false prophets who are related to her. , Grace 365, etc., don’t listen to it. We must be separated for sanctification, and God tells us not to be contaminated.”

This is not the first time I have heard of Grace 365. In the past, peony in the church liked to repost this content in Moments, but I was not interested in these chicken soup articles by nature. I withdraw them as soon as I smell them. I have never read them carefully.

She still doesn't want to go to church, but I do, I don't want such a person, I think I must have a church.