living sacrifice

There's a reason my mom said the church was a "dirty mess."

The first time I went to church, I felt great, because it was at Qian Junru's house.Later, there were more people here, and Qian Junru’s house was not big enough, so we went outside to find a restaurant for gatherings. At that time, we started using projectors and started to draw the curtains during the gatherings.And there are other private rooms next to our party, and sometimes people play mahjong there.

But at that time, I didn't think about it from my mother's perspective.

We all work very hard to get people to our churches, and our ministries focus on outward numbers rather than inner quality.We also have no way to pay attention to inner quality, because no one here understands the truth.What we listen to is all pieced together from various places, even some testimonies, not even preaching.

My mother’s friend had a backache, so I brought her to church; Dong Yiyi’s relative’s son was brought to church when he was demon-possessed; Mu Yun brought her boyfriends who were on a blind date to church...here became A place where everyone is welcome.

Everyone came to the church because of various problems. On the surface, it really looked like what non-believers said, "People who believe in Jesus have difficulties in life."

We already had a demon-possessed boy in our church, and then another one came.

The new boy was brought by Dong Yiyi.

They all warned me that he was out of his mind, but I didn't see it.I saw that he was sitting there with nothing to do, so I wanted to preach the gospel to him. I told him the story of the Lord Jesus and the Garden of Eden in Genesis. He listened happily and even asked me questions.

I'm not used to being in contact with the opposite sex, but this boy doesn't feel like a mature man to me, he's just a child, so I don't have any worries when I get in touch with him.

After we finished speaking, Sister Zhao pulled me aside and said, "Lin Xiao, I think you have the gift of shepherding. Look at what you did just now is shepherding."

I frowned: "It doesn't count, does it? I just told him stories from the Bible. My grandfather used to do the same thing."

"This is shepherding! You should think carefully about when to lead catechism classes."

I don't want to talk about it at all.

Fortunately, You Yan came in later. Because she was busy negotiating with You Yan, Sister Zhao didn't take the time to tell me about the Bible study group. I think this is the best.

I really want to hear how Sister Zhao talks to You Yan.I feel that from the beginning to the end, You Yan brought me a lot of trouble.

According to You Yan himself, it is because the heavenly father puts people with different personalities together to polish each other.Then I think if this is the case, You Yan's character is really my nemesis. I really don't know how to communicate with her, so I really want to learn from others.anyone!

But I didn't get a chance. The new boy's mother was overly enthusiastic about me. She took my hand and said: "Lin Xiao is very good, Lin Xiao is really good, I like you very much. You You know? My son hasn't communicated with his peers for more than a year, and I just saw you chatting so well, I'm so happy!"

"Really? I don't think there's anything wrong with him. I think he's normal."

His mother pointed to his head and told me quietly: "He has a problem here. He jumped over the building before. Lin Xiao, you have to protect him. In the future, if I don't come and he comes alone, you have to protect him well, don't Let him be hurt in the church."

The possibility of being hurt in the church is really great. His mother gave me such a burden, which made me feel unbearable all of a sudden.

"What's wrong with him?" I thought for a while and asked.

The boy’s mother told me: “He was being bullied at school, and then he couldn’t think about it. That day I received a call from my family saying that my son had jumped off a building, so I hurried home. His father told me that he himself jumped from the third floor, His father couldn't pull him at all. Later, the Lord Jesus blessed him, and nothing happened to him. My sister, Dong Yiyi, said she could bring him to church, so I brought him."

I think the "Lord Jesus bless" in her mouth sounds weird, like praying to Buddha.

That boy sat there obediently, completely different from Jiang Zhixing, there was no evil smile on his face, only innocence.

I thought I was innocent enough, but in him I saw the innocence of a five-year-old child.But such innocence on an adult is a bit scary.

Dong Yiyi also came to care about the boy's situation, she said: "Our little stone can talk to you, you can talk to him more, I am at ease when he is with you. His name is Xiong Yushi, I will send him WeChat Push it to you."

I asked Dong Yiyi: "Is he really possessed by a ghost?"

Dong Yiyi's eye circles are always dark. When she heard the keyword "ghost", she frowned and said, "I don't dare to go to his house. I am very grateful to Qian Junru for this. Last time she I heard that something happened to Xiao Shitou, so I volunteered to go to his house. Qian Junru prayed for Xiao Shitou, and Xiao Shitou trusted her, and then Xiao Shitou got better. Come on, Xiao Shitou, tell Lin Xiao yourself Tell me, what happened then? I heard you were afraid of me, but what am I afraid of? Have I ever hurt you?"

Xiong Yushi shrank his neck, and a tall man of about 1.8 meters shrank to about 1.7 meters.He said nervously: "No...no...no...Aunt Yiyi, you didn't hurt me. But I don't know why, I was very afraid of you at that time. They said they asked you to pray for me, but I just didn't want to , and I don't know exactly why."

"Then what happened later? They said you were afraid of me, so I went out. Actually, I was also afraid of you."

"I remember a voice threatening me at that time, I was scared, I was really scared. Then I didn't know why I stood on the balcony. My dad said he saw it and pulled me desperately, but there was no I couldn’t hold it back, he said I was very strong, I didn’t know about it. Later I remembered that I jumped down. It was also strange when I jumped down, as if the world around me was frozen. Lin Xiao, I don’t know you Can you understand? I felt that I fell very slowly when I fell. Later they found me in the flower bed downstairs, and they said that my back just hit the ground straight, and they were worried that I would be broken, but Checked later, I saw only a little bruise on my body. They said I had a ghost on me, I didn't know..."

I don't want to say yes, because I'm afraid he will think wildly.But when I think about it, based on what I've experienced so far, I don't think it's justified to say it's not a ghost.

Seeing Xiong Yushi looking at me with special trust, I can only say: "I believe what you said."

"Great." Xiong Yushi said to me with great relief, "They didn't believe me. My mother said I imagined it myself, but it wasn't true. I kept hearing that voice threatening me. Then they took me I didn’t know that I was rescued. I huddled under the quilt by myself. They said that Aunt Yiyi was here, but I didn’t want to see her. But I was not afraid of Aunt Qian Junru. After she prayed for me, I later I feel like I'm slowly getting better."

"I believe what you said. But don't worry, Little Stone, the church can cast out demons for you. You have to come to church more, so that your illness can be cured as soon as possible. By the way, you have to know God, you have to know the Lord Jesus, only He can has authority to cast out demons for you."

Xiong Yushi smiled innocently: "I know. My mother taught me to sing "Cross". Once I sing, my illness will be healed."

Such an innocent boy really doesn't know why he suffers like this.But judging from his description and his reaction to the Gospel, I always feel that he should be protected by God, otherwise he fell from the third floor and landed on his back.

I asked him, "Xiao Shitou, our church has a spring outing next week, do you want to come?"

"Are you coming?" he asked me back.

"I come."

"Then I'll come too." He smiled.

When I was with him, I really felt like I was facing a five-year-old.I don't know why, but I feel like a father and a mother in front of him.Originally, I didn’t pay much attention to Sister Zhao’s proposal of the Bible study group, but because I met Xiong Yushi, I suddenly had a thought in my heart. I would like to explain the way of God to a catechumen like him. I hope They can get help.

Sister Zhao and You Yan finished talking. I really wanted to know what happened and what her conclusion was. In fact, the question I wanted to know the most was: You Yan has believed in the Lord for so long, why is her life still like this? Look, why does it explode at every turn?Was she saved?

Sister Zhao sent me a note from You Daoyun that night, and she told me: "Lin Xiao, please pray, read it carefully, and then tell me what you think."

I was a little weird because I felt that every time Sister Zhao asked me to pray and read something again, I felt something was wrong and couldn’t tell.I don't know what words to use to describe this feeling.

The same goes for You Yan, she often asks me to pray and make a decision.For example, You Yan asked me to pray, asking God to tell me whether I should stay here.I don't think there is any need to pray about this, because at that time I had no other choice but to leave here, and I had no reason to leave here, and I thought it was very good here.

Although the article that Sister Zhao sent me did not use her own personal tone, I knew it was written by her, and it was written by You Yan.

There are two protagonists in the story: one is the mother, she prayed for her child because she loves her child, and asked the Lord to let the boyfriend the child talked about break up with the child because she did not like that boyfriend; and the child was affected by this prayer.The conclusion of the article is that because the mother has a controlling spirit, and the controlling spirit is evil, the mother's prayer will affect the child.

I don't know how to rate such an article.

Then I asked straight to the point: "Sister Zhao, are you saying that You Yan has a controlling spirit?"

Sister Zhao said "typing..." several times, and finally she sent a line: "You are very sensitive in spirit."

"Then what are we going to do with her? Are we going to drive her out?"

"The Lord will do it. It is not up to us to do these things. We can pray for her. But this article is sent to you mainly to let you know how to protect yourself and not be influenced by her. I think her prayer may It affects you too."

"Thank you, Miss Zhao."

I saw that the reading of that article was 15, which means that someone else should have read it besides me.

I think the matter of You Yan is troublesome to me.

I remembered that You Yan once told me that when she just came back from abroad, she accidentally went to a Korean church, which seemed to be Xintiandi.

I checked online and found that Xintiandi is a heresy.

I feel a headache because although no one has taught me about this issue, I feel that people who come out of heresy are really not easy to repent, because the system of heresy is completely wrong, and they want to accept the wrong system that they originally accepted. Getting rid of it may be more difficult than someone who has never accepted it.

After reading the diary written by Sister Zhao, I felt even more that there were evil spirits inside my sister, but I didn't know what to do.

Since this incident, I have been a little estranged from my sister, because I am afraid that the evil spirits in her body will affect me, and I am also afraid that she will pray for me according to her own ideas, which will cause adverse effects on me in the spiritual world. repercussions.

I really hope that You Yan can change. I really hope that she can really put into practice the principles she said, so that I will stop wondering whether she is saved or not.I hope the Lord can tell You Yan to repent through Ms. Zhao's mouth.

I was very happy to hear that You Yan was going to the camp too.We have accumulated too many things that need to be resolved in the camp meeting. In addition to the problem of Qian Junru's refusal to preach and the problem of You Yan's sudden "explosion" inexplicably, there was another problem before the camp meeting, which was about two Preacher's.

The cause of the incident was that Qian Junru refused to preach at that time, and later Jiang Yiyi went up to speak, and he spoke better than Qian Junru, and later Qian Junru really became jealous.

Sister Zhao asked Qian Junru how Jiang Yiyi was saying. It is said that Qian Junru looked at Sister Zhao disdainfully, and then said, "I don't comment."

Later, for some reason, this matter got to Jiang Yiyi's ears, and she was not happy when she heard it, and she was a little inferior, so she told Sister Zhao that she didn't want to preach anymore.

So later Sister Zhao came to me again, and she asked me: "You evaluate objectively, is Jiang Yiyi's preaching good?"

The things these women in the church do are killing me.But I still have to give my answer sincerely and patiently: "I think Jiang Yiyi preaches better than Qian Junru."

Sister Zhao said: "It seems that everyone thinks so. Do you know? Qian Junru is very disapproving of Jiang Yiyi's preaching now, but I think she is jealous, and she doesn't admit it. I don’t have confidence in speaking, and I don’t want to preach now. Since you all think Jiang Yiyi’s speech is good, I still want to encourage her to continue.”

I find it troublesome, these people, if no one really wants to preach, and indeed no one can speak, it’s better to get together and play the content of other good pastors’ sermons, and we sit down and receive it together. ?Why can so many things be involved in a preaching question?

I didn't understand them from beginning to end, I really didn't understand.

Just arguing and arguing like this, the camp is about to begin.

It was the first time for us to hang out with so many people, we brought our relatives and friends, and there was a full bus.Unfortunately neither my parents wanted to come, so I was alone.

You Yan arranged me to sit with Xiong Yushi. On the way, she acted as if nothing had happened. She took out all kinds of delicious food from her bag and distributed them to everyone, as if there had been no conflicts before.

When she was giving me snacks, I thought of Sister Zhao saying that she has a controlling spirit, and holding this snack in my hand made me feel very uncomfortable.

But You Yan was still very kind to me. When she got out of the car and allocated a room, she whispered to me: "I have arranged it for you. You and sister Zhao share a room."

Almost none of the things You Yan arranged for me was to my liking, but this time I have to say that she really did a good job.I clapped my hands happily and said, "Okay!"

"I know you'll like it." She smiled dryly.

I find it difficult to use other words to describe her smile at that time. It feels like the kind of smile that a child pretends to be in front of the camera after being put on makeup by the class teacher when she is about to shoot a promotional video for the school.

In fact, I also know that You Yan is not out of malice, and everyone knows that she just says what she thinks in her heart, but what she does often makes people unintelligible, especially because she likes to talk in front of her.

Qian Junru commented on her like this: "She has spoken to me in the name of the Holy Spirit, and she has raised the highest authority, so what else can I say?"

"Heavenly Father and Dad told me so" - You Yan often begins with such words.

I have asked her how the Father speaks to her, because I have heard the words with the human ear, but only once when I was saved.

You Yan told me: "Lin Xiao, when you give your thoughts to God, God will speak to you. Of course, you have to discern."

Yes, the problem is here, how can I tell the difference?How do I know if God has spoken to her?So sometimes I really feel very annoying, because she will be fulfilled when she speaks, and if she has not been fulfilled all the time, forget it.

For example, this time, she said that Heavenly Father asked her to put me and Sister Zhao in the same room.Then I think it's just what I want, so I have nothing to say.

I am very happy to share a room with Sister Zhao, because I think the two of us have many things to communicate with each other.

This is a camp for the whole church. We came out to solve various problems of the church, and everyone knew each other well, and wanted to spread the gospel to relatives and friends. All of these were done for the kingdom of God and the house of God.

However, in this supposedly happy and holy camp, I was tempted by evil spirits.