living sacrifice

Before I came into contact with these things, I was just an ordinary office worker, living a normal life of working overtime from eight to eight.The city I live in is a first-tier city in the country, and the business district I live in is a world-renowned business district. Being able to work here is the envy of many people.

I don't know why people outside envy us, but what I envy is not this kind of life. I always feel that my life should not be like this——

"I heard that XX just found a rich boyfriend recently, and the two plan to get married next year. Oh, you don't know that his boyfriend actually spent 25000 a month to rent the most luxurious apartment near our unit. She is now I always take a luxury car to work. In fact, it’s only a 10-minute walk from her home to our unit, tsk tsk, the life of rich people is really incomprehensible.”

"I am very nervous recently. I have to repay the mortgage of 16000 every month. But I have calculated that my way of repaying the loan was tiring for the first 5 years, but it will be easy for the next 15 years. Every month Just a few thousand will do.”

"Ren Xueqing's baby is born. I heard that her father-in-law is very supportive and sponsored them 250 million. Now the young couple bought a house in the school district. She really did her best for the baby. I heard that the husband and wife have saved 100 million. Take it in."

Every day I go to work and sit in the unit, surrounded by such sounds.

My name is Lin Xiao, an ordinary migrant worker in S City. If it hadn’t been for that incident that turned my life upside down, I would probably be like this group of migrant workers in front of me in my whole life. .

I don't even know what I want.Emotionally, I have talked with many boyfriends and girlfriends, but every time I fell in love, I became more and more discouraged. I don’t know what true love is; at work, I also feel that repeating the same day every day is very boring, I don’t know What is the point of me being so busy...

There are all kinds of people around me, I have seen high-end and low-end.I know a low-key rich man who is worth tens of millions but travels by bicycle every day. The ins celebrity with millions of fans is my colleague. I have the contact information of the celebrity on my phone. I am very familiar with the aunt who cleans the toilet, and the courier downstairs The younger brother is also an old acquaintance.As for myself, I can't tell what kind of person I am. I always feel that everything makes me unsatisfactory. According to my ex, I am the "most difficult person to deal with".

Appreciated by leaders, rich income, and outstanding academic qualifications, it is reasonable to say that such a life can satisfy people, but I still don’t understand what I am pursuing. Neither love nor work can satisfy me.

I have worked in a foreign-funded bank for two and a half years, and my monthly income has steadily increased by one or two thousand a year, with a salary of 14.When I was about to be promoted, I suddenly submitted a letter of resignation to the leader.

The leader seemed to have eaten a salted duck egg. She looked at me in surprise, including the big leaders around her, and asked, "Why did you resign so suddenly?"

"It's nothing. I just don't want to do it myself. It's not interesting."

The big leader called me to the office, closed the door and said: "Lin Xiao, you also know that we are short of people here. You have worked here for two or three years, and we all think you work hard. If you If it is low, we can discuss these. Or if you have other considerations, you can talk about it.”

I don't know how much of what she said was sincere and how much was false.But since I have started, there is absolutely no reason to turn back.I said to her: "I want to find a job that is free and allows me to spare time. I only work eight hours a day without overtime, half an hour away from my home, and have lunch at noon, preferably related to writing."

"Ahem." The big leader slumped, and after thinking about it, he said tactfully, "Then I think such a job is quite difficult to find. Why don't you... think about it again?"

I shook my head.

She knew my temper, she sighed and said: "Lin Xiao, I know you have always liked writing, but it's a pity if our job here really has to leave. I advise you to be cautious. You really want to find a position related to Chinese writing, and I also support it, but you don’t have relevant skills yourself, so I don’t think it’s really easy to find. These words are advice from friends, not From a leadership standpoint."

Naked resignation, this matter felt quite far away from me at first.I thought my character would not be naked, but I didn't expect to come to this point.

It is difficult for people to adapt to the gap from high-stress work to having nothing to do.

Immediately after I resigned, I began to submit my resume overseas. However, as my senior leader said, my major was too poor. I had to interview once or twice. In the end, I was afraid to hire me because my major was not suitable and I had no relevant experience. .At my age, and in childbearing age, it is also very embarrassing for the employer.

Surprisingly, I wasn't nervous at all.I'm pretty sure about this.It's as if I always feel very good in my heart.

When there is no interview, I go to the library to look for professional books.

The largest library in S City has been filmed by many movies and TV series. There is a vast sea of ​​books and no goal. I don’t know why I walked to that corner that day and took the book from the shelf. It was God's will.

My original plan was to apply for an online literature editor because I liked online literature.But later, just because of such a casual "finger", it turned out to be a proofreader by mistake.

That day, I randomly selected a book from the sea of ​​books, which was a collection of common errors published by the proofreading office of the People's Daily.At that time, I had no idea about this field, and I didn't know how good the proofreading room of People's Daily was.I just thought the book was quite interesting, so I patiently read it word by word from beginning to end.

I really can’t remember how many units I invested in. Anyway, I don’t want to go through such a process of naked resignation and overseas investment again. It’s really hard and tortuous.

From my blind self-confidence at the beginning, to my disappointment later, I even felt that I was ready to go to any unit that wanted me.

But when I thought about it like this, no company called me until the newspaper office called me.

I was a little nervous when I got the call.The personnel over there said: "Excuse me, are you Lin Xiao? We are XX newspaper. You applied for our proofreading position before. I would like to ask if you have time to come for an interview this week?"

I checked the delivery time online, I remember correctly, I submitted my resume to them a month or two ago.It took a long time for them to reply to me after reading all the proofreading textbooks at hand.

After the nervousness passed, I complained to my mother, in fact, to relieve the pressure of not receiving an interview call for so long: "It's been a month since I called, are you dreaming?"

My mother also said: "The efficiency is really low. It looks like a good unit. You shouldn't work overtime. Go and try."

At that time, I was passionate about online writing, and I always dreamed that I could make a fortune by writing books.I think proofreading is a bit interesting, but it is far from the web editor I expected.

I didn't expect much, so I told the interviewer very directly during the interview: "I know that I don't meet your requirements in all aspects. I used to work for a bank, but because I didn't have any interest, I did it for two or three years. I just don’t want to do it. I don’t want to go back and forth between joining and leaving a job, so I’ve made it clear to you. Everyone spends eight hours a day in the unit, and I just want to find a job that I’m interested in.”

The interviewer smiled: "Then are you interested in proofreading? This is a very boring profession."

"As long as I don't communicate with people, I think I can accept it."

"Then you are quite suitable. However, what I am more worried about is that proofreading requires relatively high professionalism and requires a very professional level. We have actually screened out your resume before, but we have not recruited for two months. It is suitable, so I will check your resume again. I think you give us a real impression from the interview, but I want to try you for a few more days."

For the first time, I knew that being real was an advantage.

I just finished reading the proofreading book of People's Daily, and I used it all on the trial draft while it was hot.The revision was so serious that even the interviewer laughed later: "There are some places that don't need to be changed, some are their personal style, and everyone will know it after they get familiar with it."

After a three-day probationary period, I was accepted by the newspaper as a proofreader.

I think this matter has its own will in the dark.That day I was walking in front of the bookshelves in the library. There were tens of thousands of books, maybe even hundreds of thousands of books. How could I just randomly find the most suitable one?The newspaper office can't recruit anyone for a month or two, isn't it waiting for me?It's like Zhang Wuji fell into the ape cave and found a peerless martial arts cheat book, and the screenwriter didn't even write it like this.

Two months after my naked resignation, I found a new job that fully met my ideals—no overtime every day, half an hour away from my home, lunch included, and writing-related.

Even I think it's amazing that there are such jobs in S city.