cold jade blue

"Why did you say that suddenly?" Li Qingyu stretched out his hand to touch his forehead strangely: "Could it be that you are sick? Give me your hand and I'll give you a pulse."

Leng Yi stretched out his hand, but instead of letting Li Qingyu feel his pulse, he held the hand that was caressing his head in his hand, pressed against him sullenly and said, "You are such a good person, yet you choose to be with me..."

"It's me who wants to be with you." Li Qingyu interrupted him, withdrew his hand and knocked on his head: "You are the one who suffers and I gain, you know? What are you depressed about? Could it be that you are not willing to suffer? "

"Of course not." Leng Yi laughed foolishly, then buried his head down again: "Do you like me tired?"

What is the problem?Li Qingyu sighed: "It's impossible not to be tired."

"Then why do you continue to like it? Wouldn't it be easier to give up earlier?" Leng Yi buried his head deeper, knowing what his answer would be, but still wanted to hear it, wanted to hear more affirmation from him .

Li Qingyu also knew this, how could Leng Yi be blamed for being hesitant?I am also like him, I will fall into anxiety from time to time, I don't blame anyone, it's just that this kind of feeling is too shocking, without absolute confidence and determination, it is impossible to go on.

"Do you think I haven't tried it? If I could give up easily, I wouldn't be where I am today." Li Qingyu rubbed Leng Yi's head helplessly, and said with a smile: "Besides, if it hurts, I will cry, I'm afraid Just frown, give up if you feel tired, I don't have the right to like you."

Leng Yi's hair was very hard and felt a little prickly to the touch. Li Qingyu narrowed his eyes due to the itchy palms: "Did you compete with others? With uncle?"

The feeling is really not the usual sharpness.

Leng Yi felt emotional in his heart and nodded: "It's a martial arts competition with someone else, but it's not Senior Feng Lu, but... Hua Moqian."

"How could you..." Li Qingyu was a little surprised.Hua Moqian didn't know why he had been paying special attention to Leng Yi, but the unintentional attack a year ago made him, the dignified master of the underworld, put down his body and ask Leng Yi to explain it, although the explanation was a bit bad.But he really didn't want Leng Yi to have anything to do with Hua Moqian, no matter from which aspect.

"Senior Feng Lu told me that Hua Moqian's kung fu is different from the Feng family's swordsmanship. If I can get him to teach me three moves and two moves, I will definitely gain a lot..." Leng Yi was a little frustrated: "The result I lost."

It looks like you lost badly?Li Qingyu smiled: "Hua Moqian has been in the world for many years. If he had no ability, he would not have the status and achievements he has today. You don't have to care about it. They are people in the world, they just wait and see the situation in the temple, and they don't care about it. It will be easy to get involved. So there will not be so many masters in the real imperial examination competition, don't worry."

"really……"

Leng Yi muttered something in a low voice, but Li Qingyu didn't hear clearly: "What did you say?"

"I said you are really virtuous." Leng Yi finally raised his face and smiled and hugged his waist tightly: "I will not let go, absolutely not..."

Is it virtuous?That's not a word to describe a man.

Li Qingyu looked at Leng Yi dotingly, because he was too tired, his eyelids had gradually closed, but his arms were still tightly bound to him.Although this posture is very twisted, Li Qingyu will just take care of him.

Looking at the phoenix tree seedlings not far away, I don't know if they can survive... Feelings are like seeds, no matter how hard an apprentice is, they can't stop them from breaking out of the ground.

As long as he is happy, let him go.

Lin Xian's house is actually fine, but in the morning, he heard from the servant that his elder brother Lin Yue would go back today, but this is nothing in Lin Xian's heart. In his heart, he has only had that one person since he was a child.

why it's not me?Lin Xian repeated in his heart, not asking himself, and he didn't know who to ask.

Lin Xian has been known as a genius since he was a child. He has a beautiful appearance, is capable of both civil and military skills, and is also proficient in all aspects of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. Up to now, no one in his age can surpass him.He is the pride of the Lin family, and he also bears too many expectations, but because of his outstanding ability, Lin Xian doesn't feel much about the weight of such expectations.

The Lin and Li families are family friends. At a dinner party, he met Li Qingyu, who was only two years old. At first glance, Lin Xian only thought that the child was very beautiful, especially the eyes were very clear. He looked polite but reserved and indifferent. .Probably because of the similar age, he quickly realized that the child's mind was slightly different from the appearance.He has the same hard shell as Lin Xian himself on the outside, but has an extremely soft heart.

As the son of everyone, Li Qingyu has also shouldered a lot, but he was born with a thin body and could not fulfill Li Xiaoan's heavy expectations like Lin Xian.So that kind of expectation turned into delicate emotions, it is easy to be hurt, and it is true that it is constantly being hurt, but it does not show at all on the surface, accumulating and sealing up the hurt layer by layer.However, no matter how old he is, he still maintains the simplicity and kindness in his heart, which is really rare in another sense.

Although there are brothers and sisters in the family, they are not as talented as Lin Xian, and they are mediocre like Lin Yue.Lin Xian still looked down upon them a little, and they all had their own thoughts and couldn't talk to each other.So it's easy to feel pity for this transparent child in my heart, treat him like a younger brother when I was young, accompany him to study, and teach him to play the piano.

Gradually, I don't know when it started, only that person remained in Lin Xian's eyes.Precisely because I realized that my emotions were abnormal, but I didn't want to hurt him, so I endured it all the time, and only hoped that he would be happy.

Lin Xian hooked the corners of his mouth in a self-deprecating manner. Although he said he didn't want to hurt him, he still didn't have the courage.What Leng Yi said was right, no one could be blamed for this matter but himself, when he chose to leave a few years ago, he had already lost.

Sighing, Lin Xian still couldn't help but feel sad.

The tired and weak side of that child was only for me to see, so it was hard for me to give up looking forward to it.He had obviously given up on this relationship, but it was still difficult to suppress the emotions in his heart.She obviously likes him so much that she can't help herself, but she just endures and is content to stand beside him.Obviously I was the first to speak, saying that I was going to leave, but up to now it has been a long time since I could not let go of my infatuated love for him.So now that I can no longer expect anything from him, is it different than before?

The weather is really good today, the cloudless sky is very beautiful, but the sun is too glaring, as long as you look up, your eyes will be so painful that you will shed tears.

why it's not me?

"Third young master." The servant at the door saw Lin Xian hastily greeted him: "It just so happens that the eldest young master has just come back, and he is in the Baihua hall with the master and his wife."

"Understood." With a faint reply, Lin Xian stepped into the house and entered the Hundred Flowers Hall.

"Yo, third brother, long time no see." Lin Yue was still in the same old way, and he seemed to be out of shape: "You are still staying at home."

Before Lin Xian could speak, his wife reprimanded him: "Your third younger brother is busy doing important things. You thought he was just like you, and he didn't look serious all day long. Finally, he got an official job for you. It's still up to now. I just entered Beijing."

Entered Beijing?Because Lin Yue really didn't have much ability, Lin Xian knew that his father had found him a job, but at the beginning, he was afraid that if he was in the capital, he would lose his reputation, so he first worked in the local area. Infiltrated into the capital.

Anyway, Lin Xian didn't mind these things, he nodded slightly to Lin Yue and his parents, and sat aside.

"I'm concerned about the third younger brother, who doesn't have a family at this age." Lin Yue curled his lips.

Lin Xian dislikes other people interfering in personal affairs, not even family members.He frowned, and his wife said, "Your third younger brother is the one who wants to achieve great things. Why should he be so concerned with his children's personal affairs? How many daughters are rushing to marry him?"

Lin Yue snorted disdainfully, Lin Xian got up and saluted several people: "Father, mother and elder brother are chatting first, son is a little tired and went into the house."

Lin Jinquan nodded, and Lin Yue whispered, "So arrogant..."

"If you have the ability of Xian'er, I'd rather you be more arrogant." Lin Jinquan reprimanded severely.

Lin Xian was really tired. He lay down on the bed and soon fell asleep. In his dream, he returned to the time when he was about to leave that year.

Before leaving, Lin Xian hugged him and said, "Qingyu, it's fine as you are, you don't need to change anything, just wait for me to come back."

"Brother Lin, you said that people will always change." Li Qingyu leaned her head on his shoulder and said solemnly.

"I won't change, at least not to you.

His feelings still haven't changed, but Qingyu has changed, will he change too?But if it were another person, it wouldn't be him.After all, he still loves this person, no matter what he becomes, he still loves him...

The primary election of the imperial examination was over soon, and there was a cold appearance in the next competition. Li Qingyu was worried, so he went to see it. If there is nothing to do, he will follow.

The primary election is over, and the rest of the competition is closed. In fact, there is nothing to see at all, but Li Qingyu would rather wait outside the court and wait for him to come out.

Seeing Li Qingyu's nervous look, Lin Xian laughed at him and said, "You don't have to worry so much, with Leng Yi's skill, it's not a problem at all to get fame."

Li Qingyu turned to Lin Xian and said, "I'm not worried about this issue. In fact, I don't care whether he gets the honor or not. I'm just afraid that he will get hurt."

At that moment, Lin Xian suddenly understood that if the person you love doesn't love you, even if you wait for him from 15 to 50 years old, even if you have the most affectionate eyes in the world, even if you say it with tears I like you no matter what you become, but if he doesn't feel you, he just doesn't feel it. Even if you block a hundred arrows for him in your life, it's useless.