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The phone turned on, and it was Jiang Yi calling him.

Jin Rong was dazzled, he closed his eyes and touched the answer button blindly, Jiang Yi's voice came from the other end of the phone, sounding urgent and sad: "Baby, I don't want to break up with you."

He heard Jiang Yi crying, what does it look like for a man as big as Jiang Yi to cry?Jin Rong tried his best to imagine in his mind, but he couldn't mobilize his enthusiasm at all.

He heard Jiang Yi's sincere words: "Please don't break up, okay? I love you, I love you very much, if you want me not to be tired of you, I can, I can stay away from you. I don't want to leave you, Can you give me a chance? Jin Rong, I beg you please...I beg you..."

Jin Rong shook his head, it hurt so much.He felt nauseous, something was about to come out of his throat.

"I'm sorry..." Jin Rong said weakly, "I'm bad..."

"You're not bad, you're not bad at all."

"I..." He forcefully swallowed back the overflowing vomit, and said, "I'm sorry for you."

"I don't want you to say sorry, please...please don't leave me..."

"I lied to you. In fact, my mother has always been someone else's mistress. Everything I have is given to me by my mother's lover. I am very guilty...I..."

Jin Rong couldn't control his body and spit out many things from his mouth.

"What's wrong with you?! Are you throwing up? Have you been drinking?!"

He couldn't hold the phone steady and dropped it to the ground.He kept spitting and spitting.

"I don't want to drag you down." Jin Rong said, "I called you... because I thought clearly. People have to grow up, Jiang Yi, if I always rely on you, I will grow up forever." Not much. If I stay by your side, it will only drag you down and become a burden."

He leaned weakly on the coffee table and said word by word: "So I can only break up with you."

"No! Don't, don't, don't, Jin Rong, I don't want you to break up with me on the phone... You will never be my burden, I hope you will depend on me, and I hope you will stay by my side forever. "

"We'll never see each other again." Because they'll never see each other again.

"Don't!" Jiang Yi cried and asked to stay, "No, I beg you..."

Jin Rong felt a headache, a pain in his wrist, and a pain in his heart.He couldn't describe the pain, it was so painful, it was so painful that he shed tears, and wanted to smash himself to death to escape.

"Mr. Jiang..." Jin Rong said with a soft voice, "It's good to know you. I am very happy to have you by my side. You are happier than sugar, but I am not worthy of you. I hate myself. , I hate myself so much, how can I like you?"

"I don't want you to like me! Jin Rong, why don't we sit down and talk together? Where are you?"

"You have to eat well in the future, you know? You have to, study hard... take good care of yourself..."

Jin Rong couldn't vomit anything, but he still wanted to vomit, and he even wanted to gush out bile.So painful, why is death such a painful thing?But living is already more painful than dying.

"What are you doing? Jin Rong, I'll do anything according to you, I will agree to whatever you say, don't say such things to make me sad..."

"I think you forgot about me, Jiang Yi, we will never see each other again...... Can you be a stranger, can you be indifferent to me?"

"No! Can't, can't, can't!"

"I really..." Jin Rong gritted his teeth and said, "Do you know? I hate you so much! Don't be so humble, okay? What do I have to deserve your humiliation?"

"Because I love you very much."

"Do you know what love is?" Jin Rong became desperate, "You don't know, and I don't know. We don't know."

The word "love" has become very blurred in his heart. People would tell him "I love you very much" when he opened his eyes and closed his eyes, but he didn't understand what is called love.

A little unable to think.

"I know, I love you very much."

"It's too late." Jin Rong was a little dizzy, his reaction was very slow, so slow that he couldn't realize Jiang Yi's words at all.He became confused, and it took him a long time to come to his senses, and he started talking nonsense, "Mr. Jiang, I can't play yet."

"No what?"

"I'm going to play the piano, but I can't play it yet."

He was completely confused, couldn't remember what they were talking about just now, sobbed several times intermittently, and then said: "Bye, I'm going to play the piano..."

He hung up the phone, couldn't help but vomited again.The wound on his wrist was not deep, but it was also bleeding, and there was blood everywhere.It was uncomfortable for him to lean, sit, and lie down.He didn't have any strength anymore, his head still hurt, and he still wanted to vomit.He had some hallucinations, as if he was really on the sea, and that lighthouse was Jiang Yi.

Buzzing in the mind, paused.

The phone kept ringing, and he couldn't hear the ring at all, as if his ears were blocked.

Before Jin Rong fell into a coma, he saw Jin Shiyuan and Song Nianyuan breaking in.He seemed to feel that Song Nianyuan was making him vomit, but he couldn't vomit anything.

"Call an ambulance! Quick!"

Jin Shiyuan trembled, her hands were unsteady when pressing the phone, and when she answered the phone, she burst into tears: "Help! Doctor... help..."

"Give me the phone!" Song Nianyuan called the doctor while hugging Jin Rong. He kept saying "hurry up" because Jin Rong seemed to be unable to hold on.

Jin Rong was sent to the hospital, and he could wake up again with a pat on the shoulder.The doctor asked him, "What's your name? How old are you?"

He was in a trance, and what he said was unbelievable.

"My name is Jiang Yi...this year..." Jin Rong's mouth is out of his control, he has forgotten how old he is, he may be in his teens, or he may be in his 30s.

Jin Shiyuan stomped his feet anxiously when he heard Jiang Yi's name: "His name is Jin Rong! His name is not Jiang Yi at all!"

He was pulled in to have his stomach washed and stitches were done.He couldn't feel how painful it was during the rescue.

He dreamed that he was on a big ship.

There are many people on the big boat, including Fang Yizhe, Jin Shiyuan, Song Nianyuan, Jiang Yi, Wu Yao, Yang Zhuo, Fei Yiran... so many people.He stepped forward and asked, "Why are we on this ship?"

Fei Yiran said, "Because we are leaving."

"Where to go?"

"Go to heaven."

Jin Rong looked at them, they were all living people, why did they go to heaven?Only he should go to heaven—no, he should go to hell.

He hurriedly drove them off the boat and said angrily, "Get off quickly! You are still alive, so you cannot go to heaven! You should go to the human world..."

Jin Rong saw that Jiang Yi had a sad face, unlike his usual hippie smile.He still remembered that he and Jiang Yi had already broken up, so when they saw each other again, they had to pretend not to know each other.But Jin Rong still couldn't help talking to him, and he went up to Jiang Yi and asked, "Why are you here?"

"Because I'm leaving with you."

"No!" Jin Rong said, "It can't be like this..."

He didn't want Jiang Yi to die, he could just die himself.

There was a bright light in front of him that brought him back to reality, Jin Rong struggled to wake up, and looked up to see the cold needles in the hospital, people surrounded him, and the smell of disinfectant was very strong.

He couldn't move, he could only roll his eyes.

A nurse stood next to him, seeing him awake, she was a little happy: "Don't move around, I'll call your family."

dependents?Isn't his family member Jin Shiyuan?

No, he doesn't want to see Jin Shiyuan.He was so scared of Jin Shiyuan, so scared, so scared.He turned his face away and closed his eyes tightly, trying to escape all this.

Sure enough, Jin Shiyuan's cry came, from outside to inside the ward, sobbing and wailing, as if Jin Rong had died.But he is still alive, not dead.

"Xiao Rong! Why are you so stupid! Why do you do such a stupid thing? Why do you..."

Jin Rong got a headache from hearing this, and his hand hurt, so he could only cover half of his ear with the other hand.

"Patients need to rest, family members are a little quieter."

Jin Shiyuan was pulled aside, followed by a pair of warm hands.Song Nianyuan's hands are big, with fleshy fingertips, and they are hands for playing the piano.He held Jin Rong, sending countless warm lights, Jin Rong relaxed a little, and turned to look at him.

"Wake up." Song Nianyuan spoke softly, "Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"

Jin Rong's reaction was slow, he didn't have time to answer, when he saw the man standing beside Jin Shiyuan, he felt strong disgust all over his body again.He turned pale with fright, and the needle tube was shaken around by him.

"Ah!" Jin Rong screamed, "I don't want to see him! Let him go! Let him go!"

"Xiao Rong!" Jin Shiyuan was powerless. She knew that Jin Rong hated Fang Yizhe very much, so she could only call Fang Yizhe out first to calm him down.Jin Rong also hated seeing Jin Shiyuan, as long as she was around, Jin Rong would be emotional and couldn't be quiet at all.

He broke down and wanted to get under the bed, the needle tube was almost torn off the back of his hand.

They all left before Jin Rong calmed down, looking at the ceiling and weeping silently.

"Jin Rong, they're all gone, I'm here." Song Nianyuan whispered beside him.

Jin Rong cried, he felt embarrassed and embarrassed.He wanted Song Nianyuan's hug. He knew that this was his father's hug. He owed his father's love for more than ten years and begged for more than ten years of warm arms.

"Dad..." he sobbed, "Are you my dad? Why didn't you want me? Why did you leave me behind? I've been wanting to ask for so many years, where did my dad go..."

"I'm sorry." Song Nianyuan comforted him, "It's my fault, it's all my fault."

Jin Rong has too many "whys" to ask, all of which are blocked in his heart.At the same time, he was also afraid of hearing these answers. He was afraid that Song Nianyuan would say that he was a burden, and he was afraid that no one would love him.

For more than ten years, he has always wondered why Song Nianyuan didn't want him.Is it because Song Nianyuan is also a bad man?Is he also a heartless person who abandons others after the game is over?If this is the case, Jin Rong would rather not see him again and leave him alone in the orphanage.

Song Nianyuan explained to him: "I didn't know your mother gave birth to you. What happened back then was indeed my fault, I'm sorry. I really didn't know that your mother was pregnant with you. After I broke up with her, she said She is already pregnant. She asked me if I wanted a child, and neither she nor I had the ability to raise the child, so I said no. I feel ashamed of her, and I try my best to satisfy any request she makes, and I agree to whatever she wants. She also agreed, and then she aborted the child and disappeared. I have always felt indebted to her for so many years, but I can’t contact her anyway. I don’t know that she gave birth to you. It was a few days ago, a classmate of mine Tell me, he saw your name on the entry list, and the guardian is Jin Shiyuan... I went to find you, only to find out that maybe you are really my son."

Jin Rong felt that such an explanation was too pale.But he couldn't find any other reason to hate Song Nianyuan.

How strange.After a long time, he was just an accident, an accident among accidents.

"Everything will be fine, Rongrong." Song Nianyuan said, "I won't let you be wronged again, son."

"Really?" Jin Rong didn't believe it.

"If I knew she gave birth to you from the beginning, how could I rest assured that she would take you alone? Rongrong, I claim to be not an upright person, and I have done wrong things before. But I can't make mistakes again and again, and I have the opportunity to make up for it. You, I will definitely make it up. I dare not tell you to call me 'Dad', but as long as I am here, no one will bully you anymore, even if that person is your mother."

But they all bullied him.

None of them want him.

Can Jin Rong trust Song Nianyuan?In fact, he himself didn't know.

The author says:

Rong Rong was almost killed by Jin Shiyuan, and she only cried when she called 120, what's going on!

Boyhood is almost over ha!