the one who lives in my body

One hour after the "treatment", Xie Dongrong was a little unable to stand up. He was lying on the hospital bed, his eyes turned to one side, as if looking far away. Several times, I spoke to him, but he didn't respond.

In fact, I should go, Panshi is really inseparable from people, I should not insist on staying here now.

But there's no way, if Xie Dongrong doesn't talk to me, I won't dare to leave until I'm sure he's fine.

Xie Ningbai left, and after she tried to talk to Xie Dongrong several times to no avail, she left with an expression of reluctance. I looked at it and wanted to laugh, thinking that this is probably the reaction of people who have never been left out in the cold.

And I, I'm used to Xie Dongrong ignoring me.

I took out the small parts in my bag and started to work habitually. This is what I do whenever I have free time. It is not only a job, but also a hobby, and it is also a part of my life.

I thought, so I can calm down.

About half an hour later, the doctor pushed the door open, and I almost instinctively looked up at Xie Dongrong. It turned out that at some point, his gaze had turned to my hand. He was staring at the gadget in my hand, like He was thinking about something, but it seemed that his thoughts were completely empty, and he was simply in a daze.

I tried to call his name, his eyes shifted slightly, and finally turned to my face.

The moment I looked at him, suddenly, I felt like the rope that had been tightly bound in my heart was suddenly untied.

There was never a moment when I felt that Xie Dongrong and I finally got rid of the shackles of a certain relationship.

I thought I would cry, or feel unwilling, or deeply reluctant, but at this moment I realized that I didn't.

Even if Xie Dongrong's gaze didn't really focus on my face at this moment, and I wasn't in his eyes, I was still happy.

So happy for him to be truly reborn.

"It's normal for him to be like this now, and he should be back to normal after a few hours." The doctor glanced at me, "You seem to be busy there, I'll watch him here, you can wait a while Time to come."

"It's okay, I'll stay here," I said, and I sent a text message to my colleague, "Anyway, I can't calm down when I go back now."

I'm going to watch him and make sure he's back to normal.

"Okay, then I'll prepare some materials first, and you watch him here." As if he understood something, the doctor chose to leave very "wisely".

Clap, the sound of the door being closed.

When I turned my head, I found that Xie Dongrong was still looking at me, but he didn't seem to be looking at me. His eyes were a little dull, and it felt more like he was in a daze.

"Dong Rong," At that time, I didn't know what I was thinking, slowly, I held his hand outside the quilt, lifted it slightly, put my face on it, and dropped a hand on the back of my hand. Kiss, "Congratulations."

In fact, Xie Dongrong has always been regarded as my princess. I feel that compared to a prince who matches him, I am more like a knight, humble and sincere by his side.

I hope that this kind of relationship can last forever, and suddenly, I don't want to long for anything else, just like this, like a dutiful knight, that's fine.

I don't know exactly when Xie Dongrong woke up.

When his voice reached my ears, I was a little dazed, "Tao Shu?" He called my name.

I couldn't help but laugh out loud.

Xie Dongrong stared at me, and finally frowned, I don't know if he thought of some bad memories, "How do you feel?" I stretched out my hand, wanting to touch his forehead.

He raised his hand and brushed me away as a sign of refusal.

At that moment, I didn't know how I was feeling, but I wasn't that sad.

"Sorry." He stroked his forehead, as if his head hurts.

I immediately called the doctor for him.

Fortunately, there was nothing serious about his body. When he got out of bed, his steps were steady and his movements were like the wind. Except for his frowns that seemed to be frowning in worry, everything seemed to be the same.

Xie Dongrong briefly exchanged a few words with the doctor, and was soon allowed to "discharge".

Xie Dongrong walked in front, his pace was a bit fast, his pace was bigger than mine, I had to speed up my pace a little to ensure that I could keep up with him.

When he walked to the door of his room, he turned his head to look at me, with an expression on his face, as if he just remembered that I was beside him.

I smiled at him, but besides this, I don't know what else I should do.

After entering the room, Xie Dongrong sat on the edge of the bed, as if thinking about life, in a daze.

I sat beside him in silence, and turned my head to look at his chiseled profile, but what filled my heart was a very beautiful emotion.

"...Tao Shu?" Xie Dongrong turned his head as if he saw me suddenly.

I stood up and walked over to him.

"We have this kind of relationship..." As if muttering to himself, he raised his hand, hugged my waist, and pulled me into his lap for no reason. I felt his tone was a little broken.

I know why, but I don't want to think about it.

I held his shoulders, waiting for his next move.

His movements are very proficient, like a beast that is familiar with the process, his movements are fierce and neat, and he does it in one go.

The gentleness cultivated with great difficulty some time ago is gone now, perhaps this is Xie Dongrong's nature, unscrupulous, following instinct like a wild beast, and does not allow disobedience.

I seem to have been fully exploited by him. Without much lubrication, his movements are still very smooth. Apart from some pain, there is nothing else.

Xie Dongrong’s eyes are like a ferocious beast, I’m sure he’s never looked at me like this before, his expression even gave me an illusion for no reason—I’m not his “gentle” lover, but his estrangement Dai Tian's enemy.

He has been looking at me like this, observing my expression, as if he wants to burn my painful appearance into his mind.

It seems to be bleeding.

But it doesn't matter, the answer is already in front of you.

After venting, Xie Dongrong lay beside me without saying a word.

"Xie Dongrong, I like you." With a half smile, I told him, "You said you would give me the answer after the surgery."

Turning my head, I knew Xie Dongrong was awake, but he just looked at the ceiling for a long while before saying, "Go to sleep."

"……it is good."

I think I am still a human being with sound emotions, but for Xie Dongrong, my emotions have been infinitely overdrawn and diluted.

I don't know if I should be lucky, but when he fell asleep, he reached out and hugged me tightly.

And so he fell asleep.

And I can't sleep.

One hour?two hours?I don't know, anyway, I have been maintaining this posture, feeling his heartbeat, as if I want to engrave this last tenderness into my mind.

When his hold on me gradually weakened, I was able to crawl out of his arms.

I didn't leave his room right away, I sat at his desk, I know he has the habit of waking up every morning to sit at the desk for a while, and look at today's itinerary.

He has a complete set of things here, including paper and pen.

Enough for me to write down what I want to express.

I put the paper upright on the table, and pressed it with a pen to prevent it from being blown away by the wind, although there is no wind here either.

Anyway, make sure Xie Dongrong can see it.

The content is very simple, but it is just a difference.

In the end I knew that my relationship with him was just going to end without any major outbursts or overt joy, but I knew it was time to separate.

"separate"?I don't know if this word is used appropriately, anyway, in my eyes, it can be called a breakup.

I don't want to mention too much about the bad treatment. I think it's because I haven't really approached his heart after all.

I think he may have liked me, and at a certain moment, he will feel very caring, or at a certain moment he said some emotional things, and he believed them all.

Although those are not what I want after all, but for me, a greedy ghost, a shallow taste is enough.

I think I will still love him, in any other capacity, but I won't desire him anymore, don't want to be his lover, don't get close to him, kiss him, sleep in the same bed with him .

I think I've done all I can do for him, so let's stop here.

I thought so much, but in the end, I only wrote a few words.

I can't believe it was me who broke up with Xie Dongrong who is a high-ranking and important person?I don't have that sense of honor at all, I just feel scared...and incredible.

I didn't dare to face him who saw this piece of paper, so I left in a hurry.

But before I left, I held onto the door frame and stared at Xie Dongrong who was still lying on the bed, frowning slightly, as if disturbed by a nightmare.

When he wakes up, he will find that he is free.

I smiled and gently closed the door.

Panshi has been waiting for me for a long time, the spaceship carrying him is about to leave the mothership, and I, after doing what I should do.It's time to go back to my official job.

I am a very unfulfilling person.

I thought I was indifferent enough, and I had already done a good job of psychological construction for myself.

But on the way back to the ground floor, tears trickled down my chin one drop at a time.

I covered my eyes and didn't want others to see me crying, because that might not be too embarrassing or too irrational.

But that's out of my control.

Back in the breeding room, Pan Shi had already put on his equipment and waited for me. Standing beside him were the staff in the breeding room and the spaceship pilot in charge of releasing the animals.

At the moment when I looked at Pan Shi, for some reason, the cowardly seed in my heart took root and sprouted. I ran over quickly, buried my face in Pan Shi's chest, and couldn't stop whimpering.

It's ugly and embarrassing.

Everyone in the breeding room thought it was because I was reluctant to part with Rock.

But I'm not that noble at all.

Although I can't bear to part with the rock, it's true.

In the end, the leader who was in charge of piloting the spaceship stepped forward and patted me on the shoulder, telling me, "He is a brother who values ​​affection. I can understand that you have been together for so long, but don't be too sad."

I smiled and nodded at him.