the one who lives in my body

As the vehicle left the field of yellow sand, I got a call.

It was my mother calling.

"A Shu..." Her voice was a little dry, as if she was trying to swallow her saliva but was powerless.

I sat up slightly, and unconsciously tensed my nerves.

"Come back quickly, something happened to your uncle... Then... there was something wrong with your place of work, the policy was suddenly changed... There is nothing we can do..." She was obviously at a loss for words, like I don't know how to describe it, but listening to her tone, I quickly understood that what happened was not a good thing.

I couldn't make it clear on the phone, so in the end I chose to soften my tone to stabilize her mood a little bit. The only "good news" this phone call brought me was that she was fine for the time being.

After hanging up, feeling the bumps of the vehicle, my heart seemed to be tightly strangled by a very thin rope, with a vague but not obvious pain.

The atmosphere in the car was so stiff, I knew that if I didn't take the initiative to talk to Xie Dongrong, I couldn't expect him to raise a certain topic with me.

But now is obviously not the time to be hypocritical, I asked him: "It seems that some new policies have been introduced recently, do you know?"

Xie Dongrong looked at me in a blink of an eye, and his expression fell into a kind of bewilderment that was hard to see, "We have lost contact with the capital during this period, what's wrong? Did something happen?"

"No...it's nothing, my mother called and said something inexplicable." I lowered my head, I don't intend to involve Xie Dongrong in my family's affairs.

Xie Dongrong stared at me for a while, and finally, he chose to look out the window, lost in thought, as if thinking about something seriously.

So in such deadly silence, we bumped back to the capital.

I got off the car at the place designated by my mother, and before I even had time to turn around to say goodbye to Xie Dongrong, the car door was closed without hesitation, as if leaving even a little bit of car exhaust, a gust of wind blew by, and he was busy again ran away from me.

When I saw my mother, I found that her face was not very good-looking.

She put on cheap ordinary clothes, her back was slightly arched, and her face without makeup showed fatigue. Even for the first time, I found that she was "old".

Obviously before this, I never thought that this word would be used on her. I even thought that she would be a girl who was sought after by countless men all her life.

But what I saw was clearly not the case.

She raised her eyes to look at me, those eyes, which had not been stained with melancholy for a long time, have now returned to the appearance haunted by poverty, only paler and more dry...

I know that she is the kind of woman who needs rich clothes and riches to be calm and beautiful, even if those are nothing but illusions.

"Ashu, we have to move out of Naming." This was the first sentence she spoke to me.

For a moment, I seemed to be back three years ago, when she made up her mind to move out of Naming.

This time she also proposed it on her own initiative. This time the princess stayed for a longer time, but she was also more decisive.

Then she said to me, "You have to transfer schools."

Time seemed to be frozen, and I stayed where I was, not even knowing what expression to make.

As long as you have Maodian's graduation certificate, it's not too difficult to go out for a meal.

Besides, in only one year, I will be able to graduate.

Now, where can I go after dropping out of school?

At that moment, I thought, maybe not only my mother, but even I was dazzled by the princess's favor, stayed with these nobles all day long, and forgot where I came from.

Moreover, this time I won't be as "lucky" as last time - Xie Dongrong no longer needs me as much as before. According to the current situation, I am afraid that soon, I will not see him very often.

Although I still don't know what happened, but the sudden change almost made me stupid.

Mom led me to our new home.

It's ridiculous to say that I'm so old, and my mother has been making money for many years, but once we leave Namin, we still have to live in a rented house and live a life of frugality.

However, the house my mother chose this time is better than the previous one. She seems to have paid attention to saving money. Although the effect is not great, the money is still enough to allow us to live a little comfortably for a while.

My mother made me a cup of tea, which was regarded as a cleansing for me.

After putting down the teacup, she told me what had happened during my absence.

After I left, Wang asked his mother for a date, only once, and the two parties did not make any substantive moves.

Because taking this opportunity, my mother told Wang: "I'm sorry, Shushu's father has already sent me a letter, and I plan to..."

Wang Shunshi asked my mother about my own father. Although my mother was reluctant to talk about it, but because of her fear of Wang, she had no choice but to tell the whole story in the end.

The tragedy seems to have started here.

After that, the article written by my old uncle in the past was suddenly turned up. The person above said that the lines in this article were full of insinuations about the Shen family's affairs back then, saying that he was dissatisfied with the king's judgment and failed the king's good intentions. , In addition, he was suspected of being involved in the inside line of the anti-imperial organization, so he was sent to the political prison below the Mangkamai Palace. There was no trial, no defense, only a unilateral sentence by the powerful.

So, my uncle, an elegant man who had no hobbies other than planting flowers and plants, was arrested like this.

For this reason, my mother went to see Wang. Although Wang met her, he completely changed his face and said: "These things have nothing to do with you. I am not the kind of person who will take revenge just because I am rejected, but our sentence You can never go wrong, you go back first, right..."

"Anzhen seems to be too close to your family. She is my younger sister. There are certain things that I don't want to happen..."

My mother's white rabbit-like character, after hearing this, it is a miracle that she didn't faint in front of her on the spot, she quickly made a judgment, and in the simplest and most straightforward way - she chose to Move out of Namin.

Of course, that wasn't the straw that broke the camel's back.

When one of my mech works exhibited was widely exposed on the Internet, and she was accused of plagiarizing the design of a classmate in the same year, she couldn't hold back.

Although the so-called "plagiarized" party has made a statement on its own that there is no such thing, but my mother knows that this kind of thing will only happen one after another.

Wang said that he would not bully a powerless woman, but he never promised her that he would not attack her relatives.

When she told the princess that she would let me drop out of school, the always gentle princess became more violent than ever.

"What does this have to do with Ah Shu? You can be willful, but you can't delay your child's future! I know you don't want to hurt the people you have a good relationship with, but is self-destruction right?"

This originally made my mother dispel this idea for the time being, but then, a new bill was introduced.

First came a piece of news, saying that when our country's fleet arrived at Amut Star, it was violently attacked by the local aborigines.

What follows is a long paragraph of inflammatory text, the overall meaning is-before the Amut people decide to wipe out us, we will counterattack in advance.

Then, a photo of Pan Shi and me was posted. In the photo, Pan Shi was locked in a cage, while I was expressionless and indifferent.

It said that the Amut people who were invited to our planet have been taken care of all these years, but they have not accepted the kindness of human beings all the time.

The new bill was introduced the next day.

The higher authorities have decided to stop all unconditional support activities for the Amuts from next season. In order to prevent the invasion of species, they will even start to consider completely eradicating these Amuts who were "invited" back then.

This is a big event. Generally speaking, this kind of big event has nothing to do with ordinary people like us.

But it is not always the case.

Because this will indirectly lead to my "unemployment", and this can be regarded as a kind of negation of me by the above.

One after another bad news didn't directly fall on my mother, but it was enough to make her delirious. She seemed to think that all the misfortunes were caused by her. Thinking that it was an ultimatum given to her by the superiors, all these situations that fell on me and the old uncle made her feel more uncomfortable than directly falling on her.

The man who said not long ago that he wanted to pursue my mother, now behaves like he wants my mother to die.

However, what can we who are so small do?

Of course, there is nothing you can do except bear it.

When talking about these things, my mother's tone was calm, but her face was as pale as a piece of thin paper.

"It's not because of you, think about it carefully." I stroked my chin, "I think it might have something to do with my dad."

My mother raised her face and looked at me helplessly with her clean eyes.

"Wang has so many women, but you, you have to believe, you can't cause that kind of uproar." I patted her on the shoulder, and I can be regarded as a reverse comfort, "I guess Wang and my father may I know each other, and I still have some grievances or something. If you think about it carefully, Wang’s attitude began to change when you said something? So... It can be said that this is actually an inevitable thing, but it happened in advance That's all."

Looking at my mother's expression, it is obvious that she needs some time to digest what I said. I took her by the shoulders and took her back to my bedroom, letting her have a good rest and not think too much.

I acted relaxed, because I didn't want my mother to despair because of my despair.

For a person like her, if she can't think about it, because she feels that she is a drag on her family, she may seek death.

Back in my room, smelling the smell of new furniture inside, I just felt that everything in front of me was strange, and the world became strange. For a moment, I even wished that I had never existed from the beginning to the end.

Of course, I am not as open-minded as it seems on the surface.

Of course I don't want to drop out of school. To a certain extent, I also think my mother's decision is a bit stupid. She just hopes to exchange her regress for the other party's sympathy, but that is obviously not the crux of the problem.

But if she insists, I think, I will do it.

All of a sudden, I want to smoke, I want to drink, I want to experience that feeling of being out of my mind and forgetting everything.

However, this new home is empty and empty.

When the communication equipment rang, I jumped up and saved myself from the near-drowning emotion.

It was Xie Dongrong calling.

I didn't force him.

This is the first time since I was born.

The author says:

People are numb, destroy it.

Writing guide, speed roll.

There will be no pitfalls, nor will the rhythm be changed.

I didn't plan to change it today.

Ah, friend, goodbye.