the one who lives in my body

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When I was six years old, my mother took me into the hospital. On that day, Xie Dongrong was implanted in my body.

I personally don’t feel much about it. The only thing I remember is being interviewed by a crowd of media after I was discharged from the hospital. They followed me behind my ass and asked questions. It was the first time that I, who had never paid attention to me, experienced the feeling of being under the spotlight. .

Half a month after the operation, I visited the princess' mansion for the first time.

It can be said to be a castle, with mountains and lakes inside. After entering the gate, it takes several 10 minutes to drive to see the castle itself. In the center of the capital, such a place is almost strange, but outsiders rarely call it xx Fort, but referred to as "Namin".

As a "child of the poor", this is the first time for me to set foot in such a luxurious "castle". I am even more afraid of bumping into the crystal showcase at the corner on the second floor.

Everything here is something I have never heard or seen.

And when I walked into that technologically rich room and saw Xie Dongrong soaked in a nutrition jar, I was completely stunned.

I feel like a wild dog breaking into the sanctuary, and the condescending Xie Dongrong above with his eyes closed is the god in this sanctuary.

It was the first time I met such a good-looking person.

My mother patted me on the shoulder and told me that the person implanted in my body was him.

His body cannot accept his soul for the time being, but my body perfectly matches his soul, so I became his container.

In fact, "soul" is not accurate, and "consciousness" is more appropriate.

"Take care of your body, Shu."

This is what my mother told me. I remember that she was very gentle that day, and her usual sad eyes were filled with a smile. I haven’t seen her smile like this for a long time, so I couldn’t help but feel happy.

"Shushu, treat Dongrong as your younger brother from now on. He lives with you now, so you must protect him well." The princess's voice reached my ears.

The princess, Xie Dongrong's mother, was leaning against the door of the room at this time. She was a very gentle woman with an indescribable and fragile beauty.

I found out later that Princess Anzhen and my mother were childhood friends.

My mother's favorite thing to do is to recall the days when I was a nobleman. Before I learned that she and the princess were old acquaintances, I always thought she was bragging and lying.

Of course, even if I knew the truth, I didn't think highly of our mother and son. After all, "a hero doesn't mention his bravery in the past", people often only recognize your current value.

One month after the operation, my mother and I moved out of the small rental house we had lived in and moved into the princess's mansion.

Until now I thought that was an undeserved honor.

My mother, who had little survival skills, was hired by the princess as the housekeeper of the mansion.

In the 12 years since then, the relationship between the princess and my mother has gradually changed from being estranged to inseparable. It has to be said that their personalities are very compatible, sometimes like biological sisters.

And I occasionally have the illusion that Princess Anzhen is my second mother.

Of course, such thoughts often only exist for a moment, because when General Xie Zhengchu returns home, we have to perform our original duties well. The general, that is, the princess’ husband and Xie Dongrong’s father, has The demeanor of not being angry and self-imposing almost makes people shy away instinctively.

I couldn't detect what the general thought of me and my mother, or maybe he didn't bother to think about us at all. To be honest, even after living in this family for 12 years, I was still a little afraid of him.

When my mother gets along with the princess, I often can't get in. As a man, I really don't know much about cosmetics, perfumes, dresses, etc., and I don't want to forcefully blend in to disturb their elegance, but when I look at the princess and my mother, I can't help but worry--

I'm afraid my mother will indulge in her aristocratic dreams even more crazily because of this.

During the 12 years of living in the mansion, my mother seems to have gradually forgotten where we came from, and my duty is to remind her from time to time that we were just two poor ghosts.

Of course, the basis of reminding her is self-examination all the time, every day, I have to silently recite a hundred thousand times in my heart like chanting sutras—"Tao Shu, you are just a commoner who has a little relationship with the nobles. "

At least, I can't let myself fall into those flashy traps.

It can be said that during the past 12 years, my heart remained tense most of the time.

Of course, I am not a saint, and I will still relax at certain times.

When I get along with Xie Dongrong every day, I will allow myself to dream a little.

For 12 years, I watched him grow up day by day, no matter what age, he always brought me amazing, just like when I first met him.

His beauty seemed eternal.

Occasionally, I would talk to him, and sometimes I would stretch out my hand uncontrollably, and trace his body with my fingers through the transparent material of the nutrition jar.

I already know the curves of his face like the back of my hand, I only hope that one day I can touch him with my own hands, and then kiss him recklessly.

My mother asked me to treat him as my brother, but I couldn't.

Because the scene of him holding hands with me after waking up, I have imagined countless times.

But I am different from my mother, I know that dreams will wake up.

Twelve years later, on October 12th, I walked into the hospital again, and Xie Dongrong was separated from me since then, and his consciousness was finally implanted back into my body.

Just like when I was six years old, when I walked out of the operating room, my body didn't feel any special, but my heart was empty, because when the doctor announced that Xie Dongrong was no longer living in my body, I clearly realized that I The bond with him was broken like this.

The princess is looking forward to Xie Dongrong's awakening, and so am I. I dare say that I go to Xie Dongrong's bedroom more times a day than the princess who is a mother.

His pupil color must be extremely beautiful, I believe so, I even selfishly hope that the first person he sees when he wakes up is me.

However, I did not wait for that day.

One month after the operation, Xie Dongrong still showed no signs of waking up, while my mother and I had already decided to move out of the princess' mansion.

Of course it's not that the princess wanted to drive us away. My mother and I believed that she would not have such an idea. In fact, my mother has kept the princess's mansion in good order over the years, so it is reasonable to continue to stay.

The main reason was that King Marlon abdicated for some reason, and his younger brother, Prince Lesheng, who had always been active in the political arena, succeeded to the throne. Soon after, he began to focus on thoroughly eliminating the sinners and their relatives who tried to rebel.

At this time, I have long understood what my mother's identity is. Indeed, she used to be a high-ranking nobleman. Unfortunately, she has an elder brother who is the mastermind of the rebellion. Her parents are also my grandfather. Grandma was also implicated and imprisoned.

Back then, when the incident happened, my mother was running away with my scumbag father. She didn't know anything about what happened at home. However, she was very lucky that she didn't see or experience what happened on the day the house was ransacked. everything of.

Anyway, she was a girl, and she didn't have anything, so the people above had no intention of chasing her down.

After she was abandoned by a man, she came home with a big belly, only to find that her home and relatives were gone, and she had changed from a socialite worth millions to an abandoned wife who no one wanted... I can hardly imagine that I What kind of mood did my mother give birth to me?

My mother is not a rebellious person. Her only wish is to stay in the city where she grew up and live a good life. If she can, she wants to return to the circle she is familiar with and become a "nobility" again .

She whispers these things in my ears every day, and she never tires of it, which also causes me to know these things by heart. Of course, compared to living a noble life, she is more unwilling to let anyone be implicated in the past.

So I understand my mother's decision to stay away from the Princess family in the end.

I silently put the things into the suitcase one by one, carrying the big and small bags, and followed behind my mother.

The princess is a kind woman. Even under such circumstances, she still intends to keep us mother and son. At this time, she is wearing a silk dress at home, and her beautiful long hair is casually draped. The solemn appearance on TV formed a great contrast.

Standing at the door, I couldn't help but look back, looking at the princess's face, I suddenly realized that leaving here meant that it might be difficult for me to see Xie Dongrong again.

It seems that there is no time to wait for him to open his eyes. Thinking of this, my eyes can't help but become sour.

"Actually, you don't have to leave. I've already arranged another place for you. You just need to hide there for a while." The princess took my mother's hand, looked up at me, and had to admit, Even though she is the mother of a 16-year-old boy, her eyes are still as clear as a girl's.

She is our lady.

"No, Anzhen." The mother sighed, "Letting me come to you to do things has already caused you a lot of trouble. Now is the time when the situation is turbulent. You can't be troubled by my affairs."

The words of persuasion have been said many times before, but this time the princess didn't say any more, she raised her hand and stroked the back of my head, "Then you and Shushu should visit us more, especially when Dongrong wakes up. You must come." Her palms were warm, and the gentle strength warmed my heart.

I like the princess very much. After getting along for many years, her position in my heart is no less than that of my own mother.

"...Can I still go to the second floor to take a look?" When I spoke, my throat was slightly choked.

"Ashu." My mother tried to stop my impolite request.

"It's okay," the princess smiled, "Go to Shushu, I still want to say a few more words to your mother."

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Sitting beside Xie Dongrong's bed, I couldn't say a word for a long while.

He is no longer an empty shell, but a conscious person who may wake up at any time.

"Xie Dongrong, I'm leaving." After a while, I could only choke out this sentence, "Although you don't know me, I've been looking at you for 12 years..." I tried to reach out and touch his cheek , but when I was about to feel his body temperature, I suddenly withdrew my hand. I couldn't help but feel ashamed of some of my psychology.

I put my head against his ear and said a word to him in a very small voice.