I'm with the white moonlight of the mackerel

Spoiler: Chief Zai ([-])

Originally, for a person who spent most of his life and energy tirelessly looking for death, it might be an interesting thing to be able to witness his own funeral after death.

After all, all of this is what he has been looking forward to arranging for a long time, he said he is looking forward to the end.

It's just that Osamu Dazai is not interested in himself in the coffin or in the howling Atsushi Nakajima.

He stood beside Nakahara Nakaya and watched without batting an eye as his lover Nakaya was suffering from his death.

Maybe his decision was wrong, although he couldn't tell the book, but he said his plan cryptically, would the little man not be so sad.

Obviously he was beside the little dwarf but he could only see his pain but could do nothing about it.

Osamu Dazai felt that if he could continue to be an earth-bound spirit, even if he continued to jump down from the top of the building, it would be a relief.

Until Oda Tsukuru came to mourn.

It was only then that Osamu Dazai found out that his friend actually secretly watched his lover, and even talked to him on purpose.

His little slug, with a fragile heart under a hard and powerful arm, is indeed lovable.

Therefore, even Oda Saku will be attracted by such Chuya.

That's perfectly fine, it's just very wrong,

Osamu Dazai, who has been a follower of Chuya, watched them get to know each other and became friends.

Odasaku even shared with Naka the first draft of his novel.

Osamu Dazai, who was squatting next to Nakaya, saw his lover read each page seriously, and suddenly felt a little sour.

Even the content of the novel that he regretted not seeing before his death was not so attractive to him.

After all, Odasaku who would show the manuscript to Chuya, so carefully staring at Chuya's expression, he really looks like a peacock courting a mate.

Moreover, after reading his works, Zhong also has a better attitude towards him.

At the moment when he and Oda were kissing together in the witness, Osamu Dazai could only bury himself in the corner like a mushroom.

This is not the ending he thought.

Although he hopes that the little man can live a good life after his death, and he also hopes that Oda Saku can write the novel he wants, but now everything is far from his imagination.

Osamu Dazai couldn't use Zhong and was just drunk to comfort himself.

With that backstab in Yangli, Zhong, who has a deep understanding of physical weaknesses, has also formed a conditioned reflex in the past few years of training.

If it's really an object of dislike, it can't be as close as Chuya.

How ironic that his friend and lover met at his funeral and were attracted to each other.

Thinking of the bomb he once planted, Osamu Dazai never knew whether to cry or laugh.

It's just that even if he is unwilling, things still develop as planned.

Ango provided a record of the night that the bomb went off.

The painful Nakaya did not kill Oda Sakunosuke, but the little slug that Osamu Dazai knew could never become friends with Oda Saku, let alone go further.

But all this did not make Osamu Dazai happy, and he was taken to the cemetery by Chuya.

Seeing Nakaya hugging the dead body and refusing to let go, Osamu Dazai could only try his best to squeeze his soul back into his body, pretending that he was still there.

However, Zhong also buried them in the coffin together.

Now Osamu Dazai is a little flustered, Chuka can't be overwhelmed, right?

Osamu Dazai has always felt that even though Nakaya loves himself, he will still be brooding over Mr. Mori's death, and his love for him is nothing more than the familiarity of his partner and the addition of the leader.

Now, with everything after his death, he can finally know that even if he leaves without saying goodbye, even if he has doubts in his heart, he will still love him.

But it was too late, he was already dead.

Seeing that Zhongya's aura is getting weaker and weaker, Mr. Mori, Verlaine, Hongye sister can be anyone, as long as he can relieve Zhongya from the pain.

Even Oda Tsukuru is fine, as long as he can comfort the sad Naka for himself.

Osamu Dazai knew that he had miscalculated. He had made so many plans for Chuya's future, but he never thought that his lover would be so sad.

Fortunately, the last arrangement before his death was successful.

When Chuya's breath became weaker, Osamu Dazai saw the broken pages of the book flying out of his body.

According to Osamu Dazai's plan, Chuya will be resurrected after he dies, and the resurrection will be before he gets the book at the age of 16.

After the resurrection, Zhong also saw his 16-year-old self, and he would definitely have a hard time.That way, he wouldn't get the broken pages of the book, and he could be with Chuya.

After all, he already liked Zhongye at that time, and Zhong would hate himself when he grew up, but he would not do anything to himself when he was young.

Osamu Dazai, who had considered everything, did not expect to be reborn with himself, resulting in an imbalance of power, and the returned Zhong also appeared in the port mafia building in their year.

After they came to this world, Zhongya quickly merged with himself, but he may not have merged because of his disqualification in the world.

Osamu Dazai was still being pulled by the side of Chuya by the power of Araba, but he could vaguely sense another existence of himself in another direction of the city.

Dazai, who is in the soul body, began to think about a question. In this case, would he still jump off the building four years later? If he jumped off the building again, would there be two himself behind Nakaya.

Thinking of Zhong Ye's rear buttocks followed by a bunch of his own nesting dolls again and again...

This world is not good, let it be destroyed.

He absolutely does not want to share Zhongye with anyone, not even himself.

However, Osamu Dazai did not expect that the bigger rival in love is not himself who may appear in the future, but his friend Oda Saku from four years ago.

When Chuya intended to assassinate him, Osamu Dazai saw the same light in his friend's eyes as when he first saw Chuya.

Osamu Dazai was also very confused about this, since Oda Saku, who was his friend in the main world, had also met his partner Chuya, but they had no interaction at all.

But why everything has changed here, Oda Saku who came to the bright world, but every time he sees Chuya, he will fall in love with him at first sight.

Oda Saku fell in love with Naka at first sight, which was not a good thing for Osamu Dazai, he could only watch Oda Saku clumsily courting his lover every day.

Although Chuya didn't catch a cold, he wasn't so disgusted. Even if he went to another world with them, Osamu Dazai could only watch them get closer again.

His Zhong Ye has always been a good man with a soft heart, even if he wants to kill the 'culprit' who caused everything in order to prevent him from making mistakes, he will still be soft-hearted.

Yes, the ghost Dazai Osamu who is the follower god is transparent, even the gentleman who is called six eyes can't see him.

Day by day, Osamu Dazai has resigned himself to his fate, maybe this is the world's punishment for him.

Unexpectedly, everything changed again, when he and Chuya returned to the original world together.

Osamu Dazai found that with the passage of time, the self four years ago could vaguely sense his own existence and thoughts.

However, they still couldn't communicate, and Osamu Dazai could only watch helplessly as the self four years ago pushed his lover farther and farther naively.

It was like cutting off the last possibility by hand, pushing Chuya and Oda Saku together.

Until the other self found a hemp rope and fell on the only way to Chuya, Osamu Dazai found that he felt the pain that he hadn't felt for a long time.

The pain of physical suffocation...

Is this going to die again?It would be good if this is the case, at least there won't be two Dazai following Chuya together.

Just when Osamu Dazai thought so, Chuuya finally came to save his life.

The rescued Osamu Dazai looked up at his lover, he wanted to say a lot in his heart, but he didn't know how to say it.

He understands Chuuya better than anyone else, and he also knows Chuuya's pride and firmness. It is meaningless to say anything about saving him now, as Chuya has completely given up on him.

But in the end, Osamu Dazai finally asked: "Is there really no possibility between us?"

Nakahara Chuya didn't look at him at all, just turned around and left, leaving only a nonsense answer for Dazai Osamu.

Indeed, this is just nonsense, Osamu Dazai, leaning against the tree plate in embarrassment, can only watch the back of Nakahara Nakaya go away.

Now he can't do anything, he can only watch his most beloved walk out of his life.

The author has something to say: I forgot to change what I said yesterday. In order to prevent seeing Kong Huanxi at night, I will add a new chapter today.

At 33 o'clock tonight, I will update Butei Jae-[-]-

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