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Luo Qingqiu was going to Kaifeng not only because of "spiritual support".

Also, she still likes Zhan Zhao.

The reason why he disagrees with Zhan Zhao is that since he has already stated that he wants to be friends, if he tells the other party that he still likes her in his heart and is just forbearance, it will not add pressure in vain.It might as well seem very free and easy.In fact, there is nothing messy about it, but she likes him, likes to get along with him, even if she just looks at him, she is happy, she will not do anything that should not be done between friends, and she does not want to go further.This is also a kind of freedom and ease, calmly facing what you can't let go of in your heart, calmly still nostalgic in your heart, and letting go of everything in action.

There is never shame in being in love secretly, as long as you don't embarrass the other party and yourself.

Things between Luo Qingqiu and Zhan Zhao went smoothly, but there was something unusual about Feng Siyu.

"Sisi, what's wrong with you?" Luo Qingqiu worried.

"...Qingqiu, are you really going to Kaifeng?"

Luo Qingqiu was surprised: "Of course. I thought you already knew. I have been preparing to go to Kaifeng to find Zhan Zhao. After all, I can't guarantee to find a job when I go to Kaifeng. I have to save some money and living expenses. Now The money was almost saved, and it happened that Zhan Zhao really appeared again. To be honest, I was a little hesitant before, afraid to go to Kaifeng and find that Zhan Zhao did not exist. But now, he is already a real person, no doubt, I really don't want to wait any longer."

She wanted to go where he was, walk the streets he walked, go to the stalls he went to, and looked forward to meeting him unexpectedly when she looked up.

"I know, you told me that too. But—" Feng Siyu hesitated to speak.

"You said."

"But it's different now. Don't you think that the life here is reassuring? The environment here is familiar to us, and we even have our own house. If we only look at this era, here is Our hometown!" Feng Siyu didn't know how to express it.She doesn't care about meeting Zhan Zhao by chance, she just enjoys being here, she knows where to turn when she walks on the street with her eyes closed, and the stall owners she frequents will give them discounts, even Wanfeng is familiar , like an old friend.

"..." Luo Qingqiu didn't speak.She is indeed selfish.Zhan Zhao means nothing to Feng Siyu.She can abandon everything she is already familiar with here, but she has no right to ask Feng Siyu to do so.

After a long time, she said: "I'm sorry, Sisi. But... you are also my spiritual pillar, the only person who knows what my previous life was like, the only person who can let me remember the way I came from, and even... you are my only one. relatives. I also want to be with you, and I don’t want to be separated from you.”

"You are the same to me. So, don't go to Kaifeng." Feng Siyu's voice was almost pleading.

Luo Qingqiu pinched her left hand with her right hand, Feng Siyu's tone made her flustered.She's scared, and her best friend begs her.

But even so, she remained firm.It didn't even compare the two options of going to Kaifeng and staying.

"Sisi...I admit that this is really unfair to you. I...I may have to hurt you, I must go to Kaifeng. But I still want to persuade you, in this era, nowhere is Hometown, the two of us being together is the most important thing, isn't it? I think that the lesser of two evils is the lesser of two evils, you should choose this way, but I'm not you..." She didn't go on, she wanted to say, everything is still It's up to her to decide.But she couldn't say it, because parting from Feng Siyu was extremely unwilling to her, and even thinking about it, she would feel desolate and helpless.

"Why, do you have to go to Kaifeng? He already has a sweetheart." As Luo Qingqiu's best friend, Feng Siyu even knew about Luo Qingqiu's girlish affection for Zhan Zhao, which was unknown in modern times.After seeing Zhan Zhao, Luo Qingqiu's liking was even more clear to her.She thought that just the admiration for the hero would not make her so persistent, it must be related to love.

"...Because of obsession. Sisi, when I liked Zhan Zhao, I didn't even know you. It's been six years, not to mention how deep my feelings are, but I've been thinking about things for six years, and I'm always unwilling not to do them." of."

"...What do you want to do?" Feng Siyu didn't understand what she was referring to as "things that I've been thinking about for six years".If it was to see if Zhan Zhao existed, then she had already done it; if it was to make him fall in love with her, then it was unlikely.

"Looking at him, that's all. It's easy, but it's important."

"Looking at him?"

Luo Qingqiu took a deep breath: "Look at him smiling warmly, walking through the streets of Kaifeng with his sword in hand, his clothes slightly raised, and the setting sun slanting, reflecting his shadow into the sunset. Look at him using his body to protect the world The people are safe."

"You still like him." Feng Siyu sighed.

Luo Qingqiu nodded: "I like this thing, which is not controlled by others. It's not that I don't want to like it, I shouldn't like it, or I don't like it. Maybe it will fade away one day, but at least not now."

Feng Siyu was silent, her heart was struggling.

Luo Qingqiu felt that this era was beautiful.I don't know if it's because of Aiwujiwu, or because she has a relatively deep understanding.It is true that this place cannot be compared with 1000 years later, but when you think of "Tokyo Menghua", the long scrolls on the river during the Qingming Festival are slowly rolling out in your mind. What a prosperous scene?There are also Yueyang Tower, a thousand miles of rivers and mountains, these magnificent or clear words make people yearn for them.But Feng Siyu felt that this era was strange and terrifying, as if he was wrapped in helplessness when he first came here.Now it is so easy to have a familiar place, where there are friends, a house and a family, how can she be willing to give up and go to a strange place?

But Luo Qingqiu, as she said, they are like relatives to each other!

She bit her lower lip tightly, biting harder and harder, trying to make a choice with the pain.

"Sisi!" Luo Qingqiu called her.

"Ah?" Feng Siyu let go of her lower lip.

"You bit yourself to the point of bleeding!" Luo Qingqiu looked at the blood oozing from Feng Siyu's lower lip with distress.

She hugged Feng Siyu, leaned her head on her shoulder, and after a long silence, she said softly: "If you really don't want to leave, just stay."

Feng Siyu just shook his head and didn't speak, tears streaming down his face.

"...I think it's not bad for you to stay. You see, if we all leave, we won't be able to take everything we have here with us. But if you stay, then in this era, we still have a home. Even if I am not here, there is finally a place to live in another country. And if we are separated, it does not mean that we will lose contact. We can often write letters, during New Years and holidays, or when we miss each other, we can go to each other, Go and see each other. Although the communication here is not as good as in the future, but in a peaceful and prosperous world, it will not reach the level of "family letters are worth ten thousand gold". We often communicate, and it doesn't matter if we separate temporarily." What Luo Qingqiu said was not much. It comes from the heart.She really didn't want to be separated from Luo Qingqiu.But she didn't want to see Feng Siyu entangled and uncomfortable. Instead of this, she might as well persuade her to make a decision and stop entangled.

With tears in the corners of Feng Siyu's eyes, she stared blankly at her.

Luo Qingqiu squeezed out a smile.

"Really... can I..." It seemed to be a question, but also a murmur.

"If we all have things we don't want to give up, it's a way to get the best of both worlds."

Feng Siyu was silent for a while, hugging Luo Qingqiu tightly, weeping uncontrollably: "Qing...Qingqiu, I'm sorry..."

Luo Qingqiu also shed tears and said: "Sisi, even if we are separated, we must always keep in touch. We will always be best friends forever."

"Ah."

"This is not our good wish, but a promise to be fulfilled in a lifetime."

After discussing with Feng Siyu, Luo Qingqiu went to answer Zhan Zhao.Zhan Zhao agreed with her to leave early tomorrow morning.

Luo Qingqiu first went to Jiangnan to ask for his resignation, and Jiangnan naturally tried his best to persuade him to stay. Yunlailou only had two cooks who could cook, and the loss of one would be a great loss.But Luo Qingqiu insisted, and Jiang Nan had no choice but to agree.

Then she packed her bags.Fortunately, she has only been in the Northern Song Dynasty for half a year, and she doesn't have much.In addition to the daily necessities, it was some money she had saved in the past six months.As she said, she has been preparing to go to Kaifeng to find Zhan Zhao, and has been saving money, so she saves money on food and expenses. In addition, after the prosperity of Yunlailou, the salary has increased, and she has saved more than 60 taels of silver in half a year. .The entanglement along the way, plus the fact that we couldn't find an errand in Kaifeng to support us for a while, was barely enough.She originally wanted to save a little more insurance, but she couldn't wait to see Zhan Zhao in person.

It's not too early to get everything done, and the Yunlai Building is already closed.Feng Siyu cooked a table of dishes and gave Luo Qingqiu a farewell party.

At this moment, there must be wine to add to the fun.

Feng Siyu brought the fruit wine from the store and poured it for the two of them.

"Sisi, when I write to you, I send it to Yunlailou. If you don't work in Yunlailou anymore, you must write to tell me the new place to go."

"Ah."

"I found an errand in Kaifeng, so I wrote to you. Before that, if you look for me, send it to Mr. Zhan."

"it is good."

It was a night full of moonlight, but no matter how good the moonlight was, the light and warmth it brought were only a little bit.More people are still in the desolation of autumn night.

Not knowing what to say, she ate and drank. The little girl who hadn't had a lot of wine, after a few drinks, she was already slightly tipsy.Sadness can no longer be suppressed, turning into tears welling up.

"Sisi, I'm sorry...I'm too selfish. I want you to go to Kaifeng with me, but I don't want to stay for you...I'm sorry..." Luo Qingqiu cried, not knowing whether it was because of the effect of the wine or because of the past. Tonight, she will be separated from Feng Siyu.She felt that she was too bad, she just asked for it, and she didn't want to give.But she didn't know what to do other than apologize.

"But in the end... I didn't go with you either. Qingqiu, I... I'm not good either..." Feng Siyu cried with her.

Parting is always sad.

"By the way." Feng Siyu said, "I almost forgot."

She took out a purse from her purse and pushed it towards Luo Qingqiu: "This, you can use it."

"No need," Luo Qingqiu pushed back, "I have."

"You're outside by yourself. More money is always better. I'm here, and I don't need it."

"It's really not necessary."

"Why are you being polite between us. You need it more than me, so naturally you use mine first. If I need something later, I'll ask you for it later."

"Then I'll settle down, and I'll pay you back when we meet next time."

"it is good."

He didn't refuse too much, Luo Qingqiu accepted the silver from Feng Siyu, feeling warm in his heart.

"It's getting late, go to bed early. We have to leave tomorrow morning."

"……Um."