Autism

Keigo Higashino wrote in "White Night Walk":

"There is no sun in my sky. It is always night, but it is not dark because something replaces the sun. Although it is not as bright as the sun, it is enough for me. With this light, I can turn the night Treat it as day. I never had the sun, so I'm not afraid of losing it."

To Akashi, the seven-year-old Toda is like the "sun".

And he, like Ryoji Kirihara, is bound by those messy, depressing and extremely ironic realities.Akashi let out a deep breath when his lips touched.

His emotions are complex and filthy, just like the hopeless love in White Night Walk.But Seven Years Old is not Nishimoto Yusho, she is the real sun, shining with incomparable brilliance.

At this moment, the beast in his heart still broke free and pounced towards the girl.

The last trace of warmth was completely abandoned.

I will never let go again, never, even if the other party cries, struggles, or is disappointed—————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————… thing.

And responded enthusiastically.

With a sigh, Akashi slowly left those nostalgic lips.The girl on the opposite side was still in a daze, as if she didn't know what to say, and she didn't even know where she was.

"Nana."

No way, he could only call her with a smile.

At the age of seven, she suddenly came back to her senses. The person opposite was still the same, just like the gentleness he had deliberately shown in front of her many times.But she knew that it was different, he had completely let go of all his defenses——while kissing her.

"why."

The moment he asked, Seven Years Old lowered his head.She just didn't want to look directly into Akashi's eyes, she was always afraid, afraid that as long as she looked into those different-colored pupils, she would be defeated directly and could do nothing.

The other party bent down, held her face in both hands, and moved his forehead to hers.At this time, the seven-year-old raised his eyes slightly to look at the face in front of him.

Akashi smiled, but seriously and earnestly.

"This is your choice, isn't it Nana? You have been chasing after me, and you have been chasing me without giving up. Do you still want to ask me why now? It's already too late. Since it is what you want, Nana, then I It's impossible to let go no matter what."

After finishing speaking, seeing Seven Years Old blinking stupidly, as if he didn't know how to react, Akashi smiled and shook his head: "At this time, you just need to say 'yes'."

"... は, はぃ (yes)."

At this moment, her mind was in a mess, and she didn't know why Akashi would say such words to herself.Is it a confession?Is it a response?Is it what I have been looking forward to... Is that so?

But she has nothing now, how can Toda Qisui stand by his side who has nothing.Thinking of this, she tried to push Akashi, trying to push him away.

"But...but I don't have that qualification at all now! This is the wrong timing at all! In fact, Ah Zheng, you just need to show me that you have not given up, as long as you don't avoid me anymore, that's fine. others……"

"Nai Nai, are you defying me?"

The seven-year-old who was incoherent was interrupted by him. When he looked up, Akashi's expression was like a full-fledged superior, with half-closed eyes and a smile, which made people shudder.Seven years old quieted down and said nothing more.She now suddenly understands that Akashi, who has put down all defenses against herself, can no longer become the simple and gentle person he used to be.

Wasn't it already expected?

Didn't he make up his mind a long time ago, no matter what, the other party can accept it?

However, I still feel something is wrong.

The other party's anxious appearance fell into Akashi's eyes, like a restless little animal.So he stretched out his hand and began to smooth his hair: "If you are despising yourself, then there is no need. What I believe will not change. You have that ability, don't you? Then just work hard to climb up, just Like before. That's your dream, isn't it?"

"It's yours too!"

She grabbed his shoulder suddenly, stared straight into Akashi's eyes, there was no more confusion in it.Just like the day when the girl confessed her love, her eyes gathered vitality that was hard to ignore.

"Yeah, our——dream."

The boy stretched out his hands and hugged the girl into his arms, his pupils of different colors were moist.It was this kind of person, it was this kind of Toda who was seven years old that made him unable to let go.

How lucky he was to meet...and then glad that he fell in love with her.

It was the first time for the two of them to walk down the street holding hands like this, the seven-year-old's face was still flushed, it seemed that Akashi's calmness was too much.By the way, how could this guy be so able to control his emotions!It's too strong!

Although there are still doubts in my heart, like some things about Akashi, his illness.But she doesn't care that much now, Akashi will tell herself one day, as long as she trusts the other party.

Even if, even if it was just an illusion in the end, I am already very satisfied at this moment.

I don't want to last forever, I don't want to stay together for a lifetime, I just hope that you are by my side at this moment, and I met and knew each other and promised each other.

Ahhh, even though I said so, I still want to be with Akashi forever if possible!Sure enough, I have to work hard now!Otherwise, she would feel bad for herself!The self who can stand beside such a beautiful person must also be the best self!

"It's already this time! How am I going to go back today! It's all you, Ah Zheng!!!"

"Then don't go back."

"Eh... eh?! Wait! What do you want to do! Hey, I told you not to mess around!"

Seeing the seven-year-old with his hands folded on his chest, Akashi rubbed his forehead helplessly: "I didn't mean that, I live in an apartment not far from the school, you can go live, I'll go out Borrow from classmates..."

"No...no need!" Seven years old hurriedly interrupted Akashi's words, his face was blushing, and his feet unconsciously rubbed against the ground "Actually, it's okay, I, I believe in Ah Zheng! >//<"

"Ah, yes, then let's go."

She blushed all the way, spurning herself in her heart: How could she follow a man who had just established a relationship to his apartment with such no morals and no control!You're too self-respecting, Nana! !Maybe Ah Zheng won't like such a frivolous attitude! !

But still curious! !Akashi Seijuro's room or something!

However, when I got there, I found that it was the same as all the apartments. Although it seemed a little too neat and clean for boys, it was a bit deserted.Apart from the matching things in the apartment, there is almost no other furniture, even the TV is the kind that comes with the apartment, and the only big item that counts as his own is probably the laptop on the coffee table in the living room.

The seven-year-old was not too polite, and after entering the house, he looked around curiously... Even the bedroom is very simple! !Bed, table, cabinet, it's over! "Ah Zheng! You cleaned up too simply!"

When Akashi, who was cooking something in the kitchen, heard it, he only replied from a distance: "As long as you can live, it's fine. Simple has its own advantages."

"Okay." As she spoke, she found that there was a room at the end of the corridor in this apartment. Could it be a study?Seven years old reached out and twisted the handle, but couldn't open it. Just as he was curious, a voice came from behind:

"Want to see?"

"Ah! Ah Zheng! You scared me!"

Akashi ignored the seven-year-old's surprise, and only handed her the hot chocolate milk in his hand, "It's just an ordinary utility room, do you want to see it?"

No, no, your expression is not the one you want to show her! !On second thought, Akashi is a man after all!It's normal to have a little secret of your own!Cough cough, that or something... It's really not good, um, not good.Thinking of this, Seven Years Old hurriedly walked towards the living room with a smile on his face: "Then what, since it's a utility room, it must be meaningless... Ah, where do I sleep tonight?"

"You sleep in my room, and I'll sleep in the living room."

"Yeah, okay!"

"Remember to lock the bedroom door before going to bed."

"Eh?! Ah Zheng, didn't you say you wouldn't do anything?!"

"Even if I've already said it, you have to be vigilant as a girl! It doesn't matter who I am!"

"Okay~ Ah Zheng really looks like an old lady www"

It wasn't until the evening when he had packed up and was about to go into the room to sleep, that Seven Years Old leaned against the door and said good night to Akashi who was putting pillows and quilts in the living room.

The other party paused for a while, then looked out the window and replied, "月がきれいですね."

It was a stroke of genius, the moonlight is so beautiful... Shouldn't I say good night.Seven years old closed the door in doubt, and locked it obediently.When she was lying on Akashi's bed and saw the moonlight streaming in through the gap, she reacted abruptly.

Isn’t Natsume Soseki’s phrase 月がきれいですね a famous confession line all the time!

Really... really really really really! !Why are you being so tactful!Are you an ancient person? !

Because although the relationship was confirmed before, the regret of not receiving a confession in the true sense disappeared in an instant.Seven-year-old huddled under the quilt that smelled of Akashi, covering his blushing face and laughing.

The moon is really beautiful.