Autism

But it is impossible to go on like this forever, the entrance exam is coming soon, and there is not so much time to remember the past at the age of seven, so I can only get up with those helplessness and sadness and continue to live.

She went to ask Akashi where the school he chose was, but Akashi kept silent about it, and just told her that she could apply for the school where she wanted to go.

But at the age of seven, she wanted to go to the same school as Akashi, even if she broke up with everyone, at least let her and Akashi still go to the same school.They have never been separated since they were young, and they have developed some established dependencies and habits in many things at the age of seven.

Since you can't ask, then quietly go and ask!After filling out the information form for further studies, Seven Years Old took advantage of Akashi's inattentiveness to help the class monitor take those forms to the office.On the way, she flipped through the form and saw the school that Akashi had filled in, and then she took out a pen from her pocket and wrote it on her form.

Of course, she reported Hai Chang's matter and didn't tell anyone.

I always feel a little embarrassed, after all, she also went to peek quietly.If she just said it openly...she's not that thick-skinned yet!But thinking that Akashi will be surprised when he sees her follow him.

Once the exam starts, it goes very quickly, and the middle school questions are perfectly fine for a seven year old.It's just that some liberal arts are more troublesome to remember, but it's okay.When the exam results were released, he patted his chest and let out a sigh of relief after seeing his good results.

Even if you are sure, you will still be nervous.

The period of graduation was always busy. At the age of seven, she was called by the head teacher to the office to sort out the student files. She thought it would be fine anyway, and Akashi nodded after he finished his work on handing over the basketball club and went back.

In fact, it’s okay not to agree, but when she saw that everyone in the basketball club did not apply to the same school, she suddenly felt sad in her heart.Everyone really parted ways this time... Although she didn't know what kind of agreement Akashi had made with them, the setting that this kind of partner may soon become an opponent is too sad.

"Huh?! Ryota... chose Haichang? Isn't this the same as me and Ah Zheng? This is also okay?" While wondering, the seven-year-old asked the students next to him as if he had a feeling. Files from your own class.

When scooping up Akashi's file that was handed over by others, Seven Years Old felt that this piece of light paper seemed to be unable to scoop it up.It felt like it weighed a thousand catties, pressing on her heart.

In the column for the school to apply for, the words "Luoshan University" are clearly written.She is extremely familiar with every stroke and every stroke——yes, this is indeed Akashi's handwriting.

But!But... She clearly saw it carefully!Obviously it's normal!

Why... Luoshan?

"Seven years old? What's wrong with you? Why does your face look so bad?"

She shook her head, and then looked carefully at Luoshan High School.Yes, these words seem to be mocking her.Look, it's Luoshan!That's in Kyoto!

"Meihui, can you help me tidy up the rest? I...I feel a little unwell and want to go home first."

Yamada Mie nodded, and asked with concern several times if she wanted someone to see her off, but she declined all of them.

go home?No, she's going to find Akashi, she's going to find him to find out what's going on!

Right now, Akashi should be...just make a phone call and ask!When he took out his mobile phone and called, it only rang twice, and the other party was connected. The moment Akashi's voice came through the microphone, Seven Years Old almost couldn't hold back his tears.

"what's up?"

"Where are you!"

"Ginza, go shopping with my mother, what's wrong?"

"Okay! You are waiting for me at the coffee shop on the second floor of Matsuya! I will come right away!"

After speaking, Seven Years Old hurriedly hung up the phone, went back to the classroom to pack up his things, and then rushed towards the subway station.The distance is not too far, but she feels that this section of the road is extremely long.

"Nana-chan?"

"Well," faced with his mother's question, Akashi just nodded lightly, "I should have something to do with me, so I..."

Mrs. Akashi patted her son on the shoulder, and said with a teasing smile: "Okay, I know, let's go! Mom is not a child and I don't want you to be with me all the time. Nana-chan is a girl, you have to take care of her." Okay. It doesn't matter if you come back later, I will talk to Grandpa."

"Mom, I didn't mean that."

"Alara, don't explain yourself Seijuro."

In fact, he probably knew what it was that he was looking for at the age of seven, maybe that was discovered?Akashi sighed, sat in the coffee shop and didn't order anything to drink.But after thinking about it, I ordered a glass of chocolate milk with the waiter and asked them to warm it up until another customer came.

It wasn't until the seven-year-old ran in panting that Akashi came back from unconsciousness, and he didn't know how long it had been, but the sky outside the window was already dark.

"You should drink some water first."

Seeing her like this, he still couldn't bear to hand over the glass of white water in front of him, and then signaled the waiter to bring what he ordered before.

Seven years old snatched the white water and took a few big gulps, then wiped his sleeves, and sat down on the opposite chair with a snap.

I wanted to say something at first, but I couldn't hold back after taking a few breaths.

When he saw the cup of chocolate milk served by the waiter, his eyes turned red and his nose became sore.But she held back all of this, and she still wanted to ask.

"That... I just want to ask why..."

"About entering a higher school?"

Seeing that he brought it up by himself, Seven Years Old was stunned for a moment, and it took him a while to realize that such an answer, could it be that it really was... really intentional? !

"why……"

Akashi's face suddenly became very serious, and he looked straight into the seven-year-old's eyes for a moment.

"Toda is seven years old, what is your life?"

"Eh?"

"I have my own life, I have my own life, I have my own goals. The only one who can move forward on this road is me alone.

"here without you."

"So have you seriously considered your own life? Why are you always by my side? Are my thoughts really your thoughts? What are you living for? You have a good idea Have you thought about it?!"

Seven years old had never heard Akashi say such serious words to herself. Those words were like a knife, cutting open her closed eyes and seeing something clearly.

Yeah, what's in her life?Parents, brothers, friends, basketball team... the most, the most is... a boy named Seijuro Akashi.

All the people who existed in Toda's seven-year-old life before were also closely related to this boy.

She is like a clump of dodders, clinging to Akashi Seijuro's life, absorbing his things, and self-righteously thinking that they are also her own.

So, you really despise her, right?Dislike such an unrealistic, dawdling her?

"I...I don't know."

"That's right, I did it on purpose. I knew you would peek at which school I filled in, so I filled in Haichang, and then applied to the teacher to revise my choice after you handed in the report. I wanted to The one I went to was Luoshan, besides, it was in Kyoto, far away from Kanagawa..."

"So you just want to stay away from me?!" Seven years old suddenly raised his head to look at Akashi, the tears in his eyes were almost unbearable.This young man... is really cruel, telling her bluntly in this way how much he hates her and despises her.

Every sentence, every sentence is like a pain in the heart.

"Yeah, I'm really like this... I have no special skills, I'm useless, and I'm not outstanding. I have nothing to boast about, so... So, so I'm not even qualified to stay by your side?"

"Staying beside you who is so perfect will only become your flaw, right?"

"Ah, I get it. I get it, since... you helped me choose Kaito, how dare I disobey the opinion of our great Akashi Seijuro-sama? Because you are always right. You won, Akashi Seijurou-kun, really, I'm completely defeated."

After speaking, Seven Years Old bit his lower lip, forced a smile, picked up his schoolbag, turned around and strode away.

Step by step, stepping firmly, walking with head raised as if to prove something.Then she walked faster and faster, and her head that was raised high gradually drooped down.

She was very fast, and she had already started running, with her head lowered and she ran desperately.

Until, she finally couldn't run anymore, because the tears couldn't stop.I had no choice but to squat down, ignoring the surprised pedestrians around me, squatting on the side of the road and crying loudly.

Keep crying, keep crying.

Why is this happening.She just wanted to be by his side, she just felt happy to see him every day, and happy to hear his voice.That's all... yes, yes,

Toda seven years old does not know since when, so and so, like Akashi Seijuro.

I like it until now, even if my heart hurts, I still like it very much.

The feeling of jumping because of seeing the boy is so clear.

It was so clear that it turned into a thorn in her heart.

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Akashi stared at the untouched chocolate milk in front of him, stared blankly for a while, and then stretched out his hand to support his forehead, his bangs were pulled up by his hands, and he saw the world more clearly.

The girl on the opposite side is no longer there.

After a little hesitation, he still checked out and rushed out.

He has been hanging far behind the running man, but he has to pay attention not to be found --- until he sees the girl squatting down suddenly, crying loudly on the sidewalk, crying heart-piercingly .

Of course he knew that what he did now would definitely hurt Seven Year Old severely.

But no, he had to let her understand these principles.After all, no one knows what will happen in the future, just like he didn't know that he would get such a disease.He was worried that if he was not independent enough at the age of seven, he would suffer more injuries.She really needs to learn to be independent, and needs to find her life, her ideal, and her life.

There, there cannot be him.

Haichang's school spirit is much more relaxed and lively, which is more suitable for the personality of a seven-year-old.If it was a school as strict as Luoshan, she would definitely feel uncomfortable being restrained.Besides, the most important thing is that there is a professional school with professional art teachers.He knew that seven-year-old painters were good at painting, so he said that he didn't want to paint anymore, he didn't want to.

In fact, every time he reads comics or draws, the brilliance in his eyes is something he has never seen before.

Actually, I really like drawing, right?

So Haichang will definitely be suitable for her. With a professional and good teacher to guide her, she should also pick up the brush again.

Seven years old Toda and Seijuro Akashi shouldn't have had similar lives since a long time ago, if it was her, they would definitely be able to keep moving towards their dreams.

But he can't, even if he likes basketball, he can't live on the basketball court all his life.Their family still needs him to inherit the family business, and his grandfather's shogi also needs him to continue.

He has too many restraints and helplessness, so his side is really not suitable for her.

Even if, even if he watched her cry and made up her mind——so that at this moment, he felt as if he had been equally hurt in his heart.But this is growth.

Not just hers, but also his, that painful growth.

Now that you are in the trough, the previous convenience can only be the peak.All the pain, helplessness, and injury endured are just accumulating strength to climb to the top.

Go, seven years old, go where he will never go.

Volume Two: Her Burden