inherent gravity

hungry.

After counting, he hadn't eaten for three or four days.

He tried his best to raise his head and open his mouth to catch the raindrops from the sky. After swallowing a few mouthfuls, he lowered his head exhaustedly.He clearly felt that his own vitality was rapidly withering, and his eyes gradually blurred——

Are you going to die?In a trance, he smiled with difficulty.

To die is to die, to live enough anyway.He couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears dripping down his cheeks, so he just lay down in the rain and quietly closed his eyes.

Suddenly, he jerked his head up again.It was probably a series of hallucinatory footsteps, walking towards him from far to near, from slow to fast, and then the rain stopped on his head, and a big warm palm carefully covered his head , touched him very gently, for fear of hurting him if he was not careful--

He heard a voice, anxious and flustered, but so peaceful, as if it could shield him from all the wind and rain in the world, and he no longer had to worry about anything:

"Hungry? Go home."

The author says:

Brother Kou’s childhood past, which I wanted to write a long time ago... Well, the writing is very cool.

I'm happy, how about you? (probe

63. Extra Three

◎Shallow joy is like a gray dog, deep love is like a long wind. ◎

When Li Siyuan was in junior high school, he vaguely noticed the difference between himself and the boys who were in adolescence:

When everyone was busy with puppy love and kissed little mouths in every corner of the campus, not only did he feel completely indifferent to the girl who confessed to him, but he also felt a sense of disgust towards himself in his heart.This strange feeling was not solved until he ran into a boy shooting at the basket alone on the basketball court that day:

The boy's clean face under the sun, the powerful muscles on his waving arms, and the sweat pouring out of his arms, and more importantly, Li Siyuan's heart was suddenly moved when the boy found someone watching him and subconsciously turned back and smiled.

From that moment on, he realized that he liked men.

He carefully kept this secret, not daring to tell his teachers, parents, or any friends or classmates around him. At the same time, he also tried his best to restrain himself, not listening or watching, not paying attention to any outstanding and handsome boys or their arms. girlfriend in arms.But he is jealous.

He didn't dare to tell his mother about this, because after his mother and father divorced, she almost pinned all her hopes on him. Not only did she save money so that he could go to the best noble high school, but she also thought from the bottom of her heart that His son is his greatest pride in this life. He will get into a good university, find a good job, and finally marry a beautiful and virtuous wife and have a big fat boy.

But the son she was most proud of finally let her down.

That year, Li Siyuan was 17 years old.

After experiencing the bullying incident, he dropped out of school silently, and transferred to a small place and barely finished high school. His previous good grades were also affected by this. After the college entrance examination, he managed to get a not bad sophomore. Book.Li Siyuan's mother's lips trembled when she saw her son's depressed appearance, but she didn't say anything after all.

She ran all over the major hospitals to buy all kinds of burn ointments, but in the end she couldn't completely remove the scars on her son's forehead, not to mention adding a few more layers to his wounds later on. No matter how much ointment is applied, it is difficult to remove.This is the regret of her life.

Li Siyuan became more silent than before, but there was a thought in his heart that he couldn't get rid of: Where did Mr. He... go?And Mr. He's adopted son, Kou Xiao, how is he doing now?

After that incident, he was in a daze for many days. When he realized that the college entrance examination was over, Kou Xiao and He Lide also disappeared together. No one knew which new city they went to settle down, but they couldn’t help it when they talked about it after dinner. Sigh: What a pity.

Li Siyuan desperately wanted to find those two people and said sorry himself, but after he ran several times, the place where He Lide lived was already empty, not even a scrap of paper was left.But thinking about finding someone at such a time would be like finding a needle in a haystack, Li Siyuan knew it in his heart.

Because of this, he was depressed for a long time, until the year when he graduated from university and was assigned as an intern in the company, he met Ao Feng.

That year, Li Siyuan was 21 years old.

The first impression I gave Ao Feng was that there are men in the workplace who are still so naive, so they leaned over and put his shoulders on his shoulders and asked him how to chase girls, but Li Siyuan was just indifferent and calm Pulled his hand away, and told him clearly that I was sorry that I didn't know.

It was only later that he found out that it was true that Ao Feng said that he wanted to chase the girl, but he took the opportunity to talk to him and wanted to chase him.But when he found out, his first reaction was not joy but rejection, categorically refusing.

Men and men together will not have good results.This is not only the words that his mother has whispered in his ear countless times over the years, but also the biggest lesson those scars have taught him, even though Mr. He has been persuading him to let go before he left.

"Why hide from me?" Ao Feng grabbed Li Siyuan when he was about to sneak away after the third time off work, and forced him into the tea room while no one was paying attention, and blocked him by virtue of his height. Closing the door, he looked down at him triumphantly.

"You..." Li Siyuan was a little helpless. When two big men squeezed into a small space, he felt his face start to heat up: "What do you want to do?"

"Chasing you! Can't you tell?" Ao Feng looked at him with his arms folded, and raised his eyebrows again while talking: "Don't you like me?"

"...Let me go out." Li Siyuan had never seen such a thick-skinned person who took it for granted before, so he couldn't bear it and stepped forward to push him away: "I don't like it."

"Why don't you like it?" Ao Feng finally put away his playful smile and looked very serious: "I have been observing you for a long time, I..."

"Enough." Li Siyuan finally lowered his face, looked at him with no ups and downs and said, "I don't like you, please step aside, thank you."

Ao Feng was stunned, and when he rushed up to break his arm again, he suddenly asked without thinking: "Are you afraid that I will despise you?"

"What?" Li Siyuan was also taken aback.

"I think you are beautiful." Ao Feng paused for a moment, thinking that it seems inappropriate to use the word beautiful to describe a man, but he couldn't care less for a while, so he forcibly took Li Siyuan's hand Taking advantage of the situation, he pushed him to the corner, lifted his forehead hair gently, and slowly planted a kiss on those ugly scars under Li Siyuan's wide-eyed gaze: "Who are these... What did you do?"

Li Siyuan was so shocked that he forgot to struggle for a moment. After he realized it, he pushed Ao Feng away, and slapped him hard: "Get out! Stay away from me!"

Ao Feng didn't feel annoyed after being slapped for no reason, he touched his face, and when he raised his head again, his eyes were a little red: "...does it hurt?"

Li Siyuan choked up for a moment.

Seeing him frozen in place, Ao Feng cautiously walked in front of him, stretched out his hand and lightly embraced that thin arm, and kissed him again on the top of his soft hair with a sincere and frank tone, which was very resembling Little kid craving candy: "Stay with me, okay? I'll protect you."

Li Siyuan didn't speak, and stretched out his hand to grab the corner of his clothes tightly. After holding back for a long time, he still couldn't hold back, tears slipped from his cheeks into his mouth, and it tasted bitter and astringent.

Li Siyuan and Ao Feng were together. They were still very young at that time, but Ao Feng did fulfill the promise he made at that time. After being together, he took care of Li Siyuan everywhere. When he laughed, his eyes almost lit up, reflecting the black There will always be only one person in his pupils.

A heart that was once broken was carefully picked up and glued back after several years. At that time, he always naively thought that God closed a door for him, and then opened a window for him. , and he was behind the transparent glass window, and he saw Ao Feng who was smiling at a glance.

The days went on so blissfully and plainly. Although my mother still knew about him after all, since Ao Feng came to the door, she knelt down quietly at the door of his house all night with her back straightened, and said in a hoarse voice that she After being sure to treat Xiao Yuan well, she finally agreed, wiping away tears.

At that time, Li Siyuan just felt that, not to mention love, even if he sacrificed his life for Ao Feng, he would do it without hesitation.

So even if Ao Feng got into disputes with people inside the company just because of some trivial matters, when he resigned in a fit of anger and planned to start his own business, he did not hesitate to resign and follow suit.

At the beginning of the business, it was very difficult.

In order to raise operating funds for the new company, he asked all the relatives in his hometown to borrow money behind his mother's back, and he kept guaranteeing that the money lent to him would definitely be compound interest, and the interest would be at least five figures when he repaid it in the future .Those honest relatives knew nothing about the operation of the company, they simply believed that Li Siyuan was a good person, so they generously lent him their coffin books.

It's just that at the beginning of the first half year of the company's establishment, it seemed that it had developed from tepid to better, but a huge financing crisis suddenly appeared, which directly threatened the lifeline of this still immature small company.this level