Sir, I'm not good

Shu Xian walked into the Bai family's house again, and saw that every plant and tree looked like the past, even the position of the rattan chairs had not changed.

So familiar, nostalgic, and unstoppably sad.

He and Bai Yu played together here when they were young. On that wicker chair, the two of them once huddled together to take a nap.

Now the scene has not changed, but one person is missing.

"Master, let's go in, the master is still waiting."

Seeing that Shu Xian stopped in front of the rattan chair, Lao Chen couldn't bear to interrupt him for a moment, and after waiting for a while, he only reminded him because the old man was already waiting inside.

Shu Xian was called out and woke up from his trance, and the two baby dolls chasing and fighting in the garden disappeared in an instant.

Back to reality, he couldn't get anything back.

"Well, let's go." Shu Xian turned around and followed Old Chen inside.

Generally speaking, when guests come, they will take them to the parlor.

But Shu Xian is not a guest of the Bai family in a certain sense, but more like half of the family.

So Shu Xian was not taken to the living room, but directly outside Bai Jianguo's study.

"Master is inside, just go in."

Lao Chen stepped aside after leading him to the door.Shu Xian took a step forward, raised his hand, paused for a moment, knocked "dong dong dong" three times, and heard a "go in" from inside.

The voice was familiar to Shu Xian, but it was a bit more windy.

Suppressing the tension in his heart and controlling his emotions, Shu Xian pushed the door open and entered.

The pale and dazzling sunlight made Shu Xian unable to open his eyes for a moment.

"Xianxian, you are here."

The gentle voice of the old man came out from the sun, it sounded like a baritone, which made people feel at peace physically and mentally.

After two seconds, Shu Xian got used to the light in front of him, and he could clearly see the old man sitting on the soft couch, who was also looking at him with a smile.

"grandfather."

"Come here, kid! I haven't seen you for a long time, come and let me see."

Shu Xian approached in response, and stood in front of Bai Jianguo.

Seeing the originally hale and hearty old man now showing a slight desolation, Shu Xian couldn't help feeling sour.

"Why are you so skinny..."

Bai Jianguo put down the book in his hand, murmured, stretched out his hand to squeeze Shu Xian's arm, his eyes were full of pity.

"It's not too thin, is it? You haven't even lost your abdominal muscles." Shu Xian tried to relax his tone as much as possible, not wanting to make Bai Jianguo worry about him.

Bai Jianguo looked at Shu Xian, swallowed his tears, and pulled Shu Xian to sit next to him with trembling hands.

"Son, how are you doing now? You should be graduating next year, right?"

"Well, I'm going to write my graduation thesis."

"What about life? I heard from Lao Sun that you were hospitalized with a fever."

Shu Xian lowered his eyes, and said as softly as possible: "Well, I have a high fever, because... I did something stupid."

He did not intend to conceal the cause of his fever.

As Dr. Sun said, Mr. Bai is very sensitive, he must know the reason why he was hospitalized with a fever, and he couldn't hide it even if he wanted to.

It's better to confess about taking inhibitors, so as not to let Mr. Bai investigate further.

If Mr. Bai knew about his self-harm, things might not be easy to handle.

Sure enough, Bai Jianguo didn't ask about his condition, but just patted Shu Xian's hand and said, "Son, why do you have to take so many inhibitors?"

"Because I don't want to get pregnant, I won't want to in the future."

"Then you can't use such an extreme method! If you don't want to conceive, who dares to force you? Just rely on Xu Qian from the Gu family?"

Seeing that the old man was getting impatient, Shu Xian quickly comforted him: "Okay, Grandpa, I understand, I didn't expect it to be so serious, and I won't appoint it in the future!"

After Shu Xian finished speaking, Bai Jianguo was relieved to see his sincerity.

Bai Jianguo has been calm and self-reliant all his life, that is, he will lose his composure when he sees Shu Xian now, but now he has recovered quickly.

He called Shu Xian home, not simply because he missed Shu Xian, but for another purpose.

So he was silent for a few seconds, and his eyes returned to the kindness and peace of the past.

Just when Bai Jianguo was about to speak, Shu Xian preempted him: "Grandpa, I'm hungry. I heard from Uncle Chen that Chef Li is going to make Maoxuewang?"

Shu Xian didn't know what old master Bai was going to say, but his intuition told him that it wasn't something that would make him happy.

So he chose to interrupt the spellcasting.

And his dodge for no reason, the flash of embarrassment in his eyes, all fell into Bai Jianguo's eyes.

But Bai Jianguo didn't stick to it for a while, anyway, Shu Xian had just arrived home, so he still had time.

"Alright then, since we're idle and hungry, let's eat first!"

Having said that, Bai Jianguo got up and got down, Shu Xian quickly got up to help, but Bai Jianguo brushed off his supporting hand.

Bai Jianguo was stubborn all his life, even if his health declined after his grandson passed away, he would not be supported by others.

Shu Xian followed Bai Jianguo to the restaurant, and saw that the dishes were already on the table. As Uncle Chen said, they were all his favorites.

At the dinner table, Bai Jianguo and Shu Xian chatted happily about their recent living conditions.

Shu Xian talked about all kinds of things he encountered while cooking in a relaxed tone, which sounded quite interesting in life, and Bai Jianguo also had a smile on his face.

But Shu Xian's life is actually very boring.

And Bai Jianguo also knew that Shu Xian's real state was not what he saw in front of his eyes.

In this way, the two had their own concerns, but finished their lunch talking and laughing.

After lunch, Bai Jianguo was supposed to go to bed as usual, but today Shu Xian came, and he was naturally reluctant to sleep, so he dragged Shu Xian into the study to set up the chessboard.

Sitting in front of the chessboard, Shu Xian felt helpless.

Why, Dr. Sun said that Grandpa Bai asked him to play chess, so he really started playing chess?I'm afraid I don't have something to say.

It should be impossible to hide.

The chess pieces were laid out, the old man raised his hand towards Shu Xian, signaling him to go first, and Shu Xian unceremoniously made a pawn.

"Xianxian, you are smart enough, you should be able to guess why I called you here."

"...Maybe it's okay."

The two of them had chess pieces in their hands, but their minds were not on the chessboard.

Seeing Bai Jianguo's obvious offensive posture, Shu Xian frowned slightly.

"Grandpa asked me to come over, just to let me put Bai Yu down."

Shu Xian said calmly, but behind the calmness, there was a huge wave in his heart.

It is really not easy for him to call Bai Yu's name again now.

Bai Jianguo was noncommittal to Shu Xian's words, just staring at the chess game, as if waiting for Shu Xian to continue.

Shu Xian also thought that he had guessed Bai Jianguo's intentions, his brain was running fast, thinking about how to bluff the shrewd old man Bai.

After a moment of silence, Shu Xian sighed slightly: "It's not that simple, Grandpa, you should have experienced it yourself, how can you let it go?"

"Hey - I can't let it go, but people still have to live, right? Bai Yu is my grandson, but why don't I treat you as my own grandson? You have to be good."

Shu Xian didn't nod immediately.

If it was so easy to get out, old man Bai would inevitably be suspicious.

So he showed a painful look on his brows, opened his mouth, and paused for a moment before saying: "But...it's too difficult, Grandpa."

Bai Jianguo raised his eyes slightly, looked at Shu Xian's expression, and felt guilty suddenly when he saw Shu Xian.

His intuition told him that Mr. Bai was not that simple.

In the chess game in front of them, Shu Xian and Bai Jianguo were evenly matched, and it seemed that they fought back and forth.

But in fact, Shu Xian has lost his mind, because old master Bai's chess style is very different from the original one.

how to say?There is always a sense of danger lurking everywhere.

For a moment, both of them fell into a chess game and stopped talking.

Three minutes later, Shu Xian was holding a pawn that had just been eaten in his hand, and he was very worried.

He might lose.

"Xianxian." Bai Jianguo raised his head completely, as if he had lost interest in the chess game, and only looked at Shu Xian with a smile.

Shu Xian raised his head upon hearing the sound, and met Bai Jianguo's eyes.

"Well, what's the matter, Grandpa?"

"Still alive."

"..."

There was silence.

Shu Xian froze on the spot, the movement of rubbing the chess piece with his hand stopped instantly, he even stopped breathing, his clear eyes were full of surprise.

Why, did the old man tell him that?

Do you know something?

But, it shouldn't be, how could Mr. Bai know... what he wanted to die?

"What... are you talking about?"

Shu Xian froze for a long while before he smiled stiffly, trying to perfunctory, pretending that he didn't understand.

But the smile on his face really betrayed him.

Bai Jianguo smiled gently: "Son, live on."

Now, even if Shu Xian couldn't believe it, he could only face the reality.

He lowered his eyes, the smile just disappeared in an instant, and his eyes were instantly stained with a sadness that cannot be illuminated.

After clenching his fists, Shu Xian whispered, "Sorry Grandpa, I can't promise you this."

"Do you think, if Bai Yu was still alive, would he be willing to see you like this?"

As soon as Bai Jianguo's words came out, a trace of boredom appeared on Shu Xian's brows.

This kind of reason that the elders often use to persuade people sounds extremely harsh, and it always has a sense of kidnapping.

Suddenly, Shu Xian raised his head and looked at Bai Jianguo firmly: "If Bai Yu knew that he was going to die, then he would definitely let me die with him."

If he knew that he would die, he would smile and say to me: "Yanyan, die for me."

Bai Jianguo was silent. Shu Xian knew Bai Yu, and he also knew his grandson.

Even if his precious grandson didn't drag Shu Xian to die, if he knew Shu Xian's current situation, it wouldn't stop Shu Xian from seeking death.

And he also understood that Shu Xian might be better off dead than alive now.

But what if?What if I can meet someone worthy in the future?There is always hope in life.

As an elder, how could he bear to watch two good children leave?

With a long sigh, Bai Jianguo turned his attention to the chess game and started to play chess.

Play your own chess, also play Shuxian's chess, one person plays two people's chess.

Shu Xian looked a little confused, but after a few moves, he understood that he was bound to lose this game of chess so far.

Just when Shu Xian was puzzled, Bai Jianguo commanded Shu Xian's army and said, "Son, you can't die."

"why?"

"Xiaobai died for you. If it wasn't for you, if you weren't obsessed with that kid from the Gu family, he wouldn't have died. When that car hit him, you should have died."

Bai Jianguo's words were calm, but like a dull knife, it pierced Shu Xian's heart inch by inch.

He was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe.

But Bai Jianguo didn't intend to stop. He looked at Shu Xian calmly, and continued, "Xiao Bai was supposed to go abroad, and he stayed in China because of you. He was supposed to be the heir of the Bai family."

"grandfather……"

"So Shu Xian, you obviously caused this tragedy, but you are not going to make any amends, just looking for fun?"

Shu Xian never imagined that these words would come out of Bai Jianguo's mouth.

His whole body was trembling, pain and fear crazily flowed through his blood, all over his body.

Like a fire that scorched the wilderness, the air was full of ashes, the sky was dark, every breath would choke blood from the lungs, Shu Xian suddenly fell into despair.

"Shu Xian, since Bai Yu died because of you, you should take up the responsibility that originally belonged to him and live for the Bai family."

Shu Xian looked at Bai Jianguo in shock, is this a moral kidnapping?

Never in his life would he have expected that today, he would be kidnapped by Bai Jianguo morality?

Moreover, it was the kind that he could not refute at all.