He can play whatever I like

After rushing to the hospital, Tang Tang personally accompanied Zou Yun who was in a coma to undergo a series of physical examinations.

He looked at Xiao Sa with a dull expression and no life, like a stiff corpse following Zou Yun; he also saw that the eyes of this "corpse" kept staring in Zou Yun's direction, mechanically answering the doctor's questions.

Only then did he know that during the five days when he couldn't find Zou Yun, Zou Yun had been on a hunger strike, relying on a small amount of water and nutrient solution injected into the blood vessels to maintain the most basic life every day.

Fortunately, the final examination results were good. Zou Yun's coma was just hypoglycemia caused by hunger strike. After timely treatment and intervention, he could wake up in a few hours.

When pushing Zou Yun back to the ward with the doctor, Tang Tang saw from a distance the balcony outside the corridor window, Shen Du was leaning against the fence, leaning with a powerless appearance, silently puffing out smoke rings.

On the stretcher, Zou Yun was still in a coma, with closed eyes, sunken cheeks, and a body so thin that the wide hospital gown could not completely cover it; while outside the window was a lonely Alone, the lonely Shen Du...

All this was printed in Tang Tang's eyes.

It also includes himself who has been by Zou Yun's side from the beginning to the end but can't do anything, and even the instigator who is as powerless as him——

Xiao Sa.

In a trance, everything returned to the original point. This is still the tragedy of the four people at the beginning.

Apart from gnashing his teeth and wanting to throw Xiao Sa to the sea off Silver Beach to feed the fish, Tang Tang couldn't complain about Shen Du, but he still couldn't help thinking, if Shen Du didn't stop him at the villa that day, if he could Chase out desperately——

Can the tragedy in front of me be avoided?

Even though in that case, the previous absurdity between him and Shen Du might be completely brought to an end, but right now, the end of some things seems to be inevitable.

His footsteps stopped for a while, but in just a few seconds, the stretcher carrying Zou Yun was slightly pushed away by the nurse, and his eyes finally left the lonely figure outside the window, and quickly followed.

Zou Yun was missing for five days, so he didn't sleep well in these five days. Finally, in front of Zou Yun's hospital bed, he couldn't help but close his eyes and take a nap; just because he knew that Zou Yun was emotionally unstable, he had Even when he was asleep, he still held Zou Yun's hand tightly for the "convict" of pulling out his own infusion tube.

Fortunately, as the doctor said, after the nutrient solution flowed into Zou Yun's blood vessels little by little, he quickly regained consciousness.

But the sober Zou Yuncai made people feel even more distressed.

The eye sockets on his pale face were sunken, and the eyes that were not small before seemed bigger, full of panic and helplessness, as if he was looking for something in the ward.

Tang Tang knew that Zou Yun was afraid of seeing Xiao Sa, so he comforted him over and over again, trying to calm the other party's fear, but the conclusion he got was——

Zou Yun has completely lost his voice.

He turned his head nervously to find a doctor, but Zou Yun grabbed him even more nervously, like a drowning man holding on to the last straw to save his life.

At this time, he was so distressed that his heart was full of Zou Yun, and he didn't know that outside the small glass window on the door of the ward, which was convenient for nurses to make rounds——

Seeing Tang Tang hugging Zou Yun distressedly, Xiao Sa instinctively stepped forward, almost opening the door of the ward, but was stopped by Shen Du at the last moment.

Shen Du also saw what Xiao Sa saw.

Zou Yun was finally appeased, and after a series of examinations, after excluding the possibility of all organic diseases, the doctor initially diagnosed Zou Yun's condition as PTSD and post-traumatic stress disorder; because Zou Yun was unwilling to cooperate, further Diagnosis and treatment can no longer continue.

Fortunately, Zou Yun's health is fine, he only wants to be discharged from the hospital, Tang Tang just wants to take him back to Seattle——

Everything there should belong to Zou Yun.

He calmed Zou Yun's emotions with soft words, and looked at Zou Yun, who once looked weak like a weed, but was actually extremely tough, was covered with bruises, and he was careful about everything around him.

When he was a child in the orphanage, Zou Yun had always taken care of him, protected him, and gave him everything he had and even the rest of his life without reservation; this was the first time that Zou Yun was so weak that he needed to rely on him.

After realizing Zou Yun's dependence on him, he not only wanted to return everything to Zou Yun, but also wanted to give Zou Yun the best he could, whether it was material or protection, but Zou Yun asked him——

Why, treat me so well?

Seeing that Zou Yun, who was already unable to speak, hesitantly wrote this sentence on the paper, Tang Tang choked up in his throat.

Zou Yun's life has only been more than twenty years. The stable life before the age of 27 was given to Tang Tang without even thinking about it. The life after the age of 27 was torn to pieces by Xiao Sa.

But what did Zou Yun do wrong?

Tang Tang couldn't figure it out, but felt that such a Zou Yun was too distressing.

If Zou Yun can feel at ease now, he feels that he is willing to do anything.

"Zou Yun, I like you."

He didn't feel that he said these words purely for comfort, because he had liked Zou Yun for many, many years, but the picture flashed in front of him, it was Shen Du's hand clasping his neck, warm His snort patted against his ear.

Shen Du's eyes are too good-looking, lazy and seductive, just like the kind of evildoer who was not allowed to become a spirit after the founding of the People's Republic of China, he felt that he must have been bewitched, it was Shen Du, and also the loneliness that could not be loved all these years.

He couldn't love him, it was always Zou Yun——

It should only be Zou Yun, it can only be Zou Yun.

If it could be said earlier, not only would it be possible to avoid the tragedy of Zou Yun and Xiao Sa, but also there would not be so many mistakes between him and Shen Du.

"I'm sorry... Zou Yun... I'm too stupid..." He choked up and said, "It's so late... I didn't know."

The past that had been buried in the dust for more than ten years was brought up again, and he felt relieved about the oil painting and the deceased pair of adoptive parents far away in the United States——

Finally, starting today, he can return to Zou Yun everything that originally belonged to Zou Yun.

However, Zou Yun's reaction was unusually calm, he just waved his hand lightly, signaling to Tang Tang that everything is over and don't take it to heart.

Looking into Zou Yun's eyes, even though he has experienced so much, there is fear and timidity, but he can't hide his original kindness and innocence, he really feels distressed.

He wanted too much to lean on this thin shoulder and comfort this wounded heart, but he found himself helpless.

It's weird, at this moment he actually remembered the night Zou Yun was taken away by Xiao Sa, he and Shen Du got drunk in the villa all night, they tore open the scars of childhood in front of each other, exposed each other's wounds, And comfort each other——

For a moment, he and Shen Du seemed to be about to kiss.

Maybe only love and kisses are the medicine that heals all wounds.

He didn't know whether he wanted to give Zou Yun the same cure, or wanted to draw an end to everything he and Shen Du had been avoiding. In short, at this moment, he bent down in a strange way, and cautiously approached Zou Yun slowly. allow.

This was not his first kiss, but he didn't think about whether such a self was worthy of such a clean and beautiful Zou Yun as before.

Zou Yun is still clean and beautiful, different from the absurd kiss between himself and Shen Dujian before, without the catalysis of alcohol, without the smell of hormones, he is very sober——

I just feel that I should kiss Zou Yun.

Zou Yun turned his head and avoided the kiss silently.

Tang Tang smiled helplessly——

Sure enough, there is only one Xiao Sa who has ever loved in Zou Yun's heart; even if this kind of love can no longer be established and does not continue, he still has no way to fall in love with others.

Tang Tang said "it's okay", but he didn't know whether he was more disappointed or calm in his heart.

And at the moment outside the door of the ward, Xiao Sa was still nervously guarding the door, his eyes couldn't help but glance towards the direction of the window.

He saw everything, but could do nothing.

After discovering that Zou Yun was unconscious in the morning, he called Tang Tang instead of Shen Du, because from then on he understood that no matter how reluctantly, this time, he had to let go.

He always felt that if he left Zou Yun, he would die; but if he continued to stay by his side, the person who died might be Zou Yun.

If only one of them can survive in the end, then he would have thought about it when he called Tang Tang——

Nothing is more important than keeping Zou Yun alive.

Shen Du didn't look up from the beginning to the end, he just played with the unlit cigarette at his fingertips, and saw Xiao Sa's tightly clenched fists from the corner of his eye.

"Since you know it will make you sad, why do you still want to watch it?"

he asked jokingly.

Xiao Sa didn't want to admit it, maybe every look might be the last time he saw Zou Yun, he just pointed to the document in his hand stiffly.

"I just wanted to give him something, but..."

From the morning when Xiao Sa called Tang Tang instead of himself, Shen Du understood that this time, Xiao Sa really chose to let go; but it started from seeing Tang Tang and Zou Yun hugging outside the door. , he also understood that everything between himself and Tang Tang was over.

After that he stopped paying attention to what happened in that door.

Xiao Sa wanted to see Zou Yun even for the last time, but he never wanted to face Tang Tang again——

He didn't want to become the next Xiao Sa.

"You..." He looked at Xiao Sa with a complicated expression, and broke the cigarette in his hand.

He knew that what Xiao Sa had in his hand was the equity transfer agreement that he had prepared for a long time.

Tang Tang inside the door, and Xiao Sa outside the door, wanted to return everything to Zou Yun, only his extra, but had to face everything that he didn't want to face at all.

He sighed and got up, and finally took the stack of documents in Xiao Sa's hand.

"I'll take it in for you."

The moment before knocking on the door of the ward, he glanced at Xiao Sa behind him again out of the corner of his eye——

That young man who used to be vicious, but also high-spirited, now has wrinkled shirt and dull eyes, like a down-and-out beggar on the street, numb to the rest of his life, and has no expectations anymore.

The moment he saw Shen Du's hand put on the door of the ward, Xiao Sa's eyes like dry wells finally burst into a trace of anger, which was the look of anticipation.

But Zou Yun is still lying on the hospital bed, Xiao Sa should also know, he should know that even if the door opens, the person who appears cannot be Zou Yun——

Why expect the impossible?

Shen Du took a deep breath, and returned to his previous cynical expression.

He really hoped that this was the last time he saw Tang Tang.

Because he couldn't let himself become the next Xiao Sa.

The author has something to say: the foreshadowing of the road to chasing his wife has been laid, and the crematorium is about to open!