He can play whatever I like

"I……"

Thinking of the way Shen Du grinned in pain last time, Tang Tang lowered his head apologetically.

"What happened last time...I'm sorry...I..."

"For the first time, I have no experience..."

the first time? ? ?

Shen Du's jaw almost dropped in shock.

Who can believe that "North American Chinese gay circle Tiancai Damengyi" was still a virgin/male before that day?

But thinking of the wound behind me that has been hurting for days and hasn't healed...

It also seems to make sense.

"So..." He narrowed his eyes and looked at Tang Tang, "You want to be...'responsible' to me?"

"Isn't it supposed to be?" Tang Tang looked left and right, not daring to look directly into Shen Du's eyes, "After all...even though I didn't do it on purpose, I should still be responsible...it's just...you don't want to... "

"Heh—" Shen Du sneered.

No wonder Tang Tang stopped suddenly just now, probably thinking of Zou Yun in his mind.

"As for adults, you can do whatever you want, just for fun, as long as everyone is happy, what are you responsible for?" He tugged on Tang Tang's collar, pulled him up and looked at him, "You are the one who is afraid Are you sorry for your little artist?"

His monstrous peach blossom eyes were still lazily half-closed and half-open, but a chill gradually appeared.

"Zou Yun hasn't dated you yet, at least for now, he's still Xiao Sa's boyfriend."

"Yes...but we..." Tang Tang looked at Shen Du nervously, "We all drank too much."

"Hahaha--"

Shen Du laughed so hard that he was out of breath, and fell off Tang Tang's body. Tang Tang was reaching out to help, but he pushed him away.

Tang Tang was reminding him that everything between them happened in an unconscious and unconscious state——

Whoever is serious is an idiot/pussy.

He put one hand on Tang Tang's chest and pushed him away, "Leave if you don't do it, I'm not a philanthropist, I will take you in for no reason."

"If you wake up tomorrow morning and you are 'responsible' to me again, you won't be able to get rid of it!"

"I don't need anyone to be responsible for what I Shen Du did, and likewise, I won't be responsible for you." He pointed in the direction of the door indifferently, "Get lost——"

The first time he woke up on a bed, Tang Tang was kicked off the bed by Shen Du. Now, he doesn't know how such a thin person has so much strength. He was riding on his back just now. body, turned his head and kicked himself out——

It was really kicked.

He stood alone in front of the gate of a villa in the countryside, wrapped in a thin sweater.

Shen Du didn't even give him time to put on his coat.

He was stunned at the door for a moment, and finally climbed into the car to deal with it all night because of the cold. It was not until the alcohol in his body evaporated the next morning that he drove back to the long private room of the hotel in the city.

Until he left, he didn't see any movement in the villa. Among the luxury cars parked beside him, he saw the red supercar that Shen Du used to drive, and it also parked quietly. with.

After kicking Tang Tang away, Shen Du didn't know how much he drank again, but he woke up from a hangover the next day, and stared blankly at the empty wine bottles lying down beside him for a long time, until he heard the sound of his phone vibrating.

The call was from Xiao Sa, and he had made many calls before, but he didn't know when he touched the mute button yesterday, and he couldn't wake up the drunk man.

Xiao Sa said that he couldn't go to the company recently, and asked Shen Du to help him watch over it, and send things home that needed his signature.

When he was busy before, Xiao Sa could stay away from home for a week, running continuously like a machine. Now that the equity acquisition is in the final stage, and the key node that is about to be completed, he didn't even come to the company?

Without even thinking about it, Shen Du knew that it must be because of Zou Yun. After all, the two of them walked together yesterday, so I don't know what happened.

He suddenly felt very lucky that nothing happened to Tang Tang yesterday, he didn't want to become a psychopath like Xiao Sa, it was too scary.

After getting up and washing up briefly, he drove back to the company. Because of the lack of one person, he became extremely busy; the documents that need to be signed by Xiao Sa are the most important things in this equity acquisition. He didn't dare to pretend to be someone else because of the lessons learned from the previous auction house——

After all, Xiao Zhenfeng's eyes were still staring at them in the dark.

He has been busy for several days in a daze, running around without sleep, running between Xiao Sa's Guanhai Yipin's home and the company every day, and finally after a whole night, the matter is basically settled——

Now even if Xiao Zhenfeng came out of the detention center in a big way, it was impossible to change anything in a short time.

He finally breathed a sigh of relief.

These days, he has been eating and lodging in the company. Occasionally, he can only open a room in a hotel near the company when he has some free time. He hastily took a shower and changed clothes. ran to the nightclub——

It's past five in the morning, and even the nightclubs are closed.

He was going to drive back to the villa to take a shower, change clothes, and get a good night's sleep. He will start off now, and when he arrives, he will be able to have breakfast in the morning sun.

I haven't eaten breakfast for many years...

He thought, smiled at himself, took his cell phone and car keys, turned and left the office.

Before commuting to and from the company and Guanhai Yipin, in order to keep a low profile, he always drove a black business car of the company. Today, he finally drove his red supercar out to let the air out. It felt like his "wife" was parked in the underground parking lot. It's been rusting for days.

then……

Sure enough, the car broke down, in the middle of the road.

Before dawn, he should have had a long-lost breakfast facing the rising sun, then take a good bath, and lie comfortably on the bed, but now...

Opening the hood of the car, looking at the complicated wiring and parts inside, he just felt that there was nowhere to vent his anger.

The car broke down on a country road far away from the urban area. It was less than six o'clock, and there were no ghosts nearby, and he didn't know how to repair the car himself.

Usually, in this situation, it is obvious that you only need to call the insurance company and call for a tow truck, but it happens...

The phone is dead.

Grass!

He cursed secretly in his heart, raised his hand and threw the phone out.

"Drip-"

Suddenly a bright light accompanied by the sound of a whistle, hope fell from the sky, and a large truck came from a distance.

Drivers of this kind of long-distance trucks usually order car repairs, but they just looked at Shen Du's flamboyant red supercar, but in the end they didn't dare to do it. If something goes wrong, it would be a catastrophe.

Fortunately, he lent Shen Du his mobile phone.

Shen Du held the phone in his hand and remembered, this phone...

Who should I call?

He can't remember any road emergency calls, his phone is turned off, and the people in charge of his auto insurance and the 4S shop have never memorized the number. It seems okay to ask the kind truck driver, but...

Once the mobile phone of modern people is out of power, it seems to lose contact with the world in an instant. At this time, the series of numbers that pop up in his mind are often the most important people or things in his life, but his mind actually floated. Two strings of numbers——

Xiao Sa's, and Tang Tang's.

He never made a conscious effort to memorize them, but at some point he actually memorized the phone numbers of these two people.

Xiao Sa doesn't even go to the company now, probably even floods and tsunami can't make him leave Zou Yun for half a step. He doesn't want to provoke him with that dead look, so as not to make trouble for himself.

Thinking about it, it seemed like an unconscious behavior, he actually dialed Tang Tang's phone number.

Tang Tang picked up the phone almost as soon as it was connected, Shen Du didn't realize that he had already dialed, Tang Tang's voice anxiously squeezed out of the receiver——

"Zou Yun!"

If he hadn't remembered that the phone wasn't his own, Shen Du would probably have smashed the phone as well.

Just when he was about to press the hang up button, Tang Tang's voice floated out again.

"Is it... Shen Du? I'm sorry, because it's an unfamiliar number, I thought..."

"I'm sorry, I haven't seen Zou Yun for several days. Since I left that day, I haven't been able to find him... just a little..."

"I'm in a hurry."

Zou Yun is gone?

Shen Du frowned slightly.

In the past few days, even though he went back and forth between the company and Xiao Sa’s house in Guanhai Yipin every day, he had never met Zou Yun. Every time Xiao Sa opened the door, he handed over work to him directly at the door, and even the door was not allowed to enter. .

Just out of understanding and intuition, he didn't think anyone other than Zou Yun could trap Xiao Sa in the house for so many days, so he tacitly agreed that Zou Yun must be with Xiao Sa; but from Tang Tang's point of view, From the looks of it, Zou Yun did seem to be missing.

Even he didn't know what happened in Guanhai Yipin, Tang Tang's anxiety seemed to be justifiable, even if it was just from the standpoint of a friend, if Xiao Sa disappeared, he would not be indifferent.

He probably comforted himself a few words in his heart, holding the phone in his hand and said dumbly: "My car broke down."

"What's wrong? Did you call a tow truck? Or call the police? Where are you in the middle of the night? Where's your cell phone?"

Tang Tang's questions flew out like cannonballs, and there was a certain kind of concern in the unobtrusive anxiety, which Shen Du had never felt before when he got along with anyone.

He suddenly remembered Tang Tang's sentence back then——

"I won't leave you alone."

"Brother, it's almost dawn. Is it six o'clock in the morning at your house?" He said unforgivingly, but he didn't realize that the corners of his lips were slightly raised, and they had already bent into a beautiful arc.

"My mobile phone is out of battery." His voice gradually softened with the curvature of the corner of his mouth, "On the way to the villa, there is no way to go to the village or back to the shop—"

"Is that where I went last time?" Before he finished speaking, Tang Tang on the other end of the phone suddenly interrupted, "Is that the only way to go through the city?"

Shen Du was stunned for a moment, then just nodded while holding the mobile phone in such a dazed manner, it was only after a while that he remembered that Tang Tang couldn't see his action, so he hummed dumbly, with a nasal sound.

Tang Tang didn't talk nonsense when he heard the sound, just said "wait for me where you are", and hung up the phone in a hurry.

Watching the taillights of the big truck go away, Shen Du turned back and looked in the direction of the city, feeling anxious and expectant for the first time in his heart.

That night when he was drunk in the villa, he heard Tang Tang talking about his childhood that was as dark as the indoor lights that night.

He started with different people, because he felt that the past is the past, but he didn't know until that night that the past may always leave traces on the person who experienced it.

Because of those traces, Tang Tang will be grateful to Zou Yun throughout his life, for the comfortable life that Zou Yun gave him, and the few warmth in his childhood; perhaps it is also because of those traces that Xiao Sa relies on Zou Yun, as if he is alive. breathe.

And the mark imprinted on himself is probably that he can no longer trust and rely on anyone.

There have been too many irresponsible people in his life, parents, relatives, Xiao Zhenfeng, those selfish children who come and go in the orphanage, even Xiao Sa——

Without Zou Yun, Xiao Sa would not be what he is now. Even with Zou Yun, Xiao Sa would only be responsible to Zou Yun alone.

It was too difficult to live in that man-eating villa, so Xiao Sa wrote his loneliness on his face, strangers are not allowed to enter, and his personality is perverted; while Shen Du learned to bury some secrets in his heart, so deep that even he I almost forgot.

But some things have existed and cannot be erased, such as the imprint of childhood, such as human instinct, fear of loneliness, and desire for companionship.

For so many years, Shen Du has used Xiao Sa's "meaningless carnival" to dispel this fear, make up for this desire, and hide behind a door with a far-sighted attitude to prevent himself from becoming Xiao Sa today. Sinking and hurting.

It's just that some repressed desires are expanding infinitely, and the door is finally knocked open by the phrase "I won't leave you alone".

Through the thin crack of the door, he glimpsed for the first time that there is always a number that will connect when something happens, and that person will really rush to the scene for you. What kind of feeling is it like.

This sense of stability is weak, but also shocking, completely unfamiliar to him.

Tang Tang arrived very quickly, after seven o'clock in the morning, the sky just dawned.

There is no traffic in the city on the country road, only Tang Tang's car was driving towards him, it really gave Shen Du an illusion in a trance——

Tang Tang came for him.

In fact it is.

Tang Tang's car quickly stopped beside him, and when he stepped out of the car door, Shen Du saw the other's disheveled hair and wrinkled sweater, secretly lowered his head, and couldn't help but curl his mouth.

I have to admit that in terms of face and figure, Tang Tang is very good at playing, probably because he is young and keeps exercising all the year round. He just woke up without a trace of swelling; His whole body still exudes his unique handsomeness as bright as the morning sun, with the smell of male hormones.

Tang Tang's shoulders are very broad, indeed giving people an illusion of being reliable.

Shen Du stayed up all night and slept very little in the past few days. The moment he saw Tang Tang, he felt exhausted; he probably still remembered how it felt in Tang Tang's embrace, although the memory was very vague, But it should be wide and soft.

He just wants to sleep right now.

From the bloodshot eyes in Shen Du's eyes, Tang Tang also saw the fatigue of the other party, he stepped forward to ask a few questions with concern, but Shen Du avoided them with a guilty conscience.

"Where are so many nonsense——" Shen Du changed back to his usual sloppy look, and pushed Tang Tang pretending to be disgusted, "Repair the car!"

It was no nonsense for Tang Tang to be pushed away, he just turned around and threw the coat in his hand to Shen Du before repairing the car, then he lifted the hood and buried himself in the car to check it carefully.

Shen Du is not as thin as Zou Yun, and he is quite tall, but Tang Tang's clothes are still too big for him. He looked at his half-length cuffs with disgust, and when he was about to take them off while frowning, he suddenly saw Tang Tang, who was checking the car at the side, folded his arms and shook his shoulders.

This idiot, he didn't even change his clothes when he went out, and ran out wearing a single shirt, but he still wanted to bring him a coat?

Shen Du thought about it, feeling angry and funny, and suddenly didn't want to take off his clothes——

It seems to be quite warm to wear.

"The part is broken, and you need to replace it. Do you have a spare in your car?"

Tang Tang was very attentive in repairing the car. When he was talking, he turned around and found that Shen Du was looking at his direction in a daze. It was inconvenient for him to have some engine oil on his hands, so he had to push Shen Du with his crutches.

"Talking to you..."

"...Ah?" Shen Du was flustered for a moment when he came back to his senses, "What?"

"Parts, broken, need to be replaced—" Tang Tang repeated, "Do you have a spare in your car?"

Shen Du didn't understand cars, and he didn't understand what Tang Tang was talking about, so he was completely immersed in the embarrassment of his secret being exposed.

"No." He said casually.

"Then leave the car here." Tang Tang said, closing the hood, "I'll take you back to the villa or the city, and contact the 4S shop to deal with it when your phone is charged."

"...Huh? Oh...well..."

Shen Dumu nodded, turned around and prepared to get into the car with Tang Tang, but before he opened the door, the phone rang.

He took out his cell phone angrily with a feeling of shame and anger, and then remembered that the battery had run out long ago, and it was Tang Tang's phone that was ringing.

"Pick up the phone." He turned his head and rolled his eyes at Tang Tang, only to find that Tang Tang was looking at him in embarrassment.

Because the car was repaired just now and the oil stains hadn't been wiped off, Tang Tang rested his arms on his chest, looking at Shen Du apologetically.

"Can... help me get the phone? It's in..." He wondered, "In the trouser pocket..."

Looking down at the bulging pocket of Tang Tang's left trousers, where the cell phone should be placed, Shen Du's face darkened.

"I only have pants with pockets..." Seeing Shen Du's face darken, Tang Tang immediately reacted and defended.

The atmosphere was instantly awkward and ambiguous.

Shen Du walked up to Tang Tang with a face of reluctance, turned his face away and tried not to look at things that would make it difficult for the two of them to get along, and instinctively touched Tang Tang's trouser pocket.

Tang Tang seemed to be able to feel this embarrassment.

He looked awkwardly at the hand that Shen Du stretched out, the blue blood vessels on the pale skin became more and more obvious, different from Zou Yun's fine and fair skin, this hand with well-defined joints had a kind of sex appeal that only a man could have.

Most of the coolness in the early morning dissipated in an instant, and he even felt a little hot, so he swallowed in embarrassment.

"Go...a little bit to the right..."

Hearing the sound, Shen Du gave Tang Tang an annoyed look, and finally took out the cell phone that was in the way. He picked up the phone and walked up to Tang Tang, pressing the hands-free button impatiently.

"Hey--"

The voice on the phone was low and hoarse, as if sandpaper had rubbed everyone's eardrums, but it was familiar to everyone.

It's Xiao Sa.

It was very quiet on the country road in the early morning, so quiet that we could hear each other's heartbeats.

The two people on the phone held their breaths.

"Zou Yun has an accident, you come to the hospital, I will send the address to your mobile phone."

The author has something to say: The timeline here is the period when Zou Yun went on a hunger strike and was hospitalized.