He can play whatever I like

Zou Yun couldn't count how many times he woke up in a strange room, but this time he had nothing to be afraid of, because when he opened his eyes, he smelled the faint smell of disinfectant from the tip of his nose.

Sure enough, Xiao Sa still didn't give up, did he insist on keeping him?

But what's the use?

Anyway, he was already familiar with that set of movements, raising his hand to pull out the infusion tube on the back of his hand.

He didn't know how long he had been in a coma, and his body was numb and stiff when he just woke up. He stretched out the movable hand to the back of the other hand, only to find that what he touched was another pair of very warm big hands.

Because he didn't want to open his eyes and see Xiao Sa looking at him somewhere in the ward, he didn't even bother to lift his eyelids before, but now he can be sure that the hand he touched must not belong to Xiao Sa.

He is too familiar with everything about Xiao Sa, Xiao Sa's hands are slender, with well-defined joints, and very strong; but Xiao Sa's hands are cold, not so thick and soft.

Because he didn’t cooperate with the treatment before, the family doctor buried soft needles on the back of Zou Yun’s hand that can stay in the body for a long time, but he would still tear off the infusion tube again and again; Even if the person beside the bed was asleep, his hands were tightly pressed against the back of his hand.

"Zou Yun, are you awake?" Tang Tang felt the movement around him, and opened his eyes in a daze, "I'm sorry, I fell asleep."

Zou Yun looked at Tang Tang in front of him in surprise.

It's not that he is not familiar with Tang Tang, but the person in front of him is quite different from the Tang Tang he knows.

Tang Tang is used to wearing loose sportswear, and likes to use a headband to tie up the broken hair on his forehead. It has an ABC taste, but he is more of a sunny and cheerful boy. He occasionally has a naughty smile. Thin sweat oozes out, as if there is vitality and vitality that can never be exhausted.

But now Tang Tang in front of Zou Yun had tired dark circles under his eyes, and Hu Qing on his chin hadn't been dealt with. It seemed as if all the vigor and vitality that would never be exhausted had been drained overnight.

This is Tang Tang!

Zou Yun never dared to dream that Xiao Sa, who looked like he wanted to kill Tang Tang every time he saw him, would allow Tang Tang to appear at this time, and would stay by his side every step of the way.

He nervously opened his eyes and looked around, and found that he was in a private intensive care unit that only appeared in a TV series. It was as spacious and bright as a hotel suite, with complete facilities. See Xiao Sa's figure.

Seeing Zou Yun's eyes turning around with panic, Tang Tang quickly explained: "He's not here...he's not here..."

"Don't be afraid." He rubbed Zou Yun's hair and comforted him: "He's not here, Zou Yun, I will always be with you, don't let him come near..."

"Do not be afraid."

and so……

Xiao Sa, have you finally given up?

Zou Yun's tears burst in an instant, but he opened his mouth wide, but couldn't make a sound.

"Zou Yun, what's wrong with you?" Tang Tang immediately got up nervously and hugged him, "What do you want to say to me? Don't scare me..."

Zou Yun wanted to say "Take me away", he wanted to say "I'm scared", but no matter how hard he tried to open his mouth and exhausted all his strength, he couldn't even utter a whimper.

Behind a small window outside the door of the ward, Xiao Sa's eyes were scarlet, silently watching everything in front of him, and he clenched his fists.

Zou Yun didn't say a word to him these days, and he didn't make a sound, but he didn't think much about it, he just thought that Zou Yun didn't want to talk to him.

This is also easy to understand, he knows that Zou Yun hates him.

It's just that he never expected that Zou Yun could no longer speak?

Tang Tang was obviously the only one in the ward, so there was no need for Zou Yun to pretend.

Just when he almost pushed open the door of the ward in a hurry, someone behind him suddenly grabbed his hand.

Shen Du also glanced at the situation in the ward along the glass, then lowered his eyes silently without speaking, and only shook his head at Xiao Sa.

Xiao Sa was stunned for two seconds, and finally let go of the hand holding the doorknob.

He knew he shouldn't have appeared—

The existence of him now is a kind of harm to Zou Yun.

He sighed softly, with a lonely look on his face, before turning around to leave, he only said, "See a doctor."

Shen Du glanced at the picture in the ward again, Tang Tang was hugging Zou Yun distressedly.

Both he and Xiao Sa are redundant.

He turned around and raised his eyebrows, followed Xiao Sa's direction, and disappeared by the door of the ward together.

Accompanied by Tang Tang, Zou Yun went through a series of examinations, and after excluding all organic diseases, he could only come to the psychiatrist's office.

But Zou Yun grabbed Tang Tang's clothes the whole time, like a wounded kitten, trying to avoid even the doctor's eyes, let alone answering questions and cooperating with treatment.

"The patient is..." The doctor looked at Tang Tang helplessly, "Have you encountered any sudden changes or irritations before?"

Tang Tang lowered his head and looked distressed at Zou Yun who was sitting on the sofa. Zou Yun was looking up at him, shaking his head in horror.

He couldn't say anything more, so he could only slightly nodded at the doctor.

Because Zou Yun did not cooperate, the doctor did not dare to prescribe medicine blindly, so he could only temporarily draw a speculative conclusion——

PTSD, also known as post-traumatic stress disorder, is a mental disorder in which the human body protects itself after a huge traumatic event, and it delays the emergence and persists in the individual.

Sudden loss of voice may be just a physical manifestation of this stress disorder; I don't know when it will be better, maybe I just need a good sleep, maybe it will be a lifetime.

Seeking medical treatment and timely psychological counseling would be helpful, but Zou Yun was completely unwilling to cooperate and kept dragging Tang Tang by the corner of his clothes to leave.

Tang Tang had no choice but to push Zou Yun's wheelchair back to the ward, and asked the doctor for a pen and paper before leaving.

"It's okay, Zou Yun, don't worry." He carried him back to the hospital bed, handed the pen and paper to Zou Yun, and comforted him patiently: "Whatever you want to say, just write it down and tell me."

Zou Yun looked at Tang Tang and nodded affirmatively to himself, finally let go of the hand that was holding the corner of the other party's clothes, and took the pen and paper timidly.

- is my cat okay

He paused and added two more words:

- two.

"Okay." Tang Tang forced a smile, "The puppet is with Xiao Huang now, and they are all with me. Don't worry."

Zou Yun held the pen, nodded obediently, thought for a while and wrote on the paper:

- am i going to be dumb forever

Looking at the words on the paper, Tang Tang felt distressed and guilty for a while, but he still managed to squeeze out a smile as warm and firm as possible, and comforted him: "No."

- But the doctor said he didn't know when it would be better!

Zou Yun's handwriting became more and more scribbled, and an exclamation point was added at the end.

Tang Tang knew that Zou Yun was afraid and anxious.

"Then why didn't you cooperate with the doctor just now?" He asked softly.

-I want to go, I don't want to stay here.

Seeing Zou Yun stop writing hesitantly, Tang Tang understood in his heart——

Although he didn't write it down, Zou Yun knew that Xiao Sa had sent him to the hospital, and he was afraid that Xiao Sa would find him.

"Okay, let's go now."

As he spoke, he got up and prepared to pack his things, and went through the discharge procedures for Zou Yun, only to turn around and find that Zou Yun had grabbed him again, with helpless eyes and tears in his eyes.

"It's okay, the doctor said that you just didn't eat well, and that's why you went into shock because of hypoglycemia." He stopped and explained patiently, "Don't worry, you're not sick, you can be discharged after a short rest."

Zou Yun looked at Tang Tang and shook his head, then hurriedly picked up the pen.

-Where are you going?

Looking at the messy handwriting on the white paper, Tang Tang's eyes finally turned red uncontrollably.

No one knows better than him that Zou Yun looks weak, but he is actually stronger than anyone else.

Zou Yun has been an orphan since he was born. He has no one to rely on but dares to apply for a high amount of student loans to pursue his dream. Over the years, he has relied on his own hard work, all the way from a small county in the north to a first-tier metropolis like Guanhai City. heel.

When he was a child in the orphanage, Tang Tang himself was still a crying bag, but at that time Zou Yun didn't like to cry, even if he often fell down, he didn't cry, and he could stand up by patting the ashes; when he grew up, Zou Yun twice Crying in front of Tang Tang was all drunk.

In Tang Tang's eyes, Zou Yun has always been independent and strong. He has never seen such a fragile and helpless Zou Yun, who would be nervous even when he turned around.

In addition to the anger of wanting to throw Xiao Sa out to the silver beach to feed the fish, he felt more distressed——

and guilt.

It wasn't just Xiao Sa who caused today's situation, but he was somehow inseparable from the beginning.

"I'm not leaving, I'm just going to help you with the discharge procedures." He knelt down and comforted him, "Xiao Sa has already given me your documents, I've already bought your air tickets, and I'm looking for someone to apply for your visa. Better off, we'll go back to Seattle."

"Zou Yun, don't be afraid." He gently hugged the back of Zou Yun's head, "I will never leave you again. From now on, I will always guard you. People you don't want to see are not allowed to approach."

"Even if you can't speak or go out to work for the rest of your life, you can still draw. Remember the gallery in Seattle—"

"You can still have your own gallery."

Before Xiao Sa, Zou Yun hadn't liked anyone for 27 years. He knew his situation and was not qualified to talk about love.

In terms of emotions, he is undoubtedly slow, but no matter how slow he is, it is impossible not to feel it now. The affection in Tang Tang's words has surpassed the boundaries of friends or faxiao.

He is indeed terrified and helpless now, and he instinctively wants to rely on Tang Tang, but there should be a limit to this kind of dependence; at least Tang Tang can't just blurt out that he will send the gallery left by his adoptive parents to him in order to comfort him. give him.

In the video, when he was at the villa that day, Tang Tang also said that he wanted to transfer the villa to him.

He also asked Tang Tang at that time, but Tang Tang's answer was ambiguous, only saying that everything belonged to him in the first place; he wanted to ask again later, but was interrupted by Xiao Sa who rushed over suddenly.

Now he looked at Tang Tang, and then at the half-blank paper in his hand. After thinking about it, he still hesitated to write, and the question he asked was still the same as before:

-Why, so nice to me?

"I'm sorry, if I had said something earlier, maybe you wouldn't have to sleep here today." Tang Tang got up suddenly and hugged him, "Zou Yun, I like you."

Maybe it was when he left the orphanage at the age of nine, or maybe earlier, when he saw Zou Yun for the first time in the orphanage when he was seven years old...

He has already started to like Zou Yun.

"I'm sorry... Zou Yun... I was too stupid..." He choked up in his throat, "It's so late... I didn't know."

The author has something to say: This chapter is also known as Shen Du: Two or three things about my brother and I being raped at the same time.

Part of the interpretation of PTSD comes from Baidu Encyclopedia.

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