You can eat it but you are not allowed to miss it

Think rationally, disagreement does not necessarily mean that you don't love, but you need to communicate well, understand each other's thoughts, and find a way to solve it. Will there be no unnecessary quarrels?The same is true in other ways. "

"Okay, I'll get the beer." He stood up and took a few cans of beer to the living room.

The two of us clinked glasses, and I drank half of the can in one gulp, summoning up my courage, "Brother, I admit, I brought those things back for you." How to proceed.

"Ah Qian, if I'm not wrong, I probably understand why you are like this. I've always been confused, maybe part of my soul has some female characteristics left."

He confessed to me, and I didn't expect it to be so straightforward.

He continued: "It used to be fine, but recently this feeling has become more and more obvious, especially every time you go deep, I can't accurately describe this feeling, it is probably weak all over, as if the heart, liver, spleen and lungs are hanging in the air, leaving you I feel empty and uncomfortable. In the past, I could rely on myself for everything. I didn’t shed a single tear when I cut flesh with a knife. No matter what difficulties, I could grit my teeth and solve them by myself. But now as long as you are here, I can’t help but rely on you , When encountering some trivial things, I still feel very wronged. I thought that I should not exist long ago, but I can't get rid of it. This feeling is like being enchanted. Can you understand my confusion? "

This is the first time I have heard him describe his inner abstract feelings like this. He said that he depends on me and wants me, but it has become his confusion.

"Brother, it sounds to me that you only love me. If you say that being vulnerable in front of me will bother you, and I cried in front of you, will you despise me for that?"

"I do not know."

"Yes. Who said that men can't express vulnerability? Don't look at me now. I was very cute when I was young. Once because my beloved pet dog was lost, I cried for three days. Other children laughed at me like a Girl, I was ashamed and annoyed at the time, who is the little girl? So I gave the kid who joked about me a big beating. But when I grew up, I realized that there was no need to worry about it. We all have vulnerable moments .Even if I think I am a strong person, there will definitely be times when I need to lean on my brother's shoulders. Is it because of this that I am no longer a strong man? In front of you who I love the most, I allow myself show weakness."

"I grasped the point of this sentence, you love me the most."

"That is not the point! Although, that is also very important."

"Ah Qian, you are so gentle, thank you. But, I really don't need little skirts and pink furniture, and of course I don't need pink lace pajamas, pink slippers and fluffy Disney toy pillows."

I have reason to suspect that he hacked my online shopping account.He left out the limited-edition pink massager, though.

"Okay, so can I go in tonight?" I asked.

"What's going on?" He didn't respond.

I deliberately made a "you understand" expression, and he blushed and said, "You are really strange! When did you ask for my permission in advance before?"

Yeah, I'm not as good as a beast.Thinking about what I did to him back then, it was simply a "crime".Even as a gay, I have always treated women with respect and courtesy, but for my own lover, the "daughter-like" A Yu, I didn't have the slightest gentlemanly demeanor from the beginning to the end, but was extremely rude. I'm glad he Without kicking me away, it still gave me a chance to "renew".Now, I also want to start again, like I said to reshape our relationship, I hope that I can also become a gentle, considerate, gentlemanly, and reliable husband in front of "her".

22. Gender Dysphoria Clinic

◎Today I am a 190 cm strong man who wants to become a beautiful big sister. ◎

I never thought that one day I would go to a transgender clinic, and it was the first time in my life that I was worried because of my tall and burly figure. At the entrance of the outpatient clinic, it is inevitable to attract curious eyes from others. Thinking about it for a while, I have to pretend to be a 190 cm strong man in front of the doctor who wants to become a beautiful sister.sky!Going to the MTF (MaletoFemale) transgender clinic caused me the biggest gender dysphoria of my life!

The young male doctor looked contemptuous when he called me in, probably because I looked different from the patients he had received before.Just in front of me was a parent who brought a teenage boy to see the doctor. The child had long hair, was dressed in feminine clothes, and spoke softly.When I saw it, I immediately thought of my A Yu, although A Yu's appearance was not feminine.

"Name, age, marital status, and did you bring your parents?" The male doctor lowered his head to write the medical records, and didn't look at me any more.

"Nan Heqian, 24 years old, unmarried. Excuse me, I am an adult and have full capacity for civil conduct, so I need to be called a parent?" I asked suspiciously.

The doctor finally raised his head, frowned and glanced at me, "I'm sorry, in our hospital's transgender clinic, regardless of your age, you must be accompanied by your family members and agree to the patient's transgender. Otherwise, we can't help you."

I couldn't help but raise my eyebrows: "This... Dr. Li, I think your regulations are very problematic. Generally, when a child wants to change gender, how many biological parents agree with it? Convincing traditional thinking, stubbornness It is already difficult for an old man who has become transformed. Could it be that an adult can't even be the master of his own body?"

"I'm really sorry, this is the hospital's regulation. As doctors, we have to follow the rules and regulations, right? Moreover, not only our hospital, but any public hospital in the country has this regulation. If you are here to make trouble, then I can only Please go out."

"Then I don't know. Next time, I will go to the head office of the parents. I asked for leave on purpose to arrange a number. You should always ask me about my symptoms, right?"

"Then what are your symptoms?"

"The symptom is that I think I should be a woman inside."

"Is there any specific performance?"

"I think, I really don't like my own body. Don't look at me in a suit. I look very thin. In fact, I take off my clothes and I look like a tendon. It is not in line with my ideal self. How can you treat me? ? Are you using estrogen? How long will it take? Will there be any side effects?” I eagerly asked all the questions that came to mind at the time.

While still thinking silently, don’t abandon me with my muscles just because I say I don’t like you. Unlike many transgender people who hate their bodies, I am simply another extreme for my body—— Extremely narcissistic.I can admire my blood-congested muscles in front of the mirror for hours without getting tired. I often sigh that if this is not my body, I will definitely fall in love with this man just because he has the figure of a male god in Greek mythology.Ahem, please forgive me for being so narcissistic.

"I'm sorry, but I can't prescribe estrogen for you. Because I judge that you don't have gender dysphoria. You'd better hire someone else." Dr. Li firmly refused me.

"What? The World Health Organization has excluded transgender from mental illness, so you can't diagnose whether I am gender dysphoric. Let me tell you that I am. You can't subjectively speculate that I am lying to you!" I retorted confidently.

"Mr. Nan, it seems that you have done your homework. Yes, I really shouldn't give you a diagnosis, but please ask yourself, don't waste medical resources. You are obviously cisgender, but you insist on asking for it. I don’t prescribe one or two medicines anymore. Some people just want to get prescription medicines from the hospital and resell them to transgender people at high prices on online platforms. Some of them are minors. It is very dangerous to use hormones without the guidance of a professional doctor. Yes, what about complications? Can you be responsible?"

It turned out that Dr. Li took me as a scalper who came to cheat the medicine.I looked down at myself wearing Armani, am I worth it?

Yes, I can't let the eldest young master continue to "play around" with my temper, my attitude softened, "I'm sorry, Dr. Li, I'm not, but I'm consulting for others, he is a transgender person, and he wants to change from male to male." As a woman, but his parents don't know about his condition. I don't know how else I can help him? If you know of other legal ways, please do let me know, I would be very grateful!"

He sighed, and finally replied calmly: "It's really difficult to deal with if your parents don't know. If it's your friend, you'd better ask your friend to see it by yourself. It involves privacy. There is no agency for this kind of thing."

"It's not a friend, it's my partner, my husband. Please help me think of a way. He may be because of our gay status, so he refuses to tell me. And he may have a tendency to self-harm, I don't want to Look at him in so much pain."

"If there is really no way, there is another way to go abroad for medical treatment. Some countries and regions do not strictly require parental consent, or they can be exempted."

"I see, thank you!"

"Mr. Nan, I understand that you must love your partner very much, but I also want to remind you that transgender people are generally accompanied by depression and anxiety, and the suicide rate is also very high. Hormone therapy and surgery are a long and arduous process. There may be situations that you can't imagine at all, even if you go abroad, I still suggest to let your immediate family members know the specific situation, once an accident happens, you are not responsible for it alone!"

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