You can eat it but you are not allowed to miss it

Let's just say, if those pure and secret loves in the student days are not counted, my first real experience was after graduating from college, in the first year of graduate school, at about 23 years old.The subject was a man five years older than me. "He said, "You may not believe it, I was an ascetic before that, and although the other party was so much older than me, he didn't have much actual combat experience.It was really indescribable, except for the pain, there was no feeling of enjoyment at all.I was not enlightened at that time, and I was shy, so I could only perfunctory. "

It turned out that I wasn't his first one, and I was a little disappointed, "Then what happened next?"

He: "Actually, we were together very rarely, and then we broke up for various reasons. Later, we were in an uncertain relationship, but it wasn't until I met you that I realized that this little thing can be so good."

"Wait, brother, aren't you 1?"

"I never said that, right? But the people I've met before, they all let me be the attacker by default, so..."

"That's right, who made you so talented?"

Are you not angry?Did you agree not to be jealous?But reality hit me again.The next day I left E Yu's house and went to work in the company. I kept thinking about his statement about the first experience over and over again in my mind all day.Who is the man five years older?what for?Are you as handsome as me?How did these two people know each other?Did you make an appointment through a social app?Or do you see each other in a bar?It's impossible to get those thoughts out of your head.People say that if there is one, there are two, there are three. I rushed home after get off work that day and reached out to his diary again. I wanted to find all the clues about that man.

"Men are the most disgusting creatures in this world.

When I was in elementary school, once after school, it was raining heavily, and I walked home with two female classmates. Before we had walked a few steps, one of the girls suddenly burst into tears for no reason. The other two of us asked her what was wrong?The girl was terrified, and it took her a long time to ask. She just saw a man in a long raincoat pushing a bicycle. He lifted the hem of the raincoat towards us, revealing his ugly lower body.At that time, she was the only one who saw it. I searched for traces of that man. If I caught him, I would definitely spit on him, and then stepped forward and kicked him to tell him to play hooligans again, but there was no sign of him.

In those few years, the public institution where my mother worked was losing money year after year due to corruption/corruption at the top. In the end, it had to go through bankruptcy protection and buy out the length of service, that is, to pay employees a lump sum of compensation, and then let them find their own means of livelihood.My mother followed my grandmother to study for accounting qualifications by herself. She worked as an accountant in her original unit for several years before she was laid off and applied for an accountant position at a private gas station.

My mother is a person who knows how to manage relationships. She always tells me that there are many people who are polite and don't blame people, and the principle of not hitting people with smiling faces when reaching out.For example, when the owner of the gas station came to our county to do business, my mother would warmly keep him for dinner.And let me call him Uncle Li.The first time I saw Uncle Li, I thought he looked scary. There was a piece of wrinkled skin on his face, and one eye seemed to be injured and could not be opened.But people should not be judged by their appearance. I heard from him that he was a soldier for several years when he was young, and then he retired to start his own business.

My mother was busy in the kitchen, so Uncle Li chatted with me and asked me about my studies. That day, the temperature of the air conditioner at home was turned down, and Uncle Li asked me concernedly: "You have poor blood circulation."Look at the blue legs.Lips are also purple. 'As he said that, he touched my thigh with his hands. I felt uncomfortable, so I avoided it awkwardly without making a sound.Uncle Li suggested again, "Shall I help you look at the palmistry?"When I was young, I traveled all over the world and knew a little about reading. 'I didn't want to show it to him, but he had already grabbed my hand, put it in his rough palm, touched my palm lines, and was dazed, I pulled my hand back, just when my mother came to the living room with food, 'This child, let Uncle Li see it?I used to tell the fortune of this child, and they all said that it was better than mine. '

While we were eating, my mother suddenly brought up the matter of asking me to recognize Uncle Li as godfather. Uncle Li seemed to be very happy.My mother said to recognize more relatives and walk around during the holidays. I don't have a real father, so if I find a capable godfather, maybe I can be taken care of.

Then one summer vacation, I went to the city to attend a remedial class. The city was an hour’s drive away from my county seat, so my mother arranged for me to stay at a friend’s house.When I got there, I found out that I lived in Uncle Li's house. He has a big apartment in the city center, which has been vacant for a long time.My mother made dumplings for me, prepared a lot of dishes, let me go home after class to eat hot, and left money for me to buy lunch at school at noon.For children of our age, parents were busy, and it was common for children to be alone at home.Therefore, I am not afraid to live alone in Uncle Li's house.

Until one day when the summer vacation was about to end, I went back to the apartment and found that Uncle Li was there. He said that he would stay in the city for two days and let me keep everything as usual, so don’t feel uncomfortable.When I was taking a shower in the bathroom at night, I checked several times and locked the door. I heard someone talking in the kitchen while I was washing. It was Uncle Li talking to his daughter on the phone. Did the child come back? He said he didn't hear me coming back.The kitchen window and the bathroom window could see each other. I cautiously looked into the window and saw the man staring at me from the kitchen window.I quickly squatted down and curled up, not daring to make a sound.It took a long time before I dared to sneak out of the bathroom, hid in the bedroom, and closed the door. The lock in the bedroom was originally broken, so I could only use a chair against the door.

That night, I opened my eyes and looked at the door and dared not sleep, but fell asleep in a daze.In a trance, I felt that someone was on me, and I didn't dare to open my eyes. A pair of rough hands were touching me...

Disgusting.I didn't tell anyone about this, including my mother. "

"Damn it!" I thumped the desk hard, making a hole, the diary fell, and the fallen paper was scattered all over the place.My older brother was raped/violated by a man.

13. Competition

◎Brother, you were the one I fell in love with first. ◎

On Saturday night, the honeymoon trip was over, and Ye Yingzi and his wife invited E Yu and some of their friends in this city to have dinner.

E Yu asked: "Hey, Yingzi, is this trip to Thailand fun?"

Yingzi replied: "It's fun! We are too busy with work. We originally planned to go to Denmark for a self-guided tour, but in the end we had to go to Southeast Asia. But it's not just for traveling, there is another important event in life."

"A major event in life?" E Yu wondered.

Yingzi: "That's right, this marriage is over, it's time to think about having a baby. I just want to have a baby with my own relationship with my husband. I will use my husband's egg to conceive. , and then the birth certificate can fill in mother Ye Yingzi and father Wang Xi. Haha. There must be no hope in China, and we specially set aside a day trip in Thailand to go to the hospital to inquire."

"You guys want to give birth to a blonde mixed-race baby? How cute is that!" Hearing that he was going to a foreign country to do test tubes, E Yu became interested. It's not like he has never considered giving birth to a beautiful mixed-race as a patient with "advanced color control" Baby.

"Actually, after checking the information, I almost gave up!" Yingzi said discouragedly, "I have heard some negative news about foreign sperm banks, such as having genetic diseases, or the same donor has donated more than 100 families. Then In addition, after seeing the experience sharing of ovulation induction and egg retrieval, I really wonder if Wang Xi can bear it?"

Wang Xi: "Now we are more inclined to do it in China. The country allows single women over the age of 30 to use medical assisted reproduction, but if the embryo carrying my gene is placed in Yingzi's stomach, the nature of the matter will change. (Surrogacy/pregnancy is illegal in our country). Actually, I don’t care about these things, Yingzi’s child is my child. Even if it’s donated to adopt a method close to natural conception, it’s good to make her suffer less.”

"Maybe it's my own problem, but I still feel that it's a strange man's penis entering my body, and I can't accept it psychologically." Yingzi shivered as she said.

E Yu also persuaded her: "Yingzi, what Wang Xi said is correct, no matter whose gene the child carries, if the two of you love him and raise him, you are his parents, and you don't care about a certificate."

Yingzi joked mischievously: "Ayu, I would like to ask you how did you overcome that psychological barrier?"

E Yu blushed: "Which one?"

Sakurako: "Is that the one?"

Wang Xi's wife sang Husband Sui, and she helped E Yu out of the siege: "Don't bully us, A Yu, how can that be a strange man? That's her husband!"

Yingzi was not convinced: "What's so great about having a husband, I have one too!"

After several cups of mulled wine, E Yu felt his head heat up, "I'm going to the bathroom."

When E Yu went to the restroom of the restaurant alone, he met an acquaintance.So the Encounter Road is narrow, isn't this the good brother Nan Heyou who was dumped by him in the lover's hotel a few weeks ago?Also the half-brother of his new boyfriend Nam Ho-kyeom.

Seeing that E Yu was alone, Nan Heyou followed him into the bathroom.

"Brother, don't run away, listen to me!" Nan Heyou wanted to grab E Yu's hand, but was mercilessly knocked off.In his head, he surrounded E Yu and entered the innermost single room.

"Nan Heyou, what are you doing!" E Yu said vigilantly.

"I was wrong about what happened last time, brother, are you still angry with me?" Nan Heyou said.

"Stop being so sentimental, who are you?" E Yu said angrily.

"I..." Nan Heyou felt an unknown fire in his heart, "Brother, we have friendship anyway, you don't want to see me like a plague god, right?"

"Who's about you