dear psychiatrist

Time Nostalgic Music Bar...

Holding a glass of cold beer in his hand, Zhuo Qihua raised his glass to Momo, the proprietress of the bar, and then drank the wine in the glass in one gulp.

"How? Is something bothering you?" Momo took the wine glass in front of Zhuo Qihua and asked calmly while helping her refill it.But without any curiosity, it seemed that he was just asking casually, and didn't care whether the other party would answer.

"How do you know I'm bored?" Zhuo Qihua was quite surprised by Momo's excellent insight, and he couldn't help but look up at her deeply.

Recalling Zhao Xiaoqi's phone call, Zhuo Qihua's expression became painful.

Listening to Xiaoqi on the other end of the phone, she said lightly: "I'm getting married... I have a request. Anyone has the right to say 'no' to me, but you don't! Because you owe me, you have no right to refuse .”

"You said."

"Be my bridesmaid!"

……

……

After all, he didn't tell Mo Mo the troubles in his heart, but turned sideways to look at the world outside the glass window.It was getting late, and the dim street lamps were sprinkled on the drizzle and muddy road, and there was some unspeakable melancholy inside.

After receiving the beer from Momo, Zhuo Qihua smiled wryly, feeling the dizziness brought by the alcohol.In the dizziness after another, Zhuo Qihua seemed to look back at the innocent youth in the past.

In the vast ocean of memories, Zhuo Qihua couldn't help questioning himself, what did he pay for his feelings?

In the relationship with Zhao Xiaoqi, from the beginning to the end, I didn't give each other a word, even if it was only half a word of love and commitment.She could have done better things as a lover, but she just responded with hurt.

Maybe, in the dead of night in the future, when Zhao Xiaoqi recalls the past, she will be deeply grateful, right?It's a great joy to think about it without the annoying and broken-mouthed self by your side, right?

Unknowingly, the drizzle outside the window became violent, 'crackling' beating on the glass window.Such a rainy night can always draw out people's inextricable thoughts.

It was clear that Zhuo Qihua, who had long been used to loneliness, could not get used to the coldness of this moment no matter what.And such a rainy night always makes people feel sensitive.

Looking at the crazily pouring rain outside the window, Zhuo Qihua unexpectedly saw a person whom he had wanted to see for a long time, yes, that person was Tao Yaoyao.Under the heavy rain, she held a plain umbrella and walked slowly towards the bar.

Maybe it was because of the heavy rain, or maybe it was because of being drunk, in Zhuo Qihua's eyes, the world outside the window was filled with mist, so illusory and ethereal.It looked so unreal, even Tao Yaoyao's figure became blurred in Zhuo Qihua's eyes.

The sound of rain outside the window seemed to disappear in Zhuo Qihua's ears suddenly, and the whole world became quiet.It was as if this invisible rain curtain separated him from Tao Yaoyao's world.

In such a love without strong sweetness, but only plain like water, I have stared at Tao Yaoyao hundreds of times, but I have never been so flustered as I am at this moment.With an inexplicable pain in his heart, he staggered towards the door of the bar.

And this look of fleeing almost frightened Momo, staring at Zhuo Qihua's back in surprise, and hurriedly followed, fearing that something might happen to this drunk.

Just now when the door of the bar was opened, Momo's heart was disturbed by the scene in front of her, and she skipped a beat inexplicably.Because... Zhuo Qihua had already hugged Tao Yaoyao in his arms. Between the rain and the curtain of rain, this tender embrace seemed particularly mesmerizing.

Although she guessed eight or nine points about the relationship between Tao Yaoyao and Zhuo Qihua, but when she saw it with her own eyes, she was shocked.

If she hadn't seen it with her own eyes, Mo Mo would really not want to believe that Tao Yaoyao, who has always been reserved, gentle and reserved, would fall in love with such a rough man as Zhuo Qihua.It is true that Zhuo Qihua's personality is straightforward, and he has the taste of a melancholy niche.But...it's still hard to believe that they fell in love.

It is undeniable that Momo was amazed by the hug in front of him at that moment.The next moment, she became worried about Tao Yaoyao again.How far can such a love that is bound to be criticized by the outside world go?

Could it be that with the passage of time, Zhuo Qihua fell in love with someone else in the blink of an eye?At that time, what should Tao Yaoyao, who has already handed over her infatuation, go?

If one day Yaoyao sheds tears because of this grief, what should she do?Thinking of this, Mo Mo's eyes dimmed a bit, and she didn't dare to think any more, turned around and retreated into the bar.

"Yaoyao, why do you think of going to the bar to drink in such a heavy rain?" Reluctantly let go of the warm hug, staring at the woman in front of him, Zhuo Qihua couldn't help but reach out and stroke the broken hair by her ear. back.

"Momo said, you're drinking too much wine." Yaoyao's words were very soft, but it seemed that the echo kept lingering in Zhuo Qihua's ears.Ever since, Zhuo Qihua heard thousands of truths and worries from this small sentence.

Zhuo Qihua was not a person who believed in fate, but the woman in front of her made her believe that maybe the encounter with Tao Yaoyao was already arranged somewhere.Only by arranging her own life wonderfully by fate can Tao Yaoyao always appear in front of her at the moment when she is loneliest.

And Zhao Xiaoqi waved goodbye to the previous disturbances in a decisive way.After getting married and having a perfect family, maybe the feeling of guilt towards Zhao Xiaoqi in my heart can be alleviated a little?

Xiaoqi finally has a chance to pursue a gust of wind on the isolated island, the simple and ordinary happiness in daily necessities.So far, the love-hate entanglement between Zhuo Qihua and Zhao Xiaoqi has come to a dull end.And from now on, don't mention the good and bad things about each other, and completely seal the other party in your own memory.

With a gust of cold wind blowing, Zhuo Qihua seemed to see the Zhao Xiaoqi who had a bright smile in the past...

When he returned to the bar, Momo was sitting alone on the performance stage with a guitar in his hand, humming a piece of "Old Times" softly:

"

The most beautiful treasure in life,

It was those old days.

Although so poor that nothing but happiness remains,

Wearing old clothes.

……

Now we have changed,

Busy every day for life.

But just remember the old days,

Your eyes will light up.

The most beautiful treasure in life,

Still those old days.

"

Neither of them spoke, they just sat quietly and listened to the song.

After receiving a glass of dark beer from the waiter, Tao Yaoyao thanked softly, took a sip of sleep and said with a smile, "Tell me, why did you come here to drink alone?"

After a moment of silence, Zhuo Qihua picked up the wine glass and gulped it down, as if using the alcohol to embolden himself.After taking a deep look at the woman beside her, she finally said, "Xiaoqi is getting married, let me be the bridesmaid."

"Oh?" Since Zhuo Qihua broke up with Zhao Xiaoqi, Tao Yaoyao rarely heard Zhao Xiaoqi's name from her mouth.Who knows, Zhao Xiaoqi will get married in a blink of an eye.

This sudden news made Tao Yaoyao lose her mind.Did he give up on the relationship between Zhuo Qihua, or did he meet a man who could be entrusted to him for life?

Before he could think it through, Zhuo Qihua spoke with some emotion: "I've seen Xiaoqi's fiancé, and I always feel that that man doesn't really love her. No, to be precise, although he I love Xiaoqi, but I can't give her all my love."

"..." Tao Yaoyao didn't speak, but her heart was stung by Zhuo Qihua's words.

"I don't know why, even though the whole world says that man is outstanding. But I always feel that he is not a dedicated person. Yaoyao, what do you think I should tell Xiaoqi?"

"You shouldn't say it! Zhuo Qihua, do you feel that you are naive? You are acting like a child now. When you look at the toys that once belonged to you and are taken as treasures by others, you are very anxious. But feelings are not It's time to let go of the childhood toy! You should choose to bless Zhao Xiaoqi instead of obstructing it. Or...do you think you can give Zhao Xiaoqi more happiness than that man?"

Unexpectedly, Tao Yaoyao would speak like this, Zhuo Qihua suddenly felt an unknown resentment in his heart, and whispered: "Yaoyao, can you stop using the psychiatrist and help me analyze my life in a systematic way?" ?”

Zhuo Qihua's resentful anger made Tao Yaoyao's calm expression instantly become painful.Filled with endless complex expressions, he looked at Zhuo Qihua in front of him.The one you love is clearly close by, but why is it so far away?

He opened his mouth, as if he wanted to defend himself, but he couldn't utter a single word.After a long time, Tao Yaoyao said in a depressed voice, "Probably to you, I will always be your psychiatrist."

"..." Tao Yaoyao's depression soon infected Zhuo Qihua, and she fell into silence.

After calming down, it was just now that I realized that I had gone too far.In fact, what Tao Yaoyao said was not wrong.Then what?Prevent Zhao Xiaoqi from pursuing happiness, what can I give her?Taking a step back, what kind of status do I stand in to be able to speak out to dissuade Zhao Xiaoqi from touching the happiness on the isolated island?

Just when she was about to say sorry, Tao Yaoyao took the first step and stood up with her bag in her hand.He smiled apologetically in Momo's direction, waved his hand as farewell, and then hurriedly walked out of the bar.

In a hurry, Zhuo Qihua took out most of the money in the wallet, threw it on the table as wine money, and followed Tao Yaoyao's footsteps...