dear psychiatrist

When he got off work, Zhuo Qihua bowed his head and walked towards home.Unexpectedly, Zhao Xiaoqi suddenly ran in front of her, and only then did she suddenly raise her head to find her.

Regarding Zhao Xiaoqi's visit, Zhuo Qihua grinned in surprise and said, "Xiaoqi, why are you here?"

"I miss you... just you, a workaholic, besides work, there is only work left." Zhao Xiaoqi seemed to be in a good mood, listening to her talking with a smile.Looking into the distance, he paused and said, "Qihua, is there any bar you know? How about taking me to drink?"

"Why do you suddenly want to drink?" Looking suspiciously at Zhao Xiaoqi, Zhuo Qihua knew that the woman in front of him was a strong drinker, and a few glasses of wine could make her completely drunk.

Everyone knows that a hangover feels bad, but for Zhao Xiaoqi, drinking is purely a crime!

Zhao Xiaoqi didn't answer, but just said to herself: "People, you have to try a different life, so that your youth will not be wasted."

Looking at the woman in front of him, Zhuo Qihua suddenly felt so far away from her, even though she was standing right in front of him, even though she was smiling slightly.But... the former Zhao Xiaoqi seems to be gone.Perhaps, for Zhao Xiaoqi, the former Zhuo Qihua is no longer there.

Time Nostalgic Music Bar...

Zhuo Qihua is not a person who likes clubbing, he knows very little about bars, the only bar he knows is this place.

Looking out through the window full of water vapor, it was raining lightly outside without knowing it.Listening to Momo holding the guitar not far away and playing Stefanie Sun's "Beginning to Understand".

"

It turns out that people will become gentle,

I understand clearly.

love is fluid,

Involuntary,

Why bother to ask for a reason.

Believe that you are only afraid of hurting me,

don't lie to me,

If you love me so much, who would give up,

Shake my dream awake,

Announce that happiness will not come.

"

The two held a glass of cold beer, neither of them spoke, but listened to Momo's whole song in silence.

Momo put away the guitar and staggered to give up the seat to the next folk singer.The brief silence made Zhuo Qihua feel uneasy, almost wanting to run away.But after all, he didn't leave, but raised his glass and took a few sips.

Swallowing a big mouthful of frozen beer, Zhuo Qihua's nerves were instantly stung by the coldness.Taking advantage of the coldness of the cold beer, I desperately emptied myself, and thought of all the good things about Zhao Xiaoqi when I was a child.

Such memories surged back and forth in his mind with his breath, and a warm feeling came from the corner of his eyes unconsciously.Subconsciously, she turned her face to the side, but she heard Zhao Xiaoqi calmly ask, "Are you and Tao Yaoyao okay?"

"..." Without turning his face to look at Zhao Xiaoqi more, he fixed his gaze on the performance stage not far away, Zhuo Qihua nodded slightly as an answer.

Zhao Xiaoqi sighed, this sigh made Zhuo Qihua feel the sadness emanating from the other party, and he couldn't help feeling sad for a while.Who would have thought that facing the person who accompanied him through the loneliness, now he can only look at each other awkwardly.

Zhuo Qihua wants to follow the footsteps of time, and go back to see the innocence and youth of the past.And standing at this moment, looking back at this relationship, I was shocked to find that this relationship had already paled and faded.

Zhao Xiaoqi opened her mouth, wanting to say something.But I didn't know how to speak, so I had to borrow wine to relieve my worries, and drank one glass after another.

But she, who is not strong enough to drink, is no match for the strong alcohol. After drinking three glasses of cold beer, she just felt dizzy and dizzy.Tried to raise his eyes to see the person in front of him clearly, but finally lost to the dizziness coming from him, fell into a deep sleep, and fell on the wine table...

When Zhao Xiaoqi gradually woke up from the dizziness, she found herself in Zhuo Qihua's home, a familiar yet unfamiliar place.

Turning around and seeing Zhuo Qihua lying on the bedside in all her clothes, a warm feeling flashed through her heart - she was still the same, showing her heart and soul to everyone.

He quietly sat up from the bed, wanting to leave secretly, but still woke up Zhuo Qihua who was lightly asleep beside him.In a daze, Zhuo Qihua rubbed his eyes and smiled brightly at Zhao Xiaoqi: "You're awake, come drink a cup of light tea to soothe your drunkenness."

While speaking, he handed the pre-cooled tea beside her to Zhao Xiaoqi.

Zhao Xiaoqi didn't take the teacup from Zhuo Qihua, but slowly stretched out her hands to caress Zhuo Qihua's cheeks, and murmured like a dream: "I thought no one would walk into your heart in this life Well. This way, it’s pretty good. At least...Qihua, you won’t be alone anymore, will you?”

"..." She clearly knew that Zhao Xiaoqi was already drunk, but she was still deeply moved by this sentence.Suddenly recalling the past, Zhao Xiaoqi, who accompanied me through my childhood, was so good in her body.

If it is said that a person is destined to owe someone or fail someone in this life in order to achieve his own life, then there is no doubt that Zhuo Qihua has already failed Zhao Xiaoqi.

Zhao Xiaoqi didn't know why at this moment, she wanted to know the answer that Zhuo Qihua wanted to say but didn't say it, and suddenly mentioned the scene of the day of the breakup: "Qihua, do you still remember when you said, Tao Yaoyao and I Among them, if you had to choose one, would you choose... At that time, you didn't finish your sentence, can you tell me now, the answer that stuck in your mouth at that time?"

Raising his eyes and staring at the woman whose eyes were blurred with tears for a long time, Zhuo Qihua's lips trembled uncontrollably.After a long while, she heard her softly say: "You!"

"If I hadn't broken up with you back then, would you have tried hard to love me? Tryed hard to forget Tao Yaoyao, tried hard to keep a distance from her?" Zhao Xiaoqi subconsciously raised her voice a little, looking straight into Zhuo Qihua's eyes, wanting to See the answer in her eyes.

"meeting!"

"..." Zhuo Qihua whispered a word, but Zhao Xiaoqi's eyes were filled with tears, which she stubbornly refused to shed, collapsed at that moment.

"I'm so stupid, why do I want to break up in a fit of anger? Why don't I hold you tightly? I thought that even if we broke up, you would come back to me sooner or later. I thought Tao Yaoyao wouldn't like it You will always leave you. I underestimated Tao Yaoyao's feelings for you, but I overestimated myself."

……

……

That night, Zhao Xiaoqi narrated over and over again, weeping.She didn't hide her feelings for Zhuo Qihua, but she didn't mention a word about the man she was going to marry.

This made Zhuo Qihua feel strange, wondering how much that man held in Zhao Xiaoqi's heart, and what position did he occupy in his heart?

Following Zhao Xiaoqi's narration, Zhuo Qihua couldn't help thinking, if he and Zhao Xiaoqi continued to fall in love, how would the ending be written?It's a pity that the reality is already different, Zhao Xiaoqi is going to get married soon, and will spend the rest of her life hand in hand with another person, and Zhuo Qihua is accompanied by Tao Yaoyao.

Perhaps, this is life.In the many left and right forks, walking to the left is a world, and walking to the right is another world.There is no such thing as right or wrong for the various choices of going left and back.

Zhuo Qihua only hoped that he would not regret the decision he had made.This requirement is very simple, but not easy to achieve.Because, obviously at this moment, Zhao Xiaoqi, she... regretted it!

"Xiaoqi, you're drunk, go to bed early. Get some sleep and you'll be fine the next day." After lightly patting the back of Zhao Xiaoqi's hand, Zhuo Qihua got up and wanted to leave the room.

But Zhao Xiaoqi grabbed the corner of her clothes and heard her helplessly say: "Stay with me tonight, okay?"

"Go to bed early." Zhuo Qihua left Zhao Xiaoqi with a wrong answer, then turned and walked out of the bedroom.

There are many things that Zhao Xiaoqi doesn't know, like Zhuo Qihua rejected Zhao Xiaoqi's invitation to 'stay with her for one night'.Zhao Xiaoqi didn't understand why she hinted at such a field, but Zhuo Qihua, a wooden person, still didn't understand the meaning of what she expressed.

In fact, how could Zhao Xiaoqi know that Zhuo Qihua couldn't bear to hold a guilty heart and repeat the pain in his heart again.

Although, Zhuo Qihua's lazy and slumped appearance gave people an extremely unreliable sense of sight.But it doesn't mean that Zhuo Qihua is acting like a jerk, she is really a jerk.

Until the door of the bedroom was closed, Zhao Xiaoqi, who could still listen to Zhuo Qihua, uttered drunken vague words to her ears: "Qihua, I love you! But you just like a non-human fireworks, with a fairy Angry woman. I have no reason to care about you anymore! Just hurt me severely!"

"..."

In the early morning of the next day, Zhao Xiaoqi was sent to the gate of the community.Zhuo Qihua stopped a taxi with his hand, opened the door in a gentlemanly manner, and waited for Zhao Xiaoqi to get in the car.

With tears in her eyes, Zhao Xiaoqi smiled at Zhuo Qihua and said, "Don't let yourself get hurt again, let alone Tao Yaoyao. In this mortal world, we must protect ourselves and our loved ones."

Zhuo Qihua did not expect that Zhao Xiaoqi would use such words as the closing remarks.Slightly surprised, he took a deep look at the woman in front of him, and suddenly realized that with the passage of time, those friendships that had been discarded and forgotten by the two of them in the long river of time had actually been quietly lying in place all the time.

Picking up the memory in his heart without making a sound, Zhuo Qihua nodded vigorously, and gave the woman in front of him a reassuring hug.And the teardrops swirling in the eye sockets finally broke through the guard, and the tears were pouring down.

Until Zhuo Qihua's hot tears wet and burned Zhao Xiaoqi's cheeks.Only now did Zhao Xiaoqi realize that the person hugging her tightly no longer belonged to her...