dear psychiatrist

"Hmm. It's okay."

When Zhuo Qihua nodded without hesitation and said that he could wait for Tao Yaoyao alone, Li Manyun suddenly felt that Zhuo Qihua was not so strange.At least, this person is quite sensible!

It was too late to say anything to Zhuo Qihua, as if she was afraid that she would go back on her word, Li Manyun quickly turned around and ran to the front desk, packed her handbag with a smile, and shouted in the direction of the consultation room: "Hello, Zhuo Qihua, I will withdraw first, leaving you behind."

"Hmm. Bye..." Before Zhuo Qihua could finish his sentence, he heard the door at the front desk being slammed shut with a bang.

'What a quickie. Zhuo Qihua shrugged his shoulders, and once again looked out of the window.

Seeing the hurrying pedestrians walking down the building, stepping on fast-paced footsteps, walking towards the distance along their respective life trajectories, Zhuo Qihua's heart drifted to the distance again.

I wonder if Zhao Xiaoqi is doing well now?From the standpoint of a friend, I naturally hope that she can live well.Zhuo Qihua, who felt guilty, hoped that Zhao Xiaoqi would not only live well, but also live better than herself.

If he is very happy now, then Zhuo Qihua hopes that Zhao Xiaoqi will be [-]% happy.There is such a person who can carry Zhao Xiaoqi to the island of happiness in her heart, and let her feel the happiness in the ordinary.

But what's the use of thinking about her now.The apology that should have been said to her long ago is still quietly lying in the bottom of my heart.

Humans are really strange creatures, why can't they continue to be friends if they can't be lovers?At least he can still say hello as usual, but now he is not even as good as a stranger.

"Have you been waiting for a long time? Are you starving?" At some point, Tao Yaoyao appeared at the door of the consultation room.

Putting away her thoughts, she turned her head and looked at Tao Yaoyao's efforts to hide, but the tiredness that could not be concealed was on her face.Zhuo Qihua felt distressed, and hurriedly turned to the woman at the door, and replied with a faint smile: "I'm not hungry. It's you, you have worked hard."

"Going to eat Japanese food?" Tightening her coat, Tao Yaoyao turned off the light in the consultation room, and said again: "Let's go, I'm about to starve."

Japanese grocery store...

Zhuo Qihua said that he was not hungry, but his body was still very honest. He saw her flipping through the menu.In one go, I ordered more than a dozen kinds of sashimi, peony shrimp, arctic shellfish and the like.

After the waiter wrote down the orders one by one, he turned around and prepared to prepare the meal.Zhuo Qihua didn't know that the nerve was miswired, his head twitched, and he shouted to the waiter's back: "Do you have red wine here?"

Zhuo Qihua, who has always been stingy, was rarely generous, and Tao Yaoyao was really surprised.But it was the first time Tao Yaoyao encountered the practice of ordering red wine in a Japanese food store. She giggled and said, "It's the first time I've heard of ordering red wine in a Japanese food store. You are also a weirdo. "

Zhuo Qihua was stunned for a moment, then smiled and replied: "Have you heard the lyrics? 'If you like weirdos, I'm actually beautiful.' In a way, I'm really beautiful."

"Sorry, we don't have red wine at home, but we have Japanese sake, do you think?" The waiter said with a embarrassed expression.

"Well. That's fine. Let's have two bottles of sake first." Zhuo Qihua didn't have the red wine he wanted, and with a look of disappointment on his face, he accepted the waiter's recommendation and chose sake as a substitute.

After the waiter trotted away all the way, Tao Yaoyao reached out and brushed the broken hair behind her ears, and then put her hands on her head, blinking her big eyes: "It seems that you are in a good mood, what happened to you?"

Zhuo Qihua's heart flashed, and once again he thought of Tao Yaoyao who was holding the wine glass gracefully but with a melancholy expression on her face.Xiaoxiao replied: "I feel that the way you drink is very elegant. It's as if you are drinking Xianjiang Qionglu instead of a glass of ordinary red wine."

While talking, Zhuo Qihua kept stroking Tao Yaoyao's feet with his bare feet under the tatami wooden table.The two looked at each other and smiled, but neither of them spoke, they just looked at each other so quietly, as if they wanted to rub each other into their hearts.

"Come on, open your mouth." Tao Yaoyao said while stuffing a piece of salmon rubbed with mustard into Zhuo Qihua's mouth.

Zhuo Qihua's gaze never left Tao Yaoyao's face from the beginning to the end, how did he realize that Tao Yaoyao would rub mustard on the salmon as a prank.When the salmon entered the mouth, Zhuo Qihua was choked to the point of being speechless, tears streaming down his face.

"What a grudge you have, what a grievance." After a long time, Zhuo Qihua calmed down, coughing and wiping away tears.

"Who made you look at me all the time!"

"Who made you so pretty?"

……

……

This meal, the two ate comfortably.Zhuo Qihua finally kept his promise and took the initiative to pay the bill.

Packed up the leftover seafood fried rice, and the two walked out of the shop.No one was in a hurry to leave, but shoulder to shoulder, walking slowly on this nameless street, as if they wanted to stop time at this moment.

Although, Zhuo Qihua thought about many scenarios where he would meet Zhao Xiaoqi again, but he had never seen him turning a street corner and meeting her unexpectedly.

Perhaps the fate between people is like this, even though they have agreed to each other and never see each other again.After going around, the two still met.

But Zhuo Qihua, who is a visionary, has not yet thought of what to say when he meets Zhao Xiaoqi again.Because no matter what to say, it seems so pale and weak.And the sorry I owed her is still stuck in my throat.

Seeing Tao Yaoyao beside Zhuo Qihua, Zhao Xiaoqi's eyes flashed with astonishment, and she quickly covered it up with a smile.

With such a clever cover-up, even Zhao Xiaoqi almost believed that she really forgot about Zhuo Qihua.After a pause, Zhao Xiaoqi heard herself say in an unknown tone: "Long time no see."

But at this moment, looking at Zhao Xiaoqi standing in front of him with a calm face, Zhuo Qihua held back the sorry that he was about to say rashly.

Perhaps, Zhao Xiaoqi in front of her has already let go of the past and started a new life freely.And why did he bother to bring up the old things again, to embarrass her again.

"Yes, it's been a long time." Zhuo Qihua nodded slightly and sighed.

After being speechless for a while, Zhao Xiaoqi spoke again: "I still have something to do, so I'm leaving first. See you again when you have a chance."

After all, he nodded to the two people in front of him as a greeting, and then stepped on a pair of high heels and walked towards the distance.

Zhao Xiaoqi had gone far, far away, but Zhuo Qihua didn't speak, just stood there dumbly, dazed.Tao Yaoyao tightly held the hand she was holding in her palm, and asked with the slightly trembling hand, "What are you thinking?"

"I was wondering if we could have been good friends forever if we hadn't touched the line of being a couple at the beginning." Zhuo Qihua turned his face away, smiled at Tao Yaoyao and said, "But it's useless to think too much, Because...it's hard to have both."

……

……

That night, Zhuo Qihua lay on the bed where Tao Yaoyao had slept all night yesterday.

That bed still exuded Tao Yaoyao's pleasant smell.Along with the air, it lightly floated into Zhuo Qihua's nasal cavity.Subconsciously sucking his nose hard, he buried himself in the bed.

Zhuo Qihua, who was buried under the quilt, held his mobile phone and opened WeChat, and unexpectedly found that at some point, Zhao Xiaoqi updated her status again.

In the recent news, Zhao Xiaoqi did not leave a single word, but shared a song "Long Time No See" by Eason Chan.

After clicking on the song, it didn't take long to hear the longing and melancholy flowing quietly from the phone:

"

Will you suddenly appear,

at the corner coffee shop,

With a smile on my face, I wave and say hello,

With you, sit and chat.

How I want to meet you,

See what you've changed recently,

No more talking about the past, just greeting,

A word to you, just a word,

haven't seen you for a long time.

"

Perhaps, it's not that the former lovers can't go back to the past, but that they want to go back to the past, but find that they can't do it properly.The kind of care that is less than love and more than friendship.

Ever since, even though Zhuo Qihua missed Zhao Xiaoqi in his heart, the other party also missed her so much.But in the end, I can only keep this concern in my heart, because the past will never come back.

It is foreseeable that, like most couples who go their separate ways, sooner or later, the two will stop contacting each other and gradually withdraw from each other's vision.Although they miss and care for each other, they don't need each other anymore...

People are dominated by emotions, so the balance in their hearts is unfair.Take Zhuo Qihua as an example, when she was touched by Tao Yaoyao's bad breakfast, she forgot that Zhao Xiaoqi had done the same thing for her.

And countless times, Zhuo Qihua messed up things that could have been done well.It was like Zhao Xiaoqi appeared in his line of sight countless times, but Zhuo Qihua couldn't see her.

This kind of guilt made it difficult for Zhuo Qihua to breathe, but he had no position to make up for it.