dear psychiatrist

Sitting in the Audi car, Zhuo Qihua leaned his head crookedly on the window glass, trying to watch the night scene outside the window, but only saw a blurred scene.

The temperature difference inside and outside the car caused a layer of mist to form on the window glass, which separated the outside world at some point.Ever since, the city was blurred under the darkness of night.

Zhuo Qihua, who hadn't closed his eyes for two days, was very tired at the moment, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.Slightly drunk, he glanced at the woman beside him, Zhuo Qihua was unwilling to speak, so he began to think again.

It is undeniable that Tao Yaoyao is beautiful, but is it just a pretty face that attracts her attention?Being infatuated with a beautiful face can make me approach Tao Yaoyao again and again regardless of Zhao Xiaoqi's feelings?

Obviously beauty is not the reason why Zhuo Qihua approached Tao Yaoyao again and again, even if Tao Yaoyao was ugly, Zhuo Qihua felt that he would still like her.I always felt that Tao Yaoyao felt a different temperament.Zhuo Qihua couldn't say exactly what kind of feeling it was.

But Zhuo Qihua couldn't love and pursue Tao Yaoyao with peace of mind, because Zhuo Qihua made a promise to Zhao Xiaoqi, who was the biggest victim in this absurd love affair--before she sorts out her thoughts, she will never fall in love again. Go after anyone.

"Don't you always talk a lot? Why don't you talk?" Tao Yaoyao glanced at the silent Zhuo Qihua, and opened her mouth.

Zhuo Qihua was stunned for a moment, then lowered his tone: "I really don't know what to say to you other than 'I'm sorry', and if you say too much and you think I'm hypocritical, it's better to be silent."

"Hehe, do you regret it now?"

Zhuo Qihua moved the corner of his mouth, but did not speak.regret?This word is too heavy.Zhao Xiaoqi was the only one who accompanied her through the darkest childhood in her life, but she failed her.

People who always thought that even if they failed the whole world, they would not fail them, but failed in their sworn promises.

Just as Zhao Xiaoqi said that they will never see each other again, she seems to have really disappeared in Zhuo Qihua's world, and there is no news about her at all.The phone number that could be dialed 24 hours a day has also become turned off.

Perhaps Zhao Xiaoqi's choice was not wrong, so what if we meet again.It is about the relationship between love and family affection, and swings between relatives and lovers.Even if I see Zhao Xiaoqi again, I can't go back to the past after all.

It's just that 'goodbye', when will we see you again?Still completely far away...

"You don't need an apology from me. I'm sorry. You should say it to Zhao Xiaoqi." Tao Yaoyao spoke expressionlessly while driving the car.

"Stop the car, I want to vomit!" Zhuo Qihua opened his mouth to Tao Yaoyao with the expression of wanting to vomit.

In fact, although Zhuo Qihua was drunk, he was not to the point of vomiting.In that case, it was nothing more than wanting to change the subject and stop talking about Zhao Xiaoqi.

With a violent sudden stop, Zhuo Qihua only felt dizzy and his stomach was churning.She didn't need to vomit, but now after all the tossing, she really wanted to vomit.

Before the car came to a complete stop, it rushed down Tao Yaoyao's Audi in a hurry, and after a closer look, she smiled wryly—I don't know if it was a plot arranged by God, Tao Yaoyao just drove off at will. I drove the car, but I drove to the moat in my childhood memory.

Zhuo Qihua wanted to say goodbye to the past, but the reality was tearing her apart again and again, making her unable to get rid of it.

This tearing pain made Zhuo Qihua's chest tight in pain.He hurriedly rushed to the edge of the moat and vomited loudly, until all the gall water was exhausted, only then did he feel a little more comfortable.

Until his consciousness became clearer, Zhuo Qihua tried to sit on the fence of the moat as before, watching the river flow without restraint.

But Tao Yaoyao's eyes were filled with panic in this drunken, wobbly climbing behavior.It was already the cold winter season, even a normal person would be terribly frozen if he plunged into the river.What's more, if Zhuo Qihua, who had already drunk too much, slipped into the river, he might not be lucky to come up again.

"Get down for me." Tao Yaoyao reached out and grabbed the hem of Zhuo Qihua's clothes, and suddenly pushed back.

Hearing a 'bang', Zhuo Qihua, who was dizzy after drinking too much, became dizzy again, and fell to the ground on his back.His whole body was in pain, but he didn't bother to move any more. He simply lay on the ground straight, blinking his eyes and looking at the sky.

Zhuo Qihua subconsciously took out a cigarette from his pocket, lit it for himself, and smoked on his own.As soon as my thoughts turned, I thought of Lin Xiaoyan's boyfriend, the boy who made Lin Xiaoyan pretend to be unforgettable.

When the boy learned that Lin Xiao was drinking with him at the nightclub, he left angrily and never had any contact with him again.Even so, Lin Xiaoyan, who has suffered all the sufferings, is still willing to pin all the good things on this boy.

When Zhuo Qihua brought the news of Lin Xiaoyan's death to the big boy, he was playing on the playground, and his new girlfriend was sitting in the stands not far away.

Before hearing Zhuo Qihua's words, the boy seemed to be able to see through things, just looking into Zhuo Qihua's eyes, he started to cry.

A boy in his early twenties stood on the court with a basketball in his arms and cried loudly, completely ignoring everyone's gaze.It was also at that moment that Zhuo Qihua seemed to understand that sentence: It turns out that love really has to wait until it is lost before you can understand who is true love.

"Some time ago, I have been following a rape case. The defendant is a child of a rich family. Because of some irresistible factors, the injured girl did not get the justice she deserved... A few days ago, she Dead." Zhuo Qihua said in a flat tone, took a deep puff of the cigarette, but suddenly cursed: "Fuck, what kind of broken smoke is it, it makes my eyes hurt."

Zhuo Qihua yelled and scolded as soon as he spoke, his eyes turned red, but he didn't speak, he just bit the cigarette butt and took two strong puffs.And that smoky scolding sound became the best explanation for her tears.

"Do you know? The girl who was raped by the playboy didn't get any comfort in the end. This society can't tolerate her anymore, and everyone can't tolerate her, and she will be pointed and poked on the road."

Seeing Zhuo Qihua's negative side for the first time, Tao Yaoyao was taken aback for a moment, then changed into a cold tone and said: "You are drunk. Hurry up and get in the car, I will take you home."

"Don't go! Please don't go, stay with me for a while." Seeing Tao Yaoyao turn around and prepare to leave, Zhuo Qihua's head twitched, and he reached out to hold Tao Yaoyao's hand.

"...Crazy!" Tao Yaoyao, who was always calm, couldn't calm down at this moment, and shook off Zhuo Qihua's restraining hands with all her strength.

"Don't go." Zhuo Qihua took advantage of Tao Yaoyao's hand to hug her calf again.

"Let go, Zhuo Qihua, let me go! Zhuo Qihua, you must be drinking too much, I'm not Zhao Xiaoqi!" Zhuo Qihua's actions finally touched Tao Yaoyao's bottom line.Tao Yaoyao was frantic and annoyed, kicking Zhuo Qihua aside.

Zhao Xiaoqi's name made Zhuo Qihua's heart skip a beat, and he sent his hands stiffly.Tao Yaoyao gave Zhuo Qihua a hard push, and then ran towards the Audi car angrily.

Xu Shi felt puzzled, Tao Yaoyao stopped, then turned around and appeared beside Zhuo Qihua again.Zhuo Qihua stomped on his feet hard and was lying drunk on the ground: "You are as bad as a man. You obviously have a lover, but you still want to hook up with someone you are interested in. Low, bad! Despicable and shameless!"

"Born under the national flag, grew up in New China. Under the bright and bright world, how dare you attack the criminal police?" Fortunately, he was still conscious after being drunk, Zhuo Qihua opened his mouth cursing.

"...Scumbag, you are as vicious as that cockroach!" Tao Yaoyao threw down such a sentence, turned around and left.

Seeing that Tao Yaoyao was about to leave, Zhuo Qihua didn't go after him, even if he wanted to, he couldn't catch up.He just scratched his throat and yelled at her back: "Do you really think I'm that dead cockroach? Live and die for you? You think highly of yourself!"

Until Tao Yaoyao disappeared into the night, Zhuo Qihua finally took his eyes back and looked at the sky shrouded in night.

Zhuo Qihua is not a person who does things without thinking through his brain. Why did he suddenly attack Zheng Nan, not to mention that his colleagues in the unit did not understand, even she herself was puzzled.

While his relationship was in crisis, Zhuo Qihua was not doing much better in his career. In the afternoon, he received a notice from Tao Banxia asking her to stay at home temporarily.Ever since, Zhuo Qihua, who didn't believe in fate, finally nodded and believed in fate, because the retribution for failing Zhao Xiaoqi finally came.

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When Zhuo Qihua tremblingly got up from the ground and walked towards the street, trying to take a car home, he caught a glimpse of the silver-white Audi waiting at the spot.

Looking at the Audi car that was still parked on the street with surprise, Tao Yaoyao couldn't leave Zhuo Qihua alone, but she sat quietly in the car Waiting for Zhuo Qihua to wake up.

The fucking life during this period made Zhuo Qihua almost unable to laugh, but at this moment she was laughing.Finally understood, in this city full of indifference and emptiness, Zhuo Qihua smelled a trace of warmth in Tao Yaoyao.