dear psychiatrist

Looking at the light of dawn, the moment Zhuo Qihua appeared in front of him, he thought of the scene where he and Zhao Xiaoqi sneaked to the edge of the moat in the summer of a certain year, waiting for the sunrise.

On that midsummer night, the two childish children willingly endured the harassment of mosquitoes all night, but they waited with anticipation for the moment when the light of dawn flashed in the open field of vision.

The same dawn dawned, but the original joy was no longer there.Those good memories fade away with time.

Does the heart change the time, or does time change the heart?Zhuo Qihua couldn't think of a reasonable answer, so he simply didn't think about it.Instinctively, he threw the doubts in his heart into a certain corner of his heart, and let those damn doubts lie quietly in that corner *stinking, until finally the smell was unbearable.

For Zhuo Qihua, who suffers from procrastination and avoidance, accepting corresponding punishment for her original avoidance should be the thing she is most familiar with.Therefore, Zhuo Qihua didn't care about those rotten and smelly thoughts, which made his eyes red.

Zhao Xiaoqi, who hadn't slept all night, looked haggard, but still forced herself to wash and go to work.At the moment when she was about to go out, Zhao Xiaoqi looked at Zhuo Qihua who was standing behind him dumbly, and said to her after a moment of silence: "Qihua, when I get my mood together, maybe we'll still be friends. But, not now."

With Zhao Xiaoqi's departure, Zhuo Qihua continued to stay here without any reason.After hastily washing up, Zhuo Qihua put all his toothbrush and towels in plastic bags and took them out of the house.

With a look of tiredness and loss on his face, Zhuo Qihua wandered around the city aimlessly.Thinking while walking, trying to figure out the things entangled in my heart, but only in exchange for more chaotic thoughts.

Facing his head full of mud, Zhuo Qihua became more impatient as he thought about it, and wanted to shout twice.But in such a crowded street, Zhuo Qihua would never get the understanding and vent he wanted, except for a few supercilious looks.

Zhuo Qihua bought a pack of Zhongnanhai on the street, and wandered around with a cigarette in his mouth without any scruples.Her footsteps finally stopped at the entrance of the farmer's market, thinking of the cockroaches in Tao Yaoyao's consultation room.

I vaguely remember that there are many vendors selling insect repellent pills in the farmers market.These pills with exclusive secret recipes are much better at killing insects than the insecticides in the supermarket.

Anyway, it wasn't expensive, Zhuo Qihua bought two big bags with money, hailed a taxi and drove towards Tao Yaoyao's consulting room.

It's not purely to see Tao Yaoyao, but the bus in the unit, which is still lonely in the parking lot downstairs of Tao Yaoyao.In terms of emotion and reason, Zhuo Qihua would always make a trip to Tao Yaoyao's place.

When Li Manyun saw Zhuo Qihua, she almost spit out a mouthful of boiled water.But he was surprised in his heart, this strange character had clearly expressed his fear of the counseling room.

Is the sun coming out from the west today?Why did this weird thing show up again?

Sure enough, a strange flower is a strange flower, and you can't look at her with the eyes of ordinary people and the world!Thinking of this, Li Manyun looked at Zhuo Qihua in another way.

Under Li Manyun's scrutiny, Zhuo Qihua got goosebumps and swayed unconsciously.

Before she had time to inquire about Tao Yaoyao, Li Manyun said first, "Are you looking for Yaoyao? She hasn't come yet, so I don't know what's wrong. Normally, this point should have appeared long ago." Li Manyun said to herself The conversation suddenly changed, and Zhuo Qihua was involved: "Did you and Tao Yaoyao go to dinner yesterday?"

Zhuo Qihua's mind was still on Li Manyun's sentence, "Tao Yaoyao hasn't come yet, usually this point should have appeared earlier." ’, I don’t know if it’s because of a guilty conscience, when he regained his senses, Zhuo Qihua nodded dully: "Ah? Uh..."

Unwilling to continue the topic of last night, Zhuo Qihua put two packs of deworming pills on Li Manyun's table, and then said: "This is a deworming pill, which is much more effective than the insecticides in the supermarket. .”

"Yo. It seems that Tao Yaoyao must have treated you to a good meal yesterday." Li Manyun clicked her lips twice, glanced at Zhuo Qihua, and then said mysteriously: "Otherwise, a cheapskate like you, How can you be willing to spend money to buy something for her? Even though it's just two packs of deworming pills."

Seeing that Zhuo Qihua was standing there in embarrassment, but he didn't talk back like yesterday, Li Manyun stopped teasing her and returned to the main topic: "How do you use this thing?"

"Just put it in a place where cockroaches often come and go, and ensure that the cockroach family is wiped out. If you want to put it in a drawer, remember to wrap the pills with a few more napkins. This thing is poisonous, and it's no joke if you eat it by mistake." Zhuo Qihua described in detail how to use the pill, and after a moment of silence, he said goodbye.

He pushed the elevator directly to the first basement floor, where the bus that Zhuo Qihua borrowed yesterday was still parked.Although these few days, Zhuo Qihua always felt that he was unlucky and everything was not going well, but the boss still had to go to class.

Zhuo Qihua didn't want to lose his job while feeling frustrated.A stable income can make her impetuous heart settle down.

Standing in the elevator, Zhuo Qihua wanted to calm down. Obviously smoking a cigarette was the best choice at this time, but Zhuo Qihua had no intention of smoking.If you don't want to, don't move, but you don't have much desire to smoke. You just fiddled with the lighter back and forth, making metal knocking sounds of 'click' and 'click' from time to time.

Just stepped out of the elevator and walked in the direction of the bus.From a distance, he saw an Audi driving towards him, Zhuo Qihua couldn't move any further, he stopped in place and tried to see if the owner of the silver-white Audi was Tao Yaoyao.

Maybe it was fate, when the Audi car stopped, after a while, Tao Yaoyao got out of the car and saw Zhuo Qihua when she turned around.

Tao Yaoyao has a pair of clear eyes that are as calm as water.Rao even looked at her, without saying anything, his heart was happy.But today Tao Yaoyao is wearing a pair of big sunglasses, so Zhuo Qihua has no way of knowing the expression behind those sunglasses.

Tao Yaoyao and Zhuo Qihua looked at each other, and then looked away the next moment.He directly chose to ignore Zhuo Qihua and walked towards the elevator.

"That...Tao Yaoyao, I want to explain to you." Zhuo Qihua was a little embarrassed, but he didn't want to keep an apology in his heart, so he followed quickly.Before Tao Yaoyao entered the elevator, he stopped her.

"Funny! What is our relationship? Why do I need an explanation from you?" Tao Yaoyao's words seemed aggressive under the extremely logical and meticulous expression.

Zhuo Qihua could almost think of rebuttal words, but was blocked to death by Tao Yaoyao's words.She opened her mouth, wanting to vent, but endured it again, and finally opened her mouth in a low voice after a long time: "I'm sorry."

Seeing that Zhuo Qihua hadn't spoken for a long time, when he spoke again, he only said to himself, the most useless 'sorry' in the world.Tao Yaoyao shook her head speechlessly, losing the will to continue talking with Zhuo Qihua, she forcefully shook off the arm blocking her way, and hurriedly boarded the elevator.

With the closing of the elevator door, the worlds of Zhuo Qihua and Tao Yaoyao were once again separated by the bony reality...

Until Tao Yaoyao disappeared in front of Zhuo Qihua, Zhuo Qihua still stubbornly stood there, and she still didn't give Tao Yaoyao a reasonable explanation.

Zhuo Qihua finally lit a cigarette for herself, and while the smoke was swirling around, her heart did not get the peace she expected.After long periods of absentmindedness, Zhuo Qihua smoked cigarettes one after another almost instinctively.

If it weren't for the constant buzzing of the phone in his pocket, Zhuo Qihua would have almost fallen into this kind of loss without feeling himself.

Subconsciously, I thought it would be Zhao Xiaoqi calling, after all, she was the only one who would call from time to time to express condolences and care.Zhuo Qihua hurriedly took out his mobile phone from his pocket, but he saw that it was Guo Mingjie calling.

Another burst of disappointment struck, so that the call was timed out, and Guo Mingjie hung up the phone. Zhuo Qihua just recovered, and hurriedly called back: "Xiao Guo, what's the matter?"

"Sister Zhuo, your call is finally connected! Where are you now? Didn't you agree that you are going to investigate Zheng Nan's matter today?" Guo Mingjie's voice came from the phone immediately, with several Very anxious, seems to be bluffing.

Zhuo Qihua sighed deeply, feeling bored with the work of the criminal police for the first time.The exhaustion all over her body made her subconsciously want to postpone this matter: "Let's talk about this matter tomorrow."

"Don't mind. Director Tao and Zheng Nan's shitty lawyer have made an appointment." Guo Mingjie lowered his voice a little, and added: "If you don't come again, Director Tao will arrange someone else to go!"

At this moment, Zhuo Qihua was exhausted, he took a deep puff of the cigarette, and then spit it out again.After being silent for a while, he finally made a compromise on the other end of the phone: "How about this, I will drive to Zheng Nan's right now, and we will meet there."