dear psychiatrist

The author has something to say: If the last chapter is the final chapter, it seems to be a good open ending after thinking about it.Ke Zixian prefers to use such a story as the end of the story...

This is No.30 five days after breaking up with Zhuo Qihua, Tao Yaoyao tried her best to work, socialize, eat, sleep, and smile as usual.If it is not someone who knows her well, it is really difficult to see the sadness in Tao Yaoyao's heart from her words and deeds.Because, she is so strong pretending to be strong, she is clearly in tears, but she still works hard to move forward alone.

People say that after breaking up, it doesn't mean the end, but another beginning.Just like a train that is constantly moving forward and fast, the scenery is constantly passing through the eyes, no matter whether the people on the train have the heart to look at the beautiful scenery around them.

After going to Suzhou for a month, Zhuo Qihua kept saying it was to relax, but in fact it was more appropriate to say it was escape.Then, when she returned to this city with Tao Yaoyao again, she was shocked to find that everything in front of her was so kind.Cheering in his heart, he wished he could appear in front of Tao Yaoyao in the next second, even if he only had a glimpse from a distance, it was enough.

"Hey, it's me. How are you doing during this period? I went to Suzhou for a whole month and I just came back today. You...I..." All of a sudden, he spoke to the other end of the phone, and then Zhuo Qihua spoke again. Fell into an inexplicable uneasiness.

The words were no longer smooth, and the tone of hesitation and hesitation showed some gaps and embarrassment, and finally she heard the words completely out of her mouth: "I mean, are you free recently, we can meet someone Noodles, have a meal or something."

After a pause, Zhuo Qihua said again: "It's like a meeting between friends like me and Momo."

"..." Tao Yaoyao didn't give a reply, but just kept silent on the other end of the phone. If Zhuo Qihua hadn't heard a slight sigh or two occasionally, Zhuo Qihua would have thought that Tao Yaoyao had hung up Telephone.

"Is it inconvenient? It doesn't matter. I'll contact you when I have time. The earth is round. Even if you go in the opposite direction, you are destined to meet." Zhuo Qihua smelled the other party's hesitation during the long silence Feeling uneasy and unable to bear to continue to persecute, he deliberately ended the conversation in a joking manner.

Hearing the sound of Zhuo Qihua running away, and hastily hanging up the phone, Tao Yaoyao sighed heavily at the other end of the phone—how could she not understand Zhuo Qihua's implication?

It's not that Tao Yaoyao doesn't have Zhuo Qihua in her heart, but after all, she feels that there is an invisible and intangible barrier between Zhuo Qihua and herself, like a gap, blocking the two of them at both ends of the river .He and Zhuo Qihua stood at one end and could only look at each other from a distance.

But who said that if you have a lover, you must get married eventually?The world is so big, how many lovers are separated and reunited, what does it matter whether they are in love or not?

It was too late for Tao Yaoyao to feel too much emotion, the office door was pushed open, she subconsciously put her phone in her pocket, and looked towards the door.At the door, a familiar yet unfamiliar figure jumped into Tao Yaoyao's eyes—Tao Yaoyao never imagined that Zhuo Qihua would appear in front of her.

After all, Tao Yaoyao didn't give an answer, she clearly promised thousands of times in her heart that from now on she would never have anything to do with Zhuo Qihua, and if she never saw each other again, it was as if she had never known each other.But the moment the phone rang, Tao Yaoyao still chose to answer the phone.But at this moment, when Zhuo Qihua was standing in front of her, Tao Yaoyao's heart was filled with overflowing gratitude.

With a quick glance, Tao Yaoyao turned her face out of the window, and stopped looking at Zhuo Qihua who was standing a little awkwardly behind her.

Looking at Tao Yaoyao's back for a long time, Zhuo Qihua's eyes were filled with endless thoughts and apologies, but he didn't say a word.

Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, Tao Yaoyao hugged her arms, as if she was giving herself a hug, she looked so thin.Zhuo Qihua looked distressed, but forgot that he had no reason to care about Tao Yaoyao.

After a moment of silence, Tao Yaoyao pursed her lips lightly, with a moderate smile on her face.Seeing her turn around, who would have known that Tao Yaoyao's heart was trembling slightly at this moment, but she still pretended to be calm and looked at the person in front of her with a smile, and said with a faint smile, "Long time no see..."

It was clear that Tao Yaoyao had a face as gentle as water, speaking the most commonplace polite words.But for some reason, Zhuo Qihua saw in that expression just now, the repulsion of being thousands of miles away.The invisible distance between each other made Zhuo Qihua's heart tighten, and an unconcealable astonishment surged, almost swallowing her completely.After being silent for a while, Zhuo Qihua adjusted his emotions and put a smile on his face: "Yes, it's been a long time."

That is to say, in just a few seconds of looking at each other, Tao Yaoyao saw a "dust to dust, dust to dust" on Zhuo Qihua's face.It was this powerless expression of seeing through that made Tao Yaoyao's heart tingle for no reason.

In a hurry, Tao Yaoyao turned around and once again looked at the scenery outside the window in the distance, but when she heard her change the subject, she asked in a low voice: "Zhuo Qihua, do you still love me? "

Hearing Tao Yaoyao's straightforward question, Zhuo Qihua was stunned for a moment, and then two lines of tears burst out of her eyes, revealing all the nostalgia she was trying to hide deep in her heart. Zhuo Qihua almost choked up the word 'love' and spat it out.As soon as the words came out, both hands hanged powerlessly by his sides, and his fingertips trembled slightly uncontrollably, as if it took all of Zhuo Qihua's strength to say the word.

Zhuo Qihua wanted to say a lot, and wanted to do more, but thousands of words were finally gathered into one word.Listening to myself exporting the word 'love', with endless promises and expectations, as well as lifelong protection.

"I love you too." Tao Yaoyao said lightly, as if she was talking about a very ordinary thing, her heart was as calm as water, without any waves.

"It is said that love has God's will, why don't we put this relationship on God's will." Tao Yaoyao still looked at the scenery outside the window with her arms folded, and she was unwilling to look back from the beginning to the end. Looking back, even if you only have half an eye, you can see Zhuo Qihua standing behind him who has already burst into tears but is crying suppressed.

"How can we entrust it to God's will?" Zhuo Qihua asked in a low voice after hastily wiping away his tears with his cuff, after he calmed down a little.

"Tomorrow will start in the early morning and end in the early morning. Let's make a deadline. We don't make an agreement, we don't have a destination, and we set off in different directions in this city...start from the heart. If love has God's will, even if there is no agreement, you can still be here In the vast sea of ​​people, find each other. What do you think?"

After listening to Tao Yaoyao's words, Zhuo Qihua's heart skipped a beat. In this city with a population of tens of millions, without making an agreement and without a destination, looking for someone is undoubtedly looking for a needle in a haystack, and the time limit is only short. short day.

If they couldn't find each other in the sea of ​​people, or if it passed the midnight of the next day, it meant that they would have nothing to do with Tao Yaoyao in the days to come, and all of this was due to God's will ?

In Zhuo Qihua's mind, she thought over and over again, this may be the most difficult decision in her life, if she is a little careless, she is afraid that there will be no future.

Tao Yaoyao didn't urge her at all, but stood in front of the french window a little lonely, looking out of the window, quietly waiting for Zhuo Qihua's reply.

After a long time, Zhuo Qihua nodded and agreed with Tao Yaoyao's proposal: "Okay, I am willing to believe that love really has God's will. I am also willing to believe with you. If we are destined, even in the vast sea of ​​people, we will still be together. able to find each other.”

Time Nostalgia Bar...

"Throw yourself into a world other than emotions, change your thinking mode, change your life emotion, maybe you will be able to think clearly about problems that you couldn't think through before." Zhuo Qihua kept turning the wine glass in his hand, seemingly Said emotionally.

"The meaning of this sentence is that you have already figured out the relationship between yourself and Tao Yaoyao? Have you figured it out?" Momo chatted with Zhuo Qihua one by one while wiping the red wine glass.

During the period after breaking up with Zhuo Qihua, Mo Mo knew best how Tao Yaoyao lived.She knew very well that even without Zhuo Qihua, even if the two of them broke up, Tao Yaoyao would never be her own.

Facing a person who can never belong to him, Momo would rather be a noble person than a person who is entangled in love.Besides, a person's love, in fact... it is not love.

So, when Mo Mo took a step back and returned to the position of a bystander, and then examined the relationship between Tao Yaoyao and Zhuo Qihua, he saw the bond between the two of them for real.

Zhuo Qihua shook his head with a complicated expression, and then saw that her emotions were inexplicably elevated, and even the fingers holding the black beer couldn't help trembling. Hearing her say: "She...she is willing to come back again. Please give me one more chance."

Before the words came out, Zhuo Qihua's mood was clearly depressed, and then he added in a low voice: "But...it depends on God's will."

After listening to Zhuo Qihua's narration of the so-called "God's will", Momo suddenly laughed, put down the work in hand, patted Zhuo Qihua's shoulder comfortingly and said: "It's not easy to meet by chance? Tomorrow Early in the morning, I will follow Yaoyao all the way, and I will inform you at any time, and then you two will have a logical encounter on the street, how about it?"

Hearing Momo's proposal, Zhuo Qihua's eyes brightened, and then he shook his head vigorously as if subverting himself, and said: "The feelings obtained with deceit are not long-lasting, and she will know sooner or later."

If the "God's Will" Tao Yaoyao spoke of was the last chance between Zhuo Qihua and Tao Yaoyao, then Zhuo Qihua was willing to gamble all his luck in exchange for a chance meeting in a city.Since it was a gamble where all luck was gambled, Zhuo Qihua was more willing to abide by all the rules.

She knows very well that in this process of finding love, there is no room for any pretense, let alone any jokes.

Without letting himself be addicted to alcohol, after finishing a glass of dark beer, Zhuo Qihua put down the glass heavily, smiled at Momo, turned his head and walked out of the bar.

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Then, in the early morning of the next day, Zhuo Qihua carried his backpack, raised his head and glanced at the corner of the sky that was not yet bright, took a deep breath, and then let it out slowly.

A journey of searching for love that begins in the early morning and ends in the early morning has just begun.Facing the corner of the sky, Zhuo Qihua seemed to be able to see the joy when he met Tao Yaoyao by chance, but he could also see the weary and lonely figure who missed love after the early morning.

What will happen in the future, Zhuo Qihua does not dare to hope extravagantly, does not dare to despair, but is willing to have hope.

Withdrawing his gaze, Zhuo Qihua subconsciously tightened his backpack, packed up all his emotions, and set off towards love...

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