The benefactor is always forcing me to study

Ke Heng looked blankly at his former friend.

Obviously such a familiar face, and obviously fell asleep yesterday, but at this moment, the two are confronting each other as if they have some blood feud.

The other party misunderstood Ke Heng's bewilderment, and sneered, "It's strange why I would know, right?" What treatment center, I asked a private detective to check it out, but I didn't expect it to be a big deal."

Ke Heng's expression was blank. The male artist said that the time when he had nightmares happened to be the time when he escaped from the treatment center a few years ago, and it was also the boy's death day. A few years of time did not heal the damage caused by the treatment center. Even the boy's death made him feel more and more stuck in his throat. In the dream, the boy in the sea of ​​fire asked him why he didn't come to save him with blood and tears. The cowardice in the past grew into a knife that stabbed him.

Ke Heng couldn't hear the male artist's chatter, cynicism, and he left the dormitory as if fleeing.

The relationship between the two broke down, and within a few days, the male artist joined the group. Ke Heng was not selected, and the male artist left the dormitory of the trainees. Later, Ke Heng overheard other trainees chatting, saying that the male artist used to be shameless. At that moment, Ke Heng understood the rules of survival in the entertainment industry. Whether male artists investigate him or expose him face-to-face and satirize him, it is all for the sake of self-interest.

Fortunately, the male artist did not advertise these things widely, and reluctantly left a single-plank bridge for Ke Heng.

Afterwards, the male artist flourished, and Ke Heng played an inconspicuous supporting role in TV dramas, until the adaptation of the unpopular sports show was broadcast, which made Ke Heng popular.He followed his manager's personality as a warm-hearted big brother, but his soul slipped into the dark abyss bit by bit. Many times, Ke Heng felt that there were two people living in his body, one was the actor Ke Heng that everyone liked, and the other was Ke Heng. The other is the rotten true self. The pain of fragmentation and powerless yearning slowly erode Cohen's energy and plunge him into a swamp of depression.

When filming the Phoenix MV with Cen Zhi, Ke Heng seemed to have seen the leisurely school days long ago. Cen Zhi was like the boy in the next class in the school. He didn’t know each other, but he could smile and nod when they met. Say hello to a heart-warming treat with all the flavors of summer.

In "The Wonderful Cafe", Cen Zhi's agility and cuteness, his soft smile, his meticulous caring and just-right care, gathered all the advantages of boys and male artists in his memory, and shrouded him like light Cohen.

During those days, Ke Heng rarely felt that his depression was going to heal without treatment.

He likes Cen Zhi, and the ability to love that was suppressed by the treatment center was revived when he saw Cen Zhi, but he didn't dare to be too proactive, the past experience was a lesson learned from blood, and he didn't dare to let Cen Zhi realize that he was actually not that much Well, sometimes Cen Zhi calls him "Brother Heng", and Ke Heng always feels that he is calling another perfect self. He is like a farmer and a farmer in a snake, keeping a distance from Cen Zhi tremblingly, and delusional to keep a distance from Cen Zhi. Cen Zhi absorbed warmth from his body.

Following Cen Zhi's popularity, Ke Heng was both happy and disappointed. He knew that Cen Zhi would be liked by many people, and he would have more friends, friends who were better than himself. This group of glory does not belong to anyone. Naturally it will not belong to him.

However, Ke Heng thought, if there was Cen Zhi, if they had been friends all the time, he might be able to persist for a few more years.

Maybe I can persist like this all the time, and I can also try hard to become the Ke Heng that everyone likes.

This kind of belief supported Ke Heng's filming of "Heaven Has No Lighthouse". There are too many subtle overlaps between the protagonist of the film and his own experience. Staring at him all the time, and talking about Cen Zhi at any time, kept Ke Heng from falling completely.

However, at the end of the filming, Ke Heng received a threatening letter from a male artist. When Ke Heng saw the letter with the same information as in the past, he suddenly found it funny. He has a completely different style from the male artist. There is no contact, no business cooperation, Ke Heng has no idea what the male artist's "I stole his chance" refers to, Ke Heng himself is mentally and mentally exhausted, and he has no past affection for the male artist, he just treats it as nothing. See, tear up the letter.

On the day of wrapping up, Ke Heng received another letter from a male artist. Unlike the last time he simply vented his curse letter, this time there were only two short sentences on the letter paper, but it hit Ke Heng's life.

"You like Cen Zhi, right? I will send all these things to Cen Zhi, and let him see what kind of thing you are!"

The moment he fell from heaven to hell, the cold chill locked his heart. For a moment, the beatings and scolding from his parents, the electric shocks in the treatment center, the obnoxious stimuli built up forcibly, and the taunts from male artists, like a tsunami, directly submerged Ke constant.

Rather than being abandoned again, it is better to leave voluntarily.

When the blood gushed out, Ke Heng felt very calm. What remained in his memory was the blue sky in winter and a slender and clean figure on the school playground.

At the end of the line of sight, the script of "Heaven Has No Lighthouse" placed on the cabinet was blown open by the wind, revealing the plain white front page.

On the title page lies a sentence quietly:

"There is no lighthouse in heaven, which cannot illuminate the gloom in your heart; there is no night star in hell, which cannot give you the light you expect."

……

In the dead of night, Wen Qiang closed the diary.

The weight of a person's ashes after death is less than one percent of that in life, and the past events in his life can't even be recorded in a diary.

However, he occupied the hearts of other people, and the memories of other people made them never forget it from now on.

Wen Qiang walked out of the bedroom, saw that the door of Cen Zhi's room was ajar, and a gleam of light leaked out, Wen Qiang tiptoed to open the door, and found that the young boy was lying on the bed and fell asleep. It's the section of "Qisheng" in "The Wonderful Cafe", just at the end of the memory of the past life, the dead man in ragged clothes is sitting anxiously in the weedy courtyard, his eyes are empty on the three flowers that once bloomed. The corner of Viola, and then Qi Qi appeared, telling Jiao Wang that there is a fate to meet again in the next life, and Jiao Wang left with peace of mind.

Wen Qiang was stunned for a moment, his eyes faltered, and he saw the undried tears on the young boy's face. Wen Qiang looked at him silently for a long time, then slowly took out the mobile phone from Cen Zhi's hand, turned it off and put it on the side table Go up, help Cen Zhi cover the quilt again.

In the end, the man gently wiped away the tears from the boy's face with his fingertips, and his voice was as low as talking to himself: "He didn't blame you."

"—He is actually very grateful to you."