growing up porcelain doll

◎Seeing that New Year's Day is coming again, the school is full of joy and joy, not only the three-day holiday on New Year's Day, but also because of the annual New Year's Eve

Seeing that New Year's Day is coming again, there is a cheerful atmosphere everywhere in the school. Not only is there a three-day holiday on New Year's Day, but also because of the annual New Year's Day party. The experience of such a large-scale event is no less than a sports meeting. Anyway, it is not necessary It is very happy to be able to miss two regular classes in the evening self-study.

Most of the students were discussing what to perform at this year's gala right after class, but Gong Qing just listened silently from the sidelines, distracted from time to time.In fact, he didn't have much interest in these activities. Except for Hu Cong, no one in the class knew that he played the piano well.After last year's gala, they also said that if they had the opportunity, they could put on a show at this year's gala, but until now, none of them mentioned those ideas at the beginning.

"Brother Qing, do you have any comments?" Jiang Sunya turned around and asked him.

Gong Qing was stunned, and asked blankly: "Ah? What?"

A boy next to him smiled and said: "Brother Qing, what's the matter, the monitor has been discussing with us for a long time, and you didn't listen to a word?" He turned his face and said to the monitor: "Squad monitor, it seems that your thoughts It's not attractive enough, even our Brother Qing didn't listen to it."

The squad leader is a middle-sized little girl named Li Qianqian. She has a pretty face and a quiet personality. She actually has no good ideas for this kind of group activities. Apart from the chorus singing, there are no other programs for all members to participate in.It's just that if you don't have an idea, it's really embarrassing to be pointed out by a classmate that the idea is not attractive. Although she also knows that the classmate may not have any malicious intentions, just making a joke by the way, she still blushes.

Seeing Li Qianqian's flushed face, Gong Qing couldn't help but feel a little guilty. After all, she was distracted during the discussion and made her feel embarrassed by other students.He apologized and said: "I'm sorry, I haven't had a good rest recently, and I'm always distracted even in class, let alone the end of get out of class time. I don't have any objections to the program format you mentioned. I will implement it after everyone discusses and unifies it."

Hearing what he said, everyone was a little curious. They all knew that Gong Qing was a talented and hard-working player in his studies. The only two people who made the teachers of various subjects full of praise all day long were Gong Qing and Hu Cong. Yes, the problem of being distracted in class has never happened to them before.Now everyone has seen with their own eyes that Gong Qing is not in good condition, and he admits that he was distracted in class.

"Huh? Brother Qing was distracted after class and didn't have a good rest. What's on your mind?" Someone in the crowd said something out of tune first, and then the class exploded. Everyone started booing and chattering. Ask nonsense.

"Gong Qing, did someone tell you the truth and you were so excited that you couldn't sleep!"

"Really? Really? The girls in which class have such poisonous eyes that they fall in love with our school grass?"

"Alas, brother Cong doesn't like to listen to you talking like that! Brother Cong's looks are as good as Brother Qing's!"

"No one said Brother Cong is inferior to Brother Qing, isn't he already our Mrs. Grass?"

There was a burst of laughter in the class. He was used to this kind of joke at first, but what happened before, it feels awkward to hear this now.He threw a book at the boy at the beginning, and scolded with a smile: "You are the one who can talk the most, you talk all day long, and I will get you some tape to seal it up tomorrow!"

At this time, someone threw a roll of transparent tape and shouted, "Isn't it just tape, I have it, I have it!"

Hu Cong laughed lightly, commanding: "Seal it!"

The people in the class took the order and went to take tape to seal the mouth of the kid who was joking. Everyone laughed and made a fuss, and no one asked why Gong Qing was distracted.

Gong Qing glanced at them with a smile, took a long sigh of relief and turned her head to find that Hu Cong was looking at him. He was a little uncomfortable looking at him, so she asked, "What's wrong?"

Hu Cong smiled lightly and said, "It's nothing, I just feel that I have caused you a lot of trouble, I'm sorry."

Gong Qing was taken aback when he heard the words, he didn't know how to answer these words.It is impossible to say that there is no trouble, but what troubles him is not the relationship between the two of them now, but that after this incident, he can't help himself to think about the question Hu Cong asked him that day-do you have someone you like?What bothered him even more was that he felt as if he had found a particularly outrageous answer, which had kept him awake for days.

The book he saw at Hu Cong's house was like a door to a new world. He was curious, and the more curious he became, the more he wanted to explore, but reason told him not to delve into it, so he didn't dare to walk into that door easily.But what Hu Cong asked him that day was like a big bell, knocking in his heart from time to time, shaking his scalp numb, forcing him to find the answer to this question.

He thought that it would be good to solve Hu Cong's matter, to put some distance away from Hu Cong, and to calm down, but the fact is that everything is not much better than before, but worse.As if he had suddenly opened his eyes, he couldn't help recalling the contents of that magazine, and couldn't help recalling the scene of dreaming about his eldest brother that day.After clearly rejecting Hu Cong, he dreamed about his eldest brother for several nights and then had nocturnal emission. If once or twice was an accident or too much psychological pressure, then why would it be three or four times?He could even feel his throbbing and hotness in the dream. Every time he woke up from the dream, he was covered in sweat. Empathize with the evidence left behind.

The thought of it made him terrified, and he even felt filthy!How could he imagine such a thing to his brother!If you don't understand the situation, don't agree with the reason, and go against ethics, it's time for a thunderbolt!

But what can be done?There was nothing he could do, nothing!

There was a trace of distress in his eyes, but it was fleeting.He smiled at Hu Cong and said, "No, don't think too much about it."

Hu Cong was noncommittal, just nodded and said nothing.

The way the two of them get along now is a bit strange. Although they still do everything together every day, go to class together, eat together, do homework together, play ball together, and go back to the dormitory together, but their words are obviously much less than before, and it is not deliberately avoiding. What topic, but I really don't know what to say.I don't know if Hu Cong is afraid of his embarrassment, so he doesn't take the initiative to touch him now. He used to hook his shoulders, but now he just walks side by side, and occasionally rubs against each other's shoulders or arms. Before Gong Qing can react, Hu Cong It has automatically opened the distance.Hu Cong took good care of him, which made him feel that he was too stingy and fussy.

"You don't have to be so cautious." Gong Qing suddenly said to Hu Cong.

Hu Cong paused while holding the pen, slowly raised his head to look at Gong Qing, and asked, as if he didn't quite understand: "What?"

Gong Qing sighed and said, "Let's go out and talk."

The two left the classroom one after the other, lying on the window sill in the corridor, a gust of wind blew by, and both of them shivered.

Gong Qing watched Hu Cong shrink his neck, smiled, and said, "If you are afraid of the cold, you should wear more clothes. How handsome are you? You are already handsome enough!"

Hu Cong didn't seem to react. He stared at Gong Qing in surprise, and suddenly the corners of his eyes turned red. He hadn't heard such a joke from Gong Qing for a long time. A little sour.He blinked quickly, suppressed the sore feeling that he wanted to cry, and smiled: "You still have the nerve to say me?" He picked up the thin collar of Gong Qing's school uniform and said, "How dry are you wearing it?" Why are you still shivering!"

Gong Qing also suddenly felt an inexplicable feeling, a little sad, a little sad, but also a little warm. He hadn't seen Hu Cong smile like this for a long time.He used to be a laughing and joking person all day long, his smile was so healing and bright, but he hadn't shown that smile for a long time, and seeing it again now, he was a little moved for a while.

"Can we stop fighting?" Gong Qing said with a smile.

Hu Cong was a little puzzled, and sneered: "What's wrong with you?"

"To be honest, I'm not used to it during this period of time. I think you must not be much better. It's hard to live cautiously, right?"

Hu Cong smiled wryly, "We didn't just pierce the paper on the window, we even tore down the window. What do you think we can do?"

Gong Qing gave him a slap with a smile: "Is there no relationship in this world other than lovers? Or do you want to lose me forever?"

During these days, Hu Cong's haggardness was not inferior to that of Gong Qing, and he had lost a lot of weight visible to the naked eye. He really found it quite tormenting. He never thought that maintaining a deformed friendship would be more tiring than liking someone seriously.Although the reason for maintaining this friendship is also because of liking, but after getting a clear answer, he should actually think about the problem in a different way. Lovers may break up, and friends will always last longer than lovers.Instead of telling myself to keep a distance and forcing myself not to think about him, it is better to be by his side generously as a friend and leave everything to time. One day he can let go, even if he can't let go, then There will be no worse ending than the present.

Hu Cong finally put his arm on Gong Qing's shoulder with a smile, and said, "No!" He sighed and said, "Then let's be friends, good friends for life!"

Gong Qing nudged him lightly with her elbow, and said with a smile, "Well, a good friend for life!"

Seeing Gong Qing's relaxed smile, Hu Cong's heart was full of sadness and satisfaction. Maybe even Gong Qing didn't know how much Hu Cong liked him. Hu Cong lost the promise to be a good friend for life. He lost to himself, he also lost to Gong Qing, and maybe he would also lose to Gong Qing's sweetheart in the future. He had no choice but to compromise with himself and Gong Qing.

After more than three months of stumbling, the two finally returned to their normal track on the eve of the new year, which can be regarded as a great joy.

At the New Year's Eve party, everyone still made a chorus with nothing new according to the squad leader's intention, but this year's chorus program only has two classes, so it's not so hip, not to mention there are two handsome guys at the school level in the class, standing on the stage The face is the focus, the performance is not important, just looking at the face can cause screams.

It's just that after the party, many people in the school knew that Gong Qing had a younger sister, a girl from the art class of No. [-] Middle School.

Back home from the holiday that day, Gong Qing said to Cheng Yue helplessly, "What's the situation with the little girls in your class? You don't worry about the impact if you shout like that in the school auditorium."

At that time, when their class was performing on stage, it was Class 16 of Senior One who yelled the most. They kept shouting "Brother Gong Qing, you are so handsome!" He was left by the head teacher to ask about the situation, and he told the teacher that there was his own younger sister in class 16, which might be a prank by the little girls.The head teacher let him go after explaining clearly.

Cheng Yue felt hot when she heard it, and she was a little nervous: "Second brother, I'm sorry, because they know you are my brother, so they made a fuss."

The more she talked, the lower her voice became, and the more she talked, the more she blushed.

Gong Qing looked at her uneasy look, but there was nothing she could do.Since Cheng Yue also came to No. [-] Middle School, after all, they were not in the same grade. They didn't meet many times at school. They just went home together after the evening self-study on Friday night. Occasionally, when the teacher of Zhou Kao procrastinated, they left separately.There is nothing to hide from others that they are brother and sister, but it will not be made public with great fanfare, so not too many people know about it.

Maybe the art students are more lively and relaxed, or maybe they wanted to make a joke with everyone, but this kind of joke aroused the teacher's idea, which made him feel a little uncomfortable.

He didn't want to criticize anything, so he said: "You should be moderate when joking, and distinguish the occasion clearly. The second brother is not blaming you, but it's at school. When you should pay attention, you should pay attention to it."

Cheng Yue knew that she was selfish at the time. She wanted everyone to know that the most handsome and outstanding boy in the school was her brother, and no one could be as close as her relationship with him. That person belonged to her, so at the time When a group of people shouted like that, she was not organized, and she vaguely expected her second brother to see her in the crowd.

But she felt guilty for causing trouble to her second brother, and said, "Second brother, I was wrong."

Gong Qing smiled helplessly, and sighed, "Okay, let's go to sleep."