Are you a woman today?

Pan Su and her mother stared at each other, sitting in the living room facing each other.

Unprepared to veer into this topic, hiding or hiding, Pan Su blushed, took out a piece of paper and wiped the corners of his mouth to cover up his confusion.

"Speak up." Mother Pan tugged on her son's sleeve.

... It's not that I don't want to say it, I said it because I'm afraid that you old man won't be able to bear it.Pan Su wiped his mouth and then wiped the floor, his heart was on the verge of coming out, and he asked back, "Mom, why did you say that?"

"You think I think so! Look at you, you don't mean that you are interested in any girl when you look like this. I used to be so happy when I received a love letter from a boy..."

"Wait," Pan Su interrupted her, dumbfounded, "Mom, you, do you know about my receiving love letters in junior high school?"

Pan's mother rolled her eyes: "Of course I know, but I didn't see it on purpose. It fell out of the comics because I helped you clean up the bookcase."

Pan Su covered his face and threw it away, it was simply a dark history.I thought it was well hidden, but I didn't expect my mother to find out a long time ago, and Han Qi also found it when he came to the house once.

"I even went to the next class to ask who Liu Xiaoran was during the parent-teacher meeting, and a boy who was tall and rough came out. I thought it was a prank, and I didn't take it seriously. Now that I think about it..." Mother Pan sighed, "You cherish all the love letters from a boy, Susu, do you really dislike girls?"

"..." This is really a misunderstanding.

At that time, he was only in junior high school, and he was a good straight boy with good roots!Until last September, when he took that unlucky elective, he was a straight man straighter than a steel bar.

Although the misunderstanding is so serious, if you can take this opportunity to vaccinate your mother, it can be regarded as a blessing in disguise.So Pan Su asked cautiously: "Mom, you, since you know about the love letter, if I say that I really don't have feelings for girls, will you accept it?"

Pan's mother said angrily: "Of course I can't accept it! You have been healthy and healthy since you were a child, and you have no illness or pain. Who would have thought that there was something wrong with your mind?!"

Pan Su grabbed her arm: "Mom, don't be angry! We're not assuming!"

Mother Pan grabbed Pan Su's wrist: "Don't make assumptions with me, tell the truth, do you really dislike women?"

Pan Su was very conflicted, because in the specific situation, he didn't dislike women. In all honesty, he would still blush and heartbeat when he saw a girl with big breasts, and his blood was still excited when he saw a small Japanese movie.Now it's just because I fell in love with a man, so I don't have any feelings for others, and it can't be concluded that I have become a purebred gay.

It's not that I only like men, but only like that specific object, because he bent himself, how should I make my mother understand this situation?

According to the thinking of their older generation, the biggest possibility is to keep him away from that man, forget about him and return to the normal life track.It's easy to say, but it's too difficult to put into practice. At Pan Su's age, it's the first time that he likes someone wholeheartedly and puts all his heart into it.

Besides, Mr. Han is sincere to him. Based on this, Pan Su can't quit halfway because of family pressure no matter what.

Pan's mother was waiting patiently. From the moment she saw her son's tangled expression, she felt a little bit of a chill in her heart.Susu has always been outspoken, absolutely denying nothing is faster than anyone else, and he has a simple mind and puts everything on his face. After thinking about this question for so long, his five sense organs are intertwined, and it is obvious that he does not know how to speak.

Pan's mother is crying blood in her heart: raising such a big son actually likes men, the old Pan's family is going to be extinct...

Pan Su thought about it, and said slowly: "Mom, this is a very serious question. I feel that if I say it, you will collapse, so let's stop, you better stop asking."

"..." What is the difference between this and direct admission?Pan's mother's eyes were darkened, and she slumped on the sofa, almost fainting.

Pan Su was startled, and hurried to the kitchen to pour water for her mother.Mother Pan pushed his hand aside, and tears fell from her eyes.

Pan Su grew up so big, he had never seen his mother cry.In his impression, his mother has always been the image of a strong woman, helping doctors in the hospital to save lives and heal the wounded, no matter how difficult the patient falls into her hands, she will be treated submissively; no matter what happens, as long as When my mother came forward, everything was resolved smoothly; including quarreling with my father, the worst quarrel was going to divorce, my mother never cried, and she didn't even have a soft expression.

But now because of this incident, the mother, a strong woman, collapsed. She didn't make any sound, and tears fell in strings, weeping silently.

The feeling of suffocation spread in the living room, Pan Su put the cup back on the coffee table, took some papers and stuffed them into her mother's hand.Pan's mother didn't answer, and didn't even look at him. She turned her head alone, and tears wet the collar of the beautiful silk shirt.

Pan Su couldn't think of any good idea. He had clearly promised Mr. Han that he would wait until after graduation to bring up this matter with his family, but unexpectedly he messed up... The matter has come to this point, and he has nothing to do. From childhood to adulthood, every time he makes a mistake What greeted us were all beatings and scolding. After a few days, the rain will pass and the sky will clear up.But this road of Campansu felt that it would not be so easy to pass. My mother didn't scold or do anything, maybe she was already disappointed in him in her heart.

Pan Su stood up and slowly knelt down beside the sofa.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I—I'm not gay, but the person I like happens to be a man."

Pan Su lowered his head and grabbed his pants tightly: "I hope you can accept it, beat me or scold me, just let it go as before... But if you force me to be with a woman I don't like, I really want to be with you." I can't do it, sorry."

Mother Pan covered her face and let out a whimper.

"You—how do you like men so well? What sin did I do..."

"Mom just wants you to be safe, healthy and happy when you were young, and to marry and have children smoothly when you grow up. How could such a thing happen..."

"We don't have this gene in our family either. What's wrong..."

Mother Pan's voice was hoarse, as if she was muttering to herself.Pan Su listened silently, kneeling on the floor without saying a word.He had nothing to explain. Before he decided to be with Han Qi, he had expected to face this kind of situation, but then resolutely took this path.At that time, I thought that my mother would break my leg, but I didn't expect that it was not a storm, but a low air pressure that was more suffocating than the storm.

Since he has chosen this path, he will go forward bravely. This is the last stubbornness of a man.

Maybe she was tired from crying, so Mother Pan sat up, picked up a tissue and wiped away her tears, her eyes were red, she looked at Pan Su: "Who do you like? From your university?"

Pan Su nodded.

"Tao Linlin?"

?Pan Su immediately shook his head. He and Tao Linlin are definitely pure brothers. They have lived in the same dormitory for two years and have not had any problems at all. They are friends who can play games together for a few days without taking a shower.

When Mother Pan heard that it wasn't Tao Linlin, she also breathed a sigh of relief, and asked with a straight face, "Then tell me, who is it?"

Pan Su hesitated for a moment, then shook his head slowly, with his mouth closed tighter than a clam shell.Although I exposed the fact that I like men, it's better not to expose Teacher Han. I don't know what my mother will do next. The teacher-student relationship between him and Han Qi is quite sensitive. If my mother gets angry, she will go to the school Noisy, there is really no way to end it.

Seeing that Pan Su refused to reveal who he liked, Mother Pan didn't want to torture her to extract a confession.She suffered a blow today and her whole body has collapsed. She stood up to wash her face, and went back to her room to rest.

Pan Su was still kneeling and didn't get up, even when he heard the door was closed, he didn't intend to stand up.This has happened to me before. When I got into trouble at school, I was timid at the time, afraid that my mother would reward him with fried shredded pork with belts when he came back from the parent-teacher meeting, so I took the initiative to kneel down in the living room.When my mother saw this situation, she couldn't bear to beat her again, and just scolded her a few times.

This time, I don't know how long it will be before my mother comes out, poking his forehead and scolding him, "Do you dare to make mistakes in the future, brat?" The worst possibility is that she will never talk to him again, and she will never forgive him in this life.

About half an hour later, my father came back and saw Pan Su kneeling alone in the living room, and hurried over: "What's wrong? Did your mother beat you?"

Pan Su shook his head, with a dignified expression, and apologized softly: "Dad, I'm sorry."

"Oh, it's not a big deal for you to go out for a few days. How long have you been kneeling here?" Papa Pan squatted down to look at his knees, "It's all red, get up quickly, I'll talk to your mother, the real kid doesn't want to talk about it It's just love, there's nothing to worry about."

Pan Su still shook his head, as if he felt hesitant to speak, and blocked his father's hand: "Dad...my mother is in the room, you go in and have a look first."

Papa Pan put the bag on the sofa, and patted the back of Pan Su's head: "Okay, Papa will go to the room first, check your mother's tone, and come out to rescue you later if there is nothing wrong."

Pan Su nodded slightly, but there was no happy expression on his face.He watched his father walk into the bedroom, the door closed, and after a while, his mother's crying and the sound of throwing things could be faintly heard.

Pan Su closed his eyes, and realized for the first time that he was so incompetent. In this environment, it was even more difficult to save himself than ascend to heaven.He took out his cell phone from his bag and wanted to send a message to Mr. Han, telling him that he accidentally screwed up again, and now he was facing the double despair of his parents, so he thought about it and put the cell phone back.

It seems too useless to rely on Han Qi for everything, right?When Han Qi and his family came out, there was no one by their side, and they survived by themselves.And there is a mother like Han Yixin, she is much more terrifying than Mother Pan, she can withstand such pressure, there is no reason why Pan Su, who is also a man, cannot bear it.

A quarter of an hour later, the bedroom door opened, and Papa Pan came out.When I first entered, my face was full of smiles, but now my face is somber, as if a mountain rain is about to come.

He came over, sat on the sofa, looked down at Pan Su: "You are honest, do you really want to be with the man?"

Pan Su looked at his father's face. His father had always been good-tempered, with his chubby cheeks and amiable manner. He had seen his father angry only a handful of times, and he felt trembling for some reason.

He nodded slightly: "...Well, I like a man, and I won't marry a woman in the future."

"Snapped!"

A loud and powerful slap came unexpectedly, Pan Su's ears buzzed, and his right cheek felt a burning pain.

He knelt on the ground and stared blankly, his mind was in a state of confusion, and he suddenly came back to his senses, realizing that this seemed to be the first time his father had hit him in so many years.

"I'll ask you again, do you really want to be with a man?"

Pan Su raised his head, there was a clear palm print on his fair cheek, and the corner of his mouth was numb and painful.He looked straight at his father neither humble nor overbearing, and nodded slightly.

"Well, I like a man and will always be with him."

Seeing that his father raised his hand again, Pan Su closed his eyes subconsciously, his hands were shaking slightly, clenched into fists, his joints turned white with tension.

The expected pain did not come, and an angry shout exploded above his head: "Go back to the room!"

Pan Su opened his eyes and saw that his father was already flushed with anger.He slowly got up, his knees were sore, he picked up his bag and limped back to the room.

After closing the door, Pan Su sat on the edge of the bed, rubbing his knees.As soon as he looked up, he saw his reflection in the opposite mirror. His hair was a little disheveled, and his right cheek was slightly swollen with fingerprints floating on it, making him look embarrassed.

The phone rang, and it was a message from Han Qi, asking him if he got home and if he had a fight with his mother.

In an instant, the tip of Pan Su's nose became sour, and his vision gradually blurred.

He raised his hand to wipe the corners of his eyes, and told Han Qi that everything was fine.