Ten thousand people think gloom is reborn

Different from the last time, this time Lin Chongtan acted like a complete gentleman, and did not make unnecessary movements at all.After taking a shower, he carried me back to bed.

The mattress has been replaced by Bai Chi and Qing Qiu, I slept for almost a day, and I didn't feel much sleepy, seeing that Lin Chongtan was going back to make copybooks, I hurriedly called him to stop.

"Tan Sheng."

Lin Chongtan stopped in his tracks.

"I don't want to sit on the bed," I said.

In the end, I sat in Lin Chongtan's arms again, but just like in the bath, he didn't make any intimate moves towards me, as if I was no different from the twins who liked to lie in his arms at home.Feeling uneasy in my heart, I held back my shame and kissed him again.

He didn't hide, let me kiss.

I kissed for a while, I couldn't bear to blush, and I was still sick, so I left his lips after a while, and turned to lean on his shoulder and exhale gently.

I really don't understand Lin Chongtan.

I once heard a story about a blind man crossing the river. Because he couldn't see, the blind man could only cross the river by feeling the stones.Now I have become that blind man, testing Lin Chongtan's mind little by little, but I still can't see the river clearly.

But what Lin Chongtan is thinking is not what I am most concerned about, as long as he can help me.

I rested for a while and brought up the matter of Duan Xinting.

"Last time I didn't humiliate Duan Xinting, it was he who called me a lowly slave and let his schoolboy catch me and was about to hit me with a ruler, so I bit his schoolboy."

When I said this, I looked at Lin Chongtan, wondering how he would react, but I was disappointed.He listened to this passage almost very calmly, without any change in his face.

For a moment, I felt that I did something wrong, maybe I shouldn't throw my arms around Lin Chongtan, he won't help me.

But besides him, who can I find?

I have no one to find.

Or am I not doing enough?

That's right, maybe Duan Xinting is closer to Lin Chongtan in private, compared to the two, he will naturally not help me now.

But not long after, Duan Xinting appeared in front of me again, this time he came directly to my dormitory, he was no longer arrogant, on the contrary, his eyes were red, and he was as weak as a sick man.

He looked at me with red eyes, and then at Liangji next to me, "Lin Chundi, no, Mr. Lin, I have something to say to you, can you let your book boy leave for a while?"

I said nonchalantly, "Just speak directly."

Duan Xinting was a little hesitant, I asked Liangji to send him out.

Duan Xinting hurriedly said: "I was wrong last time, I shouldn't have treated you that way. I misunderstood you at the time, so I... I'm sorry, I apologize to you, can you help me tell Brother Tansheng Tell him not to ignore me."

"It's not for me to interfere if he ignores you."

"Why can't you interfere, brother Tansheng..."

I interrupted Duan Xinting, "Liangji, the clothes I wore yesterday need to be washed, you can do it now."

Although I knew he would mention Lin Chongtan, I didn't expect him to be so straightforward.I don't want Liang Ji to know about my relationship with Lin Chongtan.

When Duan Xinting saw Liangji leaving, he became more indifferent to what he said, and changed his address in an instant, "Good Chundi, can you help me to tell Brother Tansheng? What happened last time was really my mistake, I misunderstood you only when I was in a daze."

He said this and came to pull me again.I was very disgusted by his touch, and immediately backed away, but Duan Xinting still stepped forward.

During the tugging, for some reason, he fell to the ground, and at this moment I saw Lin Chongtan.

Lin Chongtan didn't know when he arrived, and he was standing at the door right now.Duan Xinting didn't seem to notice Lin Chongtan's approach yet, so he raised his face and said to me pitifully, "Mr. Lin, I know you are still angry. If you feel that you haven't vented enough, you can hit me a few more times."

When did I hit him?

I opened my mouth to speak, but Duan Xinting burst into tears again.I have never met a person like Duan Xinting, and I don't know how to deal with it.I looked at Lin Chongtan, and found that he was standing as if he was watching a play, neither talking nor leaving, so I didn't speak at all.

Duan Xinting cried for a while, and when he got up from the ground, he saw Lin Chongtan, I saw his eyes light up instantly, and in a blink of an eye, he was miserable again.

"Brother Tansheng." He called Lin Chongtan aggrievedly.

Lin Chongtan seemed to have seen enough drama, "Why did you come here?"

Duan Xinting glanced at me, "I'm here to find Mr. Lin and apologize to him. What happened last time was my fault."

He looked at me with fear, as if I really bullied him.I realized that Duan Xinting came to see me today not really to apologize, he just wanted Lin Chongtan to dislike me.

There are several aunts in my father's backyard. The aunts have no children, and they rely on their beauty in exchange for the favor of men. Sometimes I see them jealous and bitter.

How ridiculous, am I going to compete with Duan Xinting for Lin Chongtan?

If I hadn't asked Lin Chongtan for help with my studies, I should have kicked them both out with a stick now!

"Now that you're done apologizing, let's go back."

Lin Chongtan's words made Duan Xinting's expression change suddenly, he obviously did not expect such a development, "Brother Tansheng, I..."

For some reason, he fell silent behind Shanglin Chongtan's expression.After a while, Duan Xinting left.

Duan Xinting's departure didn't make me happy, and I felt that I got this kind of treatment with my body.

I couldn't help gritting my teeth, feeling that I was worse than those aunts.

The aunts have no choice but to be detained in the backyard of the deep house, and can only rely on men all day long, while I am studying outside, and I am supposed to rely on my own ability to cultivate my family and honor my ancestors, but because of my stupidity, I learn to use my body like a prostitute In exchange for benefits.

"Don't keep grinding your teeth." Lin Chongtan said suddenly.

I'm annoying him now, but I don't want him to see that I hate him, so I can only turn my face away.

Lin Chongtan and I were the only ones in the room. I didn't speak, and Lin Chongtan also fell silent.After a while, I heard the sound of something being placed on the table.Then, the sound of footsteps went away.

Lin Chongtan left, leaving the things he brought on the table.

I glanced at the brocade box on the table, but I still couldn't resist walking over to open it.Inside the brocade box is a transparent jade flute, which can be seen to be of excellent color.The jade flute had tassels, and the pattern woven in the middle turned out to be the word "di".

The copybook that was pressed by the jade flute was the copybook that I had thrown away. I didn't read it carefully before, but now I found that the first page of the copybook reads——

"Give my younger brother Xiaodi a gift for his seventeenth birthday."

I stared at those two things for a long time until Liangji came back after washing his clothes.He saw the jade flute I was holding at a glance, he was full of praise for it, and wanted me to play a song.

But I'm really bad at playing the flute, I don't have enough breath, and the tunes I play are always intermittent.

Liangji mentioned to me before that when I was drunk, I made a fuss to ask Lin Chongtan to sing me a dirty little song, the last flute he played.

Since then, the relationship between me and Lin Chongtan can neither be said to be close nor not close.I went to him every night, but I didn't do anything overly intimate.He never took the initiative to me, sometimes I wondered if the kiss in the bathroom was my hallucination.

Because Lin Chongtan never took the initiative, I didn't know how to ask him to help me.My family asked me to send my grades, but I can't delay it for long, and it will be next spring at the latest.

And the third big exam was also a year ago.

I was anxious and thought about seducing Lin Chongtan, but he always behaved like a living Buddha, motionless, letting me do whatever I wanted, and in the end I had no choice but to give up in anger and shame.

In a blink of an eye, time came to the winter solstice.

The winter in the capital is very difficult, to the point where glue breaks fingers and the wind bites the bones.Every time I go to Lin Chongtan's dormitory, I have to drink a bowl of sweet soup and hold Mrs. Tang to roast for a long time to slow down.

As winter came, Lin Chongtan went out less often.But on the day of the winter solstice, he came back later than usual.

I heard Qing Qiu and Bai Chi talking.

"Master, why is there so much snow on your shoulders? Water has been prepared all the time. Master, let's take a bath first."

"Master, Master Chun is here."

Lin Chongtan said in a low voice, "Yes."

By the time Lin Chongtan came out of the bath, the night was already extremely deep.As soon as he entered the room, I found that he had drunk wine, and a lot of it.His cheeks were slightly red, and his steps were a little vain.

I was sitting on his bed. During this period of time, I came here a lot and often slept here with Lin Chongtan. Qing Qiu and Bai Chi were no strangers to him.

Lin Chongtan didn't seem to see me, and went straight to the desk, sorting out something.I have been thinking about how to mention the third big exam to Lin Chongtan during this time, maybe tonight is a chance.

The scriptures say that men are usually easier to talk to after drinking.

Thinking of this, I put on soft sleeping shoes and walked slowly to Lin Chongtan's side.Lin Chongtan saw me, turned his face to my side, but turned back quickly.

He was flipping through the ancient books on the case.

I took a deep breath, stretched out my hand and gently held Lin Chongtan's hand, "Tan Sheng, it's very late at night, let's go to bed."

Lin Chongtan said: "If you are sleepy, go to bed first."

"I want to sleep with you, I... I can't sleep alone."

God knows how ashamed I am to say that.

Lin Chongtan's subordinates paused, and I didn't care about being shy when I saw this, and continued: "It's cold on the bed."

In fact, Tang Pozi was stuffed on the bed, so it wasn't cold.

Lin Chongtan looked at me a few times, put down the ancient book in his hand, and returned to the bed with me.As soon as I entered the bed, I took the initiative to get into his arms.

I was wondering whether to mention the third big exam first, or to pretend to be close to Lin Chongtan first.

After hesitating for a moment, I finally chose to get close first.

Lin Chongtan's lips smelled faintly of alcohol tonight, and when I kissed her, it was as if I had drunk too.Lin Chongtan still didn't respond to my state, I was used to it, after carefully rubbing his lips for a long time, I thought about bringing up the big exam.

"The third big exam is coming soon." I said.

Lin Chongtan lowered his eyes slightly, as if he was sleepy, "Yes."

I gritted my teeth habitually, and then let go, "I...I don't want to take the last place in the exam again." I propped myself up and looked at him, "Tansheng, can you help me?"

Lin Chongtan raised his long eyelashes, "Come to me during your lunch break every day, and I will make up lessons for you."

Make-up lessons are no longer useful to me, and it is impossible for me to improve quickly after a short period of make-up lessons.Lin Chongtan can make Duan Xinting improve so much, there must be other ways to help me.

"Is there any other way besides making up lessons?" After I finished speaking, I found that Lin Chongtan stopped talking, and he looked at me quietly. If I didn't find that his eyes were blurred than before, I would have thought he hadn't been drinking.

My heart sank, and I decided to apply what I learned in the script to Lin Chongtan.I reached down with my hand, but before I touched it, Lin Chongtan caught me.

"What are you doing?" Lin Chongtan's voice was still gentle, not angry.

I resisted the shame and replied, but my voice was almost as loud as a mosquito, "A happy thing."

The book says so.

Lin Chongtan heard it clearly, and he repeated what I said, "A happy thing?" Then he let out a chuckle.

Before I understood the meaning of his smile, I was suddenly pressed down by him.

"Do you know what a happy thing is?" Lin Chongtan pinched my cheek lightly, his expression was different from before.

He always behaved like a living Buddha, like a gentleman, and rarely showed such an aggressive look in front of me.