Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

, he eats very punctually. "

We will have to wait.About two quarters of an hour later, a black and thin young man jumped in from the door, shouting to death from starvation, "It's time for dinner, master!" people?"

Xie Shisan motioned me to give him the photo, "Didn't a woman be fished up from the reed field on the north slope on January 28, does she look like this?"

The little apprentice looked at the photo and was almost certain immediately: "It's her."

"Are you sure? Did you admit your mistake?" Xiuyi asked.

"If other people may not remember it so clearly, she is so beautiful and well-dressed, I have a deep impression, and I can't be wrong."

After Xiuyi heard this, she almost shed tears. Although I expressed grief, I still had to calm down and ask him to lead us to the place where Liangzi was buried. But Xie Shisan said that the unidentified drowned man was caught. They were all buried in a mass burial ground outside the city. They didn't know their names, and they couldn't even erect a stele. If they wanted to find them, they had to dig out all the graves.

"Then please at least take us there too," I begged.

Xie Shisan asked his young apprentice to show us the way. The young apprentice was only seventeen or eighteen years old. Jump over briskly.He is used to seeing farewells, so he doesn't feel sorry for other people's sorrow. He keeps the rules out of education, but his nature is still light and carefree, and this nature will leak out inadvertently, which makes Xiuyi look even more serious. Sad, angry.I took his hand and led him away, as if he suddenly turned into a very small child again, Xiuyi let me lead him at first, but then his hand tightly held mine instead.

This journey, we can’t tell whether it’s sad or relieved. When we arrived in the suburbs, we didn’t need to be pointed out by our little apprentices. We spontaneously saw the mass graves. It's just a series of continuous, too small hills, which makes those undulating small graves not so bleak.I gave the little apprentice some money and told him to go back first, leaving me and Xiuyi here to look around.

In fact, what's so interesting about it is that the old and new tombs are all covered with wild flowers and weeds in the same way at this time. We walked and browsed in the open space between the tombs, trying to identify where Ryoko was.After all, there are still some differences in this remote resting place. Among the countless anonymous graves whose names cannot be identified and buried hastily, the bones of the poor are also buried. These poor people who have no money to be buried in the cemetery have to gather here. After death, they were compared with a bit of detachment, because after all, they had names and erected monuments. During one or two symbolic mourning festivals, people would come to the graves to sprinkle wine and sacrifice meat. After a few wailings, there are still pieces of paper money and ingots burned in front of the graves of these people, which is the proof of their detachment.

On the way here, I asked my little disciple if Liangzi could have anything on him. "A ticket," he said.Thin, expensive, missed tickets, soaked in water, worthless, and nothing else.

My poor Ryoko had nothing. Someone who didn't know her name threw her roughly into a narrow earth pit. There was no coffin, but she was filled with earth. Her soul wandered in the night wasteland, desperately trying to ride Find our train, but can't get out of the place where the bones are buried.

We searched and searched and looked and looked, but there was not a shred of evidence that our dear ones were buried under this rising pile of earth. If there was any evidence, I think we would dig up the grave immediately. She took it home, even if it was a pile of scattered bones.But no.No matter how lively and beautiful the face was in life, it is generally eroded under the loess, and the mud buries people like everything else.

We will never find her——When he realized this, Xiuyi burst into tears, and big hot tears flowed from his eyes. Even startled a black bird nearby.

Let him rest his head on my shoulder, I hugged Xiuyi and comforted him, "Okay, good boy, don't cry, death is a stage that everyone must go through, she is the first step to lead us to the land of worry-free, sooner or later we will also Going to that end point, maybe we can meet again at that time." Xiuyi leaned on me obediently, I have never seen him cry so hard, and of course I have never seen him cry any time, I gently Rubbing his smooth black hair, he said softly: "Now, dear child, it's time for you to tell me why you let the snake bite Ryoko."

37. Bad boy 23

Xiuyi lifted his face from my shoulder and said, "I don't know what you mean."

"Based on what I know so far, I'm afraid you won't be able to get away clean."

"Who told you what?"

"I have learned that before we set off, you understood better than anyone the dangers of remaining in the city."

"Tao Youqing has been here." Xiuyi said with certainty, leaving my arms and putting his hands in his trouser pockets, his hair was messy and his eyes were still steamy, "Okay, I admit that I got the news in advance, but I Didn't know there was going to be a massacre."

"But you didn't say anything."

"What do you want me to say? Tell me clearly. It's best for me to stay obediently and let you go away. I didn't know that staying in Qiming would kill people. Those people are crazy to make such a big noise."

"I just ask you to answer, why did you let the snake go? She has agreed to let you go with me."

"Where did you say that? You have no evidence. Don't blame me for all the bad things."

"Do you have to say that?" I asked him, Xiuyi lowered his head and smiled, and glanced at me from bottom to top, "Since you believe that I did it, I have nothing to say."

I sighed, "Maybe I should let you go with Ryoko, anyway, I have a physical advantage over her."

"You clearly know that we can't let you stay, whether it's me or Aunt Tan."

"If I stay, maybe I can find a first-line student..."

"But that's too risky." Xiuyi interrupted me, and finally stopped confrontation, and let herself show weak emotions, "I'm very sad, whether you think I'm real or fake, I've never been so sad."

"Of course I believe that you are sad, but I also believe that you have no regrets." I tilted my head slightly to look at him: "Isn't it?"

For a moment, Xiuyi showed an expression like he was about to cry again, but he refused to cry again and again in front of me. No matter how strong the emotion is, it will become kitsch. His effort to control his emotions made me feel that he really did it for me. Ryoko's death mourned.His Adam's apple rolled up and down a few times, and he squeezed out a few words from between his lips and teeth. Suddenly a gust of wind blew them to pieces, but I still heard the sound.

"But luckily it's not you."

The grass is about to enter the season of fading to yellow, and there are two crows flying in the low sky behind Xiuyi. Against the backdrop of the dark sky, his figure appears almost lonely and thin.

He refused to say, but I was sure from the reaction that Yoshiko's injury was indeed related to him.What about motivation?

"Don't blame me for Aunt Tan's death, I don't want to." Empty excuse.

"Let's go back."

Xiu Yi looked around at the raised tombs, "We're not looking anymore?"

"I can't find it." I replied, the reality is not sentimental enough, and there will be no bridge where the spirit speaks to us after death.

Xiuyi froze in place.

"Tomorrow I will arrange people to prepare the tomb as soon as possible." This is the only solution.

"Do you hate me?" Xiuyi asked suddenly without beginning or end.

"Why do I hate you?"

"Because I caused Aunt Tan to lose her chance of escape."

"You said yourself that you had no idea this was going to happen."

"Then do you like to talk about auntie?"

"Of course I love her."

Xiu Yi stared blankly at his hands, "You really don't hate me?"

"No hate." Even though I think he has an inescapable responsibility.

Several months have passed, and I still don't feel the reality of Yoshiko's death.

The situation at the mass grave made me think of her mournful soul after death, but that imagination quickly dissipated, because it couldn't be completely connected with Liangzi in my mind, and it felt contrary to my imagination.

I know her so well, it's natural for me to know her presence, Ryoko belongs to me, belongs to our house, she is an integral part of me, so that whenever I think of home, memory Liangzi is always there, never going anywhere, waiting for me with a smile, she is a fixed image, even now I can be sure that she is not in this world, whenever I think of her, I still feel that she is in the courtyard Watering the flowers; when I was watering the flowers, I would think, she is out shopping or on a business trip, she cannot do without me, we are only separated for a few days.This delusion prevented me from playing the role of the grieving widower.

But even if I told Xiuyi countless times not to hold grudges, he still inevitably slipped into a paranoid atmosphere.

Xiuyi began to suspect that I intended to kill him.

His sleep quality is getting worse and worse, he can't fall asleep all night, even if he lies next to me, he can't calm him down, and he doesn't feel sleepy at three or four in the morning, or even if he is lucky enough to go to bed early, he will suddenly have a nightmare and scream Wake up, and then keep your eyes open until dawn.The insomnia was a devastating blow to him. His face was too pale, his eyes were dark and dark, his lips were dry, his appetite was poor, and he couldn't even eat fish. I had to force him to eat some. In this case, he Rapid weight loss, the previous clothes were empty and had to be changed