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16.

"Don't talk too fast, don't talk too fast." Jiang Yinqi picked up the wine glass again.Holding up the wine glass is Jiang Yinqi's trick to slow down the pace.

"I don't speak fast at all."

"Well, the pace ahead is good, but you have the momentum to speed up. How did you become a boyfriend just after getting in a taxi? You can't just tell the outline of the story. There must be details. For example, who fell in love with whom first? Who's chasing whom? Wait, wait."

Xin Yue was astonished, she didn't expect Jiang Yinqi to gossip like this, "Are you looking for material for writing a novel? Oh, yes, I don't have the money to ask you to design a house. Besides, you can guess this by yourself, I Can't say anything."

"Others can only guess the story, not any kind of tender feelings." Jiang Yinqi remained silent, "The tender feelings are hidden in the details."

Jiang Yinqi has heard many people tell their own stories, and she always asks the narrator to "start from the beginning." The narrator needs to start from the beginning, and needs to return emotionally to the past, back to the beginning of the relationship.

For our own love, we have often forgotten the initial feelings. They have long been wiped out in the monotonous and repetitive life day after day, or replaced by anger and disgust at the later tragic ending.Many people even think that they have never really loved.Too many people thought they were delusional or blind at the time.

Jiang Yinqi liked Xin Yue's description at the beginning. She didn't hear the emotion of hatred, not even the emotion of remorse.This is good.Jiang Yinqi hoped that Xin Yue could maintain this peace, and not quickly enter the later states that would inevitably become ugly and embarrassing.

So Jiang Yinqi reminded Xin Yue "don't be too fast". The advantage of "not too fast" is that when we slow down the pace of telling, we can clarify our thoughts, become more objective, and see the beauty of the past.

Jiang Yinqi didn't expect to hear an earth-shattering love story. An ordinary person in a mediocre era may not have many amazing experiences.So what touches people's hearts is probably only the details.

As Jiang Yinqi advertises herself, she is a good listener.

Xin Yue was persuaded, "Okay, I'll answer the question of "who is chasing whom". I struggled to insist that he chased me. In fact, I think we both fell in love at first sight. I even think I showed it first. Love it. I asked him for his phone number."

Jiang Yinqi asked curiously, "Is it because of male chauvinism that you bother to say this?"

"No, there is no masculinity in Tough effort, especially not. He loves women, that kind of sincere love. His evaluation of women is much higher than that of men. He thinks women are soft and warm, while men are mostly utilitarian and violent."

"Oh? That's it. Then how does he evaluate himself?" Jiang Yinqi was a little surprised.

"Flower protector, he feels that protecting women is his mission. For example, chasing women, he thinks it is his proper posture. In his understanding, it is respect and love for women. He never said that any woman pursued him , but in fact, there should be quite a few girls chasing him, just like me."

"Well, as you said, Fei Jin is tall and handsome."

Xin Yue continued, "I admit that I am vain, and my strenuous appearance meets my dream of love, and even exceeds my expectations. At that time, I was full of idealism. I thought I would regard money as dung. I thought that as long as Hard work will lead to success, hard work will pay off, etc. Although there is an element of great prospects in my dream, I think this is not necessary, and it is something that can be obtained with a little sweat.”

"I spent the remaining 3 years of college very happily. It should be said that they were the happiest years of my life. I moved out of the dormitory and rented a small house for me with great difficulty. I finally got rid of the annoying group life. "

"It turns out that you don't like group life either. I thought a well-behaved girl like you wouldn't be like me." Jiang Yinqi raised his glass again as if he had found a confidant.

Xin Yue also took a sip of the wine, and she felt that the wine in the glass was very delicious, "Ha, didn't you find that I have a flattering personality? Before I met Li Jin, this personality dominated. I always have a hypothesis As long as I say something that does not meet the expectations of others, I will lose those friendships. Therefore, I live in a group, almost not myself. I have to constantly adjust myself to cater to this group, and I dare not do it A very different version of myself. I don't want to express an opinion that's different from everyone else's. I'm not happy."

Jiang Yinqi will always respond when he hears the story, "I can see that you are also like this with me, often suppressing your true thoughts."

Xin Yue did not answer, and continued his story, "Li Jin rented a house outside without saying a word. A cheap rental house must be ugly and terrible, but it is not lacking in warmth. Because it is the nest of me and Li Jin, I'm the owner of that cabin, I don't have to cater to anyone, I can do whatever I want."

"Lijin has changed me a lot. He made me try to say no to others and made me feel great. Lijin is a simple and energetic person. It is very comfortable to be with him. He can relieve my anxiety. It is very beautiful. For three years, carefree."

"Of course there is his problem with strenuous effort. The biggest problem is that he can't read and study at all, and his grades are very bad. He majored in Chinese. I think this major, unless you really love it, is equivalent to nothing. For special admissions, he had no other choice. Books were a dark swamp to him. He was so distraught when he read that he would rather go out and run a marathon than read a pamphlet. I would complain about why those novels took three pages to write about the clouds in the sky, and thirty pages to describe my inability to sleep. There are also books with three or four hundred pages that say those words upside down, and they are even more incomprehensible. Nothing. Things are more boring than reading a book like this."

Jiang Yinqi nodded with great interest, "Actually, he was able to sum up these laws with great effort. It can be seen that he is very smart, but he just doesn't like reading."

"Yes, but how can we live in today's society without reading? This is the universal standard by which we measure people. If we want to live a dignified life, we need a decent job. A decent job requires people to meet these universal standards. But, I didn't realize at the time that I was determined to be with Fei Jin, and I almost fell out with my family. My parents loved me so much that they finally compromised. You know, my mother still Calling me "baby". In their eyes, I am their forever baby."

"Baby," Jiang Yinqi repeated the word, "you are so happy."

"Yeah, life under the care of your parents is really blissful. No matter what you do, or how ineffective you are in this world, they will forgive you and still love you."

"But society is different. It's a snobbish world. If we don't have a socially recognized identity and status, all our advantages will be in vain. We will inevitably live in the eyes of others."