I have been a royal these years

I sat quietly on the ice beach with Meng Shaoqing, watching the fireball-like sun sinking into the Antarctic sea, watching the pure blue Antarctic ocean gradually turn gray, purple and red, and then the night came, the sky was full of stars, and Antarctica was about to enter a long The polar night, the long sleep period.

"It's so beautiful." I sighed.

Meng Shaoqing said: "It takes half a year to watch this once."

Seeing this once, it seems like I have lived my whole life.

On the way back, Meng Shaoqing grabbed my hand.He said he was afraid that I would fall.

I said my eyes were already visible, but he still didn't let go.He said that even though I could see, he was still afraid that I would fall.

Not only this road is afraid that I will fall, but the future road is also afraid that I will fall.

"I want to keep holding your hand like this," he said.

I didn't answer.He took my hand quietly, we crossed the ice field hills, the Milky Way covered our heads, and the aurora seemed to be slowly appearing.

I think of that dream and the letter I received after graduating from high school in the third year.

I asked him, "Did you write me a letter when you graduated from high school that year?"

He said: "Yeah."

I was silent for a while.

"My dad accidentally threw that letter into the water. After I picked it up, all the content in the letter was lost. I suddenly recalled it a few days ago, and it felt like a map. The map of Antarctica and the aurora."

Meng Shaoqing still said "Yes".

I smiled: "Why did you draw a map of Antarctica for me?"

Meng Shaoqing said: "One year, the geography teacher gave a lecture and talked about Antarctica and the aurora. I saw you listened carefully. At that time, I was thinking that one day I would come to Antarctica with you to see the aurora."

"Then you can ask me out during graduation." I said, "Let's go to Antarctica for a graduation trip together."

Meng Shaoqing explained: "I really want to ask you out. It's just that that year, something happened at home. My grandfather passed away. I rushed home for the funeral, so I didn't have time to ask you out. There is another reason..."

"Any other reason?"

"I imagined that when we watched the aurora together, we were together as lovers, not as classmates."

My heart suddenly trembled.

I asked myself silently in surprise, what's going on?Just now, what was that like?

I wanted to touch my chest with both hands to check if there was something wrong with my heart, but he held one hand tightly.

I said I was a little tired and wanted to stand and rest for a while.He said yes.

I finally withdrew my hand and pressed both hands on my chest, feeling the rhythm of my chest beating.

We stood on a hill and looked up at the half-hidden aurora in the sky.There are many stars, and each one can be seen clearly.

Meng Shaoqing pointed to the sky and told me the names of the stars, as if counting them for me.

Later, after a moment of silence, Meng Shaoqing said: "Jianming, I'm actually very stupid, I don't know how to let you stay by my side."

I was silent for a while, and said: "The more you deliberately want someone to stay by your side, the harder it is to keep you. If that person really wants to stay by your side, he will come to you by himself without your asking."

"But if you don't come to me, I'm in great pain and very uncomfortable." Meng Shaoqing coughed twice, although his throat improved a bit, but he still couldn't speak happily, "I know, you don't like many things I do. But I just want... I want to see you, see you every day. I want to see you happy, and I want to protect you. But sometimes, I don’t know how to protect you and make you happy. I I always do things you don't like. In fact, seeing you unhappy makes me feel very sad and very unhappy."

I closed my lips and looked at the stars he counted for me in the sky.

Meng Shaoqing protected me, and I knew it in my heart.Including him having dinner with the chairman of our company, the company then kept giving me the best resources.Although I don't like this behavior, I know it's his way of protecting me.

Every celebrity with traffic has black fans, and every famous celebrity has to endure cyberbullying.

And the big star who only needs to endure the storm of black fans and the Internet, without having to bear the unspoken rules, is already a hothouse flower that envies all the stars.

So Meng Shaoqing built a greenhouse for me.

So I……

Why do I compare myself to "Jiaohua"?

I am a man!

I am an imposing man, protected by Meng Shaoguang's greenhouse.

I thought, I can't go on like this.It doesn't matter whether you are a star with such an attitude of monopolizing resources, or you are an idol in a state of being in a relationship.

I said, "After I go back, I want to quit the circle."

He asked me softly, "Why?"

"I'm stupid too." I answered him, "I can only concentrate on one thing. Once I concentrate on falling in love with one person, I can no longer be a lover to the public."

I don't think I can be half-hearted and go on a secret date with my lover while pretending to be single in front of the camera and only loving fans.This is also an idol ability that I don't have.

I lack the ability of too many idols, so it is quite difficult to be an idol.The only thing that makes me feel effortless is to follow the idol's rules as much as possible.

In addition, what I want to say is - although my active fans are not enough to become popular, but the lovers of popular professional fans are also popular lovers!

The author says:

Jiu Min, Gong didn't quit the circle because of love, he mainly didn't want to continue to be an emperor