Ayanokoji in Kexue World

(52) Sorry, I lied

Tokyo Mihua Teidan High School.

A week after I returned to Tokyo from Kyoto, I was told by my teacher, "Please ask my guardian, Dr. Agasa, to come to the school."

This thing makes me feel difficult.

I can partly understand the feelings of those who have to ask other people to pretend to be their guardians to alleviate their great troubles.Unfortunately, however, I was not able to ask someone to pretend to be my guardian.

Because the few people who knew my guardian all knew what happened——I submitted a withdrawal application to Tokyo Tei Tan Mihua High School.The head teacher of class A of the second grade directly rejected my application.

In fact, I also explained that I will continue my studies at the Tokyo Metropolitan Higher School of Magic and Magic after transferring to another school.But the head teacher selectively didn't hear it.

"Ayanokoji, it's just in the middle of the semester. If you drop out, high schools at the same level as Tedan will not easily accept transfer students. If things don't go well, you may not be able to re-enroll in the next year, which will delay your study time .”

The teacher in charge was eloquent and earnest.

I have checked that high school students can apply for withdrawal from school, and the procedures are not complicated. In addition, I was originally a sponsored student of the school. As long as the withdrawal procedures have the signature of the original director of the orphanage, I can continue to formally apply for withdrawal.It’s just that since the first semester of the first year of high school, Dr. A Li is mainly responsible for my guardian’s signature. Therefore, the head teacher asked me to get Dr. A Li’s signature before the withdrawal application can be established.

After signing, this application has to go through three rounds of approval and signature by the head teacher, grade teacher, and senior high school administrative director before I can successfully process the withdrawal application.I thought that I could withdraw from school as long as I wanted, but it turned out that the procedure was more troublesome than I imagined.

I just submitted it, and was left alone by the class teacher for an hour.

"Why did you apply to drop out? Is it because you didn't get the first prize in this competition, and you didn't get the qualification for recommendation? There is also a chance next year. In my opinion, Ayanokōji-kun is not such a person who is easily discouraged?"

"No."

Naturally not for this insignificant reason.

As early as when I recovered my memory, I had already thought about whether I could continue to stay in Dr. Ali's house.The reason why I stayed in the doctor's house has disappeared, and now slowly many people have noticed that I live in the doctor's house, and sooner or later I will cause trouble for them, so I might as well leave with the trend.

It is not impossible for me to disappear completely from the place where I live now, and become without a trace.But I always think of one sentence.Some people say that I can't learn to say goodbye.

This time, I thought I would bid farewell to them in the form of ordinary people, so I made the withdrawal application.However, it was more difficult than I imagined.

The class teacher continued to ask: "Is that because the current living environment puts pressure on you? What difficulties have you encountered? Can you tell the teacher? Can the teacher help you?"

I'm having trouble.

I'm not having any trouble, it's just that I've found a thread of something to do, and I now want to do it.After finishing, I feel that I should be able to live my own life with peace of mind.Three years ago, I used "books" to create my own life.

However, I discovered that what constitutes the existence of "I" is not entirely the handwriting of "that person". "I" and "that person" are just a part of someone in politics.

The discovery of this point lies in the opportunity of "Tuo Si".

The opportunity to meet him for the first time was too coincidental. This was not an accidental coincidence, but a human arrangement from the beginning.If I hadn't lost my memory these years, I would have found out the real body of the "behind the scenes" about two years ago, and I wouldn't be stuck in daily and non-daily life now.

If that's really the problem, will you vent your anger on me if you tell the teacher?What can she do?But thinking about it, I didn't feel any good about the "behind the scenes".The other party is just standing in front of the apex, counting all the tricks, and using everything to the extreme.If it were me, I would do the same.

I am essentially the same as him.

It's just that I just want to say a word to the other party, just like "that person", I want an answer, an answer that can convince myself, an explanation that allows me to completely give up the past that I have been brooding about.

……

I interrupted the teacher: "So, please come to Dr. Ali, and get Dr. Ali's signature, can I apply for withdrawal?"

The teacher in charge frowned, and said bitterly: "Mr. Ayanokōji, don't give up your future for a moment of pride. If you want to apply for a suspension of study, the school should agree. But what about transferring to Tokyo... The school, the teacher looked at it, it is a religious school, the enrollment rate is ranked in the ninety, and most of the students start working as soon as they graduate. This is really not a good choice for you."

What the head teacher said made me think that it would not be particularly smooth to invite Dr. A Li.

As soon as I left the teacher's office, Mori-san and Suzuki-san surrounded me at the door.

"It's fine, why do you suddenly want to withdraw from school? Do Dr. Li and the others know about this?"

I just wanted to cut it first and then play it, so I didn't tell.

I shook my head and said, "After today's class is over, I will talk about it."

Mao Li didn't seem to be able to feel the slightest comfort from my words, and said with even more worry on his face: "Are you okay?"

"It's okay." If I had something to do, I wouldn't have to go through the withdrawal procedures, "Does it look like I have something to do?"

Suzuki-san was straightforward and didn't have as many worries as Mori-san. He raised his hand and said, "It looks the same as usual, but making such a big decision all at once, wouldn't it make people feel that something happened?"

I don't think transferring is a big decision.

Suzuki-san's answer made me realize immediately that these are really big decisions for students.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Mao Li asked, "Can't you tell me?"

I don't think there is much to say.

Because whether they speak out or not, they can't interfere with my decision.

Maori and the others are so entangled in an answer, it is nothing more than a kind of "gestalt consciousness", that is, people are usually used to make a complete interpretation of all things, if this matter is broken, yes If it is fragmented, they will find it unacceptable, trying to find clues, find logical clues, connect these fragmented things, and form a "complete event" that comforts their minds.

This also explains why readers and spectators are always easy to make up their minds when one thing only surfaced a little bit, and they also like to read other people's comments, and use other people's explanations to balance their unbalanced psychology.

Now, I just have to give them a plausible answer.

Neither can hurt the other party, nor can the other party feel that I am perfunctory.

"The school I'm going to has people I want to meet."

"Sorry, I don't quite understand." Mao Lilan shook her head and said, "That's not as serious as dropping out of school."

…Yeah?

"Love can explain everything" is said in the TV series.

Sure enough, all TV shows are unreliable?

Suzuki Sonoko suddenly raised the volume amidst my silence, and said, "Could it be that you have someone you like in that school?"

"Really? Really?" Mao Lilan's eyes widened in an instant, "I didn't expect Ayanokouji to be able to do this. If this is really the case—"

Mao Lilan simply clenched his fist and said, "Then I also support Ayanokōji-kun's decision."

I didn't know how to respond better, so I didn't respond.But I have such a little luck in my heart. If Mao Lilan and Suzuki Sonoko also accepted such an answer, then Dr. Ali and the others should also accept such an argument.

So when I went back to Dr. Ali's house, I prepared a new wording, and I also wrote down a lot of settings that Mao Lilan and Suzuki Sonoko supplemented for me.As soon as I entered the house, I could smell the aroma of curry.

This is obviously Subaru Okiya who always accidentally overcooked to share his food.

I didn't intend to mention this matter in front of him, so as not to cause side effects and variables.However, it was obvious that Dr. A Li had already heard from the head teacher, and he was sitting on the edge of the sofa with a heavy heart. Even Hui Yuanai was sitting beside him, with a solemn face.

"..."

I glanced at Okiya Subaru, who was pretending to be concentrating on making curry, and while carrying my backpack, I walked to the sofa in front of Dr. Agasa, and said, "Did the teacher tell you?"

Dr. A Li lowered his head, raised his head after a long time and said, "May I ask why?"

"Tokyo Manga has someone I want to be with day and night."

Dr. A Li probably did not expect that I would be so frank and answer so directly, my mouth opened and I was speechless.I think he didn't want to make me feel unhappy, and he didn't want to stop me, but Dr. Ali really felt that my decision was not a good one, so he was so hesitant.

I'm just waiting for Dr. Ali and Mao Lilan to let me be brave for love.

However, Dr. Ali's voice slowly raised: "But, shouldn't high school students focus on studying hard? There is only one year left, so can't we be responsible for each other's future?"

"..."

I can't argue with that.

Because I also feel that if falling in love delays business, then it’s fine.

"I don't think Ayanokouji-kun is a person with a love brain, why don't you talk about it? Why do you have to tell such a lie?"

This sentence immediately made Dr. A Li restless.

"Ayanokōji, did you lie to me?" Dr. Ali was surprised and aggrieved. "Am I treating you so badly? Make you want to lie to me? Can't you really tell me clearly?"

"........."

Because I lied in Kyoto, I couldn't say "I've never lied" with confidence.However, I always feel that things are going in a direction I didn't expect.

Under the sad and pitiful expression of Dr. A Li, I had to bite the bullet and admit: "I'm sorry, I lied."

Then, I heard Okiya Subaru's uncontrollable laughter.

I think he must have enjoyed it.

……

I hope he can eat tonight too.

After I admit my mistake, I don't really want to continue talking for a while.

Of all the games, for me, the emotional game is the only one where there is no surefire way to win.

Those who can deceive the other party's heart with a few words or tricks are of no value to me.And those who can't be easily trusted, and who tell me to devote myself wholeheartedly, are also not advisable for me.

In any case, I am a steady person who strives for success in a steady way.

Dr. Ali asked worriedly: "Is it the reason why you can't tell the outside world?"

It's not the reason why you can't speak out, it's because there's no need to speak out.

I was unable to respond, and after a brief moment of silence, the landline at home rang in due course.The sound of the electric bell was crisp and full of penetrating power, causing ripples in the suffocating air in an instant.

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