flowers grow under the tree

The soldiers came to chase her away again, her last sentence was very quiet, but I still heard it, I heard her say "I love you too, when you rescued me, it seemed like I fell in love with you at first sight!"

I smiled and looked at her who was crying in pain on the track in the audience, and the tears kept flowing line by line.Finally there was a shot and the bullet went through my chest.The last thing I heard at the end of my life was not the gunshot, but her heart-piercing voice, "Flower, I love you!" My eyes went dark again, and I came to the underworld again, and Granny Meng recognized me , She asked me how my life was, and I told Granny Meng that I met her and she fell in love with me, and I also witnessed the cruelty of this troubled world.

Meng Po said that I would be able to be an ordinary person in the next life, but I just needed to drink Meng Po soup. The mother-in-law smiled and said, people who are destined, no matter how many lives, will meet each other eventually.

I don't understand, but I have no choice but to drink the bowl of Mengpo soup that says it can forget everything, will I forget her?I am sure I will remember.

I walked towards Naihe Bridge, desperately remembering her appearance with my last consciousness, and silently recited her name.

I was born again, and this time I really became an ordinary person, and although I tried desperately to remember her, I still forgot, forgot everything about her, my experience with her, what she was like in the previous two lives, and ,her name.

I really became a person without any memory, a newborn baby girl, born in an ordinary family, I grew up like ordinary people, learned to talk, learned to walk, eat, sleep, and ordinary children I also go to school, my life is very fulfilling, my life is called "Hua".

I really found out that I seemed to have forgotten something. From the time I could remember, I always had those two dreams every now and then. In one dream, there was sunshine everywhere, flowers and grass everywhere. In the middle of the sea of ​​flowers, I always stood watching The woman whose face was unclear, I stood aside, staring at her obsessively.Every time I have this dream, I don't want to wake up, because the picture in the dream is very beautiful.I can't count how many times I've been late for school because I hung on to this dream.

The other dream was just the opposite, the sound of gunshots was like thunder, I saw a woman was shot, and a woman in the audience knelt on the stage where the execution had just finished, crying heartbreakingly. ache.I saw that woman dressed in black and performing mysterious but great roles in the following days, and a sentence always sounded in her ears: "I'm sorry, I have to let you go first in this life, I still have important things to do." I haven't finished my work." It seemed to be the woman's voice, crying in despair, until one time, the woman encountered danger during a mission and was handcuffed to the execution platform. She didn't have a trace of fear, and her eyes were full of The light of hope, she said: "I'm here to find you." Then the bullets shot out, and every time I woke up from my dream.

I have been dreaming this dream for more than ten years, and I get used to it.And when I was in middle school, I was certain in my heart that there must be something for me to come to this world, but I forgot.

It's spring, flowers are blooming everywhere, looking at the flowers in that place, I think of the figure of the woman in the dream, and I don't know why she shed tears. .Whenever the flowers bloom in spring, when I see a large field of flowers, I always think of the woman's figure, and I always shed tears. I don't know why.I just couldn't help but wonder in my heart.

During class, I was drowsy and dreamed about that woman again, until I heard a sentence from the teacher "My Fair Lady" and suddenly sat up, and suddenly there was only one word left in those four words - Shu , I shed inexplicable tears again, which shocked the classmates around me.

I sat there in a daze, with only that word left in my mind, and then I became more and more dizzy, my head became dizzy, my eyes went dark, and I was sent to the infirmary.

After I fainted, I had a dream that I had never had before, in which I seemed to hear many, many voices...

"My name is Shu. I'm the eldest lady of a family in Beiping City. Thank you for saving me..."

"You are quite affectionate. If you were a man, I would give you my body."

"Go to my house, my parents are very good, you are kind to me"

......

"Hua, there's a new drama, let's go and listen."

"Hua, let's go shopping, I'll pick out some clothes for you"

"Hua, this candied haws is really delicious, try it..."

......

"My name in my next life will still be Shu, I promise you"

"Hua, don't go, hide, we can hide."

......

"I promise you, I will come to you in the next life, whether we are male or female, we will be together."

"Sorry, I have to let you go first..."

"I love you too, from the moment you rescued me, I seemed to have fallen in love with you at first sight!"

"Flower, I love you!"

......

"—bang" "Flower!"

I woke up and sat on the hospital bed gasping for breath, my heart hurt like being pierced by countless arrows, my back was wet with sweat, and tears were streaming from the corners of my eyes What do the words "Hua" and "Shu" have to me? Relation, I just feel familiar, I feel that these two words are familiar, the scene in the dream is familiar, the voice of the woman in the dream is familiar, and the gunshot is so real, as if I have experienced it myself.But what I am most familiar with is the figure of the woman who is so familiar with the face that I can't see clearly. I am curious about the person named "Hua" in the woman's mouth, what kind of experience she has with her, and why I dream of her and her experience , "Shu, is that woman's name?

Since that time, the dream of her bathing in the sun in the sea of ​​flowers and the dream of her performing a secret mission and sacrificing are still alternating, but I have never had this dream again, and I have never heard the voice in this dream.

This gradually became my mind, and sometimes I would think about it, because the things in the dream were so familiar, and the reality seemed to happen in front of me, and I could touch it with my hand.But there is always a layer of resistance pulling me. Whenever I seem to think of something, I will forget it in an instant.

I checked a lot of information on the Internet, and asked my family and friends. My family said that I was under too much study pressure and mentally disturbed, but I knew that it was definitely not the case.My friend told me maybe it was a past life. "Past life" When I heard these two words, my pupils dilated and my head was dizzy. I struggled and ran home with my last strength, rushed into my room and locked the door, lying on the bed and taking a deep breath.

I had a dream again, this dream was very short, the figure of the woman in the sea of ​​flowers and the figure on the execution platform kept alternating, she walked towards me step by step, stretched out her hand and said to me, "Hua, I am Shu, long time no see, I found you You." I wondered and wanted to look up at her face, but she evaporated and disappeared like mist.

I woke up from the dream and opened my hands to look at it. It felt too real, and the temperature of the woman's hand seemed to be still there.I washed my face and stood in front of the water table. Is "Hua" my identity from my previous life? What is the relationship between that woman named "Shu" and me? Why is she looking for me? Why can't I see her clearly? Face?

From that day on, the alternating dreams stopped appearing, and this dream became my frequent visitor. Every time the woman walked towards me, I was blinded by the light on her body. Every time I wanted to see her face, she would will disappear.

It was another ten years, I started my job after graduating from university, but I never gave up looking for clues in those dreams, and I gradually got some clues.First, I am sure that Shu and I must have experienced a lot, and our relationship is by no means normal.Second, if that was my previous life, then I must have left her for some reason and had a new life.Third, what I am most sure of is that she will definitely come to me in this life.

Many years have passed, and I am nearly thirty years old. My parents urged me to marry me several times, but I ignored them. The first two years were fine, but these years, my desire to clarify those dreams has become stronger and stronger. I even feel that if I If I can't figure out what happened in this dream and the woman named Shu, maybe I will never get married in my life.

Regarding the things in the dream and the relationship between "Shu" and "Hua" in the dream, I have written a total of seven notebooks in the past few years. I found an answer, the emotion between Hua and Shu may be the love between men and women.

I feel that my mind is much clearer, and suddenly I have an idea, maybe I am really "Hua", and "Hua" is really my previous life, then "Shu" will come to me, that is to say, she may be in this world , I can find her.

I began to pay attention to every place I have been to, no one was there, Ruoshu was really my lover in the previous life, I think I could recognize her at a glance.

After another two years, I didn’t make any progress, and I was finally ready to give up. Maybe these are really just fantasies, they really don’t exist, maybe the Shu in the dream is an illusion caused by my brain problems, I laugh Laughing, I put those notebooks full of records into the box. Since there are so many notebooks and the box is big, I put them next to the trash can.

The next morning, when I passed by, I found that the cardboard box was gone, but the garbage truck hadn't come yet, so early.Maybe the scrap collector picked it up, I thought so with a smile.

After I threw away the notebook that day, I slowly felt something was wrong. At first I thought it was due to the recent work pressure, fatigue, and hallucinations.But every day when I go home, I will feel someone following me very lightly, and when I turn around, there is no one there. I am not afraid, because I have been a female school bully in the eyes of my classmates since I was in school, a female student, Hit ten punks without weapons.Gradually, I didn't care about the person who followed me.

In the past two days, every night when I was sleeping, I seemed to hear faint crying sounds like a woman. I never believed in ghosts and gods, so I opened the door to check, but there was no one there.

This strange phenomenon lasted for a few days, and I finally couldn't bear it anymore. I decided to take a good look at who was playing the prank, so I installed a pinhole camera on the door.

After work that day, I still felt that someone was following me, followed by the cry of a woman at night. The next day I turned on the video on my phone, but I was completely stunned.

It was a woman, who looked younger than me. She knelt down by my door and looked through the things in her hand. It was the notebook I used to record my dreams. The woman cried more and more, and kept wiping her face. She stood up several times. She wanted to raise her hand to knock on my door, but she took it back. The woman stayed until late at night and was about to leave. She seemed to feel something, so she raised her head and saw that after I installed the camera with flashing red dots, He immediately lowered his head and ran away in a hurry.

But even when I looked up, I still saw her appearance clearly. Her appearance was like a key that unlocked the secret I had been looking for for many years.

I remembered, I remembered, I shed tears of regret, she came to me, Shu, came to me, the person I loved for two lives found me, but I forgot her, I forgot her because I didn't recognize her...

It was I who fell in love with her first, looking at her covered with sunshine in the sea of ​​flowers, it was I who searched for her, turned into a human body, and protected her. Abandoning her, I have forgotten her in my life.

My tears couldn't stop flowing, and I remembered that my name is not "Hua" but "Hua" who promised to love her. I first promised to always love her, and it was always me who was attached to her.

I rushed out of the house and asked every passerby on the street, I didn’t pick up work, but searched the city frantically, I ran into every park, every shopping mall, as if I didn’t know how tired I was. Regardless of other people's strange eyes, I shouted her name loudly

"Shu, I'm sorry, I'm late, where are you, I'm Hua, I'm here to marry you! Shu!"

From the morning to the middle of the night, I still didn't see her figure. I sat on the bench by the street and slapped myself in the face. Suddenly, I realized something and ran desperately towards home.

I walked into the door step by step, full of joy and fear in my heart.In this life, I forgot about her and did things that I never thought about in the previous two lives. I was afraid, afraid that she would hate me, afraid that she would not want to see me, afraid that she would not come to me.I am happy that we finally met in this world without disputes. If she forgives me, we can stay together for a lifetime. How big is gender difference?

I walked in step by step, but I was disappointed, she really didn't want to see me, she found me, I forgot her, I sat on the ground in pain, and even wanted to bang my head against the wall to atone He was completely exhausted from the tossing, and his head was dizzy.