a body of love

"Xia Guiyuan, you are going to the hospital with me today. I suspect that you have a split personality. You speak in different tones at different times of the day. Sometimes you can't respond to your name. You will only cause me trouble." .By the way, hurry up and cook." Mother Xia said.

"Got it, I'll do it right away, that,"

"What, if you have something to say, hurry up, I don't want to scold people."

"Well, can you not take me to the hospital."

"What the hell are you thinking? It's my decision. Let me tell you. There is no room for negotiation. Hurry up and cook. Don't worry. I don't want to wait in line at the hospital. You really can't do anything well. You Dad is the same, he has to keep you as a scourge, what are you, I really don't know what use you are. It's useless, it's useless."

"I'll do it right away. Right now. Don't talk about it, Mom."

"Why am I your mother? Look at other people's children who are better than you. Either they have excellent grades, they are obedient and sensible, or they are versatile. With you, they will only find trouble for me every day."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll cook right away." Then, Xia Guiyuan turned and went into the kitchen, picked up the kitchen knife, and chopped the onions on the cutting board with a blank expression.

This is Xia Guiyuan's daily life, no, it can't be called daily life, because today her mother proposed to take her to the hospital for the first time, yesterday, the day before yesterday, and the day before yesterday were all finding fault, and she had to be scolded every day.Xia Guiyuan is used to it, and she doesn't know why she is used to such a perverted lifestyle, anyway, the facts tell her that she is used to it, and sometimes she wonders if this proves that she is actually a perverted, I don't deserve anyone's love.

In fact, she usually doesn't refute her mother's statement very much. Generally, she agrees with her mother's evaluation of her. In fact, she is a waste, she just can't compare with anyone.But today, she really couldn't hold back, she couldn't help it, and in this respect, she didn't want to.As long as her mother took her to the hospital, her sister would definitely be found out. She knew that as long as she was hypnotized, her willpower would not be strong enough to protect her sister, and she could only be slaughtered by the doctor.Her sister, sure, was going away from her.Without even the last bit of sustenance, what else is she living for?

But then she also thought about it, why must she think that not going to the hospital is to protect her sister? My sister doesn’t necessarily want to live in this world, right? Is my sister also very tired? Should I obey her wishes?

Later she thought why I was so selfish, but I couldn't control myself, I could only be selfish, I couldn't be generous, at least not in this respect.She wanted her sister to be with her, and she wanted her sister to suffer with her, so she had a sustenance.She didn't know why, but she felt a little guilty when she thought that no one would take care of her mother after she committed suicide. She didn't know where this guilt came from, maybe it was the message his father sent him before he died, "Take good care of mom and yourself "Come up, she felt that this might be her own debt, a debt that must be repaid.

She also thought about how good it would be if she died, don't care about paying off the debt, if you die, you don't have to pay back, but in case, after going down, I meet my father and he asks me, how should I answer.

All of this, she feels she deserves:

"I must have done something bad in my previous life, and I will have to pay it back in this life. It doesn't matter, karma is inevitable, but I will never be a heinous person in my previous life, or I will not in this life." Met Xia Mengjing. My sister is really a good person, but she met me in this life."

The fried eggs and lettuce in the pan are all cooked. My mother likes to eat bread that is charred on the outside and tender on the inside, with cooked lettuce inside, a fully cooked fried egg, two slices of tomatoes, a slice of bell pepper, and a slice of chicken steak, and then spread it Peanut butter, this kind of breakfast, will be repeated every ten days, because my mother said before, no matter how delicious it is, she can’t eat it every day, so she is afraid that her mother will get bored, so she learns as many styles of food as possible.Try not to repeat the same for ten days.

Mother's breakfast is served on the table, but in fact she doesn't like to eat very much. In the past, her father would force her to eat, but now no one will do so.

"Little Yuan, you need to eat some food so that you can grow taller."

"Got it, Daddy."

……

She still wanted to come to this living area again, but she never had this chance again.