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Outside the window, the night was dark, Jiang Huaixi sat on the sofa on the window sill with his knees hugged, tilting his head, looking at the city that had fallen into silence in the middle of the night, looking at the only remaining lights that were shining like stars, his expression , lonelier than the night.

I don't know, would Zizheng suffer from insomnia without her by her side?

The wind blew in through the half-open window, bringing a bit of coldness, stimulating Jiang Huaixi's increasingly painful nerves, making her frown even more unconsciously, hugged her legs tightly, and buried her face in the knee.

She recalled over and over again the sweet happiness and longing in Lu Zizheng's expression when he said to her in the evening, "It feels so good to have the care and nagging of family members, and to have a home to go back to. And at that time, the feeling of satisfaction and happiness in my heart was born from the joy and joy of landing Lu Zizheng.

In her mind, along with this picture, what haunted her like a nightmare for many years was the sentence she overheard from the attending doctor confessing to her parents, "Even if the operation is successful now, the life expectancy will still be different." The impact, if it recovers well, may reach [-]" assertion.Jiang Huaixi's palms holding his legs gradually tightened, and there were faint traces of bruises on his calf.

A person who can't even guarantee his own future is not qualified to pursue the so-called happiness. After all, he is just dragging others down for no reason.

When leaving, Lian Xuan questioned her: "Jiang Huaixi, what are you afraid of?"

Many people have asked her this sentence, including herself, and she has asked herself countless times, Jiang Huaixi, what are you afraid of?

In fact, the answer is so obvious.

Apart from Lu Zizheng, what else did she care about, and what did she have to fear.

Afraid of Lu Zizheng's regret, afraid of Lu Zizheng's sadness, afraid of Lu Zizheng's sadness, afraid of Lu Zizheng's disappointment, most afraid of seeing Lu Zizheng's tears.

It was hard for her to make Lu Zizheng a little bit happier, it was hard for her to have a little confidence in life again, it was hard for her to give Lu Zizheng a home again, she How to tell Lu Zizheng that life, another joke with them, and another blow to her?

How would she tell Lu Zizheng, I'm sorry, I've been lying to you, in fact, I knew that I couldn't afford you forever.

Zizheng, I'm sorry, what should I tell you?Knowing that you are so afraid of losing, knowing that you are like that, knowing that you will lose in the end, I would rather not start the person who has never had, knowing everything, but I still take chances and not be honest with you.

I'm sorry, I've been deceiving myself and others, expecting extravagantly, if I can hide it from you for a little longer, a little longer, let your dream last a little longer, a little longer, best, finally I can, perfectly hide it from you for the rest of my life, Make dreams come true.

In fact, I am such a bad, despicable, cowardly, and cowardly person...

Jiang Huaixi, you are a liar...

There were crystal clear teardrops oozing from the gap between Jiang Huaixi's arms and knees, sliding down her smooth calf, and finally, in the dead silence of the night, disappeared in the wetness of the sofa.

Without Jiang Huaixi by his side, in this strange home, Lu Zizheng tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep. It was not until after three in the morning that Lu Zizheng barely fell asleep.

At dawn the next morning, Lu Zizheng woke up with a start.Her first reaction was to look up at Jiang Huaixi's sleeping face. Seeing that the pillows and quilts were neat and empty, she was stunned for a while before remembering the fact that Jiang Huaixi was not at home, and couldn't help laughing.She actually maintained the usual posture of being hugged by Jiang Huaixi, and slept all night without moving. Jiang Huaixi seemed to help her develop an incredible habit.

However, Lu Zizheng waited and waited all morning, but Jiang Huaixi was not found.Obviously, Jiang's father, Jiang's mother, and the others didn't seem to know what Jiang Huaixi was up to. Knowing that Jiang Huaixi hadn't returned last night, they asked Lu Zizheng in surprise, "Did Huaixi say what she was going to do?"

Lu Zizheng shook his head, expressing ignorance.

Near noon, Jiang's mother saw that Jiang Huaixi still hadn't come back. Seeing that Lu Zizheng was absent-minded and wanted to make a phone call but forbearance, she called and asked Jiang Huaixi what he was up to and when he would be back.

On the other end of the phone, Jiang Huaixi's voice was a little hoarse, he hesitated for a moment, and said to Jiang's mother, "I didn't sleep well last night, and it seems that I have a serious cold. I just went to the hospital to see it. The director prescribed some medicine, saying that the flu has been a little bit late. Too many, let me pay more attention. I am worried that the house will be busy in two days, and it will be bad for you to infect you, so I won’t go back for the next two days.”

While listening to the phone, Jiang's mother glanced at Lu Zizheng who was listening to their conversation carefully, frowned and said, "I know I'm in poor health, so I don't pay attention. Don't think we are as fragile as you , are you going to make us worry to death if you don’t come back? Don’t worry about us, don’t you worry about Zizheng?”

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and Jiang's mother finally heard Jiang Huaixi give in: "Then I've taken the medicine, now I'm going to sleep, and I'll go back in the evening."

Jiang's mother was satisfied and said, "Well, I'll wait for you to come back for dinner."

After hanging up the phone, Jiang's mother smiled gently at Lu Zizheng, and told Lu Zizheng, "I called Huaixi, and she told you not to worry, she has a cold, she has to go to the hospital for a checkup, and she will be in the hospital in the evening." Come back, I'm fine." Jiang's mother felt sorry for Jiang Huaixi, afraid that she would be tired, and couldn't bear to let her rush back without taking a nap, but she also felt sorry for Lu Zizheng's nervousness, and was afraid that Lu Zizheng would be unhappy if she heard that she was fine and didn't come back. So I took the middle and reconciled it.

When Lu Zizheng heard the words, there was obviously some worry in his expression. Seeing this, Jiang's mother comforted her with a gentle voice: "It's okay, it's just a small cold, and it will be fine in a few days."

Lu Zizheng reluctantly nodded, but he was still a little worried.In the past six months, Jiang Huaixi has caught too many colds. She still didn't do well enough to take good care of Jiang Huaixi.What can we do to make Jiang Huaixi's body stronger and his immunity better?

In the evening, just before the meal time, Jiang Huaixi finally came back.She wore a big medical mask, which tightly covered the lower half of her face, and there was an unconcealable tiredness between the exposed eyebrows and eyes.Lu Zizheng looked worried and distressed, so he hurriedly went up to greet him and greet him.

Jiang Huaixi distanced himself from Lu Zizheng indiscriminately, with a soft smile on his brows, and comforted Lu Zizheng, "The doctor said it's nothing, it's just a common flu. Huaichuan and Qiao Xin are getting engaged the day after tomorrow." , I am worried about infecting everyone, so I am armed like this. Don't worry."

Lu Zizheng's worried expression relaxed a little, and then he suggested distressedly: "It's too boring to wear a mask, so we should take it off when we go back to the room and there are only two of us."

Jiang Huaixi shook his head and said, "What should I do if the infection is passed on to you?"

Lu Zizheng said solemnly, "I'm not afraid."

Jiang Huaixi's eyes darkened, and after a while, he smiled helplessly: "But I'm afraid."

Lu Zizheng frowned and begged, "Huaixi..."

Jiang Huaixi blinked and said with a smile: "It's really boring to wear a mask, so I'll go to the next room to sleep at night, so that I can take off the mask."

Jiang's mother frowned and said dissatisfiedly: "It's okay, just pick it off, you feel uncomfortable like this, and we also feel uncomfortable watching it."

Jiang Huaichuan also nodded in agreement.

Jiang Huaixi insisted on refusing to take it off, Lu Zizheng saw her seriousness, sighed, and didn't want to embarrass her, so he agreed: "En, that's fine."

Jiang Huaixi's brows relaxed slightly, and he felt relieved.

When eating, Jiang Huaixi took off his mask. Compared to the usual slow pace, today he was unusually fast. He only ate some plain rice and drank a bowl of soup, then stopped his chopsticks to show he was full, and put on the mask again.

Fortunately, there are common chopsticks for meals at home. After washing the dishes, they will be put into the disinfection cabinet for disinfection, which makes Jiang Huaixi breathe a sigh of relief.

After dinner, the dining table was handed over to Auntie to clean up. Jiang's father and Jiang Huaichuan went into their respective study rooms to get busy. Jiang's mother helped Jiang's grandma to watch TV in the living room. Jiang Huaixi said that he was a little tired, so he took Lu Zizheng upstairs and went back to the room to rest. .

After going upstairs, Jiang Huaixi accompanied Lu Zizheng back to their room.Without outsiders, Lu Zizheng reached out and touched Jiang Huaixi's forehead brazenly, to confirm her temperature, and continued to lower his hand, trying to untie the mask that would make Jiang Huaixi feel uncomfortable.

Jiang Huaixi quickly reached out to stop her movement, and said with a smile, "Want to play a sneak attack?"

Lu Zizheng said helplessly, "Huaixi..."

Jiang Huaixi shook his head stubbornly, indicating that it was not possible, Lu Zizheng sighed and had to compromise.

Jiang Huaixi was sitting on the sofa on the window sill, reached out and flipped through the book that Lu Zizheng had placed casually on the coffee table, looked at Lu Zizheng who was also sitting on the opposite sofa, rubbed the pages of the book gently with his index finger and thumb, and suggested: "Zizheng Zheng, after chatting with you before, I contacted the teacher at X University that you have always wanted to go to, and after Huai Chuan and Qiao Xin get engaged, let's go back to school to review and get admitted for next year's graduate student, shall we?"

Lu Zizheng was slightly taken aback, but when he realized it, he was both surprised and delighted, half-believing and half-doubting: "I thought it might take a while to realize this, Huaixi, can uncles and aunts and the company do it? "

Jiang Huaixi stretched his brows and eyes with gentle eyes, and said with a smile, "Just tell me, do you want it, okay?"

Lu Zizheng hesitated for a moment, but followed his heart's choice, nodded, and said, "I think, let's go together."

When Jiang Huaixi heard the word "go together", his heart felt like being pricked by a needle, and the pain slowly spread out.She pretended to be nonchalant, tapped the glass of the coffee table lightly with her index finger, and continued: "However, I was not in good health before, and I haven't gone for a checkup for a long time. I don't know if there will be any problems with the checkup. So I think Before I go, I will go to the hospital for a physical examination, just to check to see if there is any place that is in sub-health, and I can slowly improve it while I have time, can you go with me?"

Lu Zizheng has never been worried about his body, so he doesn't know what he needs to check for the postgraduate entrance examination, whether it is strict or not, and what diseases will affect his admission. He just heard what Jiang Huaixi said, and he thinks it makes sense. When Jiang Huaixi needed to improve his body, he nodded and agreed, "Okay."

Jiang Huaixi pondered for a moment, and said: "Speaking of which, you probably haven't had a physical examination for a long time. Since you went together, let's have a physical examination together."

Naturally, Lu Zizheng had no objection and nodded.

Jiang Huaixi calmly breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, took a breath, and said persistently: "Then, how about we go tomorrow, so that the medical report will come out in a few days, and if there is nothing serious, we can set off as soon as possible."

Lu Zizheng was slightly surprised, obviously he didn't expect Jiang Huaixi to be so anxious.But after thinking about it for a while, she also felt that it was reasonable. She didn't have any reason to object, did she?So, she smiled and nodded in agreement.

Lu Zizheng propped his elbows on the coffee table, resting his chin on the other hand, looked at Jiang Huaixi, as if thinking of something, smiled a bit partingly and cunningly, and said to Jiang Huaixi: "Huaixi, I think you've got your wish, finally , I seem to be taken care of by you." Apparently, Lu Zizheng remembered their first formal meeting back then.

Jiang Huaixi had a heavy heart. Seeing Lu Zizheng's carefree smile, his eyes dimmed, but he forced a smile and denied with a light smile: "Aren't you wronging someone? I gave you a name." .”

Lu Zizheng couldn't help but chuckled, and echoed with a smile: "Yes, yes, I was wrong."

She looked at Lu Zizheng's smiling face, and asked herself in her heart:

Meeting Lu Zizheng was the luckiest thing in her life.And was it luck or misfortune for Lu Zizheng to meet her?

After all, she was still wrong, right?