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Lu Zizheng arrived at the hospital around two o'clock in the morning.She was only wearing a thin sweater, her hair was messy, her face was pale, and her eyes were bloodshot.Standing in front of the glass window of the intensive care unit, Lu Zizheng stared at Mother Lu on the hospital bed, and asked Jiang Huaixi with an imperceptibly trembling voice, "What did the doctor say?"

Standing behind Lu Zizheng, Jiang Huaixi looked at her biting her lip and pretending to be strong, hesitantly couldn't bear to tell her, and just prevaricated: "The doctor said that the detailed examination will be done after waking up."

Lu Zizheng turned around abruptly, staring at Jiang Huaixi closely, with sharp eyes and a cold tone: "Huaixi, tell me, don't lie to me..."

Jiang Huaixi was stunned, took a breath, and was silent for a while before confessing in a hoarse voice: "Gastric cancer is in the advanced stage, let us...be mentally prepared..."

Lu Zizheng trembled all over, couldn't stand still, swayed back a few steps, stretched out his hand to support the glass of the intensive care unit, tears overflowed from his eyes in an instant, and slid down.

Seeing Lu Zizheng like this, Jiang Huaixi's eyes also turned red.She sniffled, gently took off her coat and put it on Lu Zizheng's thin body, turned around, walked a few steps away, called and asked for some food to be delivered.Then, he returned to Lu Zizheng's side, stood behind her, and silently accompanied her.At this moment, all the comforts seemed so pale and powerless.

When the meal was delivered, Jiang Huaixi opened the lunch box, took the chopsticks and spoons and handed them to Lu Zizheng: "Eat a little bit."

Lu Zizheng didn't reach out to take it, but shook his head to express his lack of appetite.

Jiang Huaixi put down his chopsticks, took a spoon, scooped up a spoonful of rice and handed it to Lu Zizheng's mouth.

Lu Zizheng turned his head to look at Jiang Huaixi, his gaze was heavy, Jiang Huaixi couldn't tell what it meant.

After a long time, Lu Zizheng finally opened his mouth to eat.

So, Jiang Huaixi immediately took another mouthful of soup and handed it over.

Lu Zizheng opened his mouth to drink, then reached out to take the spoon and rice, lowered his head, ate a few mouthfuls hastily, and pushed it back to Jiang Huaixi.

Jiang Huaixi couldn't force her anymore, so he just put down the meal, took a spoon by himself, and took a few sips of soup hastily.

They stayed together until dawn. Jiang Huaixi asked someone to buy daily necessities, brought clean clothes and breakfast, and took Lu Zizheng to the ward next door where she often used to freshen up.Lu Zizheng didn't want to leave at first, Jiang Huaixi said calmly: "You don't want Auntie to worry about you when she sees you looking so haggard?"

Lu Zizheng had no choice but to leave.

Mother Lu woke up in the morning and turned off the ventilator. Lu Zizheng and Jiang Huaixi followed the doctor's instructions and went in to see her one by one.

Lu Zizheng entered the ward, unexpectedly in front of Lu's mother, she didn't shed a single tear, but comforted her with a smile and said: "Mom, don't worry, the doctor said you're fine, you'll be fine in a few days. "

Lu's mother didn't know about her body, she already knew that such a day would come, but at this moment, she felt even more distressed by Lu Zizheng's forced smile.She looked at Lu Zizheng distressedly, forced a smile, and said, "Well, mom isn't worried at all. If you're fine, mom won't be afraid of anything."

Lu Zizheng didn't stay in there for long, and then covered her face and went out. She was afraid that if she stayed in the ward for another second, she would shed tears in front of Mother Lu.

Jiang Huaixi's voice was already hoarse due to days of illness and sleepless nights.As soon as she entered, she apologized in a low voice: "Auntie, I'm sorry." I'm sorry I didn't find out earlier, I'm sorry I was too careless, I'm sorry I'm so stupid...

Mother Lu shook her head lovingly, and said, "Good boy, what's wrong with you, it's Auntie who is sorry for you, and made you worry together..."

Jiang Huaixi's eyes were red, and it seemed that thousands of words were stuck in his throat. In the end, he only made a firm promise in a low voice: "Auntie, don't worry about Zizheng, I'm here..."

Mother Lu smiled gratifiedly: "With your words, Auntie will feel relieved."

The next day, at Mother Lu's insistence, Mother Lu left the intensive care unit and was transferred to a double general ward specially arranged for her by Jiang Huaixi, with one bed for Mother Lu and one bed for Lu Zizheng to rest.

With Lu's mother's concealment of Lu Zizheng's medical records submitted earlier and the hospital's follow-up examination, the hospital has confirmed that Lu's mother has advanced gastric cancer, and time is running out.

When Lu Zizheng heard the news from the director in the director's office, he straightened his body, calmly said "thank you" to the director, and walked out expressionlessly.Jiang Huaixi was worried, and quickly chased after her, but Lu Zizheng turned around and flatly refused: "Huaixi, don't tell my mother, I want to be alone."

It was getting dark that evening, Lu Zizheng brought dinner and came back with normal expression, but his red and swollen eyes betrayed her mercilessly.After entering the ward, Lu Zizheng set a small table for Lu's mother with a smile and said calmly, "Mom, let's see what delicious food I brought you..."

Sitting on the bed beside her, Jiang Huaixi looked at Lu Zizheng's red and swollen eyes, which had obviously cried, and dimmed them.

The other bed in the ward was useless, and when Lu Zizheng barely climbed into bed to rest, Lu's mother and Jiang Huaixi were worried that Lu Zizheng would collapse, and sometimes they had to sternly scold her to take a rest.

But Lu Zizheng's sleep quality was poor, but now it's getting worse.She was obviously very sleepy, and she could almost fall asleep when she climbed onto the bed, but after a while, she would wake up with a start, and she had to take a look to make sure that Mother Lu was still lying on the bed in order to feel at ease.

In just a week, Lu Zizheng was skinny.

On Tuesday afternoon, both Lu Zizheng and Jiang Huaixi were chatting with Lu's mother in the ward, when Lu Zizheng's cell phone rang suddenly.Lu Zizheng glanced at the caller ID, it was Ji Yao, she hesitated and didn't want to answer the call.

Mother Lu urged, "Zizheng, why don't you answer the phone?"

Lu Zizheng hesitated again and again, but still picked it up.

On the other end of the phone, Ji Yao said, "Lu Zizheng, I'll wait for you at the coffee shop opposite your translation agency at four o'clock."

Lu Zizheng was puzzled, and asked in confusion: "Is there anything I can't say on the phone?"

But Ji Yao played tricks and insisted: "You will know when you come, I will always be there waiting for you." After finishing speaking, she hung up the phone.

Looking at the hung up call, Lu Zizheng frowned, not knowing why.

Mother Lu smiled weakly, and said, "Zizheng, you can go if you need anything. Mom still has Huaixi here, so don't worry."

Lu Zizheng looked at Jiang Huaixi worriedly, and Jiang Huaixi nodded towards her, signaling to reassure her.Lu Zizheng hesitated for a while, and finally stood up, put on his coat and decided to go to the appointment.

After Lu Zizheng left, only Mother Lu and Jiang Huaixi were left in the ward.Jiang Huaixi peeled a piece of fruit for Lu's mother, and the peels were thinly connected together, very beautiful.Lu's mother couldn't help but praised: "I really dare not think that a few years ago, you were still a young lady who knew nothing without touching Yang Chunshui."

Jiang Huaixi smiled embarrassedly.

Lu's mother suddenly said with emotion: "Huaixi, for Zizheng, I have worked hard for you."

Jiang Huaixi was taken aback, looking at Lu's mother, who didn't know how to interface for a while.

Mother Lu looked at her straight, her eyes were wise and sharp: "Huaixi, tell Auntie, what are you afraid of?"

Jiang Huaixi's smile froze, and gradually disappeared from her lips. Under Lu's mother's gaze, all her hesitation seemed to be invisible.

She also asked herself, Jiang Huaixi, what are you afraid of?

She recalled that year when she recovered from a serious illness and went back to school on vacation, she caught up with the farewell party organized by the radio station for her senior year, but Huang Ze and Qi Yu, who were recognized by the radio station as golden boys and jade girls, tacitly did not attend.At that time, after the banquet was over, she accompanied Lu Zizheng on the long avenue beside the campus lake. Zheng, I have longed for countless times and want to go to the end of time with her like this.Lu Zizheng walked down the main road slowly and onto the wooden path by the lake. She looked at the lake from a distance, and asked her softly, "Huaixi, tell me, why do people always make promises to others?" Some promises that cannot be kept? If Huang Ze and Qi Yu had never started, wouldn’t they be so strangers now? Did they never get the short-term joy of love, and would not have the long-term regret after separation And pain? If it can’t last forever, why have that once owned.”

At that time, it was as if she had been hit heavily with a sap on the head, and her heart gradually felt cold.She raised her eyebrows, stood behind Lu Zizheng, stared at her for a long time, and finally replied Shen Shen: "Maybe."

Jiang Huaixi has been going in and out of hospitals and emergency rooms since she could remember. She has long been used to calmly handling various medical equipment and groping and checking her body, and she has never been afraid of crying because of it.She had narrowly escaped death on the operating table several times, which made her know that there are too many things in life that she can't care about, force, or envy. The only thing she can do is to face it calmly and be fearless.The Buddha said that there are eight sufferings in life, birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment and hatred, parting from love, not being able to ask for it, and not being able to let go. She thought she had already transcended it, but Lu Zizheng appeared in her life and gave her a taste of it. All the tastes in it.

How dare she promise Lu Zizheng a promise that cannot be guaranteed.She was not afraid that she would be sad, but that Lu Zizheng would be disappointed and sad again.

Jiang Huaixi didn't know how to answer Lu's mother's question, and felt all kinds of feelings in his heart. Finally, he just said in a low voice: "Auntie, I'm sorry, I'm not brave enough..."

Mother Lu sighed, stretched out her hand and patted Jiang Huaixi's shoulder lightly, and said kindly: "Silly boy, Auntie knows that you must have something to hide. You just need to know that if Auntie can hand over the kite to you, you will be fine." You can leave in peace."

Jiang Huaixi looked at Mother Lu, her eyes gradually filled with mist...

In the coffee shop, Ji Yao sat across from Lu Zizheng, looked at Lu Zizheng coldly and said, "Lu Zizheng, I'm afraid I will disappoint you again."

Lu Zizheng didn't have the time and energy to listen to her sarcasm, so he said flatly: "I'm in a hurry, so please make a long story short."

Ji Yao chuckled, took out a check, pushed it to Lu Zizheng, and said arrogantly: "Lian Xuan asked me to say sorry to you, she still can't keep the promise I made to you. She hopes You can stay out of her sight and don't bother her anymore. You can fill in the check."

For a moment, Lu Zizheng turned cold.She bit her lip, and finally smiled angrily, slapped the table, slapped the check on Ji Yao's desk, and said with a sneer, "Ask her for me, how much does she think her feelings for me are worth? Tell Lian Xuan, in my eyes, she is already worthless!" Isn't Lian Xuan humiliating her enough? !Even though she never took her later promise into her heart, she still believed that her circumstances were justifiable and she had no choice but to gradually soften her heart.But in the end, what did Lian Xuan repay her?

After finishing speaking, regardless of Ji Yao's astonishment, Lu Zizheng took a wad of money from his wallet and threw it in front of Ji Yao's eyes as money for coffee, then walked out without looking back.

On the way to leave, Lu Zizheng still couldn't help but shed a tear, but she wiped it away immediately, scolding herself, it's not worth it at all for such a person who teases her in every possible way.

But she still feels sad, why are everyone's promises so light? Could it be that the so-called promises are really just made by liars for fools?She hates liars, but she hates herself. She is always a fool...

She had just taken a taxi back to the hospital when she received a call from Jiang Huaixi. Jiang Huaixi's voice was flustered and at a loss: "Zizheng, come back quickly. Auntie is in the emergency room again."

At that moment, Lu Zizheng felt his ears buzzing with Jiang Huaixi's quiet voice, and the phone slipped from his ear onto the car seat.

When he arrived at the hospital and got out of the car, Lu Zizheng ran to the emergency room as fast as he could, and when he was running far away to Jiang Huaixi, he heard the doctor come out and say to Jiang Huaixi, "Let the family members prepare..."

In the next second, Lu Zizheng lost all his strength and fell to the cold floor of the hospital.

Jiang Huaixi heard the loud noise, saw Lu Zizheng lying on the ground with one side, and ran over quickly to reach out to pull it, but Lu Zizheng didn't know where the strength came from, and suddenly pushed Jiang Huaixi to the ground. Staggered, slumped to the ground.

The pain and grievance that Lu Zizheng had been holding back since Lu's mother was hospitalized, finally broke out at this moment.She was out of breath from crying, and hoarsely roared at Jiang Huaixi: "Go away, you go away, aren't you all lying to me? You all leave me, don't you want me? Go away, don't worry I……"

Jiang Huaixi pursed her lips, red eyes, sat up silently with one hand, without looking at the scratched back of her hand, endured the pain, limped to Lu Zizheng, squatted down, and opened her mouth in distress. He folded his arms and hugged Lu Zizheng into his arms.Her voice was equally hoarse, but extremely gentle: "Zizheng, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'm..."

Lu Zizheng struggled to get out of Jiang Huaixi's embrace, and cried and complained: "Don't you want me too? Didn't you say that you can only be good friends? Why do you still want to be so nice to me? Anyway, you don't want me in the end anyway." mine……"

But Jiang Huaixi hugged her tightly, unwilling to let go, Lu Zizheng felt that there was a cold liquid flowing down his neck...

Gradually, Lu Zizheng stopped struggling and calmed down, and leaned weakly into Jiang Huaixi's arms, letting Jiang Huaixi hug him tightly...